Sorry it took me a while to get this up! I had a lot of problems writing it... not feeling very encouraged lately, and quite busy. I hope you like this chapter!

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Chapter 21

Cameron found returning to work much easier than when she had tried right after she had lost the baby. She was feeling more confident too now that she had finally talked to Chase. He no longer thought that she was hiding anything, and therefore didn't have to feel guilty facing him.

Cameron was still a bit concerned though. Although Chase had denied any resentment towards her for not wanting to have children, she knew that the subject would come up again eventually. It was only a matter of time until he tried to persuade her of pleasures she would surely be missing out on if she never experienced motherhood. She had thought of what she would be missing a lot before she told him her decision. It just seemed like the logical choice at this point. If he pressed her, she would just tell him that she couldn't bring a child into the world knowing that it was always going to come second to her career.

As far as Cameron was concerned, the storm had calmed, her routine was getting back to normal, and she was content to leave things exactly the way they were.

The morning after the Cameron had finally aired his feelings, Chase made an appointment with a marriage councillor for him and Cameron for Friday morning. He was waiting to see her later in the day to tell her. Especially now, with what she had told him, he felt that the session was more needed than ever.

They had been through so much lately, and he wanted to ensure that they overcame it together, as a couple, strengthening their relationship, and not tearing it apart. He didn't want anything to come between them. He loved Cameron more than he ever thought that he could love another person and he was going to do anything in his power to ensure that she was happy, and well taken care of, so that they could share the rest of their lives together.

The truth was that Chase did not feel as calm as Cameron did about their current situation. How could he, when the decision to have a baby truly rested in her hands? He was happy that things had settled down, but he couldn't avoid the giant purple elephant that she had thrown into their relationship, and expected him to avoid looking at.

Although Chase a had made the decision to let things be for now and not push the subject, expecting Cameron to change her mind about having a baby, he found his free moments filled with an anxious dread because he had no idea how long it was going to be until that day came. He figured supervised discussion were a much safer idea... he hoped.

Although he would never do it, the thought had crossed his mind about tampering with her birth control. However, he knew that that was not something that he was capable of, no matter how much he wanted kids. It was too dishonest. If they were going to have a baby it was going to have to be something that they agreed to do mutually. Otherwise Cameron would end up resenting him, and the situation in which she found herself in. It also wouldn't be fair to their child.

At the moment though, pregnancy was not even a concern at all, considering the fact that they still hadn't had sex since she returned home. Chase counted back in his head, realizing that it had been about six weeks since they had slept together. He hadn't even had a chance to take care of his own needs since she got home. He didn't want to risk her walking in on him.

"Hey," Cameron heard as she sat doing paper work in an empty ER cubicle.

"Hi," she smiled as Chase leaned in to give her a quick kiss on the lips.

"Got time for some lunch?" he asked sitting down next to her on the bed.

"Sure. Just give me a minute. It seems that no one else is capable of doing paper work. I don't think I can ever take a vacation again," she sighed continuing to fill out the papers. "Ok, let's go," she declared closing the file and standing up. She dropped the papers off at the nurse's station and they walked side by side towards the cafeteria.

"So, I made us an appointment," Chase started not looking at Cameron.

"For what?" she asked looking at him curiously.

"Marriage councillor, Friday morning at 8:00," he answered casually.

Cameron stopped walking and looked at him incredulously. Chase knew she stopped walking, but continued slowly away from her.

She hurried forward to catch up to him. "And... why did you do that?" Her tone took on a bit of annoyance. "I thought we were past that. I came home, I talked to you..."

"Yes, but I told you I was making us an appointment," he shrugged dismissively.

"But... that was before..." she stated concerned, grabbing his elbow, forcing him to stop walking and look at her.

"It was, but I never said I changed my mind."

"And what if I refuse?" she asked challenging him crossing her arms stubbornly over her chest.

"Allison," he said firmly but quietly leaning in towards her. "If you're going to decide that we aren't going to have kids, than the least you can do for me is to talk to a professional. I'm asking you to do this for me," he said looking into her eyes.

