A/N Hello to those who've actually kept up with this story. I can apologize profusely and beg forgiveness, but I know that I did wrong by not updating sooner.
I am so sorry, but between life itself and a few surgeries I just lost all my oomph for writing. I had the worst case of writers block that I've ever had. I hope this messures up for the lack of updates in I don't even know how long.
This is mainly smut and some tears in between our boys, but I really hope I did it well. I left it hanging but have already started the next chapter. I only have weekends available to write so it may be a while, but I promise to try my hardest to update this.
Thank you all for all your support.
p/s this is unbetaed and in my rush to get it out I didn't really reread it. So any mistakes are my own, and I will look it over again and if I need to I will repost it.
pps: i reworked the format. hopefully this will be easier to read.
The Search – Chapter 20
Reunion part 2
Luke watched hungrily as Noah stood next to his bed staring down at his naked body and licking his lips. Luke felt as if Noah didn't move right now and do something he would come before he was even touched. His eyes raked down Noah's swimmers body and settled on his prominently engorged cock. He couldn't help but lick his lips as he stared at Noah's cock, smiling when he saw it twitch in reaction to his intense gaze.
Luke couldn't hold back his praise, "God Noah, you're so beautiful." Luke reluctantly moved his eyes away from Noah's cock and looked into his boyfriends eyes. He watched as Noah looked down and blushed.
Noah, could feel his face heat from the intense look Luke was giving his body, but when he heard the words Luke breathlessly whispered out, he could feel the blush creep all the way to his ears. It was hard for Noah to get past the voice in his head that sounded dangerously like his father, telling him that men aren't beautiful, and that he shouldn't be feeling happy to hear that coming from Luke's lips.
Noah pushed that voice out of his head and basked in the love that was emanating from his lover's eyes. He raised his head and looked straight into Luke's eyes, trying his best to show him all the love he was feeling for him.
Noah watched as Luke smiled seductively at him. He watched as Luke did the one thing that always went right to Noah's cock. Luke had this way of looking at Noah, it was so quick most people wouldn't even catch it, but one day Noah noticed it, and since that day, he always did his best to get Luke to do it again. Noah watched as Luke's eyes flicked from Noah's eyes to his lips then back to his eyes. It was as if Luke couldn't help but look at Noah's mouth.
Noah knew as soon as Luke's eyes did the 'eyes, lips, eyes' thing, as he liked to call it, it wouldn't be long before Noah found himself covered in Luke with his lips and mouth thoroughly plundered by Luke's beautiful mouth.
Luke lay on the bed looking up at his gorgeous boyfriend, wondering what was taking him so long. He could tell Noah wanted him, at least if his very hard and leaking cock was any indication. Luke watched his boyfriend's face waiting for him to move, but Luke was never a very patient person, "Noah, if you don't fuck me now, I'm going to start without you."
Noah smiled, he should know better than to make Luke wait. He raised an eyebrow and smirked at his boyfriend, "Oh really…well I guess I can just sit back and watch." At the look of total indignation on Luke's' face Noah couldn't help but laugh. That was until he watched Luke's hand travel slowly down his own body, first stopping to tweak his own nipples, emitting a deep moan while arching his back off the bed.
Noah swallowed hard as he watched Luke's hand travel further down his body, stopping right at his cock. Luke's fingers curled around his member, moving up to the tip and stroking it with his thumb, using the pre-cum as a lubricant as his fist stroked back down his shaft. Luke moaned again, and Noah is sure he's going to die if he didn't touch him.
Luke's eyes are closed as he strokes his cock slowly, so he doesn't notice when Noah had finally moved. That was until he felt Noah's hand on his, stopping his up and down motion. His eyes flew open and he found himself staring into his boyfriend's lust filled blue eyes. Though at the moment if he hadn't known Noah's eyes were blue he would have wondered. Noah's pupils had blown wide, only a small ring of blue was visible. Luke almost came just seeing the look in Noah's eyes.
The raw lust written all over his face made Luke even harder, if that was possible. Luke watched as Noah removed his hand off his cock and replaced it with his own, working his thumb into his cocks' slit, which by this time was oozing with pre-cum, and using it the same way Luke had, as a natural lubricant to help his progress up and down Luke's cock.
Luke threw his head back, arched his back off the bed, and bit down hard on his lip in effort not to cry out from all the pleasure Noah was giving him. But when he felt his boyfriends wet mouth around his cock, he almost came undone. Luke felt the tears coming down his cheeks before he even registered he was crying.
