A/N- I edited the last chapter a little so check it out if you read it early today or last night. the beginnings a flashback. enjoy, review:)

BPOV

I stood, pinned to the open door frame, terrified by the menace in each of their tones. They had stopped all means of verbal communication, but I could tell by Jacob's amused expression that he was telling Edward something . . . I just couldn't quite locate how. Aside from his amused expression, Jacob looked completely torque. He stood straight as a board with his arms stiffly at his side. He must have been freezing or something because he was shaking so violently I actually considered he was having a seizure. My brain wasn't working well enough for me to register that if that was the case then I should probably call for help.

Edward's stance was stiff. He was positioned like a soldier would be if they'd just been ordered to stand at ease only there was nothing at ease with Edward. Every muscle on his body was tense, held in place so tightly that his blueish/black veins could be seen sticking out through his wet long sleeve turtleneck. I feared that if he so much as moved one finger he'd escape whatever was holding him in place, he sure looked like that.

Without warning, Jacob took a sudden step towards me. It was a wide stride, I could probably fit three fair sized steps in the distance he covered. Edward didn't seem pleased with Jacob's advanced as he loosened out of his rigid posture and closed the distance between him and Jacob, taking himself further from me. He squatted down into what looked like a defensive stance. I felt suddenly uneasy. This wasn't good.

"No!" I heard someone screech. Whoever had yelled this had registered what was going on before I had the opportunity too. I was shocked when I realized that it had been me that had yelled. I was still in a daze as my legs carried me forward and between the two tense enemies. Something inside of me was screaming to protect Edward from Jacob's attack while something else screamed that it wouldn't be Edward in need of help. I reached the middle of them faster then I'd thought I was capable of and stretched my palms out towards them in a feeble attempt to stop them.

I was already breathless, so there was no wind to escape my system as something hard and cold collided with me, causing me to fall sideways. Only I never hit the ground, instead I was curled into a ball behind icy white bars of whatever had just knocked me off the walk. My brain was yet to catch up with what was going on right now. I heard a strange panting, it sounded an awful lot like a dog.

The moment I had realized that I was cradled into Edward's iron grip, I found myself upright and hidden behind his back. I was stunned at how my sudden closeness to Edward made me feel so amazingly safe. Relief flooded through my system, relief I didn't recognize, it shouldn't have been there yet it was totally welcome. I felt curious to twist around Edward's defensive position and see what he was guarding me from with such intensity but the moment I pulled away from Edward even the slightest bit I felt the fear envelope me again and cut off my air. I pulled myself closer to his cold sopping shirt. I heard the panting fade away as another unfamiliar noise fill my ears. It was odd, out of place. It sounded like a mixture of someone having a seizure and sobbing over the worst thing that had ever occurred.

I felt Edward's cold hands meet mine and I shivered, not only from the chill it sent up my arms but with relief. An electric current flowed from his hands to mine, reassuring me that everything was okay, now. He pried me easily from his shirt and pulled me around front to hold me close to his chest. I felt my feet leave the ground ever so slightly as he raised me high enough to reach his ducked head. I could see my terror echoing through his now black eyes. "Bella, Bella calm down." he demanded gently, concern filling his expression and oozing out of his voice. I felt calm, yet at the same time I felt more panicked then before. I could feel I was bridging hysteria.

I looked over the plains of his face, felt the coldness of his body against mine. I looked around, Jacob wasn't here anymore. It had all happened so fast. Was that kind of speed even capable by humans? I could tell something was not right. "What . . ." I stuttered helplessly, returning my gaze back to his face to watch his expression slowly begin to shift. "What are you?" He starred back at me blankly, I could feel the intensity of his stare. He was trying his hardest to tell me something, I could see that much, but he wasn't going to tell me until he thought I was ready. He would never think I was ready. I was going to have to figure this out on my own.

