The Light In Your Eyes

by Maddylovesyou

A light that is so precious. A light that brings hope and can change any situation from dire to okay. A light that one would kill for. Killua would certainly kill for him.

21. Chapter 21

Warning: Sexual content in the first section of this chapter.

"What do you mean you're not going to swim?" Killua stops in the middle of taking off his pants to look over at his lover with his eyebrow raised. He can't see him because he's in the bathroom but he heard what Gon uttered. Something about not swimming, Killua's ears perked up.

There's silence from the other side of the bathroom door before Gon speaks. "I don't really feel like swimming today."

Killua's eyebrows furrow. When has Gon ever felt like not swimming? Gon practically lives in the water. When ever they would find a lake or something in a forest they would go swimming in it. When ever they would reach any body of water Gon would get in it. "Why not?" Killua's purple orbs narrow in suspicion, glaring into the bathroom door. The only reason Gon wouldn't want to swim is if he's feeling bad or if something is wrong.

"Um because." Gon is such a bad liar. There was a pause in it too. "I just don't feel like it today Killua."

"Does your stomach hurt?" Killua's eyes soften in concern. "Are you feeling sick again?" Gon is so stubborn. He told Gon to tell him when he's feeling bad. If he's feeling sick that might have something to do with the incident during mountain climbing too. The heat added with the sickness could have caused delirium. Killua's stomach twist in that feeling again. He tries not to think about the smile on Gon's face or the fact he pushed himself off and let himself fall.

It was the heat. Gon wouldn't do that on purpose. He was confused.

"A little." Killua is broken out of his thoughts when he hears Gon confess softly. Killua sighs, hearing that voice, he knows Gon feels bad about hiding it from him. He can read Gon easily.

"Well then I guess it can't be helped." Killua pulls his pants back up and shrugs his shoulders. "We'll just find something to do up here while Leorio and Kurapika swim-"

"I don't want to ruin this for you Killua. You looked excited to swim this morning." Gon comes out of the bathroom, still wearing that black long sleeve shirt but he took off his shorts. He's in his boxers, his swim trunks have been left on the floor. I guess he was thinking about putting his trunks on then decided not to. "You should go and swim with Kurapika and Leorio."

"I don't want to swim with those old farts." Killua snorts, flopping himself down on the bed. "Kurapika will probably stay in the hot tub and be boring, and Leorio is going to swim and then get drunk. Besides, I'm feeling cool now. I don't need to swim." Swimming is funner when you're with me And... Killua's purple eyes taking in Gon's moves subtlety. I want to watch over you.

"You sure?" Gon tilts his head.

"I'm sure." Killua smiles slightly before it falls. "Hey, you should take off that black shirt. You sweated all in it and I'm sure that's not helping if you're feeling ill. You should take a bath and put on some new clothes."

"Do you have another shirt like this?' Gon asks innocently, those amber eyes shifting away from him. Killua's cheeks flush.

"If you mean long sleeved no...wait, I do have one but it's-" Killua's heart beats a bit faster thinking of Gon in his large long sleeve shirt. He's sure it will come down to Gon's upper thighs. A mental image of Gon wearing it with no underwear on floods through his mind making him feel very warm again.

"I want to wear that one then!" Gon cheers.

"O-Okay." Killua gets up and goes over to his dresser. He swallows. Get a hold of yourself. He's going to be wearing boxers when he gets out of the bath...It's in the middle of the day for crying out loud! Killua finds the shirt and gives it to Gon. "I never really wear this so you can have it if you want." Killua flushes. He just really likes Gon in his clothing.

"Really?" Gon's eyes get bright as if Killua just gave him a million jenny.

"Yeah sure." Killua grunts, trying to play it off but he knows his face is getting redder from Gon's eyes looking at him like that.

"Yay." Gon chuckles. "I'm going to take a bath then. That sounds like something that would do me some good." Gon walks over to the bathroom, Killua staring after him. The raven haired male stops at the door way and turns back. "Would you like to join me Killua?" Gon's voice gets sweeter, those amber eyes batting at him innocently.

The ex-assassin feels his mouth go dry. "Yeah!" Killua wants to smack himself. He came out way too eager. Even though he is eager to get in a bath with Gon he doesn't want to come off eager. And there's the issue if he gets in the bath with Gon he's going to do inappropriate things. He's trying to contain himself here but at this rate he really is just going to tackle Gon and there will come a time he won't be able to stop himself.

Gon grins, closing his eyes in it. "Too bad~" Gon waves his pointer finger as if he's moving it to music, his voice sing song before he walks into the bathroom and shuts the door. Killua stares after him with his mouth slightly open.

The. Little. Shit. He teased me! Killua feels his face catch on fire, and he glares at the doorway. Innocent Gon once again teased him. Gon had to know what he was doing this time. There is no excuse. Obviously by asking him to join him in a bath meant they would be doing sexual things- wait no, that's not true. Gon and Killua use to always take a bath together...So was Gon teasing him sexually or was he just teasing him like a friend? Killua's mind is turning. He can't help to feel it was sexual. Gon knew what that statement would do to him. He had to of.

Just the thought alone of Gon doing that to him makes heat pour down to his lower regions. He's all hot and bothered now. Gon is playing with fire. Maybe he didn't know what he was doing but what Gon just did is like waving a big juicy steak in front of a dog who hasn't eaten for days. Killua's little self restraint is wavering.

Killua takes a deep breath and turns on the TV. He needs something to distract him. He can't think of Gon taking off his clothes in the other room, or how the other male is getting into the hot water naked, that delicious tan flesh flushing from the heat, those amber eyes getting half lidded from the sensation-

Killua bites the inside of his cheek. He can taste blood but he doesn't' care. His pants are tight. And it's gross because he's sweaty as well from the mountain climbing.

Killua glares at the TV for a moment. He hears Gon start to sing. Maybe it was hearing Gon's voice or all the other things going on in his head but Killua snaps. The ex-assassin gets up off the bed and marches over to the bathroom. He doesn't even bother with the door, kicking it open with little effort.

"K-Killua!" Gon squeaks in surprise. He is already in the tub, the water up to his chest. He holds one of his arms close to his body. Killua glares at Gon, taking off his pants before he climbs into the bath.

"You know I sweated a lot from climbing that mountain too. I think a bath is in order." Killua says coolly before he glances over at Gon who is still looking at him with wide eyes. " You asked me a question and I answered honestly. That was mean of you Gon" Killua's voice is husky. Gon shivers, his cheeks getting pink.

"You tease me like that all the time Killua." Gon mumbles, gripping one of his arms.

"No I don't." Killua licks his lips, moving his body closer to Gon's. "I'll always give you want you want." Killua's bare thigh is against' Gon's now. Those amber eyes are huge and his face is getting redder. "Anything. Just say it." Killua leans in to whisper this in Gon's ear, licking up the shell of it to add to his point.

Gon makes an adorable little sound of surprise, his cheeks flaring up a bit, or maybe it's just from the heat of the hot tub? "You're mean because I tell you what I want or you know what I want and you deny me." Killua's surprised by how silky his voice is. How low and how straight forward he can be. When it comes to being horny, he knows how to express himself. Gon makes him lose his mind.

Gon's eyes flash and those amber orbs shift away from him. Killua doesn't like that. The ex-assassin grabs Gon's chin and forces his head over to look at him. "You know it's true. You do this on purpose don't you?"

Gon swallows thickly before those amber orbs lock with Killua's. There's many emotions in Gon's eyes right now that Killua can't sort them all out but he can tell by the way Gon's eyelids are getting lower that he's causing the desired effect. "I didn't know you wanted to take a bath with me that much."

"Sure you didn't." Killua snarls, it being driven by lust as he kisses Gon roughly, forcing his tongue pass Gon's lips. The other male doesn't fight with him. Gon immediately gives in, his tongue fighting with his own. Killua's grip on his chin loosens from kissing Gon and his heart beats faster. He wants more.

"Killua you want to have sex with me don't you?" Gon breaks the kiss, the other male is slightly out of breath, those eyes half lidded and his breath can be felt on Killua's lips. "We can now if you want."

Killua takes an intake of breath, inhaling Gon's air in it. Killua's heart is beating too fast. He wants Gon. He wants to have sex with him. He wants to claim Gon in every way. But...with how he's acting right now will he be able to do it without hurting Gon?

Killua closes his eyes, willing himself to calm down. I need to leave. "I-I do but not right now-" Killua starts to move away from Gon only for the other male to grab his dick. Killua freezes letting out a yelp mixed with a groan at Gon's hand being on his most sensitive region.

"You really want to right now. Don't lie." Gon's eyes narrow as he moves himself closer to Killua. "You're really hard-"

"Don't say that out loud idiot." Killua huffs, his face getting red. His eyes widen when Gon's hand starts to move up and down his shaft. Killua moans lightly, tilting his head back to rest against the tub's edge. "G-Gon stop-"

"But you don't want me to stop." Gon tilts his head as he watches Killua's expressions as he strokes him. "This felt good when I did it to myself. Does it feel good for you Killua?"

"Ah..." Killua can't fight against Gon. He doesn't want to anyway. He swallows down his embarrassment and nods. "Yeah..." Killua bites his lip when Gon squeezes at his sensitive head making him buck into Gon's hand. He feels the heat pool below and he grabs Gon's hand to stop him. "If you k-keep doing that i'm going to dirty the water." Killua admits shamefully. It's embarrassing how he can't last long when It comes to Gon. He's getting better but Killua knows if Gon keeps this up he'll be finishing soon.

"That's okay." Gon smiles, trying to reach for his dick again- Killua feels a little dizzy- but he keeps his hand away from his private area. "Killua I want to make you feel good." Gon pouts. "You want sex and you make me feel all hot but then you try to stop it. Killua you have all of me so..." Gon leans up and kisses the corner of Killua's mouth. The ex-assassin feels like his head just exploded. "Let's have sex. I don't really know how." Gon's face heats up in shame. "But if you teach me, I'll learn fast."

"Y-You just said you weren't feeling good to swim. I doubt you're in shape for...sex then." Killua takes deep breaths, trying to stop himself from just passing out. He wants Gon so much. His manhood is throbbing. Killua won't be able to keep fighting off Gon much longer. He just wants his best friend. He's wanted Gon for years.

"I'm feeling better now."Gon cups Killua's face before leaning in to kiss him. The ex-assassin groans lightly when Gon bites on his lower lip. Gon's tongue caresses his own, the kiss slow and sloppy, turning Killua on even more. "I can handle it." Gon pulls away, those amber orbs filled with lust. "I want to make love to you Killua."

The way Gon said that made Killua's heart do a back flip. His stomach feels like it has butterflies and his manhood throbs, begging for friction, begging to be touched. Gon said it so innocently with those lust filled eyes. Gon wants to have sex with him- No...Gon wants to make love to him. That sounds so much nicer. The kiss and Gon's words break the little restraint Killua had.

The ex-assassin grabs Gon, getting his arm under his thighs, holding him against his chest like a baby. He stands up out of the tub, the raven haired male's eyes widening. "Waa Killua what are you doing? Can't we do it here?" Gon seems nervous now. Killua's mind is too fuzzy. He looks slowly at Gon and can see the other male gulp, his cheeks getting redder.

"No." Killua says simply. Sternly. He gets out of the tub and walks Gon out of the bathroom. He is forcing himself to walk slowly. He's once again in a frenzy.

"Ne i'm going to get the bed wet-" Gon starts to say only for Killua to lay him down without saying a word. Killua lets himself go. He gets on top of Gon, their wet naked bodies sliding across each other as Killua gives Gon a deep kiss. It feels nice, having his bare skin against Gon's. He can feel the other male's erection pressed against his stomach and he can hear his pounding heartbeat. It spurs Killua on. "Mmth Killuwa-" Gon's protest is swallowed up by Killua's lips over his own, his hands roaming over tan skin, his senses attuned to any sound, any shift of Gon's body as he touches Gon's chest with his finger tips.

Gon shivers under him from the light touches, his eyes closed and his face so red. Their kissing is sloppy and wet and wonderful. It feels so hot. There's drool falling down the side of Gon's face. Killua swallows Gon's moans when Killua starts to tweak his nipple. Softly. He's being gentle. He's holding himself back, only a little bit.

Gon grabs his shoulders and he tries to move Killua. The ex-assassin knows he wants to turn them over so Gon's on top but Killua doesn't let him. "Let me touch you." Killua commands, surprising himself with how firm and low his voice is.

