A/N: Wow I feel bad for letting this story go without update or work for so long, and I apologize to everyone reading it, who favorited it, reviewed it, for everything. I won't even go into excuses, there are so many I could write a book of them. So I will not keep you waiting any longer. All chapters are here to finally complete the story! I want to thank you all and bid farewell to fanfiction all together, for this is my last piece. Enjoy!

Chapter 20: Truth or Consequence

"Do you view yourself as a self-sabotaging person?"

It had been a good question at the time, the perfect question in fact, because as hard as Terra tried she just couldn't help herself.

She knew sooner or later Raven would find out, whether it be from Slade mocking and taunting her for it or if Raven just stumbled upon it herself while nosing around Slade's penthouse, Raven would figure out that Terra had stolen personal files from Dr. Greg's office and given them over to Slade.

Why?

There were a series of reasons that went through Terra's head: She just felt like it, it was obvious she wasn't ever going to be friends with Raven, it was even more obvious that Raven was attracted to Slade, she was never going to be a true Titan, etcetera, etcetera.

But the real reason was because she needed a little payback for what Raven had completely ruined in the caves. What Terra had been counting on… and after her session with Dr. Greg she knew there was only one option…Get out.

Terra was gearing up and readying herself for whatever would come next. She knew Raven was going to be mad, to what degree was all the difference.

What she got was unexpected as Raven walked into her room stoic and mute. Neither one had to start with accusations or finger pointing, they both knew what Terra had done.

"That was fast," Terra started.

Raven closed her eyes for a second and took in a deep breath. "I don't know if I'll ever understand you Terra."

Terra rolled her eyes and smugly responded, "Well perhaps we could ask Dr. Greg, he's very good at his job."

Raven's heart dropped in her stomach. "Did he…?" she couldn't even finish the sentence.

"No, he didn't betray your confidence, he just sucks at keeping his files locked up."

Raven had to shake her head at Terra's immaturity, how could she be so dismissive of her actions?

"What exactly was the point of doing that? Revealing my thoughts and feeling to Slade?" Raven was trying very hard to put herself in Terra's mindset, but the chambers and levels of Terra's motives always felt random and turbulent. It couldn't be as simple as Terra hating her, there was something more going on, something Slade and Terra had been keeping from Raven.

Terra crossed her arms and took a long thoughtful pause, almost as though she was trying to make sense of her actions herself.

"Honestly Raven I didn't want to do it, but I did feel it was necessary."

"Necessary?" Raven repeated frustrated.

"I've been upset with you for a while now, and it was just so damn obvious that something was going on with you every time you came back from seeing Slade. At first I wasn't sure what it was but then I realized where I'd seen it before."

Raven felt like she could vomit at any moment.

"On my own face," Terra said brightly. "When I first really saw his face and been in his home, in his presence, god I was so smitten and so willing."

Raven shuddered, not wanting to compare misplaced attractions with Terra of all people.

Terra looked at Raven enviously before shrugging her shoulders. "But according to Slade you have a stronger willpower than I ever did, oh well…it could've been something we had in common."

Raven nearly gagged but was distracted by the overstuffed travel bags scattered all over Terra's bed.

Raven didn't even bother glaring or becoming upset at Terra. "You're leaving."

Terra arched an eyebrow, almost daring Raven to say more. "Well I figure you're going to run to the others and tell them how I betrayed you yet again."

Raven had to tell the Titans even if she didn't want to. It would be wrong of her not to inform them of what was in fact a betrayal of a team member to the enemy. It didn't matter how Terra worded it or played it cool, Terra knew she had ruined her chances, why else would she have packed her bags?

"Why did Slade ask for me?"

Slade and Terra both knew something concerning Raven, something that made him trust her and made Terra resentful. There as something about Raven that made Slade curious of her, something that made Terra paranoid and suspicious. What as the big secret? What was going on?

Terra looked passive and calm, there would be no final confrontation, there would be no big blow out. This would be the last time her and Raven would ever talk to each other again.

"I wasn't lying when I said I wanted to be forgotten, I really didn't think I had much of a chance of ever being a Titan again. I wanted to come back to the Titans, I wanted to make proper amends for what I had done, but how can you make up for something like betraying the Teen Titans other than dying?"

