I know that you guys are ready to find out what happens between Sarah and Ashley on their talk but I wanted to show you what Spencer was feeling about everything first... Hope you enjoy. :)
Chapter 21
"I don't know why I agreed to let her go..." I say as I throw myself on the bed.
"Because you're a great girlfriend and you trust her, Spence." Stacy tells me from her spot on the bed with Rachael.
"And plus this is Ashley we're talking about here." Madison adds in. "She's not going to cheat on you. She said last night that this was about closure, so I'm sure that's all this is."
"You trust her don't you?" Rachael asks.
"Yeah." In theory. "But, I don't trust Sarah. I saw how she was looking at Ashley last night. It didn't seem like she wanted to have a goodbye talk. It looked more like a sorry I've been M.I.A for the past two and a half months but I'm back now so lets get back together." I say in a pouting tone causing all my friends to laugh.
"Oh so you gathered all that just by looking at her." Rachael says, trying to control her laughter.
"Well, didn't you guys see it too?" I ask, realizing how ridiculous I must sound right now.
"Spence, Ashley has to be the most faithful girlfriend I've ever met in my life. She would never do anything to hurt you. I promise." Stacy assures me. I trust that Ashley is doing what she says she's doing with Sarah, but at the same time. I'm worried that she could still change her mind.
"Yeah Spence, you have nothing to worry about." Rachael agrees.
"Yeah. Okay. I'm just... I don't like the fact that Sarah can just waltz back here and practically demand Ashley's time." I agreed to let Ashley go for the simple fact that I know she would never move on and that we could never fully be happy if she didn't get this closure.
"She's just looking for closure, Spence. I'm sure you know how much she needs it." Madison tells me. And she's right. For the past month everything has always come back around to Sarah and it would be nice if my girlfriend could move on from 'the ex she never got a chance to really say goodbye to.'
"Yeah, I know. I'm just being a brat." I admit.
"Text her if you're that worried." Rachael suggests. "I bet she texts back." I don't hesitate to whip out my phone and text her.
'I love you.' I send to her.
'Me too.' She sends back a minute later. Me too? I tell her I love her and she says me too? Okay, I'm probably reading into it a little more than I should but 'me too'? How would anyone take that?
"See I told you." Rachael says as she see's me reading Ashley's text over and over again.
"Yeah." I say softly. No need to let them in on my thoughts right now. I mean, I guess they're kinda foolish anyways. "Madison you and Aiden didn't have any plans today did you?" I ask and she gives me a look, like she's trying to read me. She can probably sense that something is wrong. Please don't let her ask me about it.
"No." She shakes her head.
"Kay." I reply then text Aiden.
'Can you please come get me. I need to talk.' I text him. And not even ten seconds later he texts back.
'I'm on my way.' It reads. See why he's the greatest big brother in the world? No questions, no explanations needed just... him being there, when I need him.
"I'm gonna go hang out with Aiden for a while. I'll see you guys later." I say getting up from my bed. Grabbing my brag from the dresser. I didn't have to turn around to see the looks on my friend's faces as I left the room.
I waited for Aiden out front to avoid having to talk to anyone, but somehow Kyla found me.
"Hey sis." She says cheerily, sitting down beside me.
"Hey, Ky." I say, smiling a little. No need to take my frustrations out on her.
"Where's my sister on this fine Saturday afternoon? I haven't seen her all day. Why aren't you two together?" She asks, looking around like Ashley would just appear out of thin air.
"She's with Sarah." I say simply. I didn't need to look at Kyla to know her face was in shock.
"How...what...when...huh?" She asks, confused. Oh, I guess she doesn't know dearest Sarah is back in town.
"Sarah just showed up last night and um..." I pause, trying to decide if I should let Kyla in on what went down with Ashley and I last night. How we almost ended things. "She wanted to talk to Ash and um... I figured it'd be a good thing if they did." I finish with a shrug.
"But... she lives in Texas. What is she doing all the way in Ohio?" Kyla asks, obviously still confused at all the information I'm telling her.
"I don't Ky. I would like to know the same question." I say nodding my head.
"Wait, and you just... let her go with Sare?" Kyla ask bewildered.
"Why not? Apparently everyone thinks this is a good thing. That she needs this closure." I tell her.
"But Sarah's not... um... how do I say this... Sarah isn't the closure type. Ashley was her first and only love. I don't think you just get over someone like that." Kyla says standing up. Oh, thanks so much for the reassurance Ky. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have... ugh! I'm always sticking my nose in places it doesn't belong." Kyla says before running back into the school.
