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Author's note: Well. next week is my birthday... so don't be so hard on me okay.
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Chapter 21
I'm sorry
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"Brennan! what the... What are you... are you trying to kill me?" Jesse whispered aloud. He tried his best to talk without waking Emma up. He knew that Emma could wake up at the slightest movement. He eyed Brennan but Brennan just looked back at him.
Brennan did not stir. He stood there staring sadly at Jesse's eyes. Jesse saw him--he saw beyond him. He saw his pain, he saw his sorrow. "I just..." Brennan started. "I...I just...um..." he forced a smile and he walked towards Jesse and patted his shoulder. "Take care of her for me, will you." Brennan sounded defeated. His voice is week and weeping. He closed his eyes and turned, making his move to leave.
Jesse wanted to just let him leave. He wanted him to feel the consequence of fooling around women. He wanted him to suffer so much. But something is different this time. He pitied Brennan in his state. "Wait." Jesse stopped him even if half of him was telling him to just let him away.
Brennan stopped and turned to him with a sad smile. "I heard you have problems with your power." Jesse started trying to make a light conversation away from the real matter. He did not know how to begin so he started to being a friend.
"Yeah." Brennan responded looking at his hands hoping to create a single spark but he failed miserable. "Started getting out of hand last month after our encounter with that mutant." he tried to sound alright; trying his best to forget about Emma for awhile.
Jesse stirred from his position, a little shot of worriedness bumps into him when he learned this. "Are you okay now?"
"Adam said he'll tell me soon if he finds out everything." Brennan replied, placing his hands in his side pockets. "It started weakening but right now, I can't tapped into my powers. Adam has advice me to try it out once in awhile." he continued.
"You mean you can't make even a spark?"
"Nope." Brennan answered quickly. Silence fell to them again. "Well, I'll be going then." Brennan turned again and started walking away.
Jesse sighed heavily. "We need to talk, man." He called out aloud, willing Brennan to look at him. "Not about your powers." He continued. As he waited for Brennan to turn back, thought for awhile. Should he tell him?He knew somehow that he needed tolet him know."Emma and I..." he paused. "we're not together." He could not believe that he is giving Brennan this hope. He knew for a fact that it would not matter, for Brennan would soon to be a father but he just needed to air that out. "We are not together."
Brennan flinched. "What...wha...why are you telling me this?" He was a bit confussed but there was definitely a hope in his eyes now. "Why are..."
"Oh stop playing around, Brennan." Jesse snorted out."Emma told me everything. Everything about you two."
Brennan didn't know how to react. Jesse caught him off guard. He was not ready for this talk. Jesse shook his head and smiled sadly. "Oh yes, Bren. I know. I now know. The question is, how could you have done this to her? How could you let her go through this?"
"I...I..." Brennan tried explaining but it was no use. "Damn it!" he cursed and hit the wall.
Jesse grabbe his arm and forced him to look at his direction. "Stop that, you'll wake her up." he scolded.
There were tears on Brennan's cheek. He didn't know when he started crying. "I love her... so much but I don't deserve her. I'm so fucked up. I'm a mess. Damn it but I can't even remember how I got Shalimar pregnant."
Jesse wanted to hit Brennan for the last sentence that he blurted out but he was determine to help. "Let's not talk here. Come." He led Brennnan to his room and then shut the door close hoping that no one could hear them... not even Emma.
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"I find it hard to believe you, man." Jesse broke the silence after Brennan finished telling him his-side-of-the-story. Brennan looked at him a little disappointed. "I saw you with her..." Jesse had to stop. It was painful even to be reminded of the sight of the woman he love with another man. "I saw you two, naked... together in her room." Jesse tried to swallow the lumps in his throat.
Brennan stared with a very sad eyes. "I know it's hard to really believe but I swear I can't even remember how I got her pregnant and..."
Brennan did not have the chance to continue what he was about to say. Jesse's fist made a connection to his jaw. "You lie." Jesse gazed on Brennan who was lying on the floor with bloods coming out of his mouth. "You used her and you tell me that you don't even remember? The least you could do is admit that you did it and say sorry."
"But I could not remember doing it, Jesse. I just can't." Brennan tried explaining once more but it was useless. Jesse was no way near believing him. His explanations and stories were all so farfetched and therefore he was not buying his story.
"You can't or you won't?" Jesse gritted his teeth. How could Brennan lie to him that way. "Damn it Brennan. You are hurting the only woman that I have learned to love."
