A/N: Hello my lovely readers. I feel kinda shameful that I'm back again after the absence. But anyway, belated Merry Christmas to all, and this new chapter I present this as my New Year's gift to all. Yeah, let's all happily welcome the year 2011! Haha.

Thanks to my avid readers for supporting KAORU'S NOTES till this very moment! I am happy to read enormous reviews. Hmn, I assume that there are 30 chapters more or less. There are less Hikaru's appearance and rule in this chapter but, just look forward to the next chappy and you'll find more. But first, enjoy this long chapter. Ohoho.

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Kaoru's Notes

Chapter 21

"Oya? I have good news and bad news…" Everyone turned to look at the speaker, "Well, the doctor here does." He added.

Tamaki stood right in front of everyone with his unfathomable countenance, Hikaru's doctor then came to follow.

Kyoya heaved a sigh, his thoughts were loaded with tad of disappointment thinking that it was such a wrong timing for the doctor to reveal something 'whatever' it may be. And to think that he had just convinced Kaoru to go home and get rest.

Although, Kyoya has to admit, he is more than excited to know what this news were all about. What more for Kaoru then? He thought. It was an obvious question answerable by a distinct answer.

Upon hearing Tamaki saying it, Kaoru had then worriedly swift his way to face the doctor, who was on the contrary, sweating unknowingly.

"What is it, doctor? A p—progress? Please tell me the good one!" Kaoru asked in a shaking voice, more likely he's anxious and at the same time excited, to know what the doctor has to say. But then, he went to grasp his right arm tightly, and added in a low tone, "No, I mean. The bad news first, I wanted to know."

"Kao-chan…" Honey uttered, noticing the current sickening emotions Kaoru has to endure.

The doctor pushed up his glasses before he deepened his sigh, glancing at once at Tamaki who had just nodded at him, then he looked straight at Hikaru's younger twin.

"I know that everyone here, especially the patient's relative, is having a hard time concerning on Hikaru's condition. But let's all stay calm despite of everything, going wild or depress will not help anything at all."

Kaoru tightened his grip even more, this time, he seemed annoyed.

"Go straight to the point, Mr. Habaki." Tamaki urged.

The doctor cleared his throat then continued, "It is true that it's up to the patient's awakening before we could derive a final conclusion, since we mustn't do anything unnecessary that might worsen his state. But, as a doctor, I couldn't help but think of a more efficient way."

Mr. Habaki sighed before he proceeded, he looked more serious as he directed his eyes at Kaoru, "And last night, I've examined the result of the patient's x-rays and, to my dismay, I found out that the patient has blood that clogged a small part inside his brain refraining his nerves to transmit sensory functions, thus, affecting his senses that leads him to this state of unconsciousness."

Kaoru felt like someone stabbed his heart at that moment. He didn't know that blood has clogged Hikaru's brain; this case must have real bad consequences, doesn't it?

Everyone, including Kyoya, was in awe.

"Because of this your twin needs an urgent surgery." The doctor looked at Kaoru in a serious face.

"Urgent surgery?" Honey and Haruhi exclaimed in shock.

Kaoru palmed his face, and it seemed like he was trying to hold back his tears. His voice was rough as he said, "Please…do it doctor."

"I'm afraid it's not as easy as you think. I couldn't do it with just my skills,"

Kaoru stiffened. Then…

"What do you mean by that?" he yelled, now shaking the doctor's shoulders.

"You're a doctor but couldn't even trust your skills?" He fumed as he turned to Kyoya, "Kyoya, this doctor is useless after all! Don't you have anyone in your hospitals that is more reliable?"

Kyoya grabbed his hand, "Just calm down, Kaoru. He's not done yet."

"I'm asking you to replace this doctor!" Kaoru exclaimed as he slapped Kyoya's hands away. Haruhi who was listening at the corner flinched at his shout. He seemed to lose himself at the moment.

"Kaoru!" Tamaki was the one to grab him this time, his eyes were sharp, "At this moment, don't you think it's more appropriate to just listen and relax whatever the doctor has to say? Unnecessary things won't do any good."

Kaoru narrowed his eyes, not caring even if it was Tamaki, "You think my feelings are unnecessary, Tamaki-senpai?"