Tears swelled in Terra's eyes and rolled down her cheeks freely. She didn't bother wiping them away or bother with feeling embarrassed or ashamed, the memory was too raw and real for her still.

"Then I was alive again and the world had moved on and I felt ok just being an ordinary person but when Beastboy confronted me and begged me to come back I felt so guilty and so lonely. I worked to get control of my powers again, hoping…just waiting for a moment when I might be able to work up the courage to face you all again."

She finally unleashed a look towards Raven she had been saving for a while now, and with it Raven felt intense white hatred that had been so deeply locked behind trying moments to either ignore or accept Raven's presence.

"But you were the biggest problem. I could never come back to the Titans if you were there always suspicious and always distrusting. Everyone would be able to forgive and forget eventually…except you."

Raven had to look away a little ashamed, it wasn't untrue, Raven would never be able to forgive and forget, it wasn't in her nature.

"You, who changed the laws," Terra's voice lowered in anger. "You, who brought Slade back from the dead."

Raven felt a cold ripple slice through her, she never even thought of Terra specifically hating her for indirectly bringing Slade back from hell, but it made sense.

"You, who saved his life."

Raven thought she heard wrong and had to take a moment to process.

Something echoed in the back of her muddled memory… in the caves…before the rocks fell down, Terra's voice echoing off the walls.

Actually… I was hoping we could pick up where we left off.

Terra watched as Raven started putting the pieces together. "Slade was allowed to get off easy for all the things he did to me. I wanted to finish all the bad history between us, it was perfect timing and the perfect target was you…since I needed you gone too."

Raven felt her breath leave her body, finally realizing what that statement from Terra had meant. The night Raven couldn't remember, the night they tried catching Slade in the caves.

"I did convince him to come meet me in the caves, but I did it as an ambush, he knew you were there the whole time, he grabbed for you before you could set off your communicator and that's when I took my shot."

She hadn't planned on capturing Slade, she had planned on killing him...by killing her.

Raven looked Terra in the eye and finally saw the truth, saw a very different Terra than the shy sweet girl who had re-entered the Tower. She hadn't wanted her help in catching Slade, she had used her as bait.

Terra licked her lips and spoke up. "He wanted to kill you so badly, I thought if I let him then it would throw him off his game and I would be able to get rid of him right after. You'd both be dead but I'd convince the Titans it was all Slade's doing and that I had killed him to avenge you." Terra sighed and shook her head in disappointment. "Such a sweet idea that failed."

Raven felt a very powerful emergence of buried memories come at her as though she were reliving them. Slade had still been watchful with Terra, the second she tried to attack the both of them Slade had already managed to dodge the devastating blow which hit Raven head on.

Just as Slade had prepared to fight back, Terra had engulfed him with boulders that slowly began to squeeze in on him till Raven couldn't see him anymore.

Terra was going to crush him to death.

Raven was in the rubble watching as Terra planned to murder Slade and felt her own life slipping as warm blood blurred her eyes and her lungs failed to receive any air, her lung had collapsed. Things were broken, she wasn't sure what, but the way her body rested didn't feel natural, and yet through all the pain and fear Raven recalled telling Terra to stop.

They had to get the rest of the team down there! They had to deliver him to justice, they had to do this together. In that moment when Terra finally looked at Raven lying in the rocks Raven felt it.

Satisfaction.

Terra had no intention of reaching the Titans, she had no intention of helping Raven, she had every intention of killing Slade and letting her die there.

Whatever it was that made Raven do what she did next would never make sense to her, never in a million years, but with what little energy she had left she summoned whatever emotion she had and her full blown demonic presence lashed out at Terra, freeing Slade from her clutches.

Her Rage quickly dissipated back to her body as Raven blacked out.

Raven could hear Terra speaking, but it was almost as if she were dreaming, the world just didn't seem real anymore

"When Slade was free from my hold he went over to you…I thought he was going to finish the job, but instead he reached for your communicator and set it off. I fought so hard to kill him before the Titans came but even after all these years he's still so untouchable."