"I want to touch you too." Gon gives him a stubborn look but under Killua's gaze, those amber eyes don't lose that stubbornness but they seem to back down. Or at least that's what Killua thinks only for Gon to lean up suddenly, latching his lips onto his neck and biting hard. Killua growls, the pain send a shock wave of pleasure down his spine. He grips Gon's hair as Gon sucks harshly on his neck, making the ex-assassin feel weak in the knees. Killua arches when Gon scratches down his back, a low moan escaping his lips. Gon is trying to take control but if anything he's only making Killua lose it more.

"Gon." Killua snarls as he yanks Gon off of him and pushes him against the bed, pinning his hands above his head- Gon's eyes widen in alarm and he wiggles one of his arms out of his grip and pushes it against his chest. Killua allows this, more focused on abusing the sensitive skin of Gon's neck, returning the favor. "You're mine." Killua whispers against Gon's ear before kissing and sucking on the shell of it.

Gon squirms under him, a groan leaving his lips that Killua soaks in.

"Killua..." Gon's chest is heaving up and down as Killua kisses over his wet chest, licking up the moisture and enjoying the sounds it causes Gon to make. Killua doesn't stop his abusing of Gon's skin but he does lazily look up, his cloudy purple orbs locking onto half lidded amber. "Are you going to...put it inside me?" Gon doesn't look away.

Killua's mouth goes dry. Gon said it so innocently. Killua's body feels on fire. He licks his lips, starting to feel nervous again despite his arousal. "Yes." Killua stops kissing on Gon's chest to caress his cheek, his purple orbs softening. "I think it's better for me to be on top at first. I'll teach you as I go. Don't worry." Killua kisses Gon slowly on the lips before pulling away. "I'll be gentle."

Gon looks at him and nods his head slowly. Gon trusts him. He trusts him enough that he's giving him his body, surrendering to him. He trusts Killua to be his first. Killua will not let Gon down. This is what' he's been dreaming of for so long...He'll be a good lover. He will hold himself back. Gon is his priory.

"Okay." Gon's voice is deep as he leans up and kisses Killua. This kiss is different from the others. It's wet but also slow and passionate. It leaves Killua feeling warm inside. His heart starts to become arrhythmic when he thinks about how he's about to have sex with Gon. He has to close his eyes and take a deep breath through his nose.

I will not pass out. I will not go crazy. Just calm down.

"Are you sure you want this?" Killua finds himself asking as he kisses down Gon's cheek to his jaw line. They're tender kisses, and his voice is soft. He didn't know he was capable of such tender treatment. Gon brings this side out of him. "If we go past this point...I might not be able to stop." Killua swallows, being honest for once. He doesn't know if he has the will power to stop in the middle. If Gon doesn't want this, he has to tell him now so he can get away from Gon and calm himself down.

"I want you to make love to me." Gon looks so sincere, so earnest. Killua's chest hurts from how much his heart is swelling. He's overwhelmed with emotion. Gon wants him. He wants him to be his first. This is it. Gon will finally be all his. Killua Zoldyck is going to make love to Gon Freeces.

"It's going to hurt a little bit." Killua can't help to warn as he nuzzles Gon's cheek before kissing it.

"I can handle it." Gon smiles. "It's okay if Killua hurts me."

Killua swears his heart is going to rip out of his chest.

"I'll be gentle..." Killua's breathing is becoming uneven as he kisses Gon's ear, his hand caressing his cheek. He pulls back to look into Gon's beautiful amber orbs. They're so trusting. Filled with lust and passion. Killua feels his cheeks flush a dark pink, his purple orbs softening. He's still rock hard but the frenzy has died down into something controllable. Killua focuses only on those amber orbs. "I'll make you feel good." Killua licks his lips, giving Gon a serious look. He won't make Gon regret this.

"I know." Gon's cheeks are such a delicious pink. Killua slowly kisses down Gon's chest, dragging his tongue down his stomach, the tip dipping into Gon's belly button, a giggle escaping his lips that Killua finds adorable. Killua bites at his waist and sucks harshly at his waste line. Gon sighs, leaning his head back but those amber eyes never leave Killua.

"Hold on." Killua climbs back up Gon, giving him a kiss on the forehead before he moves off of Gon and walks over to the side dresser. Leorio said they had some in here...

"What are you looking for?" Gon tilts his head, watching Killua, those amber eyes shifting down Killua's back muscles. Killua can't help a smile twitching at his lips. Gon is checking him out. And he loves it.

"This." Killua pulls out a bottle of lube and waves it around in the air to show Gon.

"Something jelly?" Gon tilts his head, reading the front of it. "What's that for?"

"It's to make things go a little smoother. This will help a lot." When Gon still looks confused Killua flushes. "This will help me...slide in."

"Ohh." Gon's eyes light up with understanding and he smiles. Gon is too innocent for this. Killua starts feeling nervous again but his manhood is throbbing. Gon is laying on the bed, wet and naked, those amber eyes filled with passion and lust. His cheeks red and his body flushed. His arousal against his stomach.

Killua's eyes get dark as he moves over slowly, smoothly and gets back in his rightful place above Gon.

The ex-assassin's eye twitches when someone knocks on the door, getting Gon to look away from him towards the door.

"What are you guys doing? Are we swimming or not?" Leorio's voice is heard through the door.

"Go. Away." Killua growls loud enough that he knows Leorio heard him. Hewie hides in a corner with her ears down.

"Well shit." He hears Leorio say.

Killua's aura sparks possessively. If Leorio tries to come in here he's going to get a shock. Literally.

"Killua-" Gon frowns slightly only for Killua to shake his head.

"It's alright. They'll occupy themselves." Killua caresses Gon's cheek before kissing him once again, reminding Gon where they left off and what's coming next. "Stay focused on me." Killua's tongue snakes into Gon's mouth, rubbing against Gon's tongue making the other male moan.

Gon kisses back eagerly, his body arching into him when he twists his left nipple. Gon has a short attention span but the other male is looking at him and him only. After kissing Gon for awhile, the kiss becoming more heated and fast, Killua pulls away, panting slightly. His eyes widen only for a low growl to leave his lips when he notices Gon is humping his leg, whimpering, trying to get release. "Stop." Killua leans down and nips Gon's nipple getting him to arch again.

"Killuaaa." Gon whines, the boy is impatient. So is Killua.

"Say you want me." Killua licks Gon's nipple, taking delight in the fact that Gon has stopped trying to create friction on his leg, listening to his command. There's something thrilling about telling Gon to do things and him listening. There's something thrilling about being in control.

"A-Ah I want you K-Killua." Gon grips the bed sheet with his one hand keeping his other arm close to his body. "So please...just..." Gon fumbles with his words. He's flustered. It's so cute.

"You want me inside you?" Killua licks his lips as he sits up and grabs the lube. He lubes up three of his fingers, Gon watching with curiosity as he does so.

Gon tilts his head, those amber eyes so deep. "Why did you put it on your fingers?"

"I need to...prepare you or it's going to hurt a lot." Killua explains, swallowing down his nervousness. He needs to appear calm for Gon. Anxiety spreads.

"Prepare?" Gon blinks. Curse Gon and those big eyes.

"Yes. I'm going to stretch you...with my fingers." Killua can't believe this is actually happening. It's crazy. Gon nods his head slowly. He still seems confused but he's not asking anymore questions. Good. Killua's heart is beating too fast. "Spread your legs." Killua's breathing becomes uneven when Gon obeys. Those tan, yummy thighs moving, giving him better access. "Bend your knees." Gon obeys but his face gets a bit redder. Killua's hungry eyes take in Gon's swollen dick then down to his balls and to his awaiting entrance.

When Gon's thighs start to shake a little Killua snaps out of his state, just realizing he was drooling. "It's okay." Killua leans in and kisses the inside of Gon's thigh, rubbing the out side of it in a circle. Gon relaxes, his shoulders stop tensing up. Killua runs his finger down to Gon's entrance. Gon squirms a little when Killua starts to lightly rub at his twitching hole with his index finger. Killua can't wait anymore. He wants to be inside Gon.

He slowly pushes in his index finger, the warm, tight hole swallowing him up. Gon's eyebrows furrow. "Neh it feels strange Killua." Gon frowns slightly when Killua wiggles his finger inside of him.

"Does it hurt?" Killua's breathing is uneven. He feels like he's going crazy. Gon feels so hot and tight. Damn he could cum right now. But he won't. Not this time. He will do this.

"No...not really. It just feels like..." Gon flushes with embarrassment. It's extremely cute. It's rare seeing Gon embarrassed. "I have to poop or something." Gon giggles slightly at Killua's look. "It does!"

"I get it." Killua sticks in another finger. Gon's giggling stops and he winces slightly. Killua feels a pang in his chest and his purple orbs soften. He kisses Gon's thigh to distract him as he wiggles his two fingers inside him and scissors his hole, stretching him.

"You're doing good..." Killua praises, feeling Gon's body temperature go up. He messages Gon's balls lightly, getting the other male to moan. Killua watches Gon closely, looking for any expression of pain. It looks like he's gotten use to the two fingers, they slide in easier and Gon is moaning from Killua stroking his member. "Now a third..." Killua pulls his two fingers out only to shove three in slowly. Gon tenses up, biting his lip. Killua's breathing is too fast as he messages Gon's dick and pulls his fingers out and in. "You're doing good...so good..." Killua swallows. Calm down.

Gon's chest heaves up and down, moans starting to come out of his lips again from all the stimulus. "Killua..." Gon saying his name brings him closer. Brings him to the edge. Killua is impatient.
"Gon I'm going to put it in." Killua warns, his voice trembling as he gets the bottle of lube and puts a generous amount on his shaft. He groans from touching himself, staring at Gon the whole time, those amber orbs so alluring. He puts some lube on Gon's entrance before he positions himself, lifting up Gon's hips.

Gon's eyes widen when he feels the tip of Killua's manhood against his entrance. He takes a intake of breath when Killua thrust in, pushing just the tip inside him. Gon closes his eyes tightly, wincing in pain. "Ah!" Gon grips the bedsheets, sweat starting to pour down his face.

"S-Sorry..." Killua pants, his heart tearing up inside from Gon's cry of pain but at the same time he feels amazing from being inside of Gon. It's just his tip but Gon is so tight and hot. It's so much more than all his fantasizes. Killua's body is screaming at him to move but he fights it. He grabs onto the bed, his hands turning into claws without him noticing. He breathes heavily, sweat pouring down his back. This takes so much will power. "I-I won't move...in till you tell me." Killua's aura is going crazy. He's a bit worried he's going to accidentally shock Gon. He takes deep breaths but he can't calm down. He's inside of Gon.

Gon takes a few deep breaths, before he opens his eyes slowly. He looks at Killua determinedly. "I'm okay Killua." That's all Killua needed to hear. His hips snap forward without him even having to think about it, burying his full 7 inches inside the other male. Killua's heart sinks when he sees the immediate pain in Gon's eyes, his cry swallowed up by Killua as he kisses Gon passionately, not moving a muscle. "Shit...Do you want me to take it out?" Killua really doesn't' want to but he hates causing Gon pain. He never wants to do that. Killua is about to lose it. Gon feels amazing. He's inside Gon. All the way in. Killua is going to have a heart attack.

"N-No! I c-can handle it." Gon breathes out of his nose before he opens his eyes. They look a bit watery but there's a fire there that takes Killua's breath away. "Kiss me Killua."

The ex-assassin happily obeys, allowing Gon to shove his tongue into his mouth, he surrenders to that tongue, letting Gon explore his mouth. The wince on Gon's face slowly leaves him as the kiss becomes faster, sloppier, uncoordinated. "Killua you can move."

The ex-assassin grips the bed for leverage as he thrust his hips forward, Gon's legs wrapped around his waist. He starts off slow, trying to contain himself since Gon is still wincing but he can't stop moving now. "Mm...Ah Gon you feel so good." Killua's pace is picking up speed. He's losing himself. "I-I'm sorry...I'm sorry I can't...I can't hold back...anymore." Killua pulls almost all the way out before slamming himself back in. Gon throws his head back and cries loudly. It wasn't just pain, there was a moan mixed with it. Gon's still in pain...He's in pain...got to stop...got to low down...

Killua can't.

There's a spot Killua researched about. If he finds that spot it will feel good for Gon too. Killua tries to aim at different areas as he strokes Gon's semi hard cock, trying to get Gon back up. He lost it a little bit during all the pain.