"If you are acting like this then it is. If your raging emotions may hinder everything then it is indeed unnecessary. It cannot save Hikaru, for God's sake! Look around you, it's not just you who is worried about Hikaru here, even it was hard for Kyoya himself he keeps on supporting you yet you dare yell at him, ordering him around like he's someone your servant? You aren't the Kaoru I know." Tamaki blurted out.

Kaoru went silent. His shoulders were dropped down as he lowered his face in utter revelation, "I'm sorry."

"Just keep your temper down, Kaoru." Tamaki said.

Kyoya and the others were speechless, seconds passed and the doctor cleared his throat to speak.

"It's not my field to operate cases like this, and it's a good thing that I have a colleague from America who is willing to help us. We couldn't find doctors in the country to help with the operation at the moment, since casualties are unbelievably rising. Mr. Smith, a brain specialist doctor who happens to be arriving in Japan tomorrow will handle Mr. Hitachiin's brain surgery."

Haruhi's face lightened up and Kaoru just nodded.

"Is that all?" Kyoya was the one who asked.

"The thing is, we need Mr. Kaoru's final decision for this. The operation is urgent, and if we do this we can be certain to save Mr. Hikaru's life but the surgery will have consequences to the patient. It will affect the patient's sensory nerves, specifically, his eyes. So he'll eventually lose his sight."

Kyoya didn't avert his eyes from Kaoru when the doctor spoke, and after hearing about the bad news that will blind Hikaru he was confused when Kaoru didn't react nor move from where he was standing. The younger twin did just remain hopeless and his head was down. His breathing was uneven.

"Oh my God, oh my poor Hikaru…" Haruhi started crying on the bed.

"Mr. Hitachiin will lose his sight but in exchange of that he'll be saved. So now, if the relatives won't allow the operation because of this, then we can't guarantee another option. It's the best way to save the patient from dying."

"Oh…God." It was the only phrase that came through Kaoru's throat before he suddenly collapsed onto the white cemented floor.

"KAORU!" Kyoya screamed in surprise as he went to the limped body of Kaoru.

"He did it again." Honey embraced his bunny.

"He…he fainted unable to overcome the tough feelings, oh poor Kaoru..." Haruhi said between sobs.

"I feel so sorry for Kaoru. It must be so hard for him to handle the situation. Kyoya, take him home. He cannot rest well here." Tamaki suggested.

"I'll check his pulse first." The doctor stated but Kyoya said in a determined voice.

"It's no need, Mr. Habaki. I've checked his pulses already. He just fainted, I'll manage the rest. For now, please do anything what you can to prepare Hikaru's operation." Kyoya uttered as he carried Kaoru on his arms. Tamaki went to open the door and Kyoya glanced back before exiting, "Please, Mr. Habaki, do what you think is best," then he turned to the rest of the room, "We'll excuse ourselves now, and don't worry about Kaoru."

"If anything happens here, we'll call you." Tamaki said and then the door shut.

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I am playing on the sand box all alone, one boring afternoon. My Mom went to our school's meeting and she left me at the playground. I look at my right, I look at my left, everyone is busy playing on the ground. I find no friend. They are all scared of me. Literally, not to me.

One meter away a big guy in black is watching over me, he has cool black shades and he goes wherever I go. Though he wears shades I can still feel the scary glare of his eyes. He does not part his sight from me. My classmates are scared of him. My teacher does not even dare talk to him since he isn't answering any.

He is my bodyguard with no name. My parents hired him when I was two years old, back then I was kidnapped by some one who was once a friend of my Dad. It's for my protection but he's the main reason why I can't get any friends at school. Because he always ruin the atmosphere. Even though he doesn't even talk. His presence is enough to scare the hell out of them.

He doesn't have a name but I call him Mr. Shades. Sometimes Mr. Black, or just Mister. He doesn't seem to care at all. I invited him to play with me twice, but he didn't answer me. But he talks to my Dad and Mom. He doesn't talk to me.

It is true I don't have a friend. I don't know how to make one. And I don't know the feeling of having one, all I know is that it's lonely and boring when I play alone. Yet, on that boring afternoon, a surprising chapter of my life has turned another page.

I am playing all alone on the sand box. When I heard a young voice behind me, I startled, "May I join you?"

I turn to look and am shock when a big revelation bestowed upon my eyes, a kid of about the same age as me is standing near to me. Near to me. But I wasn't just shock because of that, but to the horrific realization that the kid looks like me.

