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Chapter 19

Clark woke up shaking. He was tired of these nightmares. If and when he got together with Lois he would not let that dream happen. He looked at the time: three in the morning. He needed fresh air. Clark walked out of the room telling the security guard where he was going. He spotted Calvin walking outside in the garden. Calvin doubled over, wincing in pain. Clark ran toward him.

"You okay, Cal?" Clark asked holding Calvin up.

"I'm fine," he replied holding on to the rail.

Clark let him go but was ready if he collapsed, "What are you doing out of bed? Diana will kill you."

"If I'm going down you're coming with me. She won't find out if you don't tell, but you failed that test already," Calvin said softly.

"I'm sorry, it was the eyes," Clark said honestly.

"Yea Diana can get what she wants just by looking at you," Calvin said smiling even though he was in pain.

"How do you do it?" Clark asked.

Calvin looked at him curiously, "Do what?"

"You know seem calm, seem happy. You're not angry about what happened tonight."

"I'm happy because I'm not dead and I got the evidence. I'm calm because Diana got me to calm down. But I'm angry too. Especially at myself."

Calvin put his hand up slowly before Clark could respond, "I should have been faster getting that information."

"It's not like you have powers or anything. You did the best you could and I thank you for that."

"You would be surprised at what I can do Clark," Calvin said.

Clark looked at Calvin confused by his statement but he didn't question. When Calvin was ready he would tell him.

"I'm scared," Clark said. He didn't know why he confessed it. It was the truth though. Clark was scared out of his mind. Even though he had abilities, he couldn't use them to save Lois. It was all about thinking, making the next move and hoping he wouldn't mess up. He could fail. It was a possibility though he didn't want to think about it. He just hoped he could keep his anger in check.

"I know, going against a three-star general would do that to me too," Calvin said, "My advice is not to think about him or the case."

"How can you not think about him or the case when something so important could decide if a person lives or dies?"

Calvin sighed. The drugs were wearing out; he knew the real pain would kick in soon.

"That's a hard question to answer, but I'll answer as best I can. You don't think about it because you don't know if Lois will wake up regardless if you win or not."

"What are you saying? Clark asked even though he didn't want to hear the answer.

"I'm not saying she's not going wake up because I have a strong feeling she will, but whether she does or not, it's not in our hands."

"Let me guess, fate," Clark said.

"No, it's in Lois' hands. She has to decide whether she lives or not. We will be on her side though cheering her on to fight and come back to us."

Clark nodded agreeing, "Have you ever felt like giving up?"

"Yea. When I thought hope was lost. I have faced death of couple of times and escaped it many times, but you can never give up or lose hope. I realized hope is never lost, you just have to wait and be patient."

"How many times have you faced death?"

"Three times but I never gave up. Even though it was tempting, I couldn't give up."

Clark nodded again. He glanced at his watch, it was four in the morning now, "Thank you for talking to me and giving me extra hope."

"No problem, that's what are friends for, man. Remember, don't think about it just relax," Calvin said walking slowly back into the hospital."

"Hey Cal, I have two more questions for you," Clark said.

Calvin turned around, "Well hurry up, these pain killers are wearing off."

"What did you mean about breaking the rules?"

"You'll find out soon enough. We all know Luthor isn't going to play fair. Next question."

"When you survived from your other near death experiences were you or did you feel different?"

"Yea I did feel different. I felt good like I was reborn. People say I'm much wiser than I was before. People said I have changed. I think when you go through a life or death experience and you survived to tell the story, you change a little bit or a lot."

Realization hit Calvin, "You're afraid Lois will change after this experience, and she won't feel the same way you do, right?"

"Yea I am afraid. I realized I was in love with her after she was in this coma, but she will probably see me as the same farm boy."

"I think you're wrong about everything you just said. I think you felt something for her maybe when you first met her, you just didn't realize until now. And she won't think of you as just a farm boy. Maybe she'll see you as something more, just be patient with her. Think about it." With that said, Calvin left.

Clark looked at the sky thinking over his conversation with Calvin. Maybe he was right; he would need to be patient. Clark looked around. When seeing the coast was clear, he sped off to do his chores knowing that if he did something it would keep his mind off those dreams.

(To be continued…)