If I wasn't nervous before... I sure as hell am now.
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"What if I lose her Aiden? I can't... not after everything." I tell him, laying my head on his shoulder. We're sitting on the couch talking. Mom and dad are in the kitchen making lunch, and when Jackson found out that Ashley wasn't with us, he went up to his room to play and hasn't been down once. I think I should be hurt. He used to love me once upon a time.
"You're not gonna lose her, Spence." He says shaking his head. "Don't even think like that." He adds.
"But..." I try.
"No." He cuts me off, turning and facing me. "She needs this, Spence. You know, like how when we were at Sandy Beach and you needed to talk to Taylor that one last time. To tell her off. To get closure. Well Ashley needs this now. She needs you to trust her and believe that what she's doing is for the benefit of your relationship." I sigh as he finishes, because I know he's right. I needed that one last conversation with Taylor. I needed to tell her that I was in love with someone else. It gave me closure from her. It some how liberated me.
"I just can't help thinking..."
"Well just stop." He says cutting me off again. "Don't think. You're just gonna drive yourself crazy thinking about all the things that could be but probably aren't happening with them right now."
"Ugh! When do you become the one that gives relationship advice?" I ask jokingly, pushing his shoulder.
"I don't know. Maybe since I got in a relationship with a decent girl." He says proudly. I'm really glad I introduced Aiden and Madison. I'm glad they're both so extremely happy. "Speaking of relationships. Um... I think Madison wants to take the next step in ours." Aiden says sighing and flopping back on the couch.
"You mean..." I trail off, quirking a brow at him. "And you're not happy about this?" I ask, a little confused at his actions with the mention of sex.
"I mean, yes and no. You know me Spence." He says sitting back up. "I'm not that kinda guy that just hits it cause he can." He says and I can't help but giggle. "What?" He asks confused at why I"m laughing.
"Did you just say... hit that?" I ask, bursting into another giggle fit.
"So not the point, Spence." He says punching my arm.
"Ow." I say rubbing my arm. "Don't get mad at me that you..." I trail off when I catch his look. "Fine." I say rolling my eyes.
"Are you gonna help me with this or not?" He asks, a little more annoyed than before.
"What exactly am I helping you with, Aiden. This doesn't really strike me as a problem." I say stressing the word problem.
"So you think I should go for it?" He asks.
"I think that if you two are both ready for it, then yes... you should definitely go for it." I tell him with a smile.
"What are we going for?" Phillip asks as he and Maggie enter the living room with sandwiches.
"Oh um..." Aiden trails off, looking at me for help as Maggie places the sandwiches down on the table.
"For gold." I blurt out stupidly. "Aiden's tryna go for gold." I say realizing just how true that statement is. I can't help but laugh at myself.
"Oh that's good honey. Are you joining the swim team?" Maggie asks.
"Uh... I was thinking about it mom." Aiden lies, pretty unconvincingly might I add. Phillip doesn't look like he's fooled. He stifles a laugh and picks up a sandwich from the plate.
"Aiden go tell your brother lunch is ready." Maggie says, getting up and walking back into the kitchen.
"Jack, lunch is ready." Aiden yells from his spot on the couch. Phillip and I share a laugh.
"Well I could have done that." Maggie says coming back from the kitchen with fresh squeezed lemonade.
"Exactly. So why didn't cha?" Aiden asks with a smile, getting a smack on the head from Maggie. Jackson runs down the stairs and into the living room with the rest of us.
"Is Ashley coming at all today?" He whines out as Phillip hands him a sandwich and he takes a seat in his dads lap.
"No, I'm afraid not buddy." I tell him and he sulks back as he eats his sandwich.
"Speaking of Ashley..." Phillip starts and Aiden shakes his head vigorously as he takes a bite of his sandwich. "No Ashley talk today?" He asks a bit confused.
"It's just that... She's out with her ex today and I' kinda having a hard time." I explain.
"Oh." Phillip and Maggie say, nodding their heads. No one spoke of Ashley for the rest of the afternoon.
After lunch we decided to watch a movie. Despicable Me, which was quite funny actually. And afterward we played The Game Of Life, which I'm pretty sure Jackson enjoyed the most. We let him win twice. I honestly at one point didn't even want to go back to the Foster home cause I knew she'd be there. But I knew I had to face this... There was still a possibility that I could lose her. Who knows what her and Sarah talked about. Whether Sarah was able to get in her head or not. I could losing my girlfriend or I could be finally getting all of her.
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