"Killua." Gon groans, looking up at him with those fiery, passionate eyes. "Don't hold back for me. It's okay. I can handle it. You're being so gentle."

Killua's heart once again rips. Gon knew he was holding back. Those reassuring eyes are all it takes. Killua loses himself in Gon's warmth, thrusting his hips with no restraint. Their hips meet with a powerful slapping sound.

"Fuck." Killua moans loudly, completely lost in this wondrous warmth and the feeling it's giving him. Killua stops gripping the bed to hold on to Gon's hips, squeezing them as he pounds furiously into his best friend. "I love you...I love you..." Words start to spill from Killua's lips. He has no control of them now.

Killua thrust in particularly hard getting Gon to yelp, the yelp ending in a loud moan. Gon's eyes are wide. "K-Killua do t-that again." Killua thrust just as he did before earning him a another moan and Gon arching his back. It's so sexy. Killua grips his hips to steady him before he pounds without mercy into the very same spot. "Killua! Killua!" Gon yells his name, his chest heaving up and down, his head moving side to side. He doesn't seem to know what to do with himself. There's tears at the corner of his eyes from the pleasure.

"I want you to scream my name." Killua starts to stroke Gon in time with his thrust, watching with hungry eyes as Gon withers beneath him, his mouth opening wide as he abuses his sweet spot.

"Killua!" Gon screams, arching his back almost painfully.

The ex-assassin growls as he thrusts faster, enjoying Gon's expressions and his sounds. Every moan, every call of his name is bring him closer and closer to finishing. "You're mine Gon...all mine." Killua thrust really hard, putting a lot of strength into it. Gon's head falls back in a silent scream, his eyes so wide.

"I'm...all yours...and you're...all mine." Gon pants between his moans. He reaches up and starts to play with Killua's hair. He tugs when Killua thrust hard, getting the ex-assassin to groan loudly.

"Pull it." Killua moans as Gon does just that. As Killua thrusts, Gon pulls on his hair, making the ex-assassin go crazy. "No one else can have you." Killua squeezes Gon's erection, making the other male cry out. "No one can see you like this." Killua pants when Gon tugs at his hair. Gon's face is so red, those eyes glazed over in lust and pleasure, his chest heaving up and down. It's really a sight. One Killua will never forget. One he wants to see more of. "Do you understand?" Killua's voice gets lower as he thrust harder.

"AH!" Gon throws his head back, moans spilling from his lips, his back arching with his wanton want. "Y-Yeah...I-It can't be anyone else but you Killua. I-it...has to be Killua..."

Killua's heart aches, Gon's words filling him with emotion that he shows the other male by kissing him deeply, thrusting as deep as he can into the boy making sure he's hitting that good spot. "G-Gon...Fuck...Gon I love you..."

"I-I love you too." Gon cries out when he slams into his sweet spot. Sweat is pouring down both of their bodies now. "Killua I think I'm going to..."

"Me too." Killua eyes widen when Gon cums with a cry right after, his semen getting on Killua's chest. Gon's face when he came was too much. How his whole face contorted with pleasure. Killua cums hard inside of Gon, filling the other male up as he moans Gon's name.

The two boys pant, both out of breath and trying to get over all the feelings they just felt and the shock of what they just done. They just had sex. They just made love. Killua slowly pulls out, kissing Gon's cheek when the other gave a look of discomfort.

Killua can't speak. He just lays down next to Gon, his eyes wide as he stares at the ceiling. "We just..."

"Made love." Gon smiles rolling over so his head is on Killua's chest, those amber eyes staring up at him.

"Y-Yeah..." Killua flushes, his heart fluttering as he warps his arm around Gon's bare body. "So...Did you like it?" Killua's eyes shift away from Gon.

"I liked It a lot. It felt really good. At first it was painful but then you made it really good Killua. You looked so sexy over top of me." Gon smiles at Killua's face getting red. "We should do it again!"

"N-Now?" Killua swallows when Gon's eyes get this darker look to them. Maybe Gon is a sex fiend just like him.

"Why not? Killua looks really sexy all sweaty." Gon kisses Killua's neck getting the ex-assassin to groan, his body being extra sensitive from just cuming.

"Aren't you sore?" Killua mumbles weakly. He finds as he's saying this his hand has found it's way to Gon's ass. He grabs his cheek, fondling him.

"Not really." Gon beams as he bites Killua's neck, getting him to cry out and arch his back. "Besides it's your turn." Gon reaches behind Killua and grabs his ass, the ex-assassin squeaking from the new feeling of Gon's firm hands on his bottom. "I know how to do it now." Gon's eyes are sparkling. Like this is some new adventure and he just found a lead.

"I guess you do." Killua's blush reaches his ears. Gon wants to do it to me now? I've never really thought of Gon being on top...it doesn't seem right but...it's only fair. Either way, it's having sex with Gon. That alone is enough to send his heart into arrhythmia.

Gon stops for a moment, just staring into Killua's eyes. "How was it for you Killua?"

"Hm? Oh it was amazing." Killua flushes from that just coming out. Though it should be obvious. All those embarrassing things he just said...

"You're not going to leave now are you?" Gon frowns as he gets on top of Killua, those amber eyes looking at him with this puppy dog look. He looks like a puppy getting ready to be kicked.

"Of course not. What would make you think that?" Killua raises his eyebrow, wrapping his arms around Gon's waist.

Gon's eyes shift away, that look Killua doesn't understand coming back. The ex-assassin feels that twisting of his gut only for Gon to smile at him again. "I don't know. But I'm really happy." Gon giggles as he kisses Killua's cheek before giving him a light kiss on the lips. "I really liked having sex with you. It felt so much better than me touching myself."

"I'm really happy too...because it's you." Killua looks away, feeling embarrassed with being so forward. Gon's eyes light up at his words and he squeezes him.

"Hehe looks like we're married now Killua!"

"...What?" Killua looks at Gon like he's grown a second head. Gon is looking at him so earnestly, Killua can't help to get flustered. What is he talking about? Does he really think that having sex means you're married?-

"Just kidding." Gon sticks out his tongue when Killua looked like he was about to have a heart attack. "I know having sex doesn't make you married. Killua had a funny face."

"S-Shut up." Killua grumbles, pinching Gon's ass making him squeak. The ex-assassin smirks at the pay back but at the same time his heart is still beating quickly. The word of married getting ideas in his head that shouldn't be there.

Gon would look good in all white. I wouldn't mind getting married to Gon. I'm not going to leave him anyway- Killua slaps his cheeks. Why the hell am I thinking about this?!

They just got together and even if it is appealing, how the hell will he ever get the courage to ask Gon to marry him? Besides if Gon were to say yes and they got married, his family would get wind of it. They would throw a fit. Not that Killua cares what they think but he's sure they would try to kill Gon. He's positive they won't be happy that Killua is gay and is with another man. He can see illumi now. Killua shivers. He doesn't want his family to deter him though. In the back of Killua's mind, marriage sounds wonderful. Killua could get rid of his Zoldyck name. He could be a Freeces. Killua wouldn't want Gon to take his last name. It's dark and strikes fear into the hearts of others.

"Killua are you okay?" Gon waves his hand in front of Killua's face getting him to snap out of his trance.

"I-I'm fine." Killua flushes, mad at himself for over thinking things once again.

There's banging at the door.

" We're done with the pool you two. Let's go out and do something. How about that secret garden Gon?" Leorio's voice again. Killua groans, not wanting to hear the other males voice. He snuggles up next to Gon, just wanting to be with him and his warmth.

"Sure that sounds like fun." Gon beams before he looks over at Killua. He smiles sweetly. "Don't' worry Killua. I'll be making love to you tonight." He says it so simply. As if he's telling him what he had for breakfast.

Killua swallows, feeling cold when Gon leaves his embrace to get up and get dress. Killua reluctantly does the same even though all he wants to do is relax with Gon by his side and enjoy their after glows. Gon was never one to sit still though. He's full of energy today. Killua blushes, trying not to think what that energy is going to be used for later tonight.

"Gon." Killua can't stop himself, the words just coming out. "I meant what I said. You're mine." Killua looks back at Gon, giving him a stern look but his heart is beating so fast. "I hope you won't regret being with me because I'm not going to let go." Why am I telling him this? Stop. Keep it inside. You sound like a creep-

"I'm not going to regret this. That makes me happy Killua. I don't want you to let go. I'm not going to let you go either. You're not going to get away from me." Gon smiles brightly, Killua's heart beat slowing down and his chest tightening. "I'm all yours and you're all mine."

"R-Right." Killua flushes, his guard being lowered. A weight being taken off his shoulders. Killua is sure Gon just saw how possessive he can be. And Gon accepts that. He understands. Killua really doesn't deserve him.

"Eh it's coming out." Gon frowns, his eyebrows knitting together as he holds his butt and rushes to the bathroom. Killua's eyes widen, remembering he did just cum inside his best friend. He feels a little bad but he finds himself chuckling at the strange dance Gon did to get into the bathroom without any of his seed spilling.

"Problem there Gon?"

"Shut up Killua." Gon pouts.

The ex-assassin smiles, his eyes softening in his happiness. It's like a dream come true. He finally had sex with Gon and as expected it didn't' quell the beast inside him.

No, it made him addicted.

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"That garden was nothing special." Leorio complains in the back of the cab. The four friends are squished in the back, Gon being sandwiched between Killua and Leorio.

"I thought It was beautiful." Kurapika takes his eyes away from the window to look over at his lover.

"So did I. I really liked their fruit trees they had." Gon smiles looking down at the long gray long sleeve shirt he's wearing. His chest feels warm thinking that this is Killua's and also with the fact that the other male is holding his hand at this moment, lightly rubbing his hand. It's such a tender touch.

Gon blushes. After making love, Killua has been very gentle and soft. During the secret garden, Killua never let go of Gon's hand and when Leorio and Kurapika weren't looking he would kiss him on the lips or kiss over his face. A couple of times he asked if Gon was in pain from their activities and it just seemed like Killua's eyes were so much brighter. A smile easily found it's way to Killua's lips. Killua also teased Leorio and Kurapika a bit more, the other male just seemed really happy and playful.

Gon is really happy too and Killua's treatment has made him feel all jittery. He's never really seen Killua like this. It's like he's high off of what they just did. Gon smiles to himself. He feels the same way though. His whole body is humming with warmth. He admits he does feel a bit sore now but it's nothing he can't handle. He'd definably do it all again.

The curse has completely faded. Gon can't hear the voice anymore and his wrist and arm don't hurt. His mind is clear. It's like Killua got rid of it with his love making. Gon was really worried at first. The whole time he kept thinking that Killua was going to see his bite mark. He kept his arm close to his chest to hide it form his sight but Gon knew it was only a matter of Killua lifting his arm and glancing down and he would have saw it. Yet...this may sound strange but it gave Gon an extra thrill. Gon was torn from the pleasure and the want and the fear. The curse was taking advantage of that fear and the situation.

The other Killua kept saying that Killua is going to leave him after they have sex and that he's going to see the bite mark and flip out on him. Then he'll know- But Gon fought against it. He could tell Killua wanted him and the only way to prove the curse wrong was to have sex with Killua...and then see what he would do. Gon knew the curse was wrong. Killua isn't going anywhere. If anything, he feels closer to the other male. He can't explain it but it's like their bond has gotten stronger. They've shared something special.

Killua didn't notice the mark and their relationship has gotten stronger. He's gotten even closer to Killua. Gon couldn't be anymore happy. The curse can't do anything. He won't let it get to him. He will beat this and Killua won't even have to worry. By the time he knows, it will be all over. During that time, Gon will hold on to his lover. Killua will be his support when he feels close to losing it.

Though Gon has learned that he can cover the bite mark from view by pressing his arm against his chest he rather be safe and wear a long sleeve shirt. Killua isn't distracted now and if Gon were to screw up, Killua would spot the wound quickly.

"-What do you think Gon?" Kurapika's voice breaks him out of his thoughts. He blinks and looks over at the blonde, noticing everyone is looking at him.

"About what?" Gon gives him a sheepish smile when Kurapika raises his eyebrow. He rubs the back of his head. "Sorry I didn't hear anything you said."

"He pretty much asked if you were hungry. It's about seven a clock." Killua answers for Kurapika, rubbing a soothing circle into his hand.

