-Sad Song-
Rin sat by the river, staring at her reflection and crying. Why was she crying? Was she hurt? By what, exactly? It's not like she loved Sesshomaru… like that… did she? It didn't matter anymore, because Kagura was back and that means Sesshomaru could find happiness with her.
Rin's reflection always seemed to surprise her. She never grew up with mirrors around and she always wondered if there was a demon inside the water trying to deceive her.
For the first time, she REALLY looked at herself, every last detail included. Everything up to her pale white skin, long black hair, slightly slanted large eyes, stout nose and perfect lips. She took out a hair elastic that Kagome had given her a long time ago and braided a part of her hair and tied the end with a shiny ribbon.
Rin: maybe… maybe I'm not the one for Lord Sesshomaru. I'm not a little girl anymore… I really AM becoming a burden to him. –sigh- Natsuki is coming to kill me tonight knowing that I will be with Lord Sesshomaru. Maybe…
Jaken came through the bushes and caught sight of Rin.
Jaken: Rin! What are on earth are you doing sitting by the river by yourself?
Rin quickly wiped her tears and pulled a smile in front of Jaken.
Rin: nothing important Master Jaken!
Jaken: Rin… have you been… crying?
Rin: -scratches her cheek- nonsense Master Jaken. I am always happy, why would I cry? Especially not over something silly like Lord Sesshomaru!
Jaken: -narrows his eyes and raises eyebrow in disbelief- Rin… you're a grown woman now. Let's talk.
Rin: umm, Master Jaken? I think we've had this "serious talk" before… about where babies come from…?
Jaken: -horrified- no! stupid girl! I'M TALKING ABOUT LORD SESSHOMARU!
Rin looked down at the imp and shrugged, sitting down next to him under the half full moon.
Jaken: years ago, when Lord Sesshomaru saved your life with his father's sword, I was perplexed beyond belief. Do you know why Rin?
Rin: because… I'm human?
Jaken: exactly, my girl! Because you are nothing but a pathetic human!
Rin: hmmm…
Jaken: and year and after year I never understood why Lord Sesshomaru insisted on keeping you as a companion. And you, strange, somewhat stupid girl, were the only human to not shake with fear in front of our great Lord.
Rin looked down at the water and faintly smiled. She remembered everything. As a little girl, she used to think Sesshomaru was the next best thing to God – with his brute strength, calming composure and handsome face.
Jaken: Rin, I want to ask you something.
Rin: yes, Master Jaken? –blinks-
Jaken: do you… love… Lord Sesshomaru?
Rin: -blushes- he is my Lord… of course I love him! don't you, Master Jaken? –laughs embarrassed-
Jaken: don't act dumb.
Rin: -sigh- it's something I've never understood. Heck, I don't even know what it feels like to be in love. Have you ever been in love?
Jaken: -recalls his memories- ahh, those olden days when I had every female imp at my calling.
Rin: -laughs-
Jaken: I'm serious! Impudent girl!
Rin: then tell me Master Jaken, what does it feel like to be in love?
Jaken: you would climb the greatest heights for the person you love. You would risk your life for theirs. You are always happy when you are around them. You dream of one day spending the rest of eternity with that one person… and all you want… is for them to be happy themselves, despite how you feel.
Rin slowly stood up startling Jaken.
Rin: you're right Master Jaken. That is exactly how I feel… -tears drop from her eyes-
Jaken: hah! I knew it!
Rin: which is why, I am going to leave now.
Jaken: leave where? Do you have to go to the bathroom? Or perhaps… to see Lord Sesshomaru?
Rin: no, he is with Kagura. I am leaving you and Lord Sesshomaru forever. –wipes tears and smiles- I think I want to try a human village out… for real this time.
Jaken: -jaw drops to the floor- WHAT? YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY LEAVE NOW!
Rin crouches down next to Jaken and hugs him, causing him to squirm and fidget like no other.
Rin: thank you Master Jaken, for showing me the way to happiness… and the way to Lord Sesshomaru's happiness. I don't want to see him right now, so when he gets back from his date with Kagura, can you please thank him for all those years of protection and tell him good bye for me? –smiles-
Jaken: -still petrified- NO! NO, NO, NO!
Rin: thank you, I must be off now. Maybe we'll see each other in a different life! But until then… -walks away- oh, and… please don't tell him.
Jaken: tell who what?
Rin: Sesshomaru. Please don't tell Lord… I mean… Sesshomaru where I'm going… and don't breathe a word about our "serious talk" okay? He doesn't need to know about my unrequited love.
She closed her eyes, stuck out her finger and span in a circle, following in whichever direction her finger pointed to and leaving Jaken sweating bullets for his own sake.
Jaken: -jumping up and yelling- LORD SESSHOMARU IS GOING TO HAVE MY HEAD! STUPID GIRL, STUPID INSOLENT SELFISH HUMAN GIRL!