Sorry for the delay in updates, my writing was put on hold because of illness. No Sex in this chapter, just some affectionate playtime and deep conversation, Jon and Becca needed a Break ;)

Laying on the couch relaxing, Jon was super cuddly. Becca lay in his arms trying to figure out that wild flare up of sheer lust that had possessed Jon. She'd have to think about it later, Jon kept distracting her with sweet kisses. Rubbing his cheek against her and whispering sweet things for a few minutes, he glanced at the clock and kissed her a few more times then slowly sat up.

"Work calls," He chuckled and ran his fingers through his hair. Kissing her once more, he began to work himself up before he went to head out for his match. Getting up slowly, thinking for a moment she went to glance in the mirror to see the newest mark on her neck. Shaking her head she walked back in and was tidying up a few things that Jon had left about when there was a knock at the half open door. Dee stuck his head in to check on her and chat with her briefly. Motioning him to come in she asked a couple questions about Jon and his reactions to stress and how he used to deal with it before he met her, Dee was more that happy to fill her in.

Jon's music started and they went out to watch his match. It was fun to watch a house show without all of the cameras. The wrestlers were having a lot of fun with the crowd. Jon's match ended in a DQ that involved a folding chair. Meeting him as he came through with a towel and a bottle of water Becca got a quick kiss and a squeeze as Jon worked his way back to his locker room. Locking them in the room, Jon kissed her a couple times and got ready for his shower. Becca was pretty sure the lusty romp she and Jon had earlier engaged in that kept any friskiness he had in check.

Asking Becca to go into the shower area with him he talked amiably while he washed up. Watching that luscious body as he undressed then washed was always a thrill, he was just so damned beautiful. Watching her watch him, he smiled a naughty smile as he turned the water off and reached for a towel.

"What are you thinking baby? You've got the sweetest smile on your face." Becca felt her cheeks redden as she watched him dry off and wrap the towel around his hips.

"I was thinking how damned beautiful you were, and I'm damned lucky to have you." Walking over to kiss her lips sweetly. Jon smiled and shook his head.

"I'm the one that's lucky." Water dripping from his hair landed on her face and chest, making her jump back and gasp.

"OY! Your getting me wet, I don't need a shower, come on and finish drying off!" Jon laughed and grabbed Becca, shaking his head made drops rain down on her. Laughing and trying to twist free, she reached around him to smack his towel covered Ass. Jumping with a squawk and rubbing the now stinging cheek Jon stuck out his lower lip in a pout. Giving him the warning finger. Becca scolded lightly.

"I warned you Mister, now stop trying to drown me, get you shower things, dry off and get dressed." She leaned up to nip at his pouting lip. "You worked hard during your match, I thought you might like a back rub when we get back to the hotel." Immediately Jon's expression brightened and a big grin graced his face. Kissing Becca's temple he moved to grab another towel to dry off his hair with. Setting a record for drying and getting dressed, Becca perused the rooms to make sure nothing was forgotten and they left for the hotel after a quick stop with Robbie who gave Jon his itinerary for the following two days.

Reading the schedule to Jon as requested while he drove Becca ran through his weekend events, the shows and an appearance and a meet and greet each day.

"Welcome to the circus baby!" Jon shook his head laughing. "You are now a part of the menagerie madness. You'll get used to it!"

Checking in to the Hotel, Becca let Jon do the talking and they headed up to their room after the desk clerk got an autograph and photo with Jon. Retrieving the massage oils, Becca handed the bag over to Jon to select one while she set up towels on the bed. Watching Jon perusing the oils was amusing, nothing new had been added to the four she had, still he inspected each bottle slowly, looking back and forth a couple of times before picking tonight's winner for her to go put in hot water to warm.

Jon sat at the table watching Becca move about, a smile starting on his face.

"You gonna wear something from your new clothes tonight?" That question suggested he was up to no good. Becca shrugged.

"Maybe, I don't want any of the oil getting on anything." The expression on Jon's face was sheer naughtiness then.

"So you're going to give me my back rub naked then huh?" His tongue poked out between his teeth. Walking up to him and cupping his chin gently, Becca leaned to kiss his lips gently.

"Nope!" Jon reached for her but she quickly stepped away. Getting up in a way that suggested he was stalking her, Jon advanced slowly, lowering his chin to his chest, his eyes lighting up, he looked like a bull about to charge.

"Behave yourself!" Becca warned, bringing up the finger for emphasis, licking his lips, Jon dove to grab at her anyway. With a squeal Becca dodged his grab the first time, but got caught in his second lunge. Yanking her tight against him, wrapping his arms around her Jon landed a fiery kiss to her mouth. Moaning softly as he attempted to deepen the kiss, Jon had to work at succeeding. Becca didn't give in easily, she delighted in thwarting his attempts, just to see what he would do.