Noah looked up from his position between Luke's legs, hoping to find his boyfriend coming apart from pure rapture. What he didn't expect was to see tears streaming down Luke's face. He pulled off of Luke with a resounding pop, scared he might be doing something wrong.
Noah worked his way up Luke's body, his thumb wiping away the tears that were still falling. He looked into his boyfriends eyes, scared to ask, but wanting to know, "Luke, baby, did I hurt you? I know you're still recuperating. I can slow down if you need me to."
Luke couldn't stop the tears. He loved this man so much. He couldn't let him believe that he hadn't been enjoying what Noah had been doing, or that he had hurt him. Luke cupped Noah's face, stroking his thumb across his cheek, feeling the morning stubble growing in.
God how he loved it when Noah would rub his stubble cheek across Luke's just shaved one in the morning, it always made him horny and late for work. Luke was brought out of this thoughts when Noah said his name, his voice hitching, "Lu..ke?"
Luke smiled and raised himself up enough to kiss his lovers lips. What was going to be a chaste kiss, though, turned into something else when he realized he could taste himself on Noah's lips. Luke moaned, using his tongue to lick Noah's lips, then worked he worked it between Noah's lips and found his way into his mouth.
Luke loved how Noah tasted, but somehow tasting himself in his lovers mouth made it so much more personal. It was as if they had become one.
Noah took Luke coming undone under him as a statement that Luke wasn't hurting. Luke was always the most vocal of the two, but when in the throes of passion he always seemed at a loss for words. But Noah learned how to read Luke's body language, and this was definitely 'I want you to fuck me now,' sign.
Noah couldn't help but smile into his boyfriend's mouth as he felt Luke wrapping his legs around his waist and bucked his hips up trying to somehow get Noah's cock inside of him.
Noah had made a decision before he entered Luke's room, and he was not going to let his boyfriend's frenzied hip rolls distract him from what he should have done a long time ago.
Noah pulled away from Luke's mouth, earning a whimper from his boyfriend, who seemed to want to follow Noah's mouth as it moved away. He took a deep breath, trying hard not to come from just looking at Luke's lust blown eyes and kiss swollen lips. He pushed Luke back down onto the bed, watching as Luke's face contorted into one of confusion.
Luke was always so expressive in just his facial expressions alone, and Noah could see his boyfriends' confusion as to his actions. Before Luke could say anything though, Noah was placing his index finger onto his lips, stopping him from speaking.
Instead he looked into the eyes of the only man he will ever love and said, "Luke, you know how much I love you. It has taken something as horrible as this situation to make me realize how selfish I have been." Noah watched as Luke's eyes widened as he shook his head, "hush…I have been selfish, there's nothing you can say that will change that. But…I…I hope to make up for it some tonight."
Noah took a deep breath and began to move away from Luke. He sat up on the bed and grabbed the massage oil sitting on Luke's nightstand table. As Luke watched Noah straddled him, placing his legs on either side of Luke's body. Luke was speechless; he didn't dare move, afraid of frightening Noah.
Luke watched as Noah took the oil and poured it on his fingers, never once taking his eyes away from Luke's. It was as if they were locked into each other's eyes, afraid if they looked away for even a second this beautiful dream would evaporate.
Luke watched as Noah moved his oil covered hand behind himself. He watched in fascination as Noah slowly inserted one finger into himself, wincing at the discomfort. Luke couldn't take it, he new Noah was new to this and didn't want him to do something that made him uncomfortable.
"Noah, baby…you don't have to do this. I know you love me, and I know that you want to pleasure me, but…"
Noah once again brought his fingers to Luke's mouth stopping him in mid-sentence. All the while still working his entrance with his other hand, now adding a second finger and scissoring himself open. He couldn't stop the tears from running down his face as he smiled at his lover.
"I want to do this. I know I we've tried before and I couldn't get that maniac out of my head long enough to let you inside, not just my body but my mind, but you have to know… Luke, that I love you so much, and I want this. I want to feel you inside me. I want to give myself entirely to you and you alone. I want you to know, that…that…oh, God, this feels great…I mean that I want you to have all of me."
Luke huffed out a small laugh at his boyfriend's inability to keep his mind on track. He must have found his sweet spot.
