Chapter 21

BPOV

I was in a deep sleep, but apparently it wasn't that deep. I heard the yelps and giggles of two three year olds, "Get up Beck, sun's out its wake up time."

"Good god who the hell is this cheery at seven thirty in the morning," I told myself.

"Hey girls," I said, as I sat up and tried my best to wake up.

"Hey Beck where's mommy?" Khloe asked, well honestly I still get them confused so it could've been Mayah.

"Good question kid," I answered her.

"Jeez, I just went to the bathroom, you don't have to send a search party," I heard Jade's voice coming from the doorway.

"Good, now mommy let's go watch cartoons," Mayah demanded.

"Ok, but just for a little bit, then breakfast," Jade told both her daughters. "And next time sweetie pies don't wake Beck up, he's not a morning person."

"It's cool, don't listen to your mother," I said with a smile.

Then the two little girls rushed down to the living room ready to watch cartoons. I would've gone back to sleep, but I wasn't sleepy anymore. I got up and headed towards the shower, while Jade went to tend to her daughters. As I was showering I realized how this is my life now, early mornings and cartoons. As I thought more about it I couldn't help but smile. After all one day I hoped to have a kid, so this was good practice. Plus I really cared for the kids so I was going to try my best to be a good step father to them.

"Hey, so what do you guys want for breakfast?" I asked making my way downstairs.

"Pancakes!" both girls replied in perfect harmony.

"Yea, pancakes is good," Jade replied, getting up from the couch. "Here I'll make them."

"No, I got it you just sit there and look pretty," I told her. Both the girls giggled.

"Alright guys they're done," I yelled from the kitchen ten minutes later.

"Thanks really, I'll go and wake Nate," Jade said.

We were all eating at the table and I just loved the feeling of having a "family." I was so use to being on my own I didn't think it could get better, but it has and I couldn't be happier. Of course I'll be happier once everything with Keith gets settled.

"So , kids were going to go see daddy after breakfast," Jade announced. Honestly I didn't think she was going to go back to talk to him this quickly. But I know she wants to settle this.

"Again," I said.

"Yea things have tog et figured out, and well the kids want to see him," she responded.

"Yay daddy, but mommy can we spend a lot of time there yesterday we left too quickly," Nate said,

"Ugh, I guess now hurry and eat," she replied to Nate.

We ate our food and Jade was getting the kids ready to go see their dad.

"Bye babe, we'll be back around dinner time, so don't worry," she said giving me a peck on the cheek. She still wasn't comfortable kissing me in front of the kids.

"Ok, no problem. Bye guys," I told them as they walked out.

KPOV

I really needed to talk to Jade, so we could settle all of this. And just as I was about to go for a drive to clear my head Jade called.

"Hey, I'm coming over with the kids, they want to see you," she answered.

"Ok," was all I managed to say, before she hung up.

About ten minutes later they arrived. The kids quickly gave me hugs and kisses. Jade just stood there she didn't look at me or anything. She looked really tired and I could tell the whole situation was really starting to get to her. She even looked like she'd gain a couple pounds. I could also sense she was still mad, but she looked like she was willing to talk.

"Ok well I'm going upstairs to finish packing up the rest of my stuff," was all she said and went upstairs.

I played with the kids and talked to them to make sure this Beck bitch was being good to them. It almost made me sick when the kids told me how much they liked him and all he does for them and Jade. I left the kids watching cartoons and went upstairs to see if I could talk to Jade.

JPOV

I was about to finish packing up the rest of my stuff when Keith came in. The moment I had dreaded had come. I didn't want to talk only because I was scared. Scared of him keeping his word and taking my kids.

"Jade can we please talk," he said sitting on the bed.

"About," I snarled.

"Bab-…I mean Jade," he stuttered. "Look I really am sorry that you know I hit you, I was drunk. And well understand that this really sucks for me, I've lost everything I love in a matter of weeks."

He sounded so hurt, talk about a major guilt trip.

"And I really am sorry Keith, believe me," I said apologetically. "I know I messed up but you didn't have to hit me. And seeing Beck I don't know it just," was all I got out before Keith interrupted.

"I know I was wrong to hit you I'm sorry, but really Jade don't I don't want to hear about your relationship with Beck," he said.

I walked over and sat down on the opposite side of the bed of where he was sitting.

"I want to talk about the kids and what's best for them," he said in a strong tone.

"Here it come he's going to take them," I said to myself, bracing myself for the worse.

"I think it's best if we let them decide who they want to live with and try to settle this ourselves before we involve the courts," he said.

I let out a big sigh, "That sounds reasonable," I really hoped and prayed my kids would chose me.

"Yes all that shit about me taking them, you didn't really think I was did you?" he asked.

"I don't know I really thought you would, but thanks for not taking them," I replied.

"I would never be able to do that to you," he said, getting up from the bed. "So what happens now?"

"I don't know, I guess divorce," I knew he didn't want to hear it but it as inevitable.

"How bout separation for now, maybe you'll change you mind and come back," he said, with hope in his eyes.

"Look you're great…but I don't think I'll come back," I know a little blunt, but I couldn't get his hopes up.

"Just please think about it," he pleaded.

"Fine," I said.

"Ok well let's go see who the kids choose," he said.

I hated putting my kids through this, they shouldn't have to choose who to live with. On the other hand I was happy Keith and I worked it out and hopefully it was smooth sailings from here on out. I also hoped Keith didn't have like a hidden agenda or something like that to try and take the kids. Talk about mix emotions, I was such a mess. My mind was everywhere. But for now I tried to focus on my kids. I hoped they would choose me, I couldn't bare the thought of them not being by my side every morning.

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