Pinning her against the wall, running his hands up and down her sides gently several times, he persisted in kissing her until she allowed his tongue to slip in to caress hers. Sliding his hands behind her to give her backside a gentle squeeze before rubbing at her back, Jon broke away from the kiss after a couple of minutes. Kissing Becca's lips once more he backed away. Poking him in the middle of his chest and pushing hard to again, see what he would do, Becca was a little surprised when he kept backing up.

"Unless you want another smack on your Arse you best behave." A twinkle lit Jon's eyes but he did behave. Starting to unbutton his shirt he glanced at the bed where the towels lay ready for him.

"You want me naked or...?" He smirked. Becca's hands went to her hips.

"As much as I would enjoy the view, it's not necessary for you to take your boxers off." Flashing her a sassy grin he undressed down to his boxers, surprising Becca that he wasn't remotely aroused...yet. Sprawling out on the bed and making himself comfortable Jon grinned when Becca removed her pants.

"Don't get any cute ideas Lover, I don't want oil on my pants...and NO, I will not do this in the nude!" Jon chuckled and watched her until she approached with the oil. Climbing up to straddle his hips Becca opened the cinnamon scented oil and went to work on the magnificent looking back below her. Giving Jon a back rub was a delight except when she looked upon the scars on his right shoulder. He never seemed to be bothered by them, but it was painful for her to see.

Listening and feeling the moan of delight as she worked her way up and down his back Becca smiled. He really worked hard when he was in front of his fans, part of her was beginning to believe that he should be allowed all the affection and good things he could handle to enjoy. Working down to his lower back, she warned him before pulling down his underwear a little to work a little further on his back, then going down his arms and legs, she debated a moment then told the sleepy man to turn over.

Working from over his head she massaged his shoulders and chest, then moved down to his hips to work across his arms and belly. Looking barely awake, a sleepy smile on his face, Jon watched her work, his voice heavy and tired.

"You take such good care of me baby." Giving him a brief kiss, Becca went back to working on his thighs and lower. Looking over almost every inch of his body, she noted a couple new bruises from his work. By the time she finished he was almost asleep. Covering him with another towel, she kissed his lips and told him she was going to take a quick shower. His mumble of 'okay', was barely understandable. She expected to see him fully asleep when she came back several minutes later, but no he was sitting on the edge of the bed wiping at his eyes and yawning.

"Come on Lover, go wash up, I'll turn down the bed then we can get some sleep." Prompting him gently, Becca got him up and heading into the bathroom area. It wasn't until he came back that he seemed to notice what she was wearing. Already under the blankets she found it amusing that Jon pulled the bedding off of her to look her over.

"Damn Baby!" He knelt beside her, "you look so f**king good in that!" He licked his lips looking her up and down a couple times. He obviously liked what he saw, and was too damn tired to do anything about it.

"Come on lover, snuggle up with me and let's get some sleep, if you want in the morning we can play." With a wistful look at her Jon reached for the blankets and pulled them up to cover both of them as he lay down beside her. Pulling Becca into his arms he kissed her gently, licking at her lips. Allowing him in to kiss her deeply, loving the sweet deep kisses and the gentle strokes up and down her side Becca scratched gently at Jon's chest, ran her fingers through his hair and kissed him back. Running her hands over his shoulders, arms and sides as they made out, she reveled in the feel of his muscles flexing

under his hot skin, the slight prickle of the hair on his chest and the scruff of beard around his face.

Jon had asked her that morning if she wanted him to shave, she had told him it was his choice, she liked his scruffy bit of facial hair, and she also liked him clean shaven. She told him to do as he chose, he didn't shave. Throughout the cuddling and kissing Jon's 'attitude' remained calm, sleeping. After the wild round earlier and no reaction yet, she was now expecting him to stay asleep at least until the morning. They kissed a bit, cuddled, Jon would slow down, snuggle her, she would think he was winding down, then he would kiss her again or begin to nuzzle her neck again and they played a bit more. Finally at almost midnight Jon kissed her lips gently, thanked her for making him feel so good and said good night to her.

Turning in his arms to kiss him back and laying her head on his chest, she thanked him back for making her feel good as well. They were both quiet for several minutes, Becca thought Jon may have fallen asleep, but his breathing hadn't dropped into his normal sleep pattern, looking up she saw his eyes open, staring at the ceiling, her motions making him look to her.

"You Okay baby?" he kissed at her temple.

"Never batter Lover, how about you? I thought you'd be sleeping by now." He nodded, trailing his fingers through her hair a couple of times and looked back up at the ceiling.

"I was just thinking I haven't felt this safe or comfortable in...damn...I don't know how long. Maybe not ever." Becca felt her heart ache for Jon. He could act like such a Bad Ass, and he had such a tender heart and a gentle soul at times.