Luke watched as Noah's eyes involuntarily closed from the pleasure he was giving himself. He couldn't help but want to let him continue on this new found ability to pleasure himself, but he wanted to be inside that tight heat so badly, he thought maybe it was possible to die from blue balls.
Luke reached back and grabbed Noah's arm, stopping his motion, and earning a whimper from his boyfriends mouth. Again, Luke couldn't help but laugh a bit, "Noah, baby, we'll explore this new fondness of yours when we have more time."
Noah blushed and looked away from Luke, making Luke almost regret his words. He wouldn't let Noah believe that what he did and very much enjoyed was in any way wrong. Luke took hold of Noah's chin and turned his face to look at him.
"Noah...you have to know how turned on I am right now. Watching you fingering yourself is about one of the hottest things I've ever seen. I want to continue watching you, and someday soon, we'll have plenty of time so that I could join in on the fun. But, baby if I don't get inside you soon, my dick may be permanently damaged."
Noah, laughed at this and Luke couldn't help but smile as Noah bent over and kissed him deeply, whispering into his lips, "that's a promise I intend to be sure you keep."
Noah sat back up and reached behind him to grasp Luke's leaking cock. Rubbing what remaining oil was left on his hands thoroughly onto his boyfriend's hard cock, gaining a deep moan from Luke's mouth. Noah lined up Luke's cock with his entrance, never once taking his eyes off Luke's. He lifted his hips then brought them down, breaching his entrance and feeling it burn.
Luke's hands had moved to Noah's hips, holding him up as he slowly lowered himself onto Luke's cock, every few inches stopping to allow his body to adjust. Luke could see the pain in Noah's eyes and tried to pull out, thinking maybe now wasn't the time to try something new, but Noah wasn't having it.
"No Luke, don't pull out…just…just give me some time to adjust. I knew this wasn't going to be easy."
With that Luke could feel Noah once again lowering himself at a maddening slow pace, but Luke wasn't going to rush him. He knew how big a deal this was for Noah, and he had every intention of making it perfect; even if it did kill him.
After a few attempts and reattempts Noah was finally fully seated on Luke. He sat there for a few minutes letting his body adjust. Trying to get past the burning sensation of being stretched and filled, to the pleasure he knew was right around the corner.
He hadn't realized he'd closed his eyes until he heard Luke's voice over the pounding of his heart in his ears, "Noah, bubby….open your eyes. I love you so much, baby, please open your eyes for me."
Noah opened his eyes to see Luke looking at him with so much love on his face that it made Noah's breath hitch. Luke had tears running down the side of his face as he looked up into Noah's eyes. He took a deep breath, remembering the breathing techniques he had been taught in therapy and relaxed.
Just doing that alone made Noah realize how good it felt to have Luke inside him, and he knew if he didn't move now this was going to end way too quickly.
Noah lifted his body up feeling Luke's cock sliding out of him just to the tip, then brought his body back down, sliding up and down Luke's cock. Noah couldn't help but want to kiss Luke as he watched his boyfriend concentrate on not moving, giving Noah all the control.
He leaned over and took Luke's full lower lip between his teeth sucking and biting it at the same time, causing Luke to buck his hips up, and changing the angle of his thrust. Luke knew he'd found Noah's prostate when his boyfriend screamed into his mouth.
"Oh. My. God…Luke…"
Knowing that Damian was not home was a relief but they still needed to be careful, so Luke did the only thing he could think of, and took his boyfriends face in his hands crashing their mouths together, and swallowing every moan and scream that came out of Noah's mouth as Luke pounded up into his body, while Noah pushed down onto Luke's cock.
They were sweating and moaning and Luke was sure he was going to combust if he didn't come soon, but he wanted to watch as Noah did first. Luke flipped them over, so that Noah was on his back, at the same time bringing Noah's legs up to wrap around his waist as he pounded harder and faster into his boyfriend, hitting his prostate with each thrust.
Reaching between them he took Noah's now rock hard cock into his hands he began to pump him in time with each thrust he made into him.
Luke couldn't help but whimper as he felt Noah contract onto his cock. He couldn't stop the words from flowing freely out of his mouth.
"God, Noah, you're so fucking tight, baby. I need you to come for me, Noah. I need to feel you to milk my cock with your tight ass."
Luke new Noah's little secret. He knew that his boyfriend loved a little dirty talk when they were fucking or making love and he knew this would send his boyfriend spiraling into the abyss.