"Oh yeah I am." Gon beams over at Kurapika. A good meal sounds good about now. He hasn't eaten much and he's been pretty active today. Gon flushes when he thinks of Killua above him with those glazed over purple orbs, his body flushed and his eyebrows furrowed in pleasure. Gon will never get those expressions out of his head.

"Good we're all hungry. Then lets get something to eat at the coral restaurant." Kurapika smiles but it's more of a twitch. Gon takes in his other friend, studying him silently. The blonde looks a bit pale. Gon remembers back at the mountain climbing place he had asked Kurapika how it went with Hisoka. The blonde had gotten pale then but quickly told him that he wasn't able to get a hold of Hisoka. He wouldn't see him. Gon is kind of happy. He doesn't need Hisoka's help to do this. He doesn't want to owe him anything. Also Hisoka could try to tell Killua about the curse. Yes, Gon would rather not get Hisoka involved.

Gon blinks when Killua grabs his chin gently and turns his head so he's looking at him instead of Kurapika. His face is indifferent but those purple orbs are boring into his amber ones. Gon finds a smile coming to his lips. You don't like me looking at Kurapika do you? "Killua you look so beautiful." Gon smiles brightly watching Killua's indifferent expression flush and those purple orbs lighting up. He really does though. His hair and his eyes are to die for.

"You're embarrassing me." Killua grunts but he brings Gon's hand up to his lips and kisses the palm tenderly, those purple orbs never leaving his amber ones. Gon's heart flutters at the gesture. Killua is really cute.

"Yall need to stop, this is a small space." Leorio's eye twitches when Gon pushes against him to turn towards Killua and hug him tightly.

"Leorio leave them alone." Kurapika smiles knowingly at his two friends, Killua's face getting redder at Gon nuzzling him and kissing over his face. Gon is all about doing public expressions of affection but Killua likes to be more secretive about it.

"Gon's pushing me." Leorio grumbles. The older male is probably still in a bad mood from tripping over that rock and everyone chuckling at him. They didn't mean no harm by It. The face Leorio made was just funny.

"What are you five?" Killua smirks over at Leorio, just to get a rise out of him, his arms wrapping around Gon. "I think that fall knocked you down a couple of years-"

"Shut up." Leorio huffs, his face getting red from anger and embarrassment. Kurapika puts his hand over Leorio, smiling teasingly.

"It's okay I still love you."

"Kurapika are you with me or are you with them?! Don't think I didn't see you laughing at me!"

"My apologies." Kurapika tries to keep a straight face but his lips crack in a smile. He chuckles when Leorio glares at him, crossing his arms. "Leorio if you saw your face you would know why I laughed." Leorio's expression softens at Kurapika's soft chuckles and he scratches his cheek.

"My face always makes you laugh."

"I love your face."

Gon smiles over at his two friends before he nuzzles himself into Killua's chest, enjoying being pressed against him. Killua's heart is beating fast. Today has been amazing. The time with Killua and with all his friends. When he grows old he will think back to this vacation with a smile, with Killua still by his side. Gon has no doubt in his mind that they're going to grow old together.

"Here it is." The cab driver pulls up to this restaurant that looks like a big rock, it sparkles in the sun light. It really looks like coral.

"Wow it look so cool!" Gon cheers as he gets out of the cab after Killua.

"Never seen a restaurant like this before." Leorio takes it all in as Kurapika pays the cab driver and he leaves.

"I hope they have burgers. I'm kind of in the mood for one." Gon looks over at all his friends.

"I'm sure they do. Most restaurants have burgers." Kurapika smiles at Gon's eager face.

"I'm thinking more of a steak." Killua grabs Gon's hand, interlacing their fingers as they all make it into the restaurant. It's pretty packed with people. Gon's mouth starts to water at all the smells.

"Table for four." Leorio gets in front of everyone, addressing the hostess standing in the front.

"okay you're in luck, we just cleared off a table." The lady smiles before she grabs menus and leads them to the other side of the restaurant to a table next to a window.

Gon jumps in happily, taking the side with the window as Killua follows after him calmly, sitting down next to Gon. Kurapika and Leorio sit on the other side. "Your waiter will be right with you," She smiles, her eyes seeming to linger on everyone of them before she walks away.

"Let's see..." Leorio opens up the menu, his eyebrows furrowing as he looks through all the choices and the prices. "Hmm not bad, not bad..." Leorio keeps mumbling to himself. Kurapika looks through his choices silently just as Killua does. Gon bounces In his seat as he looks through all the food on the menu, looking for burgers. His eyes light up when he finds them. He glances over at Killua to see what he's looking at.

"Do you know what you want?"

"Yeah i'm going to get this steak." Killua shows Gon what he's getting before he glances over to see what Gon's looking out. They both nod in agreement.

"Hello there my name is Charlie and I'll be your waiter today." A young man comes up to their table, his green eyes bright, his red hair curly hair against his face. Gon tilts his head, staring at this man. He's never seen someone with so many freckles. There use to be a girl on the island who had freckles. She was younger than him and she rarely left her mother's side. He remembers asking what was on her face because he never saw freckles before. Mito smiled and said they're God's kisses. After that, Gon always thought freckles were cute. They remind him of that sweet little girl back on whale island. She's probably around 12 now.

"I like your freckles!" Gon beams at his man. His green eyes widen slightly and his cheeks tinge pink.

"Thank you." He locks eyes with Gon only to get pale when he looks at Killua. The ex-assassin is visibly glaring at this waiter, those purple orbs narrowed.

"Hmpth, I don't like them. It looks like a bunch of dirt on his face." Killua grunts rudely.

"No it doesn't. Freckles are cute Killua." Gon gives him a slight glare for being mean only to see Killua's shoulders tense up.

"Cute?' Killua says it like it leaves a bad taste in his mouth. A scowl coming to his face.

"U-Um so do you guys know what you want to drink?" Charlie chuckles nervously, sensing the atmosphere change.

"Ohh shit." Leorio notices what's going on. He winces at the expression on Killua's face. He looks at the waiter. "I'll have a coke."

"I'll have a water." Kurapika says before looking over at Gon.

"I'll have a coke."

"I'll have a coke as well but I want mine with 5 square ice cubes in it." Killua turns his attention on Charlie, his purple orbs narrowed. Gon tilts his head. He never remembers Killua being so specif. Charlie nods, writing that down. He swallows before smiling nervously.

"So do you guys know what you want or do you need more time?"

"I know!" Gon raises his hand before he excitedly tells Charlie about the cheeseburger he wants. Charlie listens, nodding his head, a small smile coming to his lips. Charlie soon stops when Killua's aura starts to spread, making the room feel like it's dropped a degree.

Gon seems oblivious to the change in the atmosphere as he keeps smiling over at the waiter. He really reminds him of some good times on whale island. He misses it.

"Oh okay well I'll have your steak platter." Leorio says quickly.

"And i'll have your seafood platter." Kurapika looks at Killua frowning when he sees a smirk starting to form on his face.

"I will have your steak cooked at exactly 400 degrees. I don't want to see any pink in it. I want the mash potatoes in their own bowl and the green beans drowned in lemon. I also want soup consisting of crab and lobster. I want the steak to be slightly burnt on the left side but not burnt anywhere else-" Killua keeps going in detail about all the things he wants. He's speaking quickly too. Charlie is struggling writing everything down, sweat beading down his face. Gon frowns, this is the fist time he's seen Killua so particular with his food. Killua might be a harder person to cook for than he thought.

"Killua." Kurapika scolds.

"What? i'm done." Killua smiles sweetly, looking up at Charlie. "Did you get all of that? Or do I need to speak slower for you to comprehend?"

"I g-got it." Charlie's eyebrows furrow. He gives Killua a look. A frown mixed with irritation.

"Wow impressive!" Gon chuckles. " I didn't get any of that."

"Well i've had a lot of practice." Charlie seems to calm down when Gon starts to talk to him. "This isn't my first tough customer." He chuckles. "I'll get your drinks and I'll make sure to get you your 5 ice cubes." Charlie returns the sweet smile. Killua keeps his face in place but he's gripping his fist as Charlie walks off.

"So what do you guys want to talk about?" Leorio breaks in, smiling awkwardly, looking between Killua and Gon.

"Hmm hows your relationship going?" Kurapika decides to ask, glancing between the two boys. Gon beams, his heart warming up.

"Amazing! Me and Killua made lov-"

"Idiot!" Killua's face gets blood red as he covers Gon's mouth. "Don't go shouting something like that!"

"You guys had sex?!" Leorio shouts, getting most of the people around them to look over.

"Leorio." Kurapika groans, holding his face with his hands, his own cheeks tinting at this situation.

"What the hell! You're worse than Gon!" Killua shouts at Leorio only to growl when he sees a couple of the couples wrinkle their noses. They quickly look away.

"Sorry, sorry! That just surprised me! I mean you just got together!" Leorio takes on that father tone again.

"Why does that matter? Me and Killua love each other, and you're suppose to make love with your special someone and that's Killua." Gon smiles brightly, not noticing how Killua's sour mood slowly starts to fade away, those purple orbs getting lighter.

"Yeah and you're one to talk. You had sex with Kurapika the first day too." Killua grunts, crossing his arms.

"Please, may we stop this conversation." Kurapika frowns when he sees people are still staring.

"Me and Kurapika are a lot older than you two! And I'm a experienced lover. Did you do it properly?" Leorio's cheeks tint slightly but he seems more concerned about the boy's health.

"Yes jeez." Killua flushes, moving closer to Gon instinctively when he sees Charlie coming with their drinks.

"Good so no damage?" Leorio seems to be looking between the two. Kurapika seems to peak up in interest as well.

"No. My butt is just a little sore." Gon admits, his cheeks turning pink when both Leorio and Kurapika's eyes widen slightly.

"well it's going to be the first time." Leorio says seriously but he appears to be a little embarrassed.

Killua puts his hand on Gon's thigh and rubs it soothingly. Gon looks over to see Killua staring at him with a slight frown. He probably feels bad for making him sore. Gon smiles and kisses his nose.

"It's okay. It's not bad."

"Good." Killua nuzzles his cheek, kissing it. He flushes at his show of affection in front of Kurapika and Leorio. He pulls away.

"Here's all your drinks." Charlie comes up to the table and places all their drinks down in front of them. Killua checks for his 5 ice cubes and he grunts in approval. Killua seems to have gotten back into a bad mood though despite his request being fulfilled. "Your food should be out in a little while." Charlie stares at Gon for a moment before he smiles. "You look familiar to me but I can't think of where I've seen you before."

Killua whips his head over to Gon, watching his expression. "I've never seen you before." Gon tilts his head. "I would remember those freckles." Gon chuckles, earning him a smile from Charlie.

"Now I remember. I've seen you all. You guys won the fishing competition and captured the Kraken! That's amazing." Charlie's green eyes light up and he keeps them away from Killua. Gon doesn't notice but the ex-assassin is seething.

"It was a lot of fun! We all worked together to capture her." Gon beams proudly.

"It was terrifying." Leorio shakes his head.

"I must say it was a once in a life time experience." Kurapika smiles politely at Charlie but he's glancing at Killua wearily.

"You must be really strong to be able to capture the Kraken." Charlie's eyes rest on Gon.

" I came here to eat with my friends." Killua suddenly says, glaring at Charlie. "You're intruding."

"I'm sorry. I just wanted to talk with you guys for a little bit. I'll be back with your food." Charlie's eyes once again linger on Gon. There's a strange look to his face that Gon doesn't really understand. Killua must though because he grips his fists.

"Must you do that Gon." Killua leans over and whispers harshly in his ear once Charlie is gone. Gon blinks. The other male sounds angry. Before he can even ask, Killua's hand moves and grabs his sensitive area through his shorts. "Flirting with that other man right in front of me." Killua is speaking so lowly that Gon is sure Kurapika and Leorio can't hear.

"Flirting?" Gon bites his lip, his eyes widening when Killua's hand goes into his shorts. "K-Killua." Gon's cheeks get pink, his heart beating faster. He's sure you're not suppose to do something like this in a restaurant but he's feeling excited from the idea.

"You called him cute in front of me." Killua growls in his ear, rubbing his member through his boxers. Just enough that it feels good but makes Gon want more.

"I didn't say he was cute. I said freckles are cute." Gon's eyes widen in realization, this familiar spark of his aura telling the whole story. Killua is jealous. Those eyes are narrowed. Gon takes a sharp intake of breath when Killua goes into his boxers.