She stared into his bright blue eyes that seemed to be begging her to understand and accept what he was asking of her.

Cameron sighed and nodded giving in. "Ok, I'll go."

Chase gave her a small smile and took her hand and brought it up too his lips and softly placed a lingering kiss on the back of her hand. She blushed as they fell in step together and continued on to have lunch.

Friday morning came all too soon for Cameron, as her and Chase pulled up to the office building where their psychologist was.

"How did you find this person?" Cameron asked as Chase parked the car.

"Someone I know recommended her."

They walked into the building and stopped at the door.

"Divorce and marriage counselling," Cameron read out loud lifting her eyebrows. "Something you're not telling me?"

Chase looked appalled. "How can they even have a divorce lawyer in the same place as a marriage counsellor? It's that... discouraging?"

Cameron nodded. "You wanted to come," she said slightly amused placing her hand on his shoulder.

Chase opened the door and they sat in the waiting room. It was just before 8am, and even the secretary hadn't arrived yet.

"Dr. And Mrs. Chase?" a friendly voice greeted entering the room. Chase and Cameron were both surprised by the woman that entered the room. She was a middle aged woman with a kind face. However, she had short curly hair that flew wildly around her head, and wore clothes that resembled something hippies would have worn in the 70's.

"Yes," Chase said stepping forward. "This is my wife, Dr. Cameron actually."

The psychologist looked Cameron up and down. "Nice to meet you. I'm Nina Wiser. Please call me Nina. Right this way."

Cameron and Chase looked at each other, before entering her office.

"So, how long have you been married?" Nina asked sitting down in her chair with a notepad and pen.

"About 4 months," Chase told her. "We worked together for 3 years, and dated for two before that.

"How can I be of service to you two today?" she asked smiling, leaning back in her chair and crossing her legs. "What are you hoping to accomplish in this session?

"Well," Chase started but was stopped.

"If it's alright, I'd actually like your wife to answer the question. Dr. Cameron?"

Cameron was surprised. "Allison, please. Umm... I guess I'm not sure myself. Robert wanted to come."

Nina smiled encouragingly, urging her to continue.

"We've hit a bit of a rough patch recently, but we're working through it." Nina nodded but didn't say anything, waiting for her to continue.

"We lost a pregnancy not too long ago," Robert interjected sensing Cameron's hesitance to bring it up. "And we sort of lost communication after that."

Cameron looked down at her lap not saying anything. Robert reached over and took her hand into his, and rubbed his thumb over hers reassuringly.

Nina asked some more questions about the pregnancy, and Chase told her about Cameron's depression, time off work, her vacation, and the recent decision not to have any children. She asked a lot of question about Cameron not wanting kids.

Cameron sat quietly not saying much unless she was asked a direct question. It's not that she wasn't comfortable; Nina was very kind and sympathetic. Perhaps it was more the fact that she could sense Nina looking right through her. She narrowed her eyes at Cameron's responses, as if she was challenging her. She could read her too well, and that scared Cameron.

"I was wondering if I would be able to talk to each of you separately. If you both don't agree, we don't have to. Technically in counselling you are both entitled to hear what you each say, but I feel that it may be beneficial," Nina suggested. "Traditional confidentiality does apply. Therefore I will not repeat anything that you tell me. So please don't ask me too!" she said in a jovial manner.

"Sure," Chase said looking at Cameron. "If you think it will help."

Cameron nodded.

"Allison, how about we start with you? Ladies first," Nina said. Chase rose and exited the room closing the door behind him.

"So, I can tell that you don't want to be here," Nina started as soon as they were alone.

"I'm sorry. It really isn't anything against you. I'm just not one for therapy of any sort... and I don't think that we need it." Cameron was avoiding eye contact with her.

"Allison, it is very obvious that you and Robert love each other. I don't doubt that for a second, and believe me when I say that in a lot of the cases that I see, that is not the case. This being said, I need to ask you why you are telling Robert that you don't want children, when I know for a fact that this is not the case."

Cameron looked up shocked. How could this woman that has known her for twenty minutes have delved into her mind so deep?

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