A/N: Hey loves! :) So, thank you for all your reviews! And I know I said I wouldn't update for a while, but oops. I lied. Haha, usually when I update, it's because I got inspired, and that inspiration lasts about 2 - 4 chapters, so then I'm on a roll. But this will be kind of short, sorry!
Anyway, replies! :D
Vamplove218: Don't worry about how Stevie and Molly know each other, darling. I plan to tie up all loose ends in this story at some point :) this is only the beginning of the middle haha.
LunarEclipse22428: That bugs you too, huh? Lol. I don't know why, but the whole guys makes a mistake thing bugs me because it's so predictable, I think. I mean, some people make phenomenal stories that play out that way, but they're just predictable lol.
Lulunatic14: Eh, it's fine :) sometimes those words trip me up, too. But your grammar isn't that bad! :)
~Chapter 20~
~Change of Plans~
Stevie let me sleep with her that night, in the same bed, even though she was frustrated and upset about the whole situation with Molly. But she slept as far away from me as her side of the bed would allow.
I wanted to tell her that it wasn't my fault that this happened, but part of me said to give her time to think things over. If I caused an argument, she'd wouldn't think clearly. Anger, love, sex, depression, and few other things cloud judgment.
I wanted to make sure that when she was thinking, she was thinking clearly. She knew I was awake beside her all night. I couldn't sleep knowing that she was upset.
Despite her anger at me, she still gave me a good morning kiss on my cheek. It was slow and gentle, and she meant it.
I watched her walk out of the bedroom, not bothering to change, and then the front door opened.
She was going outside.
I got up and threw on a fresh pair of pants and a shirt, and followed her.
"Stevie," I called.
Her posture went slightly flat and she turned to face me. I walked up to her and did my best not to reach out and touch her. "Baby, please don't give me the silent treatment."
She looked torn between wanting to forgive me (even though none of this was my fault), and keeping silent. Her bottom lip trembled slightly, and her eyes looked sad and confused. She crossed her arms, hoping to keep herself together and demanded quietly, "Did you know about this? Any of this?"
"Of course I didn't. If I'd known she was alive, I'd've gone looking for her years ago. But Stevie, my soul found yours, and I don't want to lose you..."
She ignored me and said, "Do you love her too?"
I opened my mouth to disagree, but my voice died in my throat. I closed my mouth with a click of my teeth, and pursed my lips.
Did I love Molly? Maybe I didn't, but part of my being thought yes. Yes because was my first mate. But the girl before me saw my hesitation to answer, and right then, salty tears stung her eyes. She closed her hazel orbs and let the tears fall freely, staining her cheeks.
I'd only seen her like this one other time. When I told her that becoming a vampire meant leaving her family. "I don't know if I love her, Stevie."
"Why don't you just choose her?" she spat, wiping at her eyes.
I sighed, "Please don't say that. I'm frustrated too, Stevie. But if I get any more frustrated, I'm gonna make a decision I'll regret later."
"Zander... just go with her. Okay? I want to fight for you... but I don't want to lose, or let you down..." her voice was quiet and shaky.
"I can't choose, baby. If it was that simple, you both wouldn't have to fight. That's the only thing male vampires have no control over."
"Well, too bad," she said sadly. "I've made up my mind, Zander."
"W-What do you mean?" I asked, panic cracking my voice. Cracking the organ beating behind my ribcage, and my thoughts, and everything like a rock would do to a mirror.
"I'm not ready to stand up to Molly."
"So, that's it?" I asked suddenly, furious. Furious because it felt like she was just going to give me up.
She looked at me sadly. "Please don't be mad at me. Zander... she's right. You're her mate..."
I softened then. She was just being generous to a nasty girl. But I wanted her, and I even wanted Molly.
These bonds were confusing as hell.
"Where are you gonna go?" I asked, feeling hopeless.
Accepting defeat. Heartbreak. That's what I was doing. Accepting heartbreak.
She shrugged sadly and said, "Don't worry about... I've got some place in mind."
Then she left. Ran away, and didn't even look back. My heart felt heavy then, and I wondered if it was even worth it to run after her.
Instead, I stayed put, taking in the last of her scent as it swirled around me like the wind.
Stevie was gone.
A/N: Dun, dun, duuuuun. Thoughts? :)