"And he has them so you think he's cute." Gon closes his eyes, biting his lip at the stimulation down below. He's still sensitive from having sex only hours before.

"K-Killua there's no reason to be jealous. Freckles are cute but Killua is way cuter. I think he's cute as I think baby ducks are cute. You see, there was this little girl back at the island who had freckles. Seeing them just reminded me of whale island and everyone." Killua stops stroking him much to his relief. He was about to let out a groan. Gon looks over at Killua only to cup his cheeks. "I think Killua is cute. Sexy. You don't have to worry about anyone else. I only want to be with you."

Killua's eyes widen slightly, that light coming back to him. When Gon kisses him, his eyes slip shut and he relaxes, his possessive and jealous aura fading away. He takes his hands out of Gon's pants, much to Gon's disappointment, and he wraps his arms around him, deepening the kiss. It's soft and deep. Not like the kissing during love making that's fast and everywhere but slow and careful. It's full of their feelings and Gon loves it.

Gon doesn't mind how jealous Killua is. He likes it honestly. He likes seeing that flare in his eyes and the way he grabs a hold of him.

"Okay guys we are in a restaurant you know?" Leorio flushes slightly from the two younger boys kissing passionately in front of them like no one else is here.

"AH." Killua's eyes widen like he just remembered and he pulls away from Gon, his face a bright red.

"Sorry it's hard to stop kissing Killua!" Gon beams not seeing how Killua fidgets, a small smile forming on his lips.

"Well just...try to keep it together." Leorio takes a sip of his drink. "You guys are worse than us."

"They just had their first time Leorio, we were like that as well." Kurapika takes a sip after saying this, Leorio's eyes getting big.

"Yeah but that's us! It's weird seeing the kids like this!"

"We're not your kids." Killua grunts but his hand has once again found itself on Gon's, his thumb caressing his hand.

"And we're not kids." Gon says as Charlie comes over with two large trays. "food!"

"Yup. Everything is here." Charlie smiles as he places the trays down on this stand so he can hand everyone their plates. When Killua gets his, those purple orbs narrow, taking in his food. He examines the food before grunting.

"So you have the ability to listen and report information. Good for you."

Charile's eyebrow twitches slightly but other than that he continues to pass out the food. He smiles at Gon when he puts his plate in front of him. "Careful now, it's hot." He says nicely. Gon returns his smile, thankful for the warning. "Does everything look okay?"

"It looks great!" Gon shouts.

"Yes very good, thank you." Kurapika smiles politely.

"you can go now." Killua narrows his eyes at Charlie when those green eyes stay on Gon for too long.

"Killua." Gon gives his hand a squeeze under the table trying to remind him of the talk they just had.

"I will go and I'll come back to check on you guys later. What is your name?" Charlie keeps looking at Gon.

Leorio stops midway putting food into his mouth. Kurapika takes a sip of his drink. Both of them know something is about to go down.

"Gon-"

"Why does that matter?" Killua cuts Gon off. Those purple orbs suspicious.

"I just wanted to know his name so that I could address him properly to say this." Charlie doesn't back down when Killua's aura starts to spark again. The temperature feeling cooler. "Gon-" Charlie stops mid sentence. His face gets pale. Gon tilts his head when the other male just walks away. Killua even looks confused.

"How odd." Kurapika watches charlie walk away, his movement seems strange.

"Is Charlie okay?" Gon watches him go.

"Who cares?" Killua huffs and starts to eat. "He was just pissing me off anyway."

"I don't doubt Killua scared him off." Leorio shakes his head as he digs into his food.

"I wonder what he was going to say." Gon looks down at his food before he starts to eat. When he was looking at Charlie, those green eyes reminded him of someone. He couldn't put his finger on it but he got this feeling in his gut.

"Careful." It's barely a whisper but Gon heard the voice.

Gon's ears start to ring but he ignores it. He eats slowly, his amber eyes looking around for anything out of the ordinary. He tries to look for Charlie again but he doesn't see him. Killua doesn't stop eating but those purple orbs shift over lazily to look at him. Though Killua doesn't show it on the outside, Gon knows that he's alerted Killua. The other male is on guard. Kurapika is also eating slower, seeming to pick up on the atmosphere. Those gray eyes subtlety looking up.

Leorio eats quickly, not catching any of it.

"Careful." that voice again. Gon's heart clenches. This voice isn't the other Killua. It sounds like... "You feel that don't you? It's going to hurt, whatever is coming. Put us out of our misery." This voice is very silent. Quiet. But Gon recognizes the voice.

It's his own.

"You're going to kill me." Now Gon hears the other Killua's voice. Gon takes a sharp intake of breath. He's feeling anxious. There's more than one voice now. He knows that voice was not his own. It's the other Gon...but it wasn't like the Gon in his dream...Gon feels like he's about to fizz out. It's so confusing.

"-Gon?" Gon blinks, the plate that was full of food a second ago is empty now. He looks up slowly to see all his friends looking at him. Kurapika is frowning deeply, while Killua and Leorio seem a bit confused, and concerned.

"Yes?" Gon swallows. Did I just blank out? I just started eating didn't I?

"You look a little pale there." Leorio comments. "You've been staring at your plate for awhile."

"Oh I didn't notice." Gon fiddles with his fork, glancing around, seeing how everyone is done eating.

"You feeling alright?" Killua's purple orbs bore into his own. Gon tries to keep himself from frowning. Gon's worried Killua can see into his head and see how messed up this all is. He feels panic in his chest but he swallows it down. Killua is concerned. He can see it in his expression. Gon has made him worry a lot today. Gon lost himself for a moment and in that moment his body had jumped off of the mountain. Killua saw him jump off. He saw him try to kill himself. Killua is getting suspicious.

"He's going to find out. Then he'll know how horrible you are." The other Killua sneers.

"I don't want to suffer anymore. That will hurt too much." That soft other Gon's voice speaks.

"If he leaves I'll kill him."

Panic causes Gon's throat to close up. It feels like someone is stepping on his chest. He can't breathe right. That last voice...It was his own. The Gon from the dream. The Gon that killed Killua...The Gon that could become him.

The three voices start to argue back and forth, every time Gon hears that dark voice of his own person, he sinks into himself. He can no longer hear what his friends are saying.

"You don't look good Gon are you feeling sick?"

"I just want to die."

"Gon?"

"You're nothing but a waste. How dare you lie to me."

"Gon you're worrying me. Say something."

"I'll kill him. He won't get away."

"Shut up!" Gon growls, punching the table. It breaks under his force, right in half. The voices stop in his head...And finally Gon is able to realize where he is once again. All his friends are looking at him with wide eyes. All of the restaurant looks horrified. Gon's expression falls as he takes in everyone before looking at what he's done. It's such a mess. His three friends looked Shocked. Especially Killua and Leorio. Kurapika is frowning deeply. He knows. "S-Sorry. I need to..." Gon's eyes shift away from Killua. He can't look at his lover right now.

Killua seems to snap out of his shock because soon he's up and has his arms around Gon, covering his face from the people who are staring. "We're leaving." Killua's warmth is a relief as the other male leads him out of the restaurant, Kurapika and Leorio close behind. Leorio leaves money for the dinner and the damage caused.

"It's okay Killua." Gon moves his hands from his face when they get out of the restaurant. Killua stares at him with his eyebrows furrowed. He doesn't look happy.

"Gon...what was that about?"

"N-Nothing-"

"Don't lie to me!" Killua snarls just as Kurapika and Leorio come out.

"Killua back off." Kurapika says quickly when he sees how pale Gon's face gets.

"Like hell I'm backing off! Gon, you've been acting strange lately. Are you sick? What are you hiding? I'm worried-" Killua's voice becomes white noise. Gon can only stare at him in horror, a panic filling up in his chest. Of courses Killua would figure it out. He's smart. A lot smarter than Gon. He couldn't hide it from him. Gon let the voices get to him and because of that, Killua knows something is wrong.

Gon turns his back to Killua so he doesn't have to look at him. He tries to calm himself down. He hears Kurapika arguing with Killua and Leorio stepping in. All his friends are fighting now. Because of him.

Gon blinks when he sees Charlie standing across from him. He stares at him with those green eyes before he runs into the forest.

"Charlie just ran into the forest." Gon says before he starts to run after him.

"Wait Gon, you didn't answer any of my questions!" Killua runs after him.

"Gon you shouldn't be running, you should sit down-" Leorio yells, running with Kurapika.

"Gon stop." Kurapika calls.

"But Charlie!" Gon says, his curiosity being peaked and he doesn't want to answer Killua's questions.

"Gon Freeces, I won't stand this anymore. You're hiding something from me and I need to know!" Killua shouts after him, making Gon's heart stop beating for a second.

"You can't keep lying to me. I'm going to know. I'll leave you."

He won't find out if I don't tell him. Killua might get angry but he won't know still...Gon is running out of ideas. He just follows Charlie deeper into the forest. Charlie ends up disappearing into a bush and Gon loses sight of him.

"There you four are. I was beginning to think I was going to be stood up." Gon tenses when he hears that voice. Killua just caught up with him and was about to grab a hold of him. Once they all sensed this man though, they turned, getting into a fighting position.

"Oh what the fuck? What are you doing here?" Killua snarls, his aura sparking dangerously. The ex-assassin really isn't in the mood to be messed with. Gon can tell. Gon can't help to be surprised when Killua gets in front of him protectively. Even though Killua knows Gon's keeping something from him...He's still like this. Maybe nothing would change if Killua knew? He'd be angry yes, but he's angry now-

"You've seen what will happen. You'll lose it."

Gon gets stiff, a cold sweat falling down his face as he locks eyes with Hisoka, the man is smirking with his hip poked out to the side. He's staring at Gon with those yellow eyes, filled with amusement and...knowledge.

"How do you keep finding us?" Killua snarls, his hands turning into claws, his blue eyes getting dark. "You have been stalking us. I knew it! I don't know what it is, but you're involved in all this somehow!"

"You're right. I'm involved in everything but I'm the cause of nothing." Hisoka chuckles when Killua looks annoyed. "Riddles are fun aren't' they? But don't worry. I'm not here to riddle you. I'm here to give information. You see I was called upon. One of you saw that my information was precious. I didn't find you. You came to me." Hisoka's yellow eyes slowly shift over, landing on Kurapika who is the only one who didn't get into a fighting position. Kurapika doesn't look at his friends who have all turned to stare at him in confusion and shock. Those gray eyes only stare back at Hisoka blankly.

"How did you contact Hisoka? And why would you want to meet him? What information is he talking about?" Leorio looks between everyone, his eyebrows furrowed. He's extremely confused.

"Gon told you about Hisoka running in on us during our date didn't he?...but how did you get a hold of him?" Killua narrows his eyes slightly at the blonde.

Gon stares at Kurapika with his eyes wide, his heart sinking. Kurapika was suppose to meet Hisoka alone. Kurapika told him that he wasn't able to get a hold of Hisoka. Why would he lie? And why would he meet Hisoka with Killua and Leorio here? What if Hisoka says something about the curse? Kurapika...he wouldn't...he promised...

"Ha! That's rich." the other Killua chuckles. "You have no friends. They're all out to get you."

"Kurapika? But he promised...of course he would break his promise to someone like me..."

"He has to be punished-"

Stop. Gon grips his fists, grinding his teeth. There's a loud ringing in his ears but he wills himself to focus on what's going on right now and not on what's going on in his head.

"Hisoka was at your date?! Wait why am I the only one who doesn't know this? You guys don't tell me anything!" Leorio's eye twitches.

"How I reached him is no concern of yours at the moment. Get on with this Hisoka. Tell us the information." Kurapika doesn't look at all the eyes set on him. He just keeps those serious gray orbs on the magician.

"Everyone looks so serious." Hisoka chuckles, those yellow orbs falling on Gon's pale face. The raven haired male glares at him, feeling that panic in his chest. "What would you like to know?"

"Tell us about the fox stealer. You're obviously involved in Clover's theft one way or the other." Kurapika speaks before anyone else can.

"My hands are clean on the theft. I have nothing to do with that. As for the fox stealer, I have a few things I'm willing to tell you." Hisoka licks his lips, Gon's glare falling slightly. Maybe...he doesn't have to worry about Hisoka? Maybe Kurapika made a deal with him so he won't say anything about the curse? Maybe he's just going to give them good information.

"Is he being controlled by someone else?" Killua asks, he's still standing in front of Gon, his guard, and his claws ,not going down.