Brennan's eyes widened. "You what?" Brennan was left out of speech and Jesse had to stop. He knew he should not have said that. He knew that it should have stayed secret. He knew that he would be better off if Brennan didn't know; but it was too late. He already said it and there is no taking it back. Brennan heard him loud and clear. "You...You love her? I mean, you really love her?"
Jesse was silenced. All his anger slowly turning into pain in the realization that once Brennan marry Shalimar, it will be the end of him and her. "I...I..." He sat down. "Damn, I shouldn't have said that!"
Brennan stared at the space Jesse has left. "You love her?" he chanted. They were both silent for awhile, unsure of how to react.Brennan broke the silence again. "does...she..."
"Of course not." Jesse interrupted him, knowing what he was about to say. "Whatdo you think? Of course no one knows, specially her." Jesse's face showed a
very sad smirk. "She was very busy loving you, Brennan, that she never noticed."
"But she deserves..."
"...to know? what for? You are going to be married soon. It will only
complicate things more." Jesse stood up and walked around his room. "She loves you,
Brennan, not me."
Brennan stared at him feeling more guilty. "I didn't...I had no idea."
"And even if you do, I don't think it would stop you from fooling around."
Jesse stopped and gazed at the elemental. "For God sake's, Bren, Shalimar is our
friend. Emma, too, is our friend. How could you have hurt them like this? what
were you thinking, man?"
Brennan averted Jesse gaze as if ashamed of what he has done. "I love shalimar,
Jesse. but only as a friend."
"Then why the hell did you need to go and mess with her?" Jesse whispered
accentedly at him. He wanted to scream at him but he was sure that if he raised his
voice a little louder he would wake up the feral and that is the last thing
that he would want.
"I told you, Jess, I don't have any memory of doing that."
Jesse lost control and punched Brennan right at his face. Brennan fell flat on
Jesse's bed with his nose bleeding. "I warned you, Bren. Do not insult Shalimar
in my presence." Jesse almost screamed at him.
Brennan raised his hand in surrender. "I'm not insulting her."
"Then don't tell me that again."
Brennan could not blame Jesse. Come to think of it, he can't believe himself
either. How could he have gotten shalimar pregnant without him knowing it. The
thought itself sound ridiculous to him. Who is he kidding. Maybe he forced
himself to forget it out of shame. "I'm sorry." was all he could say.
Jesse looked at him and he stopped moving. He felt sorry for his friend. He
hates to think it but it does looks like something else is happening. Jesse sat
down.
"I need to fix things with Emma." Brennan whispered.
Jesse nodded. "I know."
"Help me?"
Jesse let out a loud sigh. "Just this once, Bren. After this you're on your
own."
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It was a quiet morning in the Sanctuary. Emma started her early morning jog.
She was alone because Adam firmly prohibited Shalimar to continue her exercise.
Emma focused all her energy to her exercise. Last night was too much for her.
She didn't know why or how Jesse figured it out on his own. She was just thankful
that she could now talk about it with others. Jesse, nowadays, is acting as her
bestfriend. Brennan was her bestfriend and because of this mess she lost her
love and her friend.
"Ah!" She stopped and let out a short scream. She turned off her discman and
panted.
"You okay there?"
Emma turned to the source of the voice. "Adam!" she smiled.
Adam walked towards her. "I heard you screamed. Is everything okay?"
"of course." She let out a snort. "Just a little vocalization."
Adam smiled. "I see. Well, after your routine, you better come up to the lab to
work on our visitor." he placed his right hand inside his pocket and with his
left hand, motioned to the lab.
"Okay, I'll just grab a coffee." Emma agreed and run off to the kitchen.
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Shalimar sat quietly beside Brennan on the dinning table. There were meat and
eggs. Jesse was still standing at the stove cooking his breakfast. "Good morning
Ems." He greeted Emma when he saw her enter.
"Morning!" She returned his smile. "Morning Shal, Bren." She glanced at them
and proceeded to the coffee maker.
"You've got a nice smile. Good morning?" Jesse jokingly whispered.
"Almost, Jess," she playfully tickled him which caused him to drop his pancake.
Jesse bent quickly to catch his pancake but it was too late. "Oh, you are going
to pay for that."
He moved forward to Emma but Emma had quickly run away from him. Jesse run
after her doing his best to catch up.
Shalimar watched them as they run around the kitchen until both run out of the
room. She caught a bitter stance at Brennan's face. "Are you okay?" she asked
him.
"huh?" Brennan was caught off guard. He swored quietly for letting this happen.
"of course I'm okay. Why wouldn't I be."
"I'm not sure." Shalimar diverted her attention to her food and tried her best
to forget what she was thinking but it was hopeless. "Bren, what's with you and
Emma?"
