I'm really sorry for the wait... I know I was supposed to update it Friday... I had some trouble writing this chapter and I didn't have enough time to do everything I was suppose to do last week... Sorry.

Shoutouts time :

jrzygurl89: I'm glad you love it and I'll keep in mind what you said :) I hope you're going to love the chapter :)

Jamescottroc54 : I'm really sorry for this late update... :S

Ha ha, Emily is totally needy in the last chapter... xD I think it's kinda normal that your friend wasn't happy if you slaps her... xD But hey, I get it, it's kinda boring when people can't stop speaking... ;) How did you know they were gonna play I've never...? I love the protective side of Hanna too, that's why I try to include more of it...

Funny, you almost said the same thing then my friend... I guess it is true but I don't feel like it's people's opinions that stopped me. I don't really care what people think... Well a little bit but everyone care for other's opinion at some point... The thing is that I'm not able to accept it... Yeah sure a lot of people know and are okay with it but I'm not... I try to find out why... I asked myself this freaking question everyday but there's still no answer and I'm kinda tired of it. I don't get why I'm not okay with it if everyone in my family is... I don't get it...

What made me start... Everything... Nothing... I can't clearly remember... I know I started a year ago, a couple of days before my birthday but I was just so confused so, I can't really remember what I was thinking the first time I did it. But my sexuality was a big part of it and my dad was too... He told me something back then that I couldn't deal with so I started doing that... No I haven't talk to anybody about it and I have no intention to either. For now I'm okay, the last time I did it was like a month ago and I'm starting to get better...

Anyway, I hope you're going to love this chapter :)

Chapter 21: Getting back to reality

Emily's POV

I opened my eyes and closed them again as soon as I saw how bright it was outside.

"Good morning" Spencer said.

I could hear the smirk in her voice. She kissed my temple and I opened my eyes slowly trying to get use to the light.

"Here, take these." Hanna said as she bent down to be at my level.

I haven't realise she was in the room.

"Thanks." I said as I took the aspirins Hanna was holding.

She gave me a glass of water. Spencer helped me sit down and I took a sip of water as I swallowed the aspirins.

"How are you feeling?" Spencer asked me sweetly as she ran a hand up and down my back.

"Like crap... I think I never drink as much as I did yesterday..." I said honestly.

"You did drink a lot yesterday." Spencer said.

"Do you remember anything?" Hanna asked as she sat down in front of me and Spencer.

"Where's Aria?" I asked as I realised I hadn't see the brunette yet.

"She's still sleeping" Hanna answered. "So, do you remember anything?"

"No... Should I?" I asked worried.

"You didn't do anything stupid." Spencer reassured me.

"Do you remember anything?" I asked mostly to Hanna.

"I remember everything. I drink only two glasses of alcohol." Hanna said.

"Spence?" I asked for confirmation, not believing what Hanna said.

"It's true; we both drink only two glasses..." Spencer said.

"Why?" I asked.

"I was watching out for you." Spencer replied.

"Hanna?"

"I... I don't know... I didn't feel like drinking I guess..." Hanna said.

"Okay... What about Aria?" I asked them.

"I don't know how much she drank but almost as much as you." Spencer said trying to remember.

"Okay"

"Do you want something?" Spencer asked me in a carrying tone.

"I'm fine, thanks." I said as I kissed her on the cheek.

"Cute" Hanna said.

"Shut up" Spencer and I said in the same time.

We started laughing as Hanna got up. She sat next to Aria on the bed.

"Should I wake her up?" She asked us.

"No" I answered.

"Let's go downstairs then." Spencer suggested.

"I'll wait for you in the kitchen." Hanna said as she left the room.

"Do you want to get up?" Spencer asked me.

"No... Can we stay like this just a little bit longer...?" I asked her unsure.

"Of course we can sweetie."

Spencer wrapped her arms around me again. It is definitely the best feeling in the world.

"I think we should go downstairs now, Hanna's waiting for us..." I said sadly.

"You're right..."

Spencer got up and offered me her hand. I took it and she helped me got up. When I was standing on my feet the room started to spin. Spencer saw that I wasn't feeling well and she put her arm around my waist.

"Emily, what's wrong?" Spencer asked me worried.

"It's spinning." I answered.

"Here sit down." Spencer said.

I sat on Hanna's desk chair.

"Take your time Em; you probably stand up to fast." Spencer told me sweetly as she bent down in front of me.

"I'm... I'm... Really not feeling... Well." I said as I looked around the room trying to find something that wasn't moving.

"When's the last time you ate?" Spencer asked me.

"I.. I can't remember." I said.

"Can you tell me exactly how you feel?"

"I feel like I'm going to..." I didn't finish my sentence because my head started to hurt a lot.

"To what?" Spencer asked me getting even more worried.

"To pass out..." I whispered.

I closed my eyes and I felt Spencer's arms around my waist.

"Can you walk a little, you need to lie down." Spencer said.