Just as he predicted Noah's body reacted to his dirty words and Noah came harder than he'd ever come in his life. Shooting streams of come on both Luke and himself, his eyes rolling to the back of his head as his ass clenched tightly around Luke's cock.
Luke let go of Noah's spent cock and almost bent his boyfriend in half holding his own upper body up with his arms, as he brought their mouths together into a all encompassing kiss as Luke continued to pound into Noah, his body no longer in rhythm, causing his hips to just stutter and continue the onslaught into his boyfriends clenching ass, causing Luke to fall into his own abyss seconds later, filling Noah with his come.
It seemed like forever before his body stopped spasming into his boyfriend's body. When he finally stopped Luke's arms gave out and he fell in a heap on top of Noah's body. He just couldn't seem to care that he was lying on top of his cum covered boyfriend, probably gluing them together when the cum dried.
Luke found enough strength to pull out of Noah, causing them both to moan at the sensitivity of it, but knowing he had to move or they would be stuck that way. He rolled over beside his now very quiet boyfriend. Luke realized now that Noah hadn't really spoken since he pulled out and was beginning to worry that he had somehow hurt him.
Running on pure adrenaline Luke turned his body over to face his boyfriend. He sat up and leaned over Noah's prone body, looking him over and seeing that his eyes were closed yet tear tracks were running down the side of his face.
Luke was horrified. What had he done? He had lost control at the end and possibly had hurt Noah. He tentatively reached out and turned Noah's face towards him, noticing the huge smile that seemed to have appeared on Noah's face. Luke breathed out in relief, and couldn't help but smile with him. He still wanted to hear Noah tell him he was alright though.
Gently he stroked Noah's cheek as he asked the question looming in the back of his mind, his own insecurities setting in, "Noah, was I any good?"
At that, his boyfriend's eyes shot open. He looked into those beautiful chocolate eyes full of fear that he had in some way not pleased Noah, and he wanted to kick himself for putting that insecurity there.
With a lot of effort, Noah turned over onto his side to face Luke, his body protesting the movement. He reached up and cupped Luke's cheek, gently thumbing his lips as he looked deep into his eyes and smiled.
"Luke…you were amazing. If I could move I'd ask you to do it again, and again, and again."
Luke blushed and looked down and away from Noah's penetrating look, causing Noah to take hold of his chin and lifting his face so that they were once again looking into each other's souls.
Noah leaned over and captured Luke's lips in a gentle kiss, lest he get too excited and turned on again too soon. He pulled back and watched as Luke's face turned from insecure to happy and smiling once again.
Noah knew he had to work hard to keep that smile on his boyfriend's lips, and he intended to devote the rest of his life in doing so.
He gently moved hair that had fallen onto Luke's face back as he told spoke the words he knew Luke needed to hear, "Luke, you are the most beautiful, intelligent, most wonderful partner anyone could ask for."
Noah watched as Luke's eyes watered as he said the word 'partner,' but he had to keep going, "I hope that someday I can help make any insecurities I may have inadvertently caused you to have go away. You have to know that if I could go back and change all I've said and done in the past I would."
Noah had to stop, he had to take a deep breath and center himself, this was the most he'd ever given of himself and he knew that it was a long time in coming.
Luke was about to speak, Noah knew, to tell him he didn't have to continue, but he did, "no Luke, you don't get to let me off the hook. I treated you horribly for too long, and I almost lost…you."
Luke watched as his boyfriend, no, partner, brought down the walls he had built around himself, and he couldn't help but want to cry. They had suffered through so much, but now they would come out on the other side whole. He reached up and wiped the tears from Noah's cheeks as he leaned over and kissed him.
Noah, smiled into their kiss, knowing this was Luke's way of trying to help him through his problem of never being able to express his feelings. From somewhere in the back of his mind, he remembered once telling Luke he wasn't as good with words as Luke was.
Well, not anymore, he thought…not tonight. Tonight he would tell Luke how much he loved him, how he was so happy that he given himself to Luke, and that they would spend the rest of their lives making up for all those months, years, of pain. If only he could just vocalize his thoughts.
Luke could see Noah struggling with himself, trying to find the right words. He wanted to help him so badly, but he knew this was something Noah felt he had to do. So no matter how long it took, he would wait.