"you have a very good eye." Hisoka smirks. "I'll give you this. The fox stealer Is nothing more than a puppet." Killua's hand twitches at the word 'puppet'. " He is being controlled, and his purpose is to buy time. That is all I will say."

"His purpose is to buy time? Time for what?" Killua raises an eyebrow. He grips his fist. "When you came to the theater you were saying that we were running out of time. Time seems to be the theme here. Why does this person controlling that guy want time? Is he trying to buy time to sacrifice the white fox?"

Hisoka's lips curl. "Why indeed? Time is a precious thing. It slips so quickly. The fox is as much as a pawn as the demon."

" I thought you said you weren't going to riddle us." Killua's eyes narrow.

"...The fox doesn't matter does it?" Kurapika swallows thickly, everyone looking over at him.

"I wouldn't say it doesn't matter." Hisoka is grinning from ear to ear. "But you're right. The fox doesn't matter as much as Gon matters."

"What?" Killua's expression falls. He gets closer to Gon, his eyes narrowing at Hisoka. "Explain! What do you mean? What does this guy want?"

"You really don't know do you? It seems Kurapika knows but you two don't." Hisoka chuckles. Gon feels that panic well up. He opens his mouth to tell Hisoka to stop but his throat closes on him. He can't speak. He can hear the other Killua laughing darkly in his mind.

"Don't know what?" Killua and Leorio say at the same time, both looking at Kurapika and then at Gon. Gon looks down at his shoes, cold sweat falling down his face. Something is building up inside of him. It's coming to the surface yet he can't do anything but stand there. Please. Don't. Stop. Don't tell him. He can't know.

"And here I thought you all were the best of friends. Shame on you two from hiding it from them." Hisoka chuckles when Gon tenses.

"Get on with it Hisoka." Kurapika snarls, his eyes flashing scarlet.

"Such hostility." Hisoka licks his lips before he looks at Killua and Leorio who look confused and worried at the same time. Killua's eyes flashed at the mention of Gon hiding something from him and he bites his lip.

"Tell me." Killua says calmly. Too calmly.

"Gon has been cursed." The raven haired male's heart stops. He can't breathe. He can't think. His body has gone stiff. Those words breaking him. Kurapika closes his eyes in acceptance. Kurapika knew. He planned this. Kurapika broke his promise. Kurapika lied to him. Gon feels something wet fall down his face. He can only stand there in agony, his wrist and his bite wound stinging so badly, the ringing becoming unbearable.

"Cursed? What are you talking about?" Killua takes a step forward, those dark blue eyes focused on Hisoka but there's this wavering of his aura.

"The circus leader put the curse on Gon." Kurapika speaks up, keeping his eyes closed. "Gon was able to convince the leader he didn't steal Clover but he had already cursed him..."

"Why couldn't he have taken it off?" Killua's voice is starting to sound darker. He's angry. Gon knows it. He still can't move. "If he knew Gon didn't do it."

"He said that he can't remove the curse in till Clover is returned. That is the condition of the curse." Kurapika takes a deep breath.

"So...what does this mean? Gon being cursed?" Leorio speaks up, his voice sounding quiet.

"It means death for Gon." Hisoka butts in, smirking at how Killua's face visibly pales and Leorio's body tenses up. "He's dying. Slowly but surely. The curse is meant to be painful."

"You knew this and you didn't tell us?" Killua snarls at Kurapika who doesn't look at him. Killua's aura is spreading. He's pissed. He's so mad. Killua hasn't turned to look at him yet. He knows it's coming. He knows it. "How much time does he have left?!"

"I don't know for sure but I can tell you he's past the first wave. I don't know how many waves there are but he's close to the second wave." Hisoka glances back at Gon, his eyes lighting up in interest. "I'll also tell you this. The other Killua you asked me about at the theater is all in Gon's head. It's a part of the curse. This curse is particularly nasty where it makes the curse's one most beloved person be there tormentor."

Killua's eyes widen before they get darker. He grinds his teeth, breathing heavily out of his nose. "I'm going to kill that circus leader." Killua's hands get veiny, his voice getting so low. "Tell me where the fox is." Killua's voice leaves no room for playing around.

"That is something I don't know." Hisoka shrugs his shoulders.

"Don't lie!" Killua's aura sparks, electric sparks coming off of him, his hair puffing up.

"Killua calm down." Kurapika tries only for those dark eyes to turn on him.

"Calm down?! Don't you dare tell me to calm the fuck down. You knew Gon was cursed and you didn't say anything! Gon is fucking dying and you didn't think you should tell me?! We've just been fucking around while he's been hurting!" Killua starts to turn his body. It's like it's in slow motion. Gon's eyes widen, his heart once again stopping. That feeling building up. His blood runs cold.

Killua locks eyes with Gon, the expression on his face makes him break. Killua's teeth are baring, those blue orbs so dark, a snarl on his face. Yet through all of that, Gon can see the hurt. The pain. The fear. "Why the hell didn't you tell me Gon?! Why would you hide something this important from me? Why would you only share it with Kurapika? Aren't we best friends? Aren't we lovers? You're cursed and my image has been hurting you! You're dying, why did you lie to me-"

Gon snaps. It's like all those three voices in his head started to scream. His body starts to shake viciously and he opens his mouth, wanting to say sorry, wanting to take that expression away from Killua-

But all that comes out is a scream. It's blood curling, like someone was taking a ax and chopping him to pieces. Killua's dark eyes give way to fear. Gon can't see that though. He can't see anything. The faces of his friends have morphed into bloody masses.

"I know! I hate you! How dare you keep this from me?! I'm going to leave! And you're going to kill me!"

"They all deserve to die! Kurapika betrayed me! I'll make it so Killua can't run from me!-"

Gon can't hurt them. He can't stand it. He won't, he can't become the Gon in his dream. Gon continues to scream before he takes off running away from his friends. He can't hurt them if he's not around them. Gon grips his hair and keeps running. He hears Killua scream his name but it mixes with all the voices in his head. Everything is spinning.

The trees in the forest have morph into hands reaching out towards him and strange faces glaring at him, watching him. His heart is beating so fast that he thinks it will pop out of his chest. I can't hurt Killua. I can't hurt them. I won't. Gon is having a panic attack. He can't barely run. Everything is spinning.

He falls on his face and starts to crawl, crying out when his wrist burns. He grabs it and starts to rub it fictitiously against the ground. When he's able to get up he runs deeper into the forest.

"It's hopeless. You can't run from yourself." That soft voice says in his head. "It's painful isn't it?"

Gon falls to his knees once again, his legs giving out on him, his whole body is aching like he's been hit by a car. He dry heaves for a moment before his diner comes up and out into the forest floor. Gon throws up, the acid burning his throat and his nose.

Gon crawls away from his puke and towards a puddle. He cups the water and splashes it on his face. When he looks at his reflection, he's horrified.

Those black, dark eyes are staring back at him. The man that murdered Killua is staring back at him.

Gon screams once again, grabbing at his face. He can't breathe. He has to get away or he'll hurt Killua. He has to-

"Kill yourself." That soft voice says. "Please. Put me out of my misery."

"Good. Run away. I won't come after you. I've already left you."

"I'll break his legs so he can't leave."

Gon grips his arm as he stares into the puddle, those dark eyes not leaving. He snarls and punches the water, splashing the water everywhere. The raven haired male forces himself up, a deep anger invading him and a deep sorrow. As he walks he hits the trees with his bare hands, making them bleed but the pain helps him. He needs the pain.

He needs to make it so he can't hurt Killua with these hands.

After awhile of walking, he can't feel his hands anymore. His chest is still raising and falling quickly and the ringing hasn't gone away. All the voices are still talking, filling his mind and leaving him no room to think. All he can think about is Killua and the look of betrayal on his face. That's what it was.

"You don't deserve me."

I don't deserve you. That's right. I shouldn't have kept this from you. I'm sorry...

Gon feels tears fall down his face as he staggers through the forest, his arms hanging limply by his sides. He can't get Killua's words out of his head 'we're best friends aren't we?'...of course. Killua is his best friend. His love. Gon just...He didn't want this to happen.

"It hurts." that soft voice cries.

Gon stops limping when he comes up to a lake. He stares down at his reflection and what he sees is a person he doesn't recognize. Gon's face is sunken in, his amber eyes hold no light. His hair is long and it moves in the water like a fog. He looks so small that his bones can be seen...It's almost like this isn't his reflection, but a whole other person staring at him from under the water.

"Come. Let's not suffer anymore." This person In the water says, his mouth moving. He reaches out, his hands coming out of the water. They're so skinny. They look like a skeleton. Three's no muscle at all. They looks so bridle as if any force would break them.

Gon backs away in horror, he swallows, his stomach sinking. "Y-You're not me..."

"Please...Don't go." This person crawls out of the water. When he stands, his legs break from the weight and he falls on his stomach. It looks painful for this person to breathe, his black hair in his face. His clothes are too big for him and they're falling off. This frail, pitiful Gon crawls towards him. Gon can do nothing but stare. It's horrible. Every move this person makes, he hears the bones break. This person is falling to pieces.

"Stop!" Gon shouts, not able to see this person's face from all the black hair. "You're hurting yourself-"

"Kill me." This person coughs. Gon feels sick. He can't deny it. That's his voice. Hoarse and raspy...but it's his voice. This is him. A bony hand falls on Gon's shoe. "Please...Kill me. Don't...let us get like this..."

"I-I can't kill you." Gon tries to stop his trembling. "You're not me...I won't become you-"

This person cries in pain, his chest being crushed in by a foot being stomped on him. It didn't take much. Gon slowly looks up to who this foot belongs to, his whole body frozen in shock.

He stares at himself. Those dark eyes staring right back at him. It's him. The other Gon. The one who killed Killua.

"Of course we can kill him. Any weak part we destroy. Killua is the one who betrayed us. We won't let him leave. He'll be our prisoner-"

"I'm not you! You won't do anything to Killua! You won't touch a hair on his head!" Gon snarls, that anger building up inside of him. The sorrow is gone. He no longer feels it. It's as if it died with his other self that lays lifeless on the floor.

"Kurapika has to be punished as well. This is all his fault. If not for him then Killua wouldn't have known-"

"You won't hurt anyone. I won't let you!" Gon growls before he tackles himself, they both fall into the lake, going under the water. Gon punches this man in the face before he goes to swim up. He's yanked back down. Gon feels that deep anger when he looks into his own eyes and sees how dark they are. Those eyes don't care about anyone but himself. Those eyes are the eyes of a man who will hurt Killua.

Gon failed him as his best friend and lover...but he will protect Killua. He loves him.

Gon grabs this other man by the neck and starts to choke him. His other self opens his mouth and Gon can feel water fill his lungs. He doesn't stop. He watches as his own face contorts in pain, water filling him up.

It hurts. Gon can't breathe. He can feel his consciousness fading...yet he finds himself smiling as darkness swallows him whole.

Killua is safe now. Gon can't hurt him anymore.

---

"Gon!" Killua screams when his body can move again, watching his lover, his best friend, run away from him into the forest, watching his retreating back. He screams in fear and desperation. Killua was being over flooded with emotions from everything. He lost himself in it and started yelling at Gon...but he didn't expect the scream that left Gon's lips.

It sounded horrible. It made Killua freeze up and his blood run cold. Gon screamed as if he was being tortured. And the look on his face...god. He looked terrified and upset and...He was crying. Killua was so busy telling Gon off for not telling him that he wasn't thinking. Killua is upset that Gon didn't tell him but he's more worried about what's going on with his lover and the fact that he's been dying and he's done nothing. Gon has been hurting and he's been hurting silently. Killua hated it. Gon should never have to suffer alone. They're partners...If Gon is suffering, Killua should be right there with him, helping him.

Killua is hurt that Gon wouldn't tell him. But when he saw the look on Gon's face...he realized that Gon was terrified. He really didn't want him to know. Killua doesn't know why he would hide this. He doesn't understand but...

Killua just wants to hold the other male now. He wants to hold him and take away all the pain he heard in that scream. He wants to protect him from this curse. He wants to kill the leader.

But right now, seeing Gon run away from him, something he's never done, Killua can't help to feel like if he loses sight of him, he'll lose him. Killua is beyond scared. When he can move, he runs after Gon, wanting to stop him, needing to hold him-

Killua jumps back when someone falls from the trees, right in his way. The ex-assassin finds a snarl coming from the back of his throat as he takes in Charlie. The boy is swaying on his feet, his cheeks are sunken in and his red hair looks faded. "Get the fuck out of my way!" Killua makes his claws appear, ready to rip this guy's throat out.

