He was on the plane thinking about what just happened because he said he would never leave. When he slammed the door he felt like it was over, how could he treat her that way. This time he gave her no reason to forgive him, but when he read the text from Garrett he was furious. The fact that she tried to tell him never entered his mind at that time, she was pregnant and he treated her like she was nothing again.
He read stuff on emotional abuse and the only thing he did was tell her that the rape was her fault, thinking about the times he said it and the rest of the times when he didn't. She always knew what he was thinking and the fact was that she gave him one chance after another to make it better and he let her down every time.
He decided not to text her or Paula because he would be back on the twenty seventh of December and hopefully she would want to see him.
Bay was released on the twenty third and went straight to the house. She had Nicole and her brother inspect it because he was a contractor and would know what needed to be fixed. He said all it really needed was to be painted inside and out. The roof would have to be changed, but since it did not rain that much she could wait to fix it.
When she arrived at her new address she walked around the property and to the pool in the back yard and realized the guest house was just as nice as the main house. She figured she could rent out the guest house or make it a pool house for guests to enjoy. Finally the realtor arrived and she decided to purchase the property, she just needed to know who to make the check out too.
When that was taken care of she called the power, water, and cable company to set up a date to get everything connected. They said the house would be fully functional and ready to live in by the twenty eighth.
The house was in the opposite direction from her apartment and it would take her almost an hour to get home because of the traffic. On her way back to the apartment she passed up a furniture store and decided to stop and check it out. By the time she was done shopping she had spent over thirty thousand dollar's which furnished every room except for the babies and the furniture would be delivered on the thirtieth of December.
She talked to Nicole's brother and asked him if he knew a painter that could paint her house by the twenty ninth and since there would be no electricity until the twenty eighth, she would pay them very well.
She talked to the moving company and they decided to move everything out of her apartment on the twenty seventh because she wanted it cleaned out before Emmett got home. Paula brought all of his things to Kieth's apartment which was really Emmett's but he had sub leased it out to Kieth. The letter he wrote to Bay was still sealed in her purse.
Often she would take the envelope out of her purse and look at it, but she never opened it. She felt the engagement ring but she was still too mad to read what he had to say.
Bay and Amy went the next day to pick out the right colors of paint and delivered the pails and brushes to her new house. Amy opened up a gallon and started painting a wall in the color that she picked out. Bay decided to put everything from the apartment into the guest house, since it had two rooms she would use the other one to paint and draw in. The posts in the front and back of the house were the only things outside that really needed to be painted now and she decided red was the right color.
She still needed things for both kitchens and a new washer and dryer. Luckily she was able to finance most of it,two refrigerator's, stoves and dishwashers for both houses. It was costing her more than she had expected but when everything was done it would be awesome.
She celebrated Christmas with Paula and her family but also with Amy's family splitting the time between them. She really couldn't do much for herself right now, but she was thinking about having a party for all of her friends once the house was ready.
She hired a professional landscaper because her yard was nothing but cement and bushes and had not been taken care of in over a year, so everything needed work. She sat outside and learned a few things from her landscaper on how to plant and take care of her flowers and he was more than happy to help. They decided to plant perennial flowers because as she learned, they would come back every year. When they were finished in the yard he asked her if she would like to go on a date with him and she told him that she was pregnant, but was very flattered at his offer.
Finally it was the thirtieth and all of her furniture and appliances were being delivered. Nicole's brother spent the day at her house to make sure the washer and dryer and all of the appliances were set up and working properly. All of her friends stopped by to help her unpack and she was so thankful that they were there for her no matter what.
When everything was finished she gave each of them a six pack of beer and Raymond a thousand dollars because she could have never done it without him. He and his wife were so thankful. Bay had met Raymond's wife at Nicole's house a while back and thought she was so nice. They talked about everything that had happened with Emmett, she finally let her read the letter and she cried the entire time.
She told Bay that he was insecure about Garrett and when he read the text he lost it. She told Bay that she had to read the letter and call Emmett because it had been so long since she talked to him and she needed to listen to what he had to say.
