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26. Hopeless Love
Lyle's POV:
They say twins share everything. Once upon a time that was true for us. Neil might have been the older of the two of us, by twelve minutes anyway, but he was always the one who wanted to share. Toys, candy… anything that one of us received we shared.
Then our parents and little sister died and the sharing stopped. We went our separate ways, knowing that probably we'd never see one another again. The moment my brother died, I felt it deep inside of me. Like half of my heart was gone. But I ignored the feeling and went on as if nothing happened. When I got so bluntly informed of Neil's death, I know I had to have looked shocked. It wasn't the news that shocked me, but the sudden remembrance of 'knowing' he was gone the moment it happened.
I ended up taking my brother's place as a Meister, as a terrorist… as a lover. The first time my eyes landed on Tieria, I had known as well that this had been the man my brother had loved, for the simple fact my heart went to him instantly. He hated me on sight, and I couldn't help but pursue him any way.
The first time he came to my bed, it wasn't my name he called out. When he slipped from the still sweaty bed-clothes he looked at me with angry eyes and said, "This doesn't mean anything… You're not him… You will never be him…"
As he continued to come to my bed, I received him hoping that he would see me for the person I was, not the one I looked like.
Now it seems I'm still sharing with my brother. I share the space that should have been his, the gundam that would have been his, the friends that were his and the lover that will always be his.