I looked carefully at him. His hair is white but is cut the same as mine, his eyes are cerise but darker than mine, and his bangs are gelled. It is like I am seeing myself in a mirror. But I frown as I realized that we don't exactly look alike, because he is more manly than I am. And his face is full of merry, he reeks the smell of cheerfulness, the kind of attitude I do not have.

"I'm Hikaru, what's your name?" He asked as he sat beside me on the sand box.

"Kaoru." I answered with a shaking voice. I lowered my face when I asked him, "Are you from the Hitachiin family?"

He laughed. "Hikaru Fujiwara is my full name, Kaoru. Don't worry, I can assure you that I'm not your long lost twin brother."

"It's not like that." I said, embarrassed as I filled the pail with sands.

"Oh, I thought you were thinking that I'm your relative since we look alike." He scratched his hair. "But really, would it be better if we're actually relative? In that case, you won't be playing alone like this." He added, helping me filling the pail with sands.

I look confusingly at him. "Are you new here?"

"No. I'm from the other class, 5-D. I just rarely go to school, that is. You may not have seen me often but I occasionally notice you, just like this. For a fifth grader such as yourself, it makes me wonder why you still enjoy sand boxes. Playing alone."

I glance at the tree where Mr. Shades is standing. He isn't crossing his arms now, meaning, Hikaru's presence is an alarming call to him. Readying himself at to whatever may happens. He has dark glasses but for some reasons I can feel his eyes going sharp.

Hikaru caught me in a worried face. "Worrying something?"

"Aren't you scared of me?" I answered his question with a question.

"By scared, do you mean to your bodyguard?" He points his mouth at Mr. Shades.

I didn't answer but my silence meant yes to him.

"I don't find a reason why would I be scared of him. Besides, I don't usually attend my classes, which is why I don't know rumors about him and you. I don't care anyway. I just wanted to become your friend, is all." He smiled at me and for the first time in my life I feel satisfied.

It doesn't feel right. I went to embrace my knees and said, "A year ago, things like this usually happens."

"Usually happens?"

I rested my chin over my bended knees, "One time, a boy came to me and asked if we can become friends and I was happy. He invited me to go somewhere and in that place he assaulted me. But before he could go further Mr. Shades came and saved me. I went to a psychological therapy and a month after I recovered a school bully poured water to me all because I didn't give my toy car. Mr. Shades who was always watching me from not afar rushed in and took the boy. He tied him on the tree with his head downward as a punishment. My classmates saw it, everyone saw it, and since then they started to feel scared of me. The teachers didn't say much about it since my parents cared of everything after that incident. Since then, I find it hard to mingle."

"Oh, that is no ordinary case. I think Mr. Shades is not scary at all, after hearing this, I see him now as a super hero. Don't you think?"

I stare at him dumbfounded. "I don't think so. He just does what my parents told him to. Nothing so superhero like."

"You seem to love being alone." He stared back at me in a soft gaze.

"It's boring in fact. But it's better than having someone who would betray you eventually." I answered with a stern voice.

Though after what I have said, he still poured a wide and reassuring smile, then, he offers his hand. "Let's be friends, Kaoru."

I didn't take his hand, I hesitated so much. I don't think it's real.

"I won't eat you or something. When you need someone to talk to, just call me." He said and when I didn't it he took the initiative, in a second we shake hands. It feels warm. It's been so long since I last shake hands with somebody; even my parents don't do this kind of stuff to me.

"It's weird." I said as he freed my hands.

"Which part? Shaking hands?" He looked so funny now.

My face goes slightly red when I said, "Talking to someone who nearly looks like me is weird, you're like a doppelganger. How can you like me as your friend?"

He pours a heartwarming smile, and it was that smile I won't be able to forget for the rest of my life.

"I'm not actually asking you to become my friend, coz you know what, we already are." Truly, I was surprised at his statement, I wasn't able to notice his face that's already so close to mine.

"Are you sure we're not distant relatives?"

"We can do blood test, if you want." He smirked.

"No…I mean…okay. I don't remember having one who is the same age as me, anyway."

His face becomes closer and closer to mine. "Among millions of people all over the world, there's a 0.5% possibility that a person has a look alike. We're the persons who are under that 0.5% possibility, Kaoru. Don't you think its fate that we meet and become friends to each other?"

I blush though I don't know the reason why. I averted my eyes from his enticing ones, and asked, "What are you saying? You can't just befriend someone you even rarely see."