It was finally her time alone in her knew house when she pulled the letter out of her purse and put it on the bathroom counter. After running her a bubble bath she got into the tub and began reading it:
My love, I am writing you this letter to ask for forgiveness, even though I don't think I deserve it. Let me tell you what happened and hopefully you will understand and give me a chance to show you how much I love you. When I went to your house after leaving the hospital and you went to take a shower, I looked around and saw your nightstand was full of condoms. A piece of my heart died because I knew that I could never compare to Garrett. He never cheated on you, he never left you to deal with a rape alone, he never started dating the girl that you were worried about. How did I have the right to tell you anything because we were only dating and you could drink with whomever you wanted to.
He deserved you and I didn't and when I saw that text I lost it and the things I said to you were very cruel. When I arrived at Keith's apartment I realized that I told you I did not want to know, you tried to tell me about what happened and I told you it did not matter. We talked for a while and at two o'clock I went back to your apartment to sleep on the couch. Paula was there and took me on the roof and told me to go to KC for Christmas and that you needed to be left alone for now.
I cried, how could I spend Christmas without my love. She even put my bag outside the door and I was going to go. I was on my way to the airport when I got the text that you were in the hospital.
I knew it was my fault and when I got there I found out that you were having my baby. How could I have left you again, you had to deal with everything alone and I wasn't there for you.
She asked me questions and when I answered her I knew that I wasn't good enough for you. You have no clue how terrible it was when she asked me what happened in the rain, I told her and my heart was breaking when I said the words. She was so mad at me, all of the times that you talked with her about the rape and you never told her about my reaction to it. Thank you for protecting me when I didn't deserve it.
She said that if you didn't want me in the baby's life that I had to respect your wishes. Please, it's our second chance, I have to hold you and the baby, please forgive me.
I will not text you, I am going to try to be the mature man that you love and not the emotional abuser that I never realized I was.
So I am going on our trip to KC. I bought you an engagement ring which I was planning to give you on New Year's eve, but I did not know if you would want to see me so I put the ring in this envelope.
I need to ask you to forgive me please, you are my life, would you marry me? I don't want to imagine my life without you in it.
love,
Emmett
She wiped the tears from her eyes, why did she still love him? Maybe because he was her everything, but If he would have told her about his feeling's towards Garrett, this could have been handled in May.
With Emmett staying in California and she needed to be with someone. In New York she finally had sex and the fact was even though she loved Emmett, she was not ready to be with him.
Garrett was the next best thing because the sex was so good and it kept her from being a slut. Three guys were all she had been with intimately and willingly, but Emmett had her heart.
She gets her phone and texts him the address to her new house and when he arrived they would just talk because she was not ready for it to be anything more than that.
She went to sit outside by the pool because he would know that's where she would be.
At ten o'clock he gets the text from her with the new address and enters it into his GPS and realizes it is about forty five minutes away. He jumps on his bike and anxiously goes to meet her.
When he gets there he is confused and unsure if he is at the right house. He knows Bay well so he goes into the backyard and she is sitting on the sofa sleeping. She looks so beautiful as he sits across from her. This was the furniture he bought her as he notices the water hose was filling up the pool and was almost to the top.
He turns it off and approaches the pool house and it is locked, so he walks to the house. The patio doors were open as he walks into the house. In the living room was one of the paintings she had done on the roof of their apartment. He walks into one of the bedrooms and realizes it was hers because her sketch pad was on the nightstand.
He goes into the next room and its empty, but the walls are painted a light yellow, it must be the baby's room. The next room has another bed and the colors and everything are totally Bay as he turns around and sees words on the wall.
YOUR PRESENCE FLOATS FOR A MOMENT OR TWO
AS IF WRAPPING MY WHOLE BEING IN AN ANXIOUS WAIT FOR THE MORNING.
I NOTICE THAT I'M WITH YOU.
AT THAT INSTANT STILL FULL OF SENSATIONS,
MY HANDS ARE SUNK IN ORANGES,
AND MY BODY FEELS SURROUNDED BY YOUR ARMS.
