"Mrs Grey, Dr Flynn will see you now."
Snapping out of her own little world hearing the receptionist's voice, Ana offered her a little smile before she then looked to Prescott and offered her a smile. "I'll be back soon."
Prescott looked to Ana and offered her a small smile. "Take your time Mrs Grey."
Ana smiled to her before she then headed into Flynn's office. She was so glad that Prescott was back. At first she didn't really like her but after everything she did for her she was warming to her. She literally saved her life. She was looking forward to the end of the month when Sawyer would also be returning to work.
"Mrs Grey, please take a seat." Flynn told her with a smile as he got up from his desk and made his way over to her. "Can I get you a glass of water?" He asked with a smile.
"A glass of water would be great. And how many times do I have to ask you to call me Ana?" She asked as she moved to sit down and smiled to him.
"I apologise." He smiled to her popping the glass in front of her and took a seat opposite her. "I'm sorry I haven't been able to see you sooner."
"You don't have to apologise, I understand you are very busy."
"But still. When Christian called me last week to say you'd like another session seeing as you were being discharged from the hospital I was hoping to get you in the following day but my schedule has been jam packed."
"Honestly Dr Flynn you don't have to explain to me. Yes I wanted to have a session with you but I was in no rush, it was whatever best fitted you. Besides it's given me the opportunity to this about what I want to talk about and given me the time to rest." She told him with a soft smile.
Flynn nodded before he looked to her. "So tell me, how are you?" He asked looking to her.
"Better." Ana admitted looking to him. "I'm starting to feel a lot more like myself."
"That's good. Is this because Hyde is in jail and Elizabeth is dead?" He asked looking to her.
"Partly. I mean I feel a lot more safe knowing they are out of the picture. Hyde confessed to what he did so I won't need stand up in court or go through with the trial. He'll just be sentenced so I don't need to worry about seeing him again."
Flynn smiled. "So you feel a lot more relaxed in general?"
Ana nodded. "I'm still not comfortable with people touching me. Apart from Christian but he knows where the limits are right now but I'm getting better."
"That is understandable Ana. You said in our last session of the reasons you didn't want people to touch you was because you couldn't really distinguish where the pain was coming from…how is the pain now?"
"Much better. Our last session gave me a lot to think about so I came up with an idea. When I left here I went to the drug store and I bought a cream for my burns. Then I made Christian apply it to my burns and I then explained to him how each of my burns happened."
"And how did that make you feel?"
"Like a great weight had been lifted. I mean it wasn't easy. We both cried and I had to convince not to go and murder Hyde but my burns are a million times better now that I was prescribed a gel from the hospital. The past week most have them have cleared up and healed. My ribs are still broken but they're healing and I can move around a lot easier and my bruises are nearly faded completely."
"Now the burns have healed how do you feel about being touched?"
"Still on edge…" She admitted with a sigh. "It's one of the reason's I'm here." She looked to him. "I want to be able to be intimate with Christian again but the burns on my thighs…they were so bad and they have scared a bit. They don't look pretty. They look so ugly."
"You fear Christian will think they're ugly?"
Ana nodded, her eyes locking onto her hands in her lap.
"Ana, I don't think I need to tell you that you thinking that…is a bit…well crazy. Christian has his own scars and they don't bother you do they?"
Ana frowned a little as she looked up to him. "No of course not. Half the time I forget they are even there."
"And it will be the same for you. Christian loves you for you. The scars on your body will not hinder his love for you." He explained with a smile to her. "Maybe start off slow. I know Christian has a habit of getting a bit carried away when it comes to sex…"
Ana's eyes widened and her cheeks went bright red. Christian had discussed their sex life?
Flynn smiled. "Just ask him to be gentle. I'm sure he would rather you tell him that rather than not tell him then end up frightened and end up pushing him away, not to mention if your ribs are still broken he still has to be gentle anyway…remember. Talk and communicate with one another. That is the key to your relationship."
Ana looked to him before she nodded a little and sighed. "I'm just scared I guess. We haven't had sex in such a long time. Me being kidnapped then when Hyde burnt the top of my thighs so bad…" She trailed off and sighed.
"Do you think Hyde burnt you badly on your thighs to prevent you and Christian being intimate?"
Ana gave a nod. "He was so mad. He asked me what did Christian have that he didn't. And me telling him that I love Christian made him snap. He knew that I would never choose him. Never want to be with him. So he did that knowing the pain would be unbearable and being touched would be a no go area."
