So, while I've been sulking on how I can't go to Comic Co, which sucks, it really does, sucks ass. If any of you guys go then I'm very jealous of you. Wish I could, but sadly, I live on the other side of the country. Bahhhh. Also some news, as you know, well if you read these where I rant to you guys cause I can, I moved my horse to a new barn. It's huge like the property as 134 acres. So with that, I never thought that I would 'loose' my horse. Like, yesterday, I spent thirty minutes looking for him. I was like, where's my horse. Cause he wasn't in his stall and he wasn't in his pasture cause he's only out to pasture half day for now. So I had to go ask someone, let me tell you, it's very embarrassing going up to someone and you're like "uh hey do you know where my horse is?" very embarrassing.
Oh and I got one of my tweets retweeted by Lionsgate yesterday! I was like OMG OMG OMG YESSSS! I was estatic. Anywho enjoy the chapter and I remembered to do a disclaimer this time!
Disclaimer: I own the HG…..no I wish though. Suzanne Collins does. I don't own Cato either…she does. I don't own Alexander Ludwig either, just so you know, he owns himself. Though I wouldn't mind meeting him, or hugging him…or kissing him….okay you get the picture XD. I do own Cain though, so don't you lay a finger on her!
OH AND as clarification, we are now in year four! Whoot whoot! Ya I didn't do a chapter for year three simulator because I didn't want to, but you'll hear how it went
Cain's POV *During second month of year four..so it's like…July*:
I can't look him in the eyes anymore. I don't know why, I just can't. Whenevery my eyes lock with Cato's, it's hard to look away. My stomach tightens up, not in a bad way, but it makes me feel uncomfortable. I'm not supposed to have emotions, I don't feel things. Not even with Mico, who has being turning into quiet the asshole. He's out of here next year anyways, so I'm probably going to break up with him soon anyways, like, today.
Which, leads me to where I am now. In front of his apartment door, knocking on it. I'm not really sure how to do this. What I'm supposed to say. Whether I can punch him or not, because really, that would be fun.
Beating people up is fun. It actually improves my mood. As does watching them be hurt.
I'm pulled from my thoughts as the door opens and Mico is there, in all his six foot two glory. It's sad really, when he and Cato are next to each other. Cato's like, six foot five, and not even done growing yet.
"Hey babe" Mico smiles and moves aside so I can come in, I don't.
"It's over, this thing, us, we're over" I say, well that wasn't too hard. Mico shrugs.
"Okay" and then he shuts the door in my face. And then I want my fist to be in his face. Too bad I can't bust the door in. Cato can, we tried it out before. Which is why the door that leads to our bedroom is nonexistent now. Cato was proud of himself. And I was proud of Cato.
I turn and make my way up to the roof, it's almost meeting time.
As I climb the stairs I can feel myself letting down my own wall to myself with each step. I'm myself with Cato; I don't need to act all tough and badass. I pick up my pace a little, jogging up the steps then resorting to doing a stair exercise. Jumping up the steps on one foot, helps keep me in shape, though I'm always in shape with training.
Training is hard. As always, the many scars and bruises on my back and arms are proof of that. I reach out for the doorknob and see the long scar that runs from my wrist all the way up my arm to past my shoulder and down my back. A lovely little gift from our year three simulator, where they had made sure to make the little monkey mutts look as innocent as possible.
Damn monkeys, I shudder at the thought of them.
I open the door and walk out onto the roof. I quickly scan the empty rooftop, he's not here yet. My heart feels like a weight is put on it. I mentally scold myself. Dammit I saw him last when, like, three hours ago.
I so busy mentally scolding myself I don't hear him come up. So when I feel large arms wrap around my waist and lift me up I scream. Then I hear the husky laugh behind me.
"CATO!" I squeal, he just laughs more before putting me down, I sit down and he sits next to me. I turn and mock glare at him. He grins.
"Sorry?" he asks, I don't react and he raises an eyebrow, it causes my hair to fall in my face. Cato reaches forward and pushes it back behind my ear, where his skin touches mine my face feels like it's on fire. "I'm really really sorry?" he tries again. I huff and look forwards.
"Fine"
"So, how was your boy?" he asks awkwardly.
"For your information shitface, we broke up" I look at him for his reaction, he grins.
"Good going asshole, he get fed up with ya, have to admit, he lasted longer than I expected." I slap Cato
"Ha ha very funny. You love me and you know it"
"Sure, keep telling yourself that asshole" Cato stretches his legs out in front of him, which has become my cue; I lie down and lay my head in his lap. His hand soon finds my hair and he twirls it around his finger.
"So, you know when you're going home this year?"
"Ya, I was thinking next weekend" he looks up at the mountains and I feel my face fall a little. I hate it when he leaves.
"Oh" is all I say. He looks down at me and his eyebrows scrunch together.
"What's wrong?" he asks softly, I shake my head.
"Nothing" I say looking away from his eyes. His hand comes forward and he grabs my chin, then makes me look at him.
"Cain, what's wrong? If you don't want me to go-"
"I don't care if you go!" I lie, cutting him off.
"Yes you do" he says, anger seeping into his voice. I sit up and swat his hand away, I get up to my feet and walk to the edge of the roof.
"I don't" I say firmly. I try to make it so my voice doesn't waver. Because I know I do care, but he can't know that. He can't know that I have feelings for him, hell, he can't know I have feelings in general. But he already does, because of these trips to the roof. When we let our guards down. When we let each other into our lives. He can't know that when he's gone I can't help but stay awake all night. Because I can't fall asleep if I don't know he's safe, if he's not nearby. I don't flinch when his hand takes my shoulder and spins me around to look at him. When his face sees mine it goes from angry to confusion, then something I can't place. His hand comes up and touches my cheek; he pulls his hand back and looks at it. His finger is wet. I'm crying. I've never cried before, not ever in my life. I've come close when I was little, but I was told to suck it up. Why do I have to cry now, and in front of him. I look down and take a shaky breath.
"Cain" Cato whispers, and then I'm wrapped in his arms as he holds me close to his chest. His head rests on top of mine. I grab onto his shirt as my stupid tears won't stop and they soak his shirt. "Now I know you're lying" he whispers. And then, with him being caring, and talking to me like I'm not brutal, not a killer. With him being comforting, something I've never had before. I tell him.
"I can't take it when you're gone." My voice cracks, "I can't sleep, when I know you're not there." There's silence for a while afterwards. But I'm shocked at what he proposes to me.
"Then come with me" I pull back and look at him with a confused face, his hand comes up to my face again, wiping away more tears. "Come home with me"
Oohhhh yes! I liked this chapter too! Hahaha. I hope I got the point across of just how much they open up to each other now, that's what the point of this chapter was anyways. So hopefully that got across. And HOPEFULLY we get our 100th review! When we do I'll give you guys a little hint on what's dunna happen later in the story! Hehehe some of you might not like it, but oh well. Please review!
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