"Well, just so you know…" He uttered softly, I could feel his breathes on my cheeks, and his eyes were locked to mine. I couldn't blink. "Will you believe if I say that I like you the first time I saw you?"

His phrase struck me so much. I feel my heart beat stopped for a brief moment. He then laughed seeing my baffled reaction. "As a friend, that is!" He exclaimed.

He was just joking, wasn't he? Of course he was. I feel relieved and the next thing I knew I was laughing too. We both laugh so hard that Mr. Shades who is standing not afar is utterly confused, probably.

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I heard soft movements from the bed, it is then I closed the book for I know he is awake. I turn my swivel chair to face him who is now softly rubbing his eyes, he looks so innocent and stress-free whenever he wakes up from sleep. How I wish he is like that all the time. Free from everything. Free from pain and problems.

I push up my glasses as I put the book above my study table, next to the lampshade. Then I said, "It's no doubt you're exhausted, you've been asleep the whole day. Heh, I thought you wouldn't wake up anymore."

"Kyoya?" He asks not because he is doubtful of my identity but because he wants a confirmation if he's dreaming or not. Yes, I know his behavior. I know him a lot. It might be that I know him more than his idiot twin does. Okay, Hikaru is not an idiot, I just don't like him in general. If there's an idiot in our group, that must be me, for I keep on loving a person who will not love me in return—even if it's the end of the next World War III.

"Are you thirsty? Hungry? I cooked a dinner." I asked. I saw him shaking his head. "Come on, Kaoru."

His eyes wander off my study table, narrowing them to clarify his vision at the thing above it. "It's my book. Don't tell me…gee, it's the 20th times that you read it already." I saw his eyes widen as he looked back at me. I just grinned.

I stood up as I took the book, "Among your published novels, and including those unpublished ones, this is the only novel which I love the most." I went to put the book on my bookshelf situated next to my study table. I managed to build a shelf inside my room so that it will be much easier to me when I happen to have the urge of reading a novel. Mind me, but that shelf of mine is full of Kaoru's novels.

"I just don't understand why you like it so much, when in fact I received so many critics and bad reviews from that novel." He said, and I happen to smile. He seemed to lost awareness of Hikaru at the moment, meaning, it's only between him and me at this brief moment without having the worries towards his twin brother. Good lords. A rare precious occurrence.

I sauntered towards the bed, where he looks at me in a straight face. But beyond his eyes he is confused and weary. I know how to read his concealed reactions. If you truly love a person you will know everything of him, even to the extent you know how many times he blinks his eyes when he is nervous. In my case, I do know.

But I won't tell how many times Kaoru blinks when he's feeling nervous or scared, since it is my only treasure. And I am selfish though not most of the time. If I am greedy, Kaoru would be mine.

Knowing everything doesn't mean all good. Because the more I know Kaoru, the more visible and painful the truth is presented to me. Just like when I stare on his eyes, I see nothing but real love. Two kinds of love. Me, as a friendship love. Hikaru, as his true and eternal love.

Understanding everything doesn't mean all bad. You gain special treatments and benefits which no other can have. But sometimes, you prefer to not know everything, it is better to not know everything about the person you love, because the more you know…the more you're hurt. And the more you become a hopeless idiot. In my case, I already did.

Yet I cannot return the way things were before. I cannot return the way I was before.

"Kyoya? Are you still here or something?" His voice snapped me out of my mind.

I composed my being and leaned closer to him on the bed, I narrowed my eyes as I look at his, "Are you sure you didn't forget something important? I admit it makes me glad that you weren't thinking of him at this moment, but I won't like it when you blame me later when I don't tell you things."

"Hikaru!" He exclaimed, no, he shouted. It was in a higher pitch it hurt my ears.

I know, very well, that he was so shocked and horrified at the news he had received earlier at the hospital. He was so horrified that he fainted, and when he woke up, he has a short memory loss of what has happened.

Because this person is dear to me I will keep on telling him in spite of the fact it's painful. Knowing everything and sharing it won't make me feel all good. It's entirely painful. But on the contrary, knowing everything and sharing it doesn't mean all bad.

"Thanks for bringing me back, Kyoya!" He grabs my arm and hugs me, warmly. I smelled the scent of his shampoo. It's mint. Peppermint. See? It will give you privileges that only you could have. Next to Hikaru, that is.

On the verge of my thoughts, I was, however, surprised to feel dampness on my chest. It was tears. "I…I…am shameful. How can I just forget about Hikaru?"

