Worth The Risk
Chapter 21: The Call to End All Decisions
Shane's Point of View
I was fully awake now and my body was shaking. Allison would've waited if it wasn't important. I immediately knew it was Mitchie and I was worried and I felt my throat tighten at the thought of it. This was agony. Allison hasn't responded so instead I stated it again.
"Allison what's wrong?" I said tense
"Shane, listen to me" She said "Mitchie is having a panic attack. You need to talk to her."
"Okay, what do I say?"
"I don't know but she wants you she freaking out Shane please just try to calm her down she can barely breathe" She says worrisome
My heart skipped a beat "Give her the phone" I said shakily
I hear a soft shuffle then I spoke "Mitchie, It's me please let me know you can hear me"
"Sh....a...n...e" She said then couched
"Sh Babe don't talk okay just listen. You have to breath okay I need you to stay on the phone with me and stay conscious okay. I know you can do this for me okay. Breathe in and out as best as you can. Just listen to my voice I know you can do it. Take a deep breath and let it out okay just one for now." I heard he take a breath and as she went to exhale I heard a sob escape her mouth "Mitch you have to stop crying okay. Please I am not getting off the phone I am right there on your wrist. I need you to breath for me. I know it hurts okay just try to stop crying. Please Mitch I need you to stay on this phone with me."
I soon hear breathing through the phone it's heavy but finally steady as my heart started to calm down. "That's good babe now with me okay. Breath in and Breathe out slowly." I start breathing within the phone and hear she is slowly calming down as my heart rate is now normal again.
"Sh..ane" I heard her say with a little pause
"Hi Mitch, Don't talk okay just focus on breathing. I love you, you know that right?"
"Mhmm" I heard her say knowing she agreed. I would've liked her to say it back but I knew I told her not to talk
"Hey Shane I am helping her get onto her bed okay I'll give the phone back in two minutes" Allison said
"Alright" I said and waited hearing shuffling in the background.
"Shane" I heard Mitchie say softly
"HI are you relaxing now?" I asked
"I'm better, only because of you though" She said and it made me smile slightly
"Well I was so worried I wanted to help you, you really scared me" I said
"I know I'm sorry and I love you too" She said and a smile crossed my face
"I love you too" I say smiling "What made you panic do you know"
"Yeah, I was listening to your beautiful song. I loved it. It is so gorgeous babe. It just brought back a lot of memories and hearing you love me. It was so amazing just overwhelming I think" She said and I felt horrible
"I am so sorry I never meant for that to happen" I said so upset
"Don't be upset lover. I really needed to hear you say that" She said so I relaxed
"Alright I loved your song too I really miss you too" I said quietly
"Shane?"
"Yeah Mitch?"
"When are you coming back?" She asked this and I think my heart broke more than it already has as I let out a sigh
"Mitch I don't know yet. I have some more weeks booked here at the hotel. I am looking to find an apartment but I will be back before school okay" I said knowing she was upset
"Oh okay" She said and I hear her voice crack "Can you call me in an hour or so I want to give Allison her phone back and clean up?" She asked and I could tell she was on the verge of tears.
"Okay I love you Mitch" I said
"I love you too" She said as I heard Allison take the phone
"Alright bye Shane" Allison said
"Wait Allison, when you leave call me okay?"
"Okay bye Shane" She said hanging up as I hung up. I had stuff to do as I walked over to my internet and brought up apartments for sale.
Mitchie's Point of View
I hung up as tears stung my eyes and started to fall. It was so hard to know he would only be back for a little while before school and would be going to stupid Manhattan. My employers were great payers but as parents they sucked. I really loved Shane and they are stupid to not realize that he is the reason my panic attacks are happening.
I say sitting on my bed tears still falling but I am not sobbing. I feel Allison seat beside me wrapping one arm around my back as I lean my head against her shoulder.