"You make me feel so good, so loved..after so long, it feels weird, but it feels so right. It's a powerful thing, you know? I've been down at the bottom for so long, I never felt I deserved much. I slept with whichever skank I could get in bed with just to feel a few minutes of...something. I thought that's all I was worth..cheap women who'd f**k anyone. It was a bed to sleep in, a few minutes of feeling good, then a feeling of emptiness and being used, and have used them, feeling like trash."

"Things got better the last few years, there were better places to work, better women to sleep with, but it all still felt so empty. At least I started to think I was worth something, but there was something in me making me feel cold and empty. It was so cool hearing the fans react to the Shield, to me. The emptiness started to fill up a little. I finally felt like I was being respected, and that everything I went through was maybe worth it. Then last week at RAW I started feeling something I never felt before, it was like a vibration, some kind of excitement, like something was going to happen." He leaned to kiss her forehead. Smiling as he looked into her face, he stroked at her cheek.

"I came out to the ring, it was so noisy, but I heard a voice calling out like it was the only one speaking." Becca felt the tears coming and there was nothing she could do to stop them. "It was you, you were yelling that you loved me, I felt my heart jump, I turned and saw you, I knew it was you I had been feeling." Wiping at the tears that began to escape, Jon pulled her onto his chest and held her tight. "I have to keep going..I need to say this..." Becca sniffed, wiping at the damnable tears and nodded.

"I knew immediately that I had to meet you, talk with you, I wasn't sure how it would work out, but you understood me when I motioned for you to go back by the barrier, and then I realized you had a pass. I was so excited to know I had a chance to get to spend some time with you. I just wanted to forget about my work and follow you back, but I had to follow the script. When they through me in that 'closet' I was furious, I forgot about that part, my first thoughts were I wouldn't get to see you. I saw the second door and was going to go out immediately, then I realized you were in there with me." Jon wiped at his eyes and steadied his voice which had been getting shaky. He swallowed a couple times, kissed at Becca's forehead and held her tight for a moment.

"The only thing that mattered right then as you, you were there with me. We connected so quickly, in so many ways. I felt things I had never felt before, it was so powerful I was sure I couldn't survive without what you made me feel. I still don't think I can. All that mattered was being with you. Joe said that's what love is, I have no idea if that's right or not. I don't really ever remember loving anything but this sport that got me out of the life I had before. I met you, now, I'm not sure what it is I'm feeling. I want you with me, you calm me, you make me feel so many good things, you make me feel like someone really gives a damn about me. Even when I make you mad, you still care. I...I'm trying to understand it." Kissing her again and cuddling her, he looked at Becca as she pushed herself up to look down at him.

"When we have make love, it's just that, not just having sex, " he whispered as she kissed his lips. "It's not empty, it feels good, it's satisfying in so many ways." Becca kissed him gently, nipping his lip. "For the first time, I feel things I've never felt before." They shared a kiss as he rolled them so Becca was under him. Indulging in a deep kiss before looking in her eyes, kissing her again and whispering to her. Jon told her that Joe teased him that first day they were together when he called, "He said to me that Cupid nailed my ass, and 'welcome to being in love'. I remembered yelling something at him. I don't fall in love..At least I hadn't yet. Or didn't think I had." He sighed and shook his head.

"Becca baby, I don't know what it is to be in love. I don't want to f**k this up. I'm terrified of losing you because I can't act the way I'm supposed to because I don't now how I'm supposed..." Becca got her hand over his mouth.

"Shhh." Jon shut his mouth, looked down, a little worried looking until he heard what she had to say. "I know you're not used to this, I don't expect you to act in any specific way. Whatever we have, it's not like what others have, because it is ours alone. It's what we make of it. You will not lose me Lover, you are stuck with me!" Jon smiled a little and kissed her hand. Running her fingers through his hair. She felt him relaxing.

"I'm not going to put a name on what you're feeling, that's for you to decide. As long as you are happy with what's happening, I say you just enjoy it. Deal?" Jon grinned.

"Deal!" Rubbing noses gently he rolled back to her side and cuddled Becca with a happy sigh. "Becca?"

"Hmm?"

"Did..did you mean...did you mean when...you yelled out..."

"When I yelled I love you?" Jon slowly nodded. Rising back up to look down into his face, she smiled. "Yes I did!" Kissing him gently and scooting to lay with her head on his chest, she let him absorb what she had said. He had immediately wrapped his arms around her, hugging her tight, making a funny noise as he held her. She felt as he reached to wipe again at his eyes.

"By the way," she smiled having put together a conversation she'd only heard part of. "In case you don't remember exactly what you said. "When Joe told you Cupid nailed your Arse, you roared out 'F**k You' at him!" Jon burst out laughing and kissed her again.

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