Man he loves her as he walks to her room and pulls the sheets back. He goes outside, picks her up, and carries her to bed as she hugs him, how he wishes she was awake. When she is in bed he puts his hand on her stomach, it had gotten bigger as he puts his head down and kisses her.
He turns off the lamp and walks out of the room because it is almost midnight and he has no clue what he should do. He sits down on the sofa and notices everything is new and wonders how she bought this place.
He notices her keys on the kitchen counter and walks to the pool house, unlocks the door and opens it and it was their apartment. One bedroom has their bed in it and the other one was for her to paint in with their desk in the corner. She bought this house for sixty thousand dollars and he thought, wow that was cheap. The furniture in the house cost money but she had it to spend and the paint and all of the appliances were financed. He thought ten thousand dollars for painters was ridiculous, but since they completed the entire house inside and out in such a short period of time, it made sense.
Now he knew everything. Why had it taken so long for her to call him? She was busy but not too busy. He figured it was late and that he would go to sleep in their bed and talk to her in the morning. He took off his clothes and put them on the chair and got in on his side of the bed like he normally would.
In the morning he woke up and it felt like before as he reached over to the other side of the bed expecting Bay to be laying next to him. He opens his eyes realizing he lost her and she wasn't going to be anywhere around him.
He puts his clothes on and goes outside where she is drawing and drinking coffee. "Good morning, I spent the night in our bed last night, I hope that you don't mind."
"I wanted to talk to you last night, thank you for not getting into bed with me."
"Your welcome, baby, you are not supposed to be drinking coffee, do you have orange juice?"
"You know me better than that, decaf, orange juice makes me sick. I read your letter last night because I was too mad to read it before. Why didn't you ever tell me how you felt about Garrett, he was just a guy I dated."
"You broke up with Ty because he was jealous and I didn't want you to find out that I was jealous of Garrett. At the hospital when he would come to visit you I would leave. I tried to make it alright, but when he pulled out the key to your house, I went outside and cried."
"Do you realize we would still be together if you had just been honest with me, he was the only guy that I slept with, I'm not a slut."
He closes his eyes, it really was over, he never wanted her to feel like that.
"I never wanted to make you feel like that, baby, you have to know how sorry I am for everything I said, you could never know how I feel about you. You know when I get mad I'm usually fine after fifteen minutes, the same thing happened that night. I would have come back, but Keith said not to, I should have never listened to him, I love you so much baby."
"You broke my heart again, you said that you would never leave and when you slammed the door I broke down and cried. Since you are deaf you can't know how it feels to have a door slammed on you and you have done it to me so many times. I know that I'm pregnant so my emotions are all over the place, but I love you and only you, maybe we can talk next month. I will be four months pregnant and maybe I won't be as emotional as I am now.I go back to the Doctor he said we could find out the sex of the baby, but I'm not sure I want to know."
"Please don't say that it will be a month before we can talk again because this has been the hardest ten days of my life and I will do whatever you want me too. I don't know how to live without you, you make me want to get up every morning, I can't even write without you, I need you baby so much. I didn't even visit my family on Christmas Day, I stayed in bed and cried like a baby."
"Emmett, the way I felt about you then is how I will always feel. We can get together on the second of January because I can't go anywhere, I am supposed to be on bed rest. I have an appointment to go to the obstetrician and he will probably do an ultrasound, you can bring me."
"Baby, if you are on bed rest, what are you doing out of bed? I can't even imagine how hard it has been for you, whatever you need, please tell me. I will not let you go through this alone, please know that you can call me for whatever you need."
"I was just told not to walk around and to stay sitting, so you know that means no cooking. The Doctor will hopefully say that I can go back to work soon. I love working on the film and if I can't go back, I just don't know what I will do. If you can bring me to the Doctor for the ultrasound that would help, I'm sure that you would love to see our little peanut."
"Thank you, just text me and let me know what time it is. I still can't believe that my baby is inside of you. I will do whatever I have to do to make this easy for you because I love you so much."
She closes her eyes "I love you too."