"Thanks for being a good friends Allison" I said quietly
"I know what it's like to be in love Mitchie. He loves you too he just doesn't want to ruin your chances you know that right" He said rubbing my back
"Yeah I know and I love him for that but it is so hard." I said sitting up wiping my face of tears
"Yeah but love is worth the fight if it's meant to be."She said smiling at me
"Yeah I guess you're right." I said letting a small smile play on my lips. "I am going to go shower and freshen up okay?" I ask seeing it is about 10:45.
"Yeah its fine Mitchie, how about I make some lunch for us?" She asks and I smile
"Thanks Allison I will be out in about 30 minutes" I said walking towards the bathroom
"Alright holler if you need me" Allison stated walking towards the kitchen as she closed my door.
I started the water stripping of the clean clothes I put on about an hour or so ago and stepped into the hot shower for the second time this morning as the water cascading down the water letting me relax. It was crazy how he could relax me so much. I was close to a breaking point and he brought me back to who I was. No-one could really do that it was amazing he could. I needed him and so badly wanted him to come back before my panic attacks get to bad. I really wished I didn't have more. They were scary, very scary.
Shane's Point of View
It is almost eleven and I have been on my computer since I hung up with Mitchie and I have found what I needed and I knew this is what I had to do. It was for Mitchie and me, our love. It was the middle of July there for there was 5 weeks left of summer before school was to start again. The last week of August, and I promised Mitchie I would at least go back for a little, I had stuff to get from the pool house little did she know what exactly I would be doing, it was for me I just had to tell her before she spent all her money.
My phone started ringing and I saw Allison's name as I answered it smiling. "Hey Allison" I said smiling
"Hi Shane, you were amazing today and what can I do for you?" She asks
"Thanks and I was glad I could help. Now I need you to keep her there until the very last day she can. The day after she works she needs to be there okay?" I said
"Okay Shane don't do something drastic" She said
"It's a little out there just... if I tell you something you have to swear to not mention it. Not to Mitchie, definitely not to my parents and not to Alex, no-one. After August 19th they can't do anything because I will be 20, and I have full access to what I need now do you agree?" I asked
"Yes Shane someone needs to make sure it's not stupid, no offence" She said
"Yes I know Allison. Alright so this is what I'm doing" He says explaining it
"Okay Shane that is big but I will do my best. It's not due till that day so you better get your ass her the day before. Wait isn't the day before that orientation" She asked
"Yes the day before it use due. I will be back that day, just do not let my parents pay until I talk to her okay. I know she pays the first thing the first weeks of August but stop her from the rest okay, please" I almost pleaded
"Yes I will do my best Shane just make sure this is what you want" She says
"Yeah Allison it is what I want." I say smiling
"Alright Shane good luck and you have form the 19th to the 22nd to do that and get down here her last day is the 21, 22nd is the day you need to tell her at well you know what's on that day. She leaves her the 23rd." She reminds him
"Yes Allison I am booking my flight, I will see you then. If she needs me call and I am calling her later, I have to keep saying I'm not coming, it's a surprise and god I hope it works" I said
"It will work Shane you know she loves you but you haven't seen when we talk about you" She smiles
"I know I love her too, thanks Allison but I have to go bye" I said
"Bye good luck" She said as we both hung up.
I can't believe I was actually doing this. It was almost crazy but it was going work. Now I had too calls to make. It will work thank god I didn't decline it. This is all I needed to do and I was doing it, not just for myself but for Mitchie, and love. I was doing this and no-one not even my parents could stop me, I was an adult this was my decision to start my life the way I wanted it with who I wanted in it and yes that includes Mitchie, greatly includes Mitchie.
A/N: Okay so again I know it is short. Just to let you know I will be skipping to well August so I can get where I want to be with this story. It is getting good and there can be portrayed many ways and guesses of what Shane is planning to do I want to hear all your ideas. Will some of you be right? One of my reviewers is my friend and knows what is happening so don't guess you will ruin it.
I had mentioned a story called Make A Wave I am currently writing with my friend Brittany. The first two chapters our up and I have some very royal reviewers here and I would like all of you to again give it a chance. Like you all did for this one and it turned out good. Please do so. Thanks, sorry for errors and Review!