"I don't know..." I answered truthfully.

"Okay, trust me." Spencer said as she slid one arm under my knees and the other behind my back.

I wrapped my arms around her neck and she lifted me. She walked us towards the "bed" Hanna had made on the floor last night. Spencer bent down and she helped me lay down on the sheets.

"Just close your eyes and try to relax, I'm gonna grab some ice and something to eat." Spencer kissed my forehead and left the room.

I saw Aria move from the corner of my eyes. I turned towards her as she sat up in bed.

"Hey..." She said in a small voice.

"Hey..." I whispered back.

She looked more carefully at me and saw that I was pale.

"What's wrong?" She asked as she got off of the bed and sat next to me on the floor.

"I'm not feeling well, everything's spinning and my head hurts like hell."

"You drank a lot last night, didn't you?" She asked me.

"Yeah but I don't feel like this is the reason." I said.

I stopped speaking and I took my head in my hands. God, I can't take it anymore. Silent tears started to fall freely from my eyes. Aria whipped them and she lied down next to me. She wrapped her arms around me. She slid her hand up and down my back trying to comfort me. Spencer came back in the room with a sandwich and a bag of frozen vegetables. She bent down next to Aria and I. She gave me the sandwich.

"Take a couple of bite, please." Spencer told me with pleading eyes.

Aria looked at Spencer with a confused look.

"She doesn't remember the last time she ate." Spencer explained.

Hanna entered the room with a glass of orange juice. She bent down next to me too. I took a bite of the sandwich but as soon as the mouthful was in my mouth I felt nauseous. I forced myself to swallow it but I gave the sandwich back to Spencer.

"I can't, I feel sick." I told her honestly.

"Does everything still spin?" She asked me as I lied back down with Aria.

"Not as much but yeah." I said.

"Okay" She said analyzing.

"Here, try to drink this at least." Hanna said as she handed me the glass she was holding.

I sat down a little and took a couple of sips before I handed the glass back to Hanna and lied back down. A few tears escape my eyes again and I felt Aria's embrace tighten.

"You should try to get some sleep." Spencer suggested.

"Ok..." I said.

"Do you want Spencer to take my place?" Aria asked.

"No, I don't want to move." I said.

"It's alright, Em, Hanna and I will stay in the room if you need anything." Spencer told me sweetly. "Do you want the frozen vegetables?"

"Yes please"

Spencer put them on my forehead and Aria kept them in place. I hid my face in her neck a little and I closed my eyes. I felt Aria's unoccupied hand play with my hair. I fall asleep soon.

Aria's POV

Emily fell asleep in no time. I kept playing in her hair anyway, not sure if she was totally asleep. Spencer kept looking our way with a worried expression. Sometimes tears filled her eyes but she never let them escape. Emily had been asleep for almost 3 hours. She opened her eyes slowly and looked around her. She seemed pretty lost.

"How are you feeling?" Spencer asked sweetly as she came closer to us.

"I... Better..." Emily answered in a small voice. "Physically at least"

"What do you mean?" Spencer replied.

"My head is better and the room stops spinning but emotionally, I really don't feel good, I'm so confused Spence." Emily said as tears started to fall down her cheeks.

"It's gonna be alright baby, I promise." Spencer said.

I sat up and get away from Emily so Spencer can take my place. She thanked me and lay down next to her. She wrapped her arms around her in a loving and protective way. She whispered comforting words in her ear and Emily stopped crying at some point. I sat next to Hanna and we both smile as we looked at our best friend's interaction. They are really cute together. I'm glad that Emily finally decided to let us in again. I know she's far from okay but I also know that she's getting there. I met Hanna's glare and we smiled at each other.

Hanna's POV

Aria got away from Emily to let Spencer comfort her girlfriend. They are so fucking cute together. Spencer wrapped her arms around Emily and whispered comforting words in her ear. Eventually Emily stopped crying, I don't know if she fell asleep... Aria sat next to me and we looked at Spencer and Emily. I'm glad that Emily let us in again... I know she's far from okay but I also know that she's getting there. I met Aria's glare and we smiled at each other.

Spencer's POV

Aria got away. I lied down next to Emily and I wrapped my arms around her. I whispered comforting words in her ear until she stopped crying. Aria sat next to Hanna and they both watched us with a smile plastered on their faces. I know that Emily is still not okay but I'm really glad that she let us in again and that she said she would try for me.

Emily's POV

Aria let go of me and Spencer wrapped me in her arms. She whispered sweet words in my ear until I was calm enough to stop crying. I don't know what's going on with me but I guess I reached the bottom. I use all the energy that I had left... I know that I'm getting better slowly but I need to do something more. I can't continue at this rate... I know that I need time to heal but what do you do when you ran out of time...? If I felt like this today, would it get worst every day...? Spencer started to whispered sweet words in my ear again... As if she knew I was thinking too much. I fell back asleep at some point.

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