Chapter 21
Bella's POV
The month after the triplets were released from the hospital just proved to me how right I was when I thought about getting my own place. Even though Rosalie and Emmett were a big help to me, I just couldn't impose on them much longer. And as much as I love both of them and as much as they love me and the babies and having us live with them, they need the experience of living together alone without me and the babies.
Edward asked me to move back in with him in what use to be our house but I turned him down flat. I couldn't ever live in that house again and I don't know if I'm ready to live with Edward again or if I ever will, surprisingly Edward understood that. I talked to my parents about me finding someplace to live and they said leave it to them. And as of last week I have my own house, mom and dad showed it to me. They said that they figured knowing me that I would want my own place sooner or later and talked to one of their friends who is a real estate agent. Their friend found the house and my parents signed the papers the same day.
The house is really big, I mean big. It has nine bedrooms and 7 bathrooms, and outdoor and indoor pool. And a huge backyard for the kids and a big kitchen for me to cook in. And an area for my office for when I work from home, a home movie theater with seats and a large room near the office for the kids playroom so that I can keep an eye on them. Not to mention the biggest closet that I have ever seen and the master bathroom has a huge Jacuzzi bathtub and a walk in shower. And the best part of the master bedroom is that is that if you walk through an door you're in the master bathroom which I love.
My parents had the house and rooms painted and the nursery set up room closet to the master bedroom (my bedroom). Each crib has the baby's name on it and each crib is a different color. Charlene's crib is purple because pink is so random for girls and I love purple for a girl. Edward's crib is green of course and Chance's crib is blue. The door to the nursery has all three kids' names on it. Needless to say that the nursery is amazing and I cannot say what all is in it.
So for the last couple of days my family, Edward and his family have been helping me and the kids move into our new house. And of course the only thing that I am allowed to carry are the kids and the diaper bag. So I settled the triplets in their cribs and unpacked more of their clothes that Rosalie and mom bought for them yesterday. I swear I don't think these kids will ever run out of clothes. All three babies were sound asleep which doesn't happen that often. Did I forget to mention that my bodyguards have moved in with me and now work 24/7? So they're with me day and night.
My parents and Edward are worried that somebody may try to harm me or the babies because of my family's money or that those sluts will some how get out of the mental hospital and come after us. Or that one of those sluts friends or families will come after me and my babies. That's something that Edward has never forgiven himself for, that he brought those sluts into our and our kids lives.
Speaking of Edward, you should see the way he looks at the kids with such love and devotion in his eyes. He changes diapers, fixes bottles, baths them, and plays with them. He looks at them like they're his world. He's gone above proofing himself to me, as far as the kids are concerned.
The scary part is that despite everything I never stopped loving Edward. And that I can see myself being with him again and raising our family together. And that scares me. Can I really ever trust him again? Can I really ever risk my heart with him again? The more he's around me and the kids, the more I feel myself falling in love with him. I have to be sure that it's worth it, that he's worth it. Because this time it's not just me that can get hurt.
"Bella" Emmett says standing in the doorway of the nursery and I come out of my thoughts.
"Yeah Em. What is it?" I ask him and he just looks at me.
"Dad and mom ordered some food and it's here now. How are they?" Emmett ask walking over to the triplets and looking at them sleeping.
"Good. They should sleep for at least an hour" I say standing beside Emmett who puts his arm around my waist.
"You still don't have to make any decisions yet,. You know that right?" Emmett knows me better than anyone else and I swear that he can read my thoughts.
"I know" I say giving him a smile.
"I can't wait to marry Rosie and have some babies of our own" He says and he gets this big smile on his face and I can tell he's thinking of it right now.
"you and Rosalie will make great parents" I say to him and it's true.
"I never did thank you for letting Rosie be in the delivery room with you" Emmett says and hugs me
"maybe one day soon she can return the favor" I say and Emmett nods his head
"I know these past months you've been through hell but remember what we always say, we're swans and we're tough. We can get through anything, as long we have each other" Emmett says and I give him a smile. I look at my kids and wonder if they'll have a strong sibling bond like I have with Emmett. I hope so. The kids may have brought me closer to Edward but they made me realize that all this time the one thing that was missing from my life was kids and real love.
My lesson after all this is that you can't make someone change, if someone is going to change then they have to want to change and then proceed to change. And time will tell if that person has really changed or not.