Noah, found his center again, and he realized that that center was Luke. That each time he closed his eyes and began to do his centering exercises it was Luke's face that always calmed him down. Noah saw the patience in his boyfriend's eyes, and knew the words he had to say.
"Luke, you are my soul mate, the love of my life, and the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I know we have so much to work through, and I know that currently it's not been legalized in Illinois yet, but…"
Luke's eyes widened as he listened to Noah, hoping he knew where Noah was going with this but not wanting to jump the gun.
"…Luke Snyder, will you marry…"
Before Noah could even finish his question he found himself with Luke on top of him as his body was slammed back onto the bed. Noah couldn't even finish his question due to the fact that Luke's tongue was currently invading his mouth.
He laughed as Luke moved from his mouth to his cheeks, all over his face, down his neck, and then worked its way down his body, all the while in between kisses Noah could make out, "yesyesyesyesyesyes…oh God yes…!"
Noah stopped laughing though when Luke's mouth started kissing his now spent and very sensitive cock. He didn't think it was possible but he felt his cock twitch, trying to get hard again. As much as he wanted that, he wanted to look into his fiancée's eyes more.
Noah reached down and brought his beautiful fiancé back up to face him, and noticed the tears falling freely while Luke's face beamed with the brightest smile he had ever seen. Noah couldn't help but smile back.
"I didn't even get to finish my question, Luke. So, even though I know the answer, I would still like to properly, well, as properly as one can naked, propose."
He sat them both up so that they were seated facing each other and he took Luke's hands in his. Taking a deep breath he began again.
"I know this is probably the most unorthodox marriage proposal ever, and I plan on taking you out once this is over and ask you on bended knee in front of your family…our family, and even though I don't have a ring. Luke Snyder will you do me the honor of being my husband?"
Luke let out a choked noise and launched himself on Noah once more, causing the other man to almost fall of the bed with his arms full of Luke.
Luke cried into Noah's shoulder as he answered with a muffled noise, "yes, Noah, a thousand times yes. I love you so much, bubby."
He pulled away and smiled at his fiancé and noticed that he wasn't the only one being overly sentimental, as Noah now had tears in his eyes. Luke laughed and tried to lighten the moment, "and I'm holding you to that promise of getting down on one knee…in front of 'our family,' and asking me again."
Noah, couldn't help but laugh at his ridiculously romantic boyfriend…no fiancé "that's a promise I intend to keep."
They lay back down on the bed wrapped in each other's arms as they watched the sky become lighter through Luke's windows, knowing that Noah would have to leave very shortly, but not wanting to separate.
Noah heard Luke sniffle and felt his tears on his chest where Luke had laid his head. Noah stroked Luke's hair and knew that it was almost time to go. He kissed the top of Luke's head, then reached down and lifted Luke's chin so that he could once more look into those beautiful eyes. His own tears being held back, trying to be strong for the both of them.
He leant down and kissed Luke with all the passion he was feeling, and as he pulled away he said, "this will be over soon, my love. One more day before the party and then you and your mother will be home."
Luke could only nod, knowing that if he spoke he wouldn't be able to control the sobs that wanted to escape his throat. Noah smiled sadly at him, but knew that they wouldn't be parted for much longer.
Noah realized that with everything they had gone through that night he had forgotten to mention something very important to Luke, and he had to be sure Luke knew before he left the room.
"Luke, I forgot to tell you something…got a little…sidetracked."
Luke laughed at his choice of words.
"Your dad is here Luke. He's in the mansion with me."
Luke was stunned by the news. He knew that Damian would recognize his father in an instant if he saw him.
"What? Is he crazy?
Noah, Damian would recognize my father in a crowded concert hall! Please tell me he wasn't foolish enough to come here."
Noah could see the panic begin in Luke's eyes; he knew that he had to calm him before his Luke decided he needed to find his father. He knew Luke's fear for his Holden's safety would overcome his better judgment.
"Luke…listen. You're dad is nothing if not resourceful. Trust me when I say, that Damian wouldn't recognize him if he was standing right in front of him."
Noah could see the doubt in Luke's eyes, so he continued, "you're dad has been made over to look nothing like himself." Noah was beating around the bush, and Luke was beginning to give him the look Noah knew very well, the 'get to the point now,' look. Noah laughed, which may have been the wrong thing to do, when all of a sudden a pillow had hit him in the face. Noah brought his hands up in surrender.
"Okay, okay…I'll tell you. You're father is dressed….as one of the maids."
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