"Sorry. I can't do that." Charlie keeps changing in till those green eyes are lifeless. His bones crack and his teeth change to jagged points.

"It's the fox stealer!" Leorio's eyes widen. "It was Charlie?!"

"Leorio get on guard." Kurapika calls his chains, his red eyes shaking.

"I don't have time for this shit!" Killua's eyes become pinpointed when he doesn't see Gon's back anymore. He's gone. Killua's heart is in his throat. His emotions overloading. He finds his aura sparking to the point he shocks himself, turning on Godspeed. He usually wouldn't show this ability to the enemy but right now he could care less.

"Ohh." Hisoka's eyes widen in glee.

"You were a b-bad customer." This demon's hands get longer and sharper., those dull green eyes locking on Killua.

The ex-assassin doesn't even blink. He runs past the demon with little difficulty and into the forest. He knows he's leaving Kurapika and Leorio alone with the demon and Hisoka but he could care less right now. He needs to find Gon. He'll come back to help them after he finds Gon. Kurapika and Leorio can handle themselves. For some reason he knows Hisoka won't attack Kurapika or Leorio. He's just enjoying the show.

"Gon!" Killua calls for his friend, stopping his running to look around for any signs of his friend. His eyes widen when he takes in the trees. They all have holes in them...and smears of blood. Killua swallows down the panic he feels as he turns off his Godspeed and starts to run as fast as he can. He has a feeling Gon isn't far away. Killua feels sick when he sees how many trees have holes in them and the smears of blood. Gon has hurt himself.

Killua jumps over a puddle of vomit that has pieces of meat in it. Gon. Killua bites his lip as he runs, following the drips of blood here and there from Gon's hands bleeding no doubt.

Killua stops when he comes to a lake. The ex-assassin follows the drops of blood to the lake, his eyebrows furrowing. Did Gon try to swim with his hurt hands? Where is he trying to go?-

Killua stops when he reaches the edge and looks down. His heart feels like it's stopped beating. In the lake that is almost clear he can make out a body. Dark hair, tan skin... "Gon!" Killua screams and jumps in, swimming to the bottom to grab Gon and swim back up to the top. Killua places him on his back on the ground, his heart beating so fast.

Gon isn't breathing. His chest isn't moving. Killua is panicking but his body moves without him telling it too. He opens Gon's mouth, tilting his head to get the water out of it before he stars to press on his chest. He counts in his head before he breathes into Gon. No response. He presses on his chest again. Killua knows he's breaking his ribs. He's using too much pressure. He can't help it. Killua is freaking out. "Gon please!" Killua's voice is nothing but a whisper as he breathes into his love again. No response. "Please!" Killua presses on his chest again, giving CPR like his own life depended on it. He breathes into Gon and finally those amber eyes snap open. Gon sits up to cough, the water that was in his lungs splattering on the ground. Gon's chest moving up and down once again. He's breathing. He's alive.

"Gon!" Killua wraps his arms around Gon and hugs him, making sure not to do it too tightly so he's able to breathe.

"K-Killua?" Gon sounds confused, his voice raspy. His arms slowly wrap around him. "What...my chest hurts...what happened? I.."

"What the hell were you thinking?!" Killua can't help to yell, his heart is beating too fast and he knows his eyes are watery. "Don't you ever run away from me like that again Gon Freeces!"

Gon flinches, those amber eyes looking guilty for a moment before they shift away. "But I had to Killua...I remember now...Why did you save me? Aren't you angry that I didn't tell you? Don't you want to leave now? Don't-"

Killua hits Gon over the head, not able to stop himself. "Are you crazy? Yeah I'm upset you didn't tell me but why would I ever want you dead?! I would never leave you Gon, I told you! Why did I save you?! Did you really ask me that? I saved you because I love you and I need you." Killua can't stop the words now. "Don't you ever do that to me again! If you feel bad about not telling me then make it up to me by not doing it again! Don't run off and don't you dare try to kill yourself! Stupid! Why would I ever want that?! If you die there's no point! There's no point in anything!" Killua trembles.

"Killua...I-I'm sorry. Don't cry." Killua wasn't even aware he was crying. Gon reaches up and touches Killua's cheek, those amber eyes focusing on him though he still seems out of it. "I promise I won't keep stuff from you...I won't run off again. It's the curse...I was afraid that I would hurt you. I had this horrible dream that I k-killed you when you found out-"

"Don't be ridiculous. Gon that's the curse messing with you. You would never kill me and even if you did attack me, I can hold my own. Just promise you won't do this again. Don't run off...Do you know how worried I was?" Killua cradles Gon against his chest, drops of water falling down his face but he won't acknowledge them. He really thought he was going to lose him. Gon is starting to lose consciousness. He's groaning in pain from the pressure Killua used to revive him. "You're going to be okay Gon. We're going to find Clover and get this curse off of you. Just stay with me. I won't let you die."

Gon touches Killua's cheek softly, a small smile on his lips, those amber eyes getting their light back only to dull and for his eyes to close, his body going limp. His chest is moving. He's breathing. He's alive. He's okay. Killua starts to breathe heavily. The whole time he was close to having a panic attack. Gon needs to be treated. Though he's breathing he's having trouble doing so. Killua picks up Gon carefully, his heart sinking when Gon's face becomes a wince. He feels that flare of anger and he has to calm down before his hands turn into claws and he cuts Gon by accident. The reason Gon has been acting strange, the reason Gon jumped off the mountain, is because of that leader who cursed Gon, who is innocent. And this person who's stolen Clover and framed Gon.

Killua hears a loud scream coming from the beginning of the forest. It's that demon. Killua remembers he left Kurapika and Leorio to fight that guy. Killua's eyes darken. They can start getting information on this asshole through the demon. Killua will get all the information out of him.

Killua runs back from where he came from, supporting Gon the best he can as he does so. His blood lust is boiling over. Someone needs to pay for this. Gon, his everything, is damaged. Killua stops when he comes up into the forest opening, his eyes widening when he sees Kurapika on top of the demon, his two swords through his shoulders pinning him to the forest floor and his hands around his neck. The demon twitches, his face blue before his eyes roll back and he passes out. The blonde is bleeding on his chest and his fingers are crunched together, broken. His clothes are ripped and he looks pale. Leorio stands off towards the side, his head bleeding from a wound, his clothes messed up as well. He looks at Kurapika shocked, the Kurta's red eyes glare into this demon, baring his teeth.

Killua can't help to feel disappointed. He wanted to take down the demon. But oh well, Killua will get his hands dirty with this guy's blood soon. Killua doesn't look at Kurapika. He's pissed at him. Gon is one thing. From Gon's words, it seems the curse made him afraid to tell him. Kurapika has no excuse. He should have told him.

Killua needs to control himself. He feels like hurting the blonde. Who knows how much time they have left? And Gon has been suffering all this time...Killua takes a deep breath.

"Leorio, you need to look at Gon. I think I may have broke something giving him CPR. He tried to drown himself." Killua keeps his face blank but really, he's freaking out on the inside.

"W-What?" Leorio rushes over to Killua, limping on one of his legs as he looks at the raven haired male with concern. He swallows when he takes in the damage to Gon's hands and how pale his face is. "We should take him to the hospital! We need an x ray on him. There's one on the other side of the island." Leorio glances over at Kurapika who is still on top of the demon.

"You two go." Kurapika's voice is dark, hoarse. "Take Gon and get him treated. I'll meet you back at the hotel." Kurapika takes a deep breath. "We'll talk more about this later. Right now our priority is getting Gon help and transferring the demon to our room. I'm going to sedate him."

"If you lose the demon I will hurt you Kurapika." Killua's voice gets lower, his blue eyes getting darker. "And when you come to the hotel you're going to explain why you decided not to tell us all this. And you'll tell us all you know. Gon just tried to kill himself. How fucked is that?" Killua's voice wavers. "I'm not going to play anymore games."

" Understood." Kurapika nods his head, still not looking at him. "I won't keep anything from you."

Leorio stares at his lover's back, a frown on his face. They don't make eye contact and they don't speak to each other.

"Where's Hisoka?" Killua narrows his eyes, looking around.

"I don't know. He ran off soon after the fox stealer attacked us." Leorio watches as Kurapika throws the demon on his shoulder.

"Let's go." Killua's eyebrows furrow and his scowl deepens when Gon's face scrunches up in pain, his lips twitching.

"With our licenses we can get a private room. I should do a full head to toe assessment on Gon to see what changes there are. His hands need to be bandaged up and we defiantly need to get a chest x ray." Leorio's expression is serious as the two friends hurry up out of the forest, leaving Kurapika back a ways. Leorio gets his phone out and starts to call for a cab.

"I got you." Killua nuzzles Gon's forehead, feeling the sweat there. Gon still looks pale and from the expressions he's making, he's in pretty bad pain. Killua is sure that the curse is what made Gon jump into that lake. Gon would never try to kill himself. Gon isn't like that. He doesn't give up. He keeps fighting. Killua can't even image what this curse has been doing to his lover. And Gon has been facing it alone.

"Hurry get in." Leorio opens the cab door when the cab drives up to them. Killua lays Gon down in the back seat as gently as he can before he gets in, keeping his body facing Gon he stays in the space between the back seat and the front seats. Leorio gets in front with the cab driver. "Take us to the hospital."

"You sure you don't want to call an ambulance-"

"Drive!" Killua snarls, his blue eyes flashing. The cab driver quickly puts the car on drive and speeds off. Killua supports Gon's body, trying to keep him still when they hit bumps. The ambulance would have taken longer then the cab. The cab was right here, the ambulance is on the other side of the island.

Killua watches Gon silently, sweat beading down his face and his chest struggling to lift up and down. It's painful to watch. But he's seen Gon in worse states. He endured it. He will endure this and make sure Gon gets out of this without a scar. Gon always gets himself in a mess and Killua is there to pull him out and clean it up.

"K-Killua..." Gon groans out, his eyes opening slightly. They look unfocused.

"I'm right here." Killua reassures, grabbing Gon's hand and squeezing it.

"We're moving..." Gon seems to relax when he looks at Killua but his eyebrows furrow.

"We're taking you to the hospital Gon."

"My chest hurts...did that other Gon try to hurt you?" Gon's breathing starts to turn rapid, causing more pain to himself.

"Calm down Gon. No one tried to hurt me. You're fine. I'm fine." Killua runs his hand through Gon's hair, the other male slowly starting to settle down.

"It's o-okay then. I'm sorry K-Killua I'm sorry." Gon's body is very warm. It looks like he's coming down with a fever. His mouth is dry and he has to keep licking his lips.

"I already forgave you idiot. It's alright." Killua tries to keep his voice normal as he leans in and kisses Gon on the forehead not caring that the cab driver is looking back at them. "Just rest for right now. Don't worry about it." Killua's kiss seems to do the trick because Gon closes his eyes again and his body goes lax.

"The hospital is coming up Killua, get ready to move him." Leorio glances back at the two, his face staying in that serious expression. It hasn't fallen since Killua found him with Kurapika.

"I'm ready." Killua gives Gon another kiss on the cheek, wishing he could get that wince off of his face. The cab comes to a stop, Killua getting out of the cab quickly before he pulls Gon by his legs till he can get a good grip on his waist. He picks Gon up and holds him against his chest as they rush into the hospital, Leorio throwing money back at the cab driver.

"Give us a private room. My friend needs medical assistance. I'm a doctor." Leorio pulls out his hunter license and his doctor license.

"P-Please wait here, we'll get something set up for you." The nurse runs off quickly, speaking frantically to a couple of others who look at the trio. They must look horrible. Gon is barely breathing while Leorio is limping and bleeding out of his head. Good thing all they have to do is show them their hunters licenses and it's like everyone understands. They're a part of a world they can't understand.

Killua just holds Gon and waits. He uses all the patience he has and all the will power he has to not think about what just happened. He can't think that he almost lost Gon. He can't think of how Gon looked floating lifeless in the water. He can't think of his own image being used to hurt Gon.

He can only hold Gon close to his heart now, Gon's heart beat and his breathing like his own. Losing Gon would mean losing his light.

Losing Gon would mean losing his life. Because Killua will follow Gon anywhere.

Even to death.

---

Illumi stares at the TV from his position in the kitchen. There's a big bowl in front of him filled with milk.