Something in the pit of my stomach flipped over and tied itself in knots. I knew what he was, but why couldn't I think the word? My body was well aware of it, the back of my mind knew exactly what it was but it wasn't telling me! What?! What was it! I needed to escape this confusion. No, I just couldn't handle anymore of this! I'd had enough for one day thank you very much! Enough for a lifetime! Why hadn't I gone with Renee in the first place! I struggled out of Edward's hands, stumbling backwards. "Stay away," I warned him as I continued backing up towards the door. "Just stay away from me. You and Jacob both, I can't handle this!" I declared as I turned and ran for the door. It was true, I couldn't handle anymore confusion. The feeling of knowing exactly what was going on but at the same time not having the slightest idea was driving me insane! I threw a panicked look over my shoulder to make sure he wasn't following me as I raced up the steps at such a speed I was truly amazed I didn't fall flat on my face.

I stumbled over my feet, nearly falling many times, until "I made it to the top step. My foot caught on it and I flew forwards, my forearms breaking the fall. I rolled onto my back, sobbing hysterically as the odd relief Edward had bestowed upon me began to wear away as fast as it had came. I had no idea what had just happened, yet at the same time I knew I knew everything that was going on. I had never been more confused in my life! And on top of that, both my arms were completely numb as I had landed on a nerve.

It took awhile for me to gain enough control and get enough air in my system to be able to get up and walk into my room, but I had done it. I didn't change or take a shower or anything along those lines until Charlie got home. I used this as an excuse to avoid him, though I knew that if he saw or heard me crying he'd naturally stay away. He was as shy with emotions as I was, I knew I'd definitely gotten that from him, not Renee. I didn't talk much so the rest of the night. The confusion never fully faded away.

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I had been trying my hardest for the past week not to let my mind replay the terrifying and confusing day that Edward and Jacob had had the menacing face off in front of Charlie's house. I wanted so badly to figure out what it was that I knew that I just couldn't remember. it was making it more and more challenging to fall asleep at night before that popped up in my thoughts.

I'd kept myself occupied with things I'd been neglecting, cleaning, cooking and schoolwork. I spent three solid days cleaning the house, a thick layer of dust and scum had enveloped the house in the month that I had been gone. I remembered only soon enough that Charlie couldn't clean or cook from himself. As soon as the house was spotless, I spent a good amount of time starring at my past notes from school, willing my brain to remember it all so I wouldn't have to relearn everything along with all the catching up I had to do before I could return to school. Most of the time I'd end up screaming in frustration and stomping out the door. A high percentage of the time I'd end up in the forest behind Charlie's house.

It was refreshing to walk along the trails in the green wonderland. I felt as if there was no such thing as impossible as I watched the small creatures scamper past my feet. I think that's why I go there so often, because it makes me think that I can really pull this off. That I will remember everything I'd lost about Forks. There were so many questions I had that I knew only I could answer. I'd always be more optimistic when I stepped back out of the lively forest then I had when I'd first gone in. I never felt quite comfortable when I first entered. It was almost like there was actually an unpleasant memory receding from the trail in the forest.

After a week of this repetitive schedule I grew anxious. I hadn't seen Alice since the hospital and, despite how I'd demanded that Edward and Jacob stay away, I hadn't said for her to stay away. I missed her, I could feel the sorrow of it rolling off of me in waves. At least I was pretty sure it was her that was making me feel this way. In fact, I hadn't seen much of my friends since I'd been in the hospital.

I looked up from the notes that were a mere prop and to the clock. It was only an hour until Charlie got home so I wandered into the kitchen to start dinner before he returned. I was still overwhelmed by the vast amounts of fish that he had accumulated in his freezer and decided that I'd make something with it tonight. I had just finished frying the fish as I heard Charlie's cruiser park out front. I set out the plates and drinks and sat down. It took much longer then I'd expected for Charlie to reach the door. I could hear him talking to someone outside.

The door creaked open and his talking ceased. I could hear him stomping across the floor, but no footsteps accompanied his. I looked at him, preparing to question him of who it was but my breath was knocked away. A smile flew across my face as my eyes rested on the snow white and black spiky hair of a petite girl that stood beside him.

"Alice!"