Brennan avoided Shalimar's eyes. "What do you mean?"
"Oh come on Bren. You know very much what I mean."Shalimar placed her fork down
the table. She knew that something was happening behind her and she needed to
know it.
Brennan took a sip from his coffee. "No, I do not know." He was determine to
hide everything from Shalimar. He knew that it would not be good for her.
"Brennan, I'm not stupid." She said calmly. "You two used to be inseparable.
What happened?"
Brennan gripped his cup tightly that it almost broke. "Believe me Shal, that's
the same question I kept asking myself." he found it hard to swallow. He wanted
to tell her everything. He wanted to tell her that Emma is the woman he wanted
to be with. He wanted to tell her all this things but he knew he shouldn't. He
took her hand. "I'm sorry, Shal. This is something that I have to fix myself."
Shalimar almost cried when she looked at his eyes. She knew that he's not
faking anything. He's sorrow was real. He was hurting. Shalimar looked back at him
sadly.
"I know we talked about this." Brennan continued. "I am not pushing you out of
my life. It's just that..."
"It's okay. I understand. I understand." shalimar pulled him to her in a tight
hug.
"Jess, stop..." Emma paused when she run back inside the kitchen and found
Shalimar and Brennan in a tight hug. "I..."
"I got you n..." Jesse stopped too when he came in and saw Emma in a very
ackward situation."
"I'm just gonna get my coffee." Emma walked quickly, took her coffee and left.
"Ems." Jesse called after her but she walked as fast as she could. Who is she
fooling. She knew that these is all an act. She can't possibly live here with
all of them pretending that she's fine. She can't even afford to see Brennan in
someone else's arms. She's torturing herself and she knew it.
"Ems."Jesse called again. "Wait up."
Soon she was running to her room and she was running as if she could not really
hear Jesse calling after her. This is just terrible. She can't affort to let
Shalimar know anything let along get a hint on this. She can't possibly hurt her
specially on her condition.
She was trying her best not to cry on her way to the lab when she bumped into
something...someone.
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"Emmie?" The man called her.
Emma looked at the young man. It was the doctor, Franscis. She was supposed to
guarding the man's thought but her recent ordeal caused her to let go of the
man's mind. She saw Adam standing behind the man.
Adam smiled at her. "He's fine. I just finished scanning him." he told her, not
noticing her teary eyes. Emma managed to hide the pain deep down as she has to.
"Ems." Jesse finally caught up but he stopped at Franscis' sight. "you're up?
How come? I thought you..."
"Don't confuse him so much, Jesse." Adam grinned. "He does not remember
anything after the bedroom scene." He laughed hoping that the others would. Franscis
blushed in embarrassment but Emma was in no mood to laugh with Adam.
"Let's get on to business, shall we?" she said then walked straight to the lab.
Adam willed the young doctor to follow Emma as Jesse walked behind him.
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"Its a bio technical weapon." Franscis explained. "When a mutant is infected he
looses all ability to tap into his powers." Adam listened quietly as he types
some information on his computer while Jesse and Emma tries to grasp what he was
saying.
"So how is this dangerous for us again?" Jesse inquired.
Franscis turned to him and smile. "Well it's not really that dangerous only it
is highly contagious for mutants like you."
"Contagious? What is it? A disease of some sort?" Emma asked changing her
position into more relax way.
"No, no!" Franscis shook his head slowly. "A disease is something you treat.
This is something you can't treat. When a mutant uses his powers against a mutant
that is infected, the bio engeneered chemical would transfer to him rendering
him powerless after that." the young doctor continued.
"Is there a way to invert what has happened to this mutants?" Adam asked the
young doctor.
Franscis squared his shoulder. "Perhaps, but I wasn't able to finish my
research. Someone wanted to get my discovery so I had to hide."
"You weren't doing a pretty good job in hiding, hiring whores to pleasure you."
Emma stood up and walked to table near Adam coffee maker and refilled her cup
that was emptied a while ago.
Franscis blushed for the second time feeling really embarrassed. "Give him a
break, Ems." Jesse responded in defense of the young doctor. "He may be hiding
but he also needs to live, you know."
"Oh and you can't live without sex?" Emma placed the coffee down and put her
hands on her waist lifting her right brows at Jesse.
Jesse run his hands across his hair. "I didn't mean it that way, you know."
Emma crossed her arms across her chest. "Well, okay. Tell me what you mean
then."
"I meant..."
"Enough of that you two." Adam commanded which made them stopped immediately.
"I think we have a problem."
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