I wanted to turn around I wanted to run into his arms and take away his pain. But I didn't I kept walking.

Love Is A Sin

Rosalie tried to make several attempts to get me to talk to her but I didn't I shut her out. I knew if I didn't I would collapse into a dark hole that I wouldn't be able to climb out of. I focused more on getting my GED I figured it would do me some good. It had been weeks since I walked out on Carlisle and my heart still aches from doing it. I took all the time thinking trying to come up with my next move.

"Bella can I talk to you for a minute?" Eric was at my door. I looked up and nodded. He came and sat on the bed he seemed a little nervous.

"What's on your mind?" he took a deep breathe before he spoke again.

"I well I was just wondering what your plans are for the future I mean do you plan on staying here or going to college" why was he asking me this now.

"I don't know yet" his gaze moved from me to the floor.

"I got offer a job in Seattle and well I didn't want to leave without knowing your plans or whether you wanted me to stay here with you or if you maybe wanted to come with me" so many options and I didn't know what option I wanted.

"I need to think things through" he nodded understanding.

I watched him leave my room. As soon as I knew he was gone I laid down thinking of all my options. Which one was going to fit my needs? School was not for me I already knew that but where was home. Was home here in La Push, with the Cullen's, or in Seattle with Eric? My mind was a jumble mess that needed to be cleared out soon. I let exhaustion take over.

I woke the next morning with a clear idea of what I wanted to do but there were a few things I had to do. I got up and got ready. My first thing was to talk to Eric.

"Eric I came up with my decision" he looked at me so I told him what I decided. He nodded his head in acknowledgement. I was out the door and off to my destination.

When I arrived I could feel my nerves getting the best of me. Before all courage left I forced myself up to the door and rang the bell. He was there in front of me before my finger left the button. He moved so I could enter the house. I took a look at the place it really has been a while.

"Bella" his beautiful voice broke my thoughts.

"Carlisle we must talk" he motioned for us to sit. I followed his lead.

"Bella I just I wanted to say how truly sorry I am I didn't mean for those words to come out of my mouth. I did love Esme at one point in my life but Bella I love you know I want us to be together forever please Bella I love you so much" I could feel the tears streaming down my face.

"Carlisle I love you too I always will love. I remember the first time I saw you I knew then and there that I would grow to love you. What happened back then when you said what you said it just highlighted some of the things I already knew. Carlisle we jumped into this a little to fast and well I don't think we both were ready for the next step in our relationship. Don't get me wrong I love you but I don't think right now with the timing we are meant to be. Maybe in the future we can try again but for now I think it is better that we are apart" I looked at Carlisle and he looked as broken as I felt. I stood and walked over to him. I bent my lips to his and kissed him. It was a goodbye forever kiss it was a goodbye for now until we meet again kiss.

I drove back to Eric's crying for the lost I felt and for the pain I knew I caused. When I arrived Eric was waiting outside. I got out the truck and ran into his arms. Once there I collapsed crying.

"Everything will work out in the end Bella" I looked up at him and smiled a little.

"Love really is a sin"

Well there it is the final chapter....I know I know they didnt get back together in the end....I want them to separate and try to fix what happened slowly not them get back together and all be fine again....Trust me it breaks my heart as much as all of yours that they didnt get back together in the end....As far as a sequel goes well that is all up to you all....If you would like one I will gladly start writing one.....

I would like to thank you all my lovely trusty readers for sticking with me and enjoying this ride with me....I am sad to see it go but I hope this isnt the last of our journey together.....I hope to have many more stories for you all to enjoy in the future....Of course another Carlisle/Bella one will be in the future bc I really do love these two as a couple....Thank you all for your lovely comments reading them always brought a smile to my face....So as this is the final chapter I must bid farewell for now....Until our next journey be safe and review....