I went to embrace Kaoru in return, and I massaged his back. "You didn't forget him, you were just too occupied and stressed out."

One thing I hate about Hikaru in general, is that, he has the ability to make Kaoru blame his own self. Even way back to high school, when things go worst, Kaoru would blame no one but himself.

I knew this long ago:

Kaoru is pathetically in love with Hikaru. And Hikaru is abnormally in love with Kaoru.

But the combination of the two is ME.

I just couldn't understand why I allowed myself to sink in to the deepest pit, where in that pit thorns of roses were bound to hurt me. Perchance, kill me. Ah, I do not know everything after all. Coz this is the only thing I couldn't understand.

It is very hard when your enemy is yourself. You will not be able to win or lost. You are standing still at what's on the middle, and that is being in a state of equilateral. I cannot win him, yet I cannot lose him.

All I know to do is to act cool in front of the person I love. All what's left for me to do is to support Kaoru at all costs, since I have no right to predetermine Kaoru's heart.

I did ask him to become my lover and we decided to live together, and he is willing to try a new life without the concerns of Hikaru. I was happy then when he's became my partner, but that happiness was soon gone off when Hikaru engaged in a car accident. The first thought rushed in when Kaoru told me about the accident was, "At the end, we can't be lovers."

I felt fear, for I knew that this accident might lead to something I do not wish to happen. And I was right.

"I've prepared dinner, you need to stuff your stomach. Come." I said as I pulled him out of the bed. When he didn't move his feet, I was going to insist when he asks me, "What time is it?"

"Thirty minutes to nine." I answered as I glanced at my wristwatch. He pulled back his hand and looks around the room, "Where's my coat? I need to go back to the hospital, Kyoya."

I grimaced at him. That Hikaru again.

"I thought we're done with this, Kaoru." I said in a voice that sounded hoarse. It was so unfair that I always try to understand his situations, but he himself won't even care.

His eyes were pleading to me, "I have enough rest, thanks to you. But please, Hikaru needs me at this moment, Kyoya." He said then walked towards the door. But I grabbed him hard. He was shocked. His body is now close to me, and I went to his ear and whispered in jealousy, "How about me, Kaoru? If I say I need you so badly right now, will you even care?"

I want him as much as Hikaru does. I love him—why can't he just pretend that he loves me too?

"Wha—Kyoya?" He stuttered when I licked his earlobe, when I traveled my hands on his waist he jerked, "Wait, Kyoya!"

He pushed me but I was quick enough to restrain his hands. I felt hot when our bodies came into contact earlier, and I'm afraid I might lose control and totally explode.

I do accept that he can't love me the way he loves Hikaru, but, does he really need to run after Hikaru even when he has decided to live with me? Does he really need to always think of Hikaru when it is me standing at his side? Why can't he just abandon his pain and surrender his love to me?

I grab him and forcibly push him to bed, then I went to straddle him, grinding myself to his to let him feel the bulge in my pants. We both moan. Hearing his moan for the first time excites me even more. He should have noticed now how big I am.

"What's wrong with you today, Kyoya? Please, just let me go." He stared at me straight to the eyes, can't he see the lust? The love?

"Why? You are my lover after all, have you forgotten, Kaoru?" I said, I don't know where I get those words from. This is the first time I speak to Kaoru like this. I can feel the trembling of his body. I must have gone crazy.

He went silent. But shocked is painted all over his pretty face, when he didn't answer I grasped the sheet tightly on his side, and my other free hand grabbed his chin. I feel so pitiful. I am so hurt. I don't know where to burst this anger and madness mixed with pain. I can only blame myself.

"You should not think of him right now, he'll be okay. I just want to snatch a little of your time, Kaoru."

I leaned to kiss him on his lips, I was surprised when he didn't react nor push me up. I lavished his upper lip and when he lay still I slip my tongue inside his wet cavern, I feel hot below. The inside of his warm lips is wet and hot, my tongue slick with my own saliva went in to explore. We both feel hot yet he is suppressing his moans. I want to continue kissing him forever, I want to continue pinning him defenseless and do him right here, right now. But I stopped.

I would be much happier if he is kissing me back.

I would be enjoying this had there not been tears falling from his eyes.

I stared at his cerise orbs, it were clouded with innocent tears. They were there not because he dislikes my kiss, but they were there because I failed to understand him when he needs it the most.