"Next we add the eggs, make sure to stir real well!" The man on the TV smiles.

"Eggs." Illumi slowly, mechanically turns to the egg carton and takes out two eggs, cracking them into the bowl without taking his eyes off the TV. He grabs the beater and starts to stir with it. "Cooking is amusing." Illumi's expression never changes.

"Next add the flour." The man starts to talk about something but illumi is already working on grabbing the cup of flour he measured and dumping it into the bowl. Just as he starts to stir again he moves gracefully to the side just as a card is thrown towards his face. "Ah Hisoka you're back." Illumi slowly looks over at the magician who has crawled through the window, those yellow eyes dark and a unhappy frown on his face. "What is with that expression? Did things not go as planned?"

"You said that Gon didn't even reach the second wave yet." Hisoka takes a step closer, his arms crossed, his curvy hips swaying with an irritated tick.

"And he has not. Did he reach it today?" Illumi tilts his head, his expression still not changing.

"Gon tried to kill himself. He tried to drown himself." Hisoka's eyes narrow. "You said you wouldn't let him die. I'm not done playing with that toy yet."

"Oh really? That's strange. I must have miscalculated." Illumi hums, not seeming worried about it as he looks back at the cooking show. "Suicide attempts happen towards the third wave. He must have skipped a wave."

"Why is it moving so fast with Gon? I would think it would work slower on him because of his strength." Hisoka walks till he's standing right next to Illumi.

"Maybe it's his strength that is working against him. I only watched that man with the curse and he was a normal human. There's a lot of factors that are different between him and the boy. Also this curse is unique in that it has the ability to adapt."

"Adapt?"

"Yes. The more the cursed one struggles with the curse, the stronger the curse will become. Since the boy knows he's cursed, he has probably challenged it more than once. The more he fights, the more rough the curse will become."

"So fighting the curse makes it worse." Hisoka thinks for a moment. "How long does he have once the hits the third wave?"

"Not too much longer. I'm not ready to make my move yet though. Don't worry. Gon won't die. He may have tried to kill himself but the curse won't let him die off so quickly. The point of the curse is to torture the victim" Illumi goes back to putting ingredients into his bowl and then stirring it's contents. "But honestly I don't know what that boy is going to experience. The curse, once it gets to the third wave, does it's own thing according to the person that is cursed. Once the man got to the third wave, he wouldn't eat one day and then the next day he thought he was a dog then the next he ran around naked outside. Confusion is a big part of the third wave. At least it was for the man. It seemed the man also lost some of his memory at one point and couldn't recall who he was. So what happens to Gon during the third wave, your guess is as good as mind."

Illumi pours the batter into a pan before putting it in the stove. "When Gon hits the forth wave, that is when I will make my move."

"When did that man die?"

"On the 5th wave. So when Gon hits the forth wave, I must act quickly. So monitoring Gon is very important from here on out, especially since he seems to be moving faster up the waves." Illumi turns to face Hisoka who is smirking at him.

"I've never seen you wear an apron before. It's cute."

"Cute?" Illumi doesn't blink as he looks down at the white apron he's wearing before looking back up at Hisoka who is still smirking. "This is normal kitchen attire. Says the man on the TV."

"Have you even cooked a day in your life?" Hisoka raises an amused eyebrow at the man with no expression.

"Nope. After flipping through the channels I saw this cooking show. Though it's not a skill I necessarily need, it's good to be fluent in many skills."

"That's so adorable. You've actually taken interest in something other than killing people. Where did you even get that apron? Did you leave the cabin?"

"No. I found it." Illumi ignores Hisoka's other comments as he looks towards the stove where his pan is cooking. "You can be the taste tester."

"What? Don't trust your own cooking?"

"I'm not much on sweets." Illumi stares at the stove blankly before those mechanical eyes fall back on Hisoka. "Where is the demon?"

"He got captured." Hisoka says causally smirking when Illumi's eyebrow twitches slightly.

"Oh dear. That's not good. You let that happen Hisoka?" Illumi gives him a pointed look.

"Maybe." Hisoka gives him a smile that could be considered sheepish.

"Why do I let you do anything?" Illumi's eyes get half lidded in what could be irritation. "No matter. This doesn't change anything."

"Are you sure? The demon might spill your location under enough...pressure." Hisoka smirks at Illumi, poking his hip out.

"He wouldn't. As long as his lover is in my reach he won't tell. He would die before he would spill my location."

"What if he does spill the location? Do you have a back up plan? Gon and his friends will be here in a heart beat."

"True. And if it so happens that the demon spills my location and they do come here, I will deal with them accordingly. Kil has grown but he still can't defy me. I will deal with them swiftly and strike the deal early if I must. But I really doubt the demon will spill my location. I hope not. I like my other plan better."

"You sound pretty confident." Hisoka can't help to chuckle at the assassin. "You think you could take on all four of them?"

"Obviously." Illumi blinks when the stove dings. "Oh the cake is done." Illumi walks over to the stove and takes out the pan using the mittens that was waiting next to the stove. He places the pan above on the stove to cool off. "What was Gon's status? You said he tried to kill himself, but was he damaged?"

"Yes. Killua had to preform CPR on him. They took him to the hospital." Hisoka smells the air before licking his lips, coming up behind Illumi, wrapping his arms around him, hugging him from behind. "That smells delicious~"

"Get off of me." Illumi makes no move to remove Hisoka by force as his blank eyes fall on the vanilla cake cooling off on the stove. "It does smell pleasant doesn't it? You will taste it."

"Aren't you going to put icing on it?" Hisoka closes his eyes, a almost...peaceful expression coming to that face. "I had cake that smelled like this once. On my 8th birthday. The first time we could afford it. It melted way too soon in my mouth. A good thing never lasts long. That's why I love long lasting gum. The fun should go on and on."

"Why are you telling me this?" Illumi gets out of Hisoka's arms as he cuts the cake into squares. "There's no icing."

"Just making small talk. Nothing more." Hisoka shrugs his shoulder, that natural smirk coming back to his face.

"I never had cake for my birthdays. Celebrating such a thing is pointless."

"So you've told me. You threw out the present I got you last year for your birthday. You're so very cruel."

"You got me a cheer leader costume and wrote me a very suggestive note. Even if I celebrated my birthday, I wouldn't accept that gift."

"That outfit was expensive too." Hisoka sighs. "You didn't even come to my birthday party either."

"If by birthday party you mean that Chuckie Cheese you took over and killed everyone inside, then yes, I didn't show up. I was not going to spend the day with you in a children's arcade with rotting bodies."

"you're no fun." Hisoka pouts. "I need to get some funner friends. If only I wasn't so shy." Hisoka puts a finger to his lips.

"Oh please." Illumi puts a piece of his cake on a plate. "We're only business partners."

"You can say that all you like, it doesn't make it true." Hisoka smirks. "You'd be lost with out me~"

"If you were to die this very moment I would bury you in the backyard and go back to watching TV."

"Ohh so cruel baby." Hisoka puts a hand over his heart, a smirk on his lips. "But I like it" He winks.

"If they take the demon to their hotel we will have their location." Illumi suddenly says, those black eyes looking away from Hisoka to stare down at the cake he made. "I implanted a tracking device. I expect you to watch over Gon and report back on his condition."

"I got it." Hisoka leans back, cracking his back. He hums in confusion when Illumi takes a fork full of the cake and holds it towards Hisoka's face.

"Taste it."

Hisoka smirks but it's weary. "This doesn't have any poison in it does it now? I've been poisoned enough times in my life by you."

"I wouldn't do that." Those big, black, empty eyes stare into Hisoka's yellow orbs.

Hisoka and Illumi stare at each other for a long time before the magician leans in and eats the piece off the fork.

"What does it taste like?"

"Vanilla." Hisoka licks his lips.

"Does it taste like the cake you had when you were young?" Illumi stares at him with those black eyes.

Hisoka's yellow orbs widen slightly from Illumi actually paying attention to what he was saying for once. A smirk forms on his face, but it's too close to a smile. "It does. I'd say it tastes better."

"Then my cooking skills are satisfactory." Illumi nods his head before he grabs the pan, heading over towards the trash can. "I may try other things to build on this skill if I have the time to."

"What are you doing with that cake?"

"Throwing it away, unless you want to eat all of it."

"I think I will. It's going to go to my hips but oh well~" Hisoka chuckles at the look Illumi gives him. But he saw the slight twitch of his mouth when he said he would eat it.

"Then just eat it." Illumi leaves the cake on the counter before he takes his seat back on the couch. "Cops is about to come on."

Hisoka grabs the pan and takes his seat next to Illumi. Illumi sits straight up like a statue while Hisoka leans back in the couch, enjoying the vanilla cake. The two males don't say anything to each other but the air between them isn't awkward or strange. It's a very familiar air.

Almost comfortable.

---

"Two broken ribs, a fractured wrist, and a bite mark on his left arm." The surgeon comes out of the room, speaking to an anxious Killua and Leorio. After they did an X ray they saw the two ribs where broken and Gon would need emergency surgery to get them back in place. Surgery is out of Leorio's scope of practice and he felt more comfortable with letting a surgeon take care of it."I was able to reattach the two ribs and I wrapped up his wrist and his hands. We cleaned the bite mark and wrapped it up. He should heal properly. He needs to take it easy for a couple of days. I suggest he stays in the hospital for-"

"We're taking him with us tonight." Killua pushes past the surgeon to get into the room with Gon.

"We can handle it from here." Leorio gives the surgeon a look, nodding his head. "Thank you for your help. I will watch over him." Leorio shows both his hunters license and his doctors.

Killua doesn't hear anymore. He's already in the room and that's all that matters. Gon is laying on the hospital bed, his arms out of the covers, an IV in his right arm. Gon is sleeping soundlessly, his expression peaceful, no longer a wince. His hands are wrapped up completely and on his left arm there's another bandage.

Killua's racing heart slowly calms down when he sees the heart monitor and Gon breathing. He's okay. Killua walks over to the other male and sits on the bed next to him, watching the other male sleep. He reaches out and caresses his cheek. Gon still feels warm.

"The surgeon thinks Gon will be healed in a couple of months but knowing Gon he'll heal much quicker." Leorio comes into the room, his face still solemn. "We know where all his injuries have come from except for the bite. The surgeon said it looked old, there was dried blood."

Killua tenses thinking about Gon's weird behavior this morning and how he didn't take off his shirt. Was Gon hiding that wound from me? Killua feels both upset with Gon and guilty at the same time. Go n should have told him but at the same time Killua should have noticed he was hurt. He had Gon naked this afternoon...yet he was too focused on other things that he didn't see Gon's wound.

"We should move Gon as soon as we can. Though it's not good for his healing bones and just out of surgery but I'm not comfortable leaving Kurapika alone with that guy." Leorio looks at Killua, watching as the other male touches Gon's face with such care. "...Is it alright if I head back to the hotel? Will you be fine with Gon here?"

"Yeah. I'll bring him back to the hotel in a little bit. I'm going to let him rest."

"Alright..." Leorio looks at Gon for a moment, he frowns before he leaves the room.

Killua runs his hands through Gon's hair, his heart yearning to see Gon's bright smile and those amber eyes. He wants Gon to tell him he has this. He wants to hear his laughter.

Killua crawls into the bed next to Gon, keeping his hand running through his hair when Gon mumbles in his sleep, a smile starting to turn his lips. Killua nuzzles his head. For some reason he remembers that song in Ib once again, another song that Gon liked. Gon said he liked his voice...

"If you ever feel scared or lost or lonely just look my way. I will always be here for you and everything will be okay." Killua sings quietly in Gon's ear, the other male's body seems to shift towards him, his heart beat on the monitor becoming more calm. "They say one life is worth another so I'll protect you from the horrors as we go."

Killua will protect Gon. He won't let him die. He won't let him get hurt like this again. Killua won't leave his side. He'll keep him safe. Seeing Gon like this...it hurts him more than if it was him. A curse on him is nothing. A curse on Gon...it's everything. This curse is threatening to take everything away from him. This person is trying to take everything away from him. He won't lose Gon.

"If you ever feel sacred or lost or lonely just look my way. I will always be here for you and everything will be..." Killua swears as he looks at Gon's lips that turn in a smile. Killua's heart softens and his eyes get half lidded. "Okay..."

Everything is going to be okay. I'm going to protect you Gon. This won't happen again.

Killua can't lose Gon.