She laughed to herself as though she made a joke, if she had it had been lost on Raven. "Anyway," she continued, "By the time the rest of the team showed up I realized it was too late, I wouldn't be able to kill him and chances were they would be able to revive you and you would tell them what you saw me trying to do… I wanted to run away, but Slade did something unexpected…he slowed down and let me trap him in a pile of boulders and whispered to me 'better go check on Raven.' Everyone was there all at once and without thinking I dropped down and grabbed you, I couldn't let you die, otherwise they'd all hate me all over again. When you started gaining consciousness you couldn't remember anything, I then decided I could use that. It looked like I was trying to save you, your fiends believed it, therefore they owed me one."

Raven wavered as the final realization came to her. "That was why Slade requested me."

Terra shrugged. "He was letting me get away with the lie, I figured it was his way of repaying you for saving his life, because I was planning to crush him nice…and slowly."

Raven didn't say anything, there was nothing to say. She knew the truth now and there wasn't much left to ask except…

"Why now? Why didn't you do all this sooner, why did you go along with acting like a Titan and then ruin it by telling me all this?"

Terra had tears brimming her eyes again, only this time she did blink them away. This time she was embarrassed and shameful.

"I started to see that I could've bonded with you at some point, I could've made that connection, I could've worked for your forgiveness and maybe even got it when I realized Slade had trapped you in his house with him. How he did things to me to make me feel the worst version of myself…."

Terra let out a shaky breath and began to full out sob. Raven had to take a step back from the swirl of conflicting emotions rolling through Terra. Raven saw the same damaged girl as fresh as the day she stumbled into their lives.

"I felt so wrong for wanting you dead, I felt so wrong for still hating you, but I felt even more wrong that I actually thought I could replace you on this team. I just wanted a chance to belong again and when I went to visit Dr. Greg I realized I could never be happy again until I finally stopped lying…not just about Slade, but about you too."

Terra took a deep breath and hoisted her duffels firmly around her shoulders. "I gave Slade the files because I wanted you to realize that there's no point in trying to deny your thoughts or feelings. They will always be there. I'm sick and tired of all the bullshit, Slade knows how you feel, you know why you're there, we're all even as far as I'm concerned."

Terra walked past Raven towards the door, stopped and put a hand on her shoulder. "For what it's worth you'll be able to move on now, but I still think it's real shit of you to go falling in love with someone like that and still be judgmental of me."

She sat in the living room for what felt like hours. Terra really did have perfect timing. Robin and Starfire had been out on a date, Cyborg had been in the basement of the tower locked up in his garage working on his car, and poor Beastboy had gone out that day looking for the perfect promise ring for Terra.

Raven knew he'd be bruising himself with finding the best ring possible within the city, running around in various animal forms, giddy with excitement over how she might react to it.

Raven could almost cry from thinking how she was about to break his heart. The key word being "Almost."

Raven hadn't been wrong about Terra, she did things that best suited her survival. She had been battling with personal demons, she had still been hiding a lot, and ultimately she betrayed them out of anger and fear…AGAIN!

Still Terra had been right about a few things herself, she had had a chance with earning Raven's trust again, but the fact that she had been aiming to kill her along with Slade just to make it easier to return to the Titans was not right in any sense.

The fact was Terra did not have the moral code of a Titan, of a true hero, and that as what had made Raven save Slade in the end. She was not a murderer, as much as she hated him and as much as she wanted him dead and out of her life, she couldn't bring herself to watch a person kill another person without taking action to stop it. She had moved on from that level of evil within her demonic self.

Her own emotional self which was Rage didn't even attempt to kill Terra when she had unleased it on her, it wasn't in her. The anger and wishful thinking to do so was, but as Dr. Greg had been trying to teach her, you can't control your thoughts or emotions, just your actions.

Raven heard the doors to the living room swish open and knew that everyone would soon be gathered. It was a team mentality, once a few of them were gathered together the rest were soon to follow.

Raven realized her hands were shaking as they all started discussing their days and when Beastboy pulled out a very beautiful ring asking impatiently where Terra was.

"Are you ok Raven?" Robin asked trying to catch her eyes. "You're being very quiet."

Raven looked around the room as everyone's eyes fell on hers except for Beastboy who was still examining the ring and waiting for Terra to enter the room at any moment. The moment would never come.

"I have something I need to tell all of you."