Chapter 21. A little short but I hope you all like it. Smiles.

"Jared, please, stop freaking out! I`m not going to Seattle and I`m not leaving you!" Her worried words should have comforted him but they didn`t. He saw that she was getting dressed, this made him more anxious that she was going to leave. Quick as a flash he was in front of her, pulling what she had put on off of her.

"Jared!" She screeched angrily. "What the hell!"

"You`re not leaving me. You can`t. I`ll die." Jared was vaguely aware that he sounded like a demented control freak.

"JUST STOP IT!" Kim yelled, tears welling up in her beautiful brown eyes. "Why won`t you listen to me?" The sight of her sitting on his bed, hugging her knees and crying made him snap out of it. She didn`t deserve this. Especially not from him.

"Please Kimi. I`m sorry. Please, I can`t stand it when you cry." He tried to hold her but she pushed him away angrily. He felt like he had been shot through the heart. He was paralyzed. Kim hopped off the bed and began to dress in ernest. Anger was coming off her in waves.

"If you can`t stand to see me cry then don`t make me cry Jared." She said, pulling on her long socks.

"I know, I`m sorry, please, Just stay with me, don`t go." He pleaded.

"No. It`s not fair what you are doing. I need to think about some things." Kims voice had a hard edge to it that Jared had never heard before. He didn`t like it. She sounded a lot like her father.

"Are you breaking up with me?"Jared whispered. He felt himself tremble and shake in anger and fear. Kim looked at him shocked.

"NO! I just need to think about things by myself for a while." Her face was pained.

"We can think about things together." He was begging. He never begged any girl before.

"I need to be on my own now." He felt her pushing him away. It hurt to much for him to handle.

"You know I can`t stay away from you." His voice hardened. He felt his body tremble more. He had to control himself. She didn`t say anything, just collected her art things.

"When you do this you torture me." He said truthfully. She fumbled with the zip of her pencil and its entire contents spilled onto his floor. She looked at the scattered pencils and pens not moving.

"You make me sound like some sort of heartless bitch." She said quietly. He didn`t know if she was angry or sad.

"That`s not true." Jared said, appalled.

"How do you think I feel Jared? With you freaking out over something that`s not true! You ripped my clothes off for Christ`s sake. You talked about dying! You`re making this seem like it`s all my fault. I did nothing wrong."

"I just afraid." Jared admitted.

"Afraid of what? Tell me." Kim demanded.

"Afraid of losing you. It tears me up. I can`t help it."

"What makes you think that you`ll lose me? Besides something stupid my dad told you."

"It`s just a feeling, I can`t explain it Kim."

"When you figure out what it is then tell me. Right now I need to go."

"Please Kimi, just let me be with you. Let me set everything right." He was pleading again.

"I think that it would be good for us if we spend less time together." That was like a stab through the heart for Jared. Kim looked upset.

"I think it wouldn`t be a good idea." He was angry. "I think it`s a fucking stupid idea. But if that`s what you want then I`ll have to go along with it." He didn`t fight to keep to the bitterness from his voice as he got dressed.

"I`m going over to Sam`s place to start patrol." He lied.

"I should get going then." He didn`t want to look at her.

"I`ll drive you home." Jared said without hesitation.

"No, it`s okay. I`ll walk." Kim started to gather her pencils from the floor.

"It`s halfway across the rez and it`s raining."

"I`ll walk. You don`t want to be late for patrol."

"Kim, I`m sorry for what happened."

"Me too." Her beautiful mouth was pulled down in a frown. "Jared, you know I love you more than anything in the universe. Just remember it."

"I love you too Kimi." He had to stop himself from wrapping himself around her and stop her from going. He had to give her what she wanted. She needed her space.

"Call me tonight?"She asked quietly.

"Of course."

"See you and be safe."

"You be safe."

With that she left. Even though there was no sun out today he felt that she left with all his light. He watched her from his bedroom window walk down his road and disappear from view.

Reviews and criticism welcome. Smiles.