"I thought when I explain my side you will understand, Kyoya." He started, his voice was soft and sad. "You are my lover, yes, how can I not know that when I already decided to surrender my love?"

I loosen my grip on his hand, I looked at him apologetically for my monstrous behavior. "Kaoru I—I'm…"

"I know how you are feeling. I'm sorry that I made you feel so miserable, Kyoya. But you know it yourself, Hikaru needs me right now. Was it my will to let this things happen? Please Kyoya, I just want you to understand that Hikaru's condition will not change anything. Just please, let me stay at my brother's side until I can be certain that he'll be completely okay."

I looked away and shifted to sit at the edge of the bed. I closed my eyes as I clenched my fists together, "You've read his diary. It is mutual."

The bed creaked a little when he seated behind me, he hugged me and I was waiting for his next words. I knew it. I am well prepared for this even from the start. Even when he decided to live with me, I knew this moment will eventually come. But why does it need to end so soon?

"No, Kyoya." I shut my eyes open then. I can feel his uneven breathes on my nape. "Even when our feelings are mutual we can't still be together. We're brothers. And, I already told you that I will live a new life with you. But I'm afraid we can't do that now, not when Hikaru's not opening his eyes. When things get better for him, the moment he opens his eyes after the surgery, I tell you, it is then I will abandon my connections with him."

"You can't do that. You said it yourself, Hikaru will go wild if he sees you nowhere. Not that he'll be able to see you again…" With that I went dramatically sad.

"I'm letting him go because I don't want him to get hurt anymore. If he loves me, he'll let me go too. Time will heal. All I want now is that, to see him alive and keep on going no matter what the consequences are. The love we feel to each other won't be accepted no matter where you look at it."

He sounded so serious when said those statements. A small part of it makes me happy, but the largest part partake the sadness and pain. I said, "Are you saying that our relationship is acceptable?"

"No." His answer was direct and straight. It's kind of….painful to absorb. "Such this can only happen in novels and fantasies. But if you are persistent enough, I might change mind and totally fall for you instead." I can see his smirk behind my head.

I stood up. Heaving a deep sigh I then turned to face him, and I offered my hand. "We've talk enough. Let's eat dinner before we go to Hikaru, alright, Kaoru?"

I saw his wide smile.

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"By the way, I've wanted to ask you this long before, I just don't get the right chance." Kyoya said as we entered the hospital's lobby.

I'm a bit preoccupied now about Hikaru, I didn't mean to hurt Kyoya's feelings though, but I am still in the verge of worrying about Hikaru's condition. Although, Kyoya gave me his full assurance that the operation will be successful and save Hikaru's life. I just couldn't help but get nervous. Yet I managed to get over with my emotions and calm myself. Thanks to Kyoya.

He was right when he said I just need to rest and eat meals properly.

But regarding with his question, it was a bit intriguing.

"About what?" I enquired as we passed the lobby.

He halted from his pace and I did the same. I looked at him, confused.

"I was thinking that the fifth novel you made is inspired by a true story." That statement made me raise a brow, then he added, "It was unfair that you used your own name, and Hikaru's, but then Mr. Shades' real name that was revealed at the end is too far off. You used Kairi Oto instead of Kyoya Otori, it is quite obvious that the black suited man is inspired by me."

I crossed my arms as I grinned at Kyoya, "Why is it so a big deal to you, hmn?"

He pushed up his glasses as he walked past by me. "I must say that of all your novels, 'Reaching You' is the only one who has a good twist and ending."

"Well, you're one of the few readers who like it without criticizing it. The rest? All begging me to re-do the story, in fact, I get emails every single day saying, 'Make a sequel! Onegai, Kokoro-sama!' It gives me headaches."

"They're reacting as if they don't like it, but I tell you, things like this usually happen. They actually love it, loving it to the extent they couldn't get over. I like it so much too, I even want to turn it into a film. Rated M, that is. But I just couldn't understand why you didn't use my real name, it would have been better."

"Gee, you forget something important inside the writer and business' world, Kyoya." I said as I followed him to the elevator. "Are you sure you're an editor?" He rolled his eyes.

"Every novel has it. This novel is purely fictional. All the characters in this book have no existence outside the author's imagination and have no relation whatsoever to anyone bearing the same name or names. All the incidents are pure invention." I said as we managed to get in inside the elevator. I recited it many times until Kyoya just gave me a defeated look.