"So what are you scared of exactly Ana? That Christian will hurt you during sex? Or you won't be able to perform?"
"Honestly? I have no idea what I'm scared of. I hate feeling like this but the last couple of days all I want to do is jump him…"
Flynn looked to her and smiled. "Let's talk about your pregnancy. How are you feeling in general?"
"A lot more relaxed knowing Christian is looking forward to becoming a dad. When I caught that infection last week…he was so scared. Not just for me but for the baby too. I don't know what would have happened if we had lost the baby."
"Well luckily that is something you won't have to experience. How far along are you?"
"Ten weeks so it's still early days. Christian is a little bit on edge and worries a bit too much about me but that is Christian full stop. He says he will feel a lot more relaxed once we have hit the twelve week mark."
"Which is totally understandable. The first three months are crucial for any pregnancy. I do hope and I will go through this with Christian when we've reached that mark…he will relax. He loves you and he loves this baby. He just doesn't want to lose either of you." He told her with a soft smile.
Ana smiled a little to him before she gave a slight nod.
"Talk and communicate Ana." Flynn told her with a soft smile.
"You're right." Ana smiled to him. "Thank you Dr Flynn."
"You're welcome. Though I would like us to talk about one more thing."
"What's that?"
"Your nightmares. How have they been?"
"Not as vivid." She told him. "Since coming out of hospital I don't really have any. I find it easier when Christian is in bed with me."
"A bit like the time he would have nightmares and he didn't have any when you were in bed with him."
Ana nodded. "Exactly like that. I mean at first they were always happening but back then I wouldn't let him hold me. When he holds me in bed…that's when it's easier. I feel safe when I'm in his arms. I did have one the other night because he was working late…but as soon as he heard me he came running in. I settled quickly."
Flynn nodded. "Can we talk about your nightmares?"
Ana gave a small nod. "They're much worse than what he did to me. When I first came home I would dream that he would try and take my baby. But I wouldn't allow him so he would burn me even more." She sighed. "But they did get worse for a while."
"How much worse?"
"I'd dream that Hyde would rape me. That he would attack the baby." She whispered blinking back tears. "That I wouldn't be able to keep the baby safe. That I'd fail as a mom."
Flynn looked to her. "Ana…nightmares are very common after going through something like you did and dreaming of what could have happened is very common. But you have to remember that it didn't. It's not something that is going to happen and both you and your baby are safe. That's the important thing to remember. Remember what happened has happened, we can't change the past but the nightmares are just that. They're not going to happen. All we can do is move forward." He told her with a smile. "Have you managed to talk to Christian about your nightmares?"
Ana shook her head. "If he knew I was having nightmares about Hyde raping me…I dread to think of what he would do…" She swallowed hard. "I don't think he'd take it well at all. I don't want him to do something that he will regret later on."
"Okay but I think you really should tell him. If they continue, he'll want and need answers."
"I know…but I think after everything that has happened…it's just too soon."
"Okay…but I do highly recommend that you do discuss this with him at a later date."
"I will I promise. But for now I just want is to try and get back to normal as soon as we can. Right now I just want some normality and I'm beginning to feel normal."
Flynn nodded to her. "Considering what has happened to you the last couple of weeks…normality is something you both need. Enjoy this precious time you have together now before your baby arrives. It'll be a new chapter in your lives and as a father myself…it is the most rewarding." He told her with a soft smile.
Ana smiled and nodded. "I'm looking forward to what the future holds for me and Christian."
"I think we are all looking forward to that." He smiled. "Is there anything else you would like to talk about Ana?"
Ana shook her head. "No, thank you for all your help Dr Flynn…you have no idea how much you have helped me."
"It's what I'm here for." He told her. "And remember I'm always here if you need to talk. About anything."
Ana nodded as she got up. "Thank you John. Really."
"You're welcome Ana. I'll see you soon."
Ana smiled to him before she left the room, looking over to Prescott she smiled. "Let's go. I need to stop at home first but then I'd like to go to Christian's office." She told her as she headed to leave the building. She knew what she had to do next and she was looking forward to executing her next plan. She was going to surprise her husband.
So in the next chapter i will be wrapping this story up. I am happy to say that there WILL be a sequel as so many of you wanted it! However it won't be up for a while as i have to do some diploma work but keep your eyes peeled and i'm hoping to get more stories up before the summer!
Thank you to everyone who has been supporting this story. You guys are awesome! Enjoy the chapter!
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K xx
