Two songs are featured in this chapter. "Only Hope" by Switchfoot and "Shining Star" found that one on a website. In this one Shawn and Juliet aren't dating but they begin to. Not much of a tear jerker and I tried a different writing style with this one...

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over again

"Mr. Spencer you have cancer…" The words kept playing in his mind. No matter what he did he couldn't get the words to stop playing. He tried drinking; smoking, just ignoring them but they drove him crazy. This morning when the chief was talking to him he thought she said some things…

"Mr. Spencer I know that you have cancer," she had said.

"What Chief?" he asked startled that she knew, he hadn't told anyone not even his dad or Gus.

"I said Mr. Spencer I know that you have concerns," Chief repeated and Shawn nodded.

Nothing could drone out the words that played endlessly in his mind. His life was changing. He was working as a Psychic (fake), dealing with his father (not fun), playing tricks on Gus (fun), and going to Chemo and Radiation therapy (hurtful/ not fun). The Chemo and Radiation were wearing him out but he couldn't tell anyone without them questioning him about it and he didn't want to explain. He had managed to keep his secret until Juliet O'Hara (love of his life he just didn't have the balls to tell her that) figured it out.

"Shawn are you okay?" Juliet asked approaching him outside the station.

"I'm fine Jules are you okay?" he shot back.

"Shawn… I know you have cancer. I don't know which one and I don't know how badly but I know that you have it." Juliet said taking a deep breath.

"How? How do you know?" Shawn asked quietly.

"My grandpa died of cancer and you look like he did. Pale, weak and really tired." Juliet said walking closer to him.

"Don't tell anyone Jules…" Shawn said.

"No one knows?"

"If they knew…" he waved his hand at the station "They would treat me differently like I was fragile," Shawn said.

"But Shawn pretty soon you are going to be extremely weak you won't be able to live by yourself anymore." Juliet said and Shawn just shook his head.

"At least let me help you Shawn. Let me help you. Let me take you to your appointments, let me stay over at your house and let me take care of you. Because you need to save your energy for fighting the cancer." Juliet said (more begged).

"Jules I…" He started but he saw her eyes turn a light blue and he knew she really cared for him.

"Okay Jules," Shawn agreed and Juliet gave him a hug.

4 Months Later

Shawn had kept his agreement and let Juliet take care of him. She basically lived at his apartment. She took him to all of his appointments and was there when his hair started to fall out (he cried for hours). Juliet stayed in a guest bedroom right across from the bathroom she awaked to the sounds of panting. She stood up and walked out of the room and saw the bathroom door shut but the light on.

"Shawn are you okay?" she asked softly knocking on the door.

"Ugh…Yeah Jules. I'm… I'm fine," Shawn said weakly.

"I'm coming in," Juliet said reaching for the handle.

"No Jules please don't…" But he stopped and puked his insides out instead. She opened the door and found Shawn's head in the toilet as his body shook. Shawn always wore a beanie on his head to cover his now bald head.

"It's okay," Juliet soothed rubbing circles into his back. Over the past few months Juliet and Shawn had gotten close. They had even started dating a few weeks ago.

"I'm right here baby," she said as Shawn continued to throw up. When he was done and slouched against the wall Juliet handed up a cup of water so he could rinse his mouth.

"You feeling better?" she asked softly and he nodded.

"Come on let's get you to bed." she helped him stand and she helped into his bedroom and into his bed.

"Jules… can you stay?" he asked. Juliet nodded and got into bed next to him she pulled the blanket over both of them.

"Jules I have to tell you something…" Shawn whispered.

"What is it?" she whispered back.

"I love you," he said and she smiled.

"I love you too," she said and caressed his cheek.

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

Shawn's doctors said he was making recovery. He was going to make it through but it was going to take a while once they got rid of the actual cancer itself. Juliet would talk about their future all of the time. They had been together for almost a year now and Shawn had managed to stay alive. Juliet was extremely proud of Shawn for staying strong and himself throughout this whole time.

Nothing could really make Shawn laugh anymore. Not any of Gus's jokes or Carlton Lassiter's funny hairstyles nothing. Except Juliet. Every night to help him sleep Juliet would sing a song called "Shining Star" she would sing it when he was sick too.

"I got a plan

Yeah you got a plan

Gotta plan ahead

I got a plan that'll make you a star

Make you get rich

Make you go far

Take a life and throw it on a bus

Make you feel like you make a fuss

Bright ideas and a fast feel too

Make you feel like you gotta feel unglued," Shawn would be able to sing with her at this point.

"Shining star

Shining star

Shining star yeah

Take my soul

Just leave me with your heart

Loving heart

Just leave me with your heart

Shining star," Every time they would finish singing it they would tell each other they loved you (Shawn to Juliet and Juliet to Shawn) and they would kiss. She sang this to him because in her mind Shawn was her Shining Star and she had plans for him. She wanted to get married, have kids, and settle down together. She would tell him this and it would help him make it through.

And they did. About a year and 6 months later Shawn was officially written as cancer free. They had went out and celebrated with their family and friends and that's when he asked her to marry him (she agreed). Then 3 years later when they were happily married and his hair had fully grown back (he missed his hair) they had found out Juliet was pregnant.

Even though Shawn was fully healed they still sang "Shining Star" every night. They sang it to their son (Zachariah) every night and he loved it. Shawn was happy Juliet had figured out his secret because if she hadn't… who knows where he would be?

I know now you're my only hope…

First 3 people to review will be able to choose a Person/Cancer that's it. I will then write from there and post the story as a tribute to that person. I am doing this to encourage more people to review and to write their own stories. Sorry for all of the updates for this... the grammer was making me mad!