Chapter 21: Never Letting Go

Nessie's POV

I tried my best to ignore their shocked expressions. I was sure that I was failing. Every step I took felt like an eternity. I would just grab my son and run. That was the plan. Get CJ and run.

My plan was shattered almost immediately as Carlisle grabbed me and pulled me into a tight and loving embrace. He held onto me for a very long time and it didn't appear that he would let me go again any time soon.

"I'm sorry Carlisle. I'll just get my son and now"

"No" he said in a stern voice. "You are not going anywhere. We have lost you way too many times and we're never letting you go again"

Then I was yanked out of Carlisle's arms by Esme who also felt the need to hug me fiercly.

"Carlisle is right you're not going anywhere because we are never letting go of you again"

"But-"

"No buts young lady. Now come inside we need to talk" Carlisle said.

"My son needs help though. He hasn't eaten at all since he was born and-"

A look of worry automatically appeared on Carlisle's face. "Don't worry Nessie I'll take care of it. I'll make sure that he's fine"

I breathed a sigh of relief. There was no doctor I trusted more then Carlisle. He would make sure that my son was okay. I watched in silence as he bathed my son, put a diaper on him, and wrap him up in a blanket. How Carlisle had diapers that were just the right size for my son was beyond me but I dared not ask.

CJ cried a little when Carlisle put a needle in his arm and connected an IV to it.

"I'm sorry Nessie but I don't have any formula to feed him so this is the only way I can make sure he gets the nutrition he needs"

I hugged Carlisle and smiled. "Thank you"

"It's nothing Nessie, really. Now can you please explain what happened?! Why did you leave?! Do you have any idea how worried we all were about you?! We've been going out of our minds looking for you! Why would you do that to us?! What happened?!" Carlisle had started shouting but only because he truly had worried about me.

"I didn't think I had a choice. You all know what I did with Marcus a few months ago. Sex in exchange for drugs. Well, we didn't use protection, and I ended up pregnant. Only I didn't realize it until a few weeks ago. Only something was different. I could feel the baby moving. At only three months along I knew that wasn't exactly normal. I didn't know what to do so I ran away. My pregnancy continued to progress rapidly while I was out there on my own"

They listened intently as I told my story. When I got to the birth they were horrified by what I described. I described everything from the way he tore me open from the inside and crawled out. I described how he crawled over to me and bit me, how afterward I felt like I was on fire for days, and when I woke up to whatever it was that I was now.

"What happened after that?" Esme asked me. I was terrified to answer. I didn't want to tell them about how I went on a murderous blood thirsty rampage. Something that I could still not control.

"It's okay Nessie" Carlisle said. "You don't have to answer if you don't want to. We already know"

"But how?" I asked.

"Because we are like you" he answered.

"What do you mean 'like me'?"

"Nessie you feel the need to consume blood, correct?" Esme asked.

I was too scared to say anything so I just nodded my head.

"That's because you're a vampire. We are all vampires. Your son turned you when he bit you. Your son is also part vampire and that's why he grew so fast"

"I'm a what?" I said in disbelief.

"Vampire" he said. "Nessie you used to be half vampire"

"What?" Questions went off in my head like fireworks and I didn't know what to ask first.

"It's a long story Nessie but it explains why your son was able to turn you. You always had vampire in your genetics. Your real parents are Edward and Bella. You're our granddaughter. Bella had you when she was still human. Your father was already a vampire. So you were a hybrid. However you were stolen from us a few months after your birth. Whoever took you made you lose your memories and your vampire side became inactive but it was still there. You still passed vampiric traits to your son. Unlike him you were never venomous though. My theory is that only male descendants are venemous"

This was a lot of information to take in at once. At the same time I was happy that I finally understood what happened to me and that I had always had such a wonderful family looking for me.

If I could have I would have cried.

"I have a family" I whispered. "I have a family"

"and I can promise you this Nessie we are never losing you again. We love you and we want to help you. You don't have to drink human blood to satisfy your thirst. We survive off of animal blood just fine and we can make sure that you adapt to the diet perfectly" Carlisle explained.

"You mean I won't have to kill anyone anymore?" I asked in shock and disbelief.

"No you won't have to. You might slip up but know this we will never judge you or love you any less for it"

"Oh Carlisle" I smiled. "You're such an amazing person. That's why I named my son after you"

"You did?" he asked. I swear I could hear the happiness in his voice.

"Yes his name is Carlisle Jacob but I mainly call him CJ"

Carlisle hugged me yet again. "Thank you Nessie"

I heard a noise outside that stopped all conversation.

"It's your parents as well as Jacob, Emmett, Jasper, Alice, and Rosalie. They've been out searching for you all day"

"Do they know what happened to me?" I asked.

"No. They don't know about what happened to you or CJ"

I heard all of their voices. They got closer and closer. Bella was the first to see me. She froze in her place when she saw me. Then Edward saw me and crashed right into Bella who didn't seem to notice. Soon they had all noticed me.

Oh boy.

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