Angel in your eyes Chapter 21: Once Upon a Time, a kingdom hearts fanfic

Chapter 21: Once Upon A Time...

I still sat on the floor, just thinking about what he had said, and it was hardly in any time at all that Roxas came back in. I couldn't really face him. I didn't know what to say, or how to say it. He looked confused, too, but he focused on me. I turned away, not able to look him in the eye. "Nami–"

"Don't." I had to stop him. I couldn't hear my name... his voice. Not now.

"I'm sorry." I looked back at him.

"What?"

"I'm sorry." He moved toward me, and sat on the ground next to me, but a little behind in consideration, so I could turn away if I wanted. And I wanted to, but now I couldn't. My eyes were locked with his. They were shaken, and when he blinked, I momentarily lost sight of his sorrow. He didn't do anything. What could he possibly have been sorry for?

"Ro–"

He shook his head. "Stop." I sighed and looked down. "I'm sorry, I'm so... so sorry. I haven't been trying as hard as I should be to be there for you. I know... I know that you probably trust Kazuki more than me, and... I know that you probably have reason to. But still, I–"

"You know, I guess I thought you were smarter than that." It hurt. Trust Kazuki more? I could never. How he ever thought that... Well, I guess it's my fault. But still, it pained me... so much, to hear him say that I trusted somebody more than I trusted him. "Why would you think that? And once more, why would think you knew?"

"I guess I just realized you talk to him a lot more, and when you talk to me, sometimes you just stop... to talk to him. You just tell him things you can't tell me."

My eyes went back and forth over the wood tile before me. Things... I can't tell Roxas... "I can't even... what do you think I talk about with him? What do you think... I think?"

"I guess... I don't know. I haven't really thought about it. I mean... when you really talk to someone... do you need something to talk about?"

I smiled. "I guess not." I turned back to him, his face was still in gloom. "Hey,"

He looked up at me, meeting my eye. "Yeah?"

"What do we talk about most of the time?"

"What do you mean?" I shrugged, looking off to the side a little. "Everything... nothing. I don't know. I can't really explain it. Half the things we talk about, I don't remember right after we're through." I laughed a little.

"Me either." Then my smile faded, and I sighed. "You know, I think I remember every word I've ever said to that boy."

"Yeah." He said. I couldn't tell if he was mad, or sad. "I get it."

"I guess then... that he probably thinks I talk way too much. He's probably tired of my voice."

"He couldn't be."

I paused, caught off guard. "Well, I mean... he probably thinks I'm obsessed or something. We only talk about you." I don't know if he believed me or not, but he stood up, out of my sight.

"Namine, what do you make of this?" I looked up, but he wasn't even facing me.

"What are you talking about?"

"Us, I mean. Our relationship. Everything we have." His hands were in his pockets and he looked back at me. Everything we have... I had never really thought about it that way. I always thought that my blessing... was just Roxas himself. But thinking, a lot of it really was our relationship.

I sighed, questioning myself for the answer. "Well... I guess... I'm always happy when I'm with you, and even when things get complicated... or weird... we can get through them alright. I mean, you know me really well, and I can look at you and instantly warm up. I guess... it's what you'd call... a fairy tale."

He smiled. "My thoughts exactly."

Roxas. If he had never come into my life, maybe I wouldn't have ever cared. Maybe... I'd be exactly the way I was right now, and maybe he had no impact on me as a whole. Maybe this was just destined to happen to me, no matter who it happened with. It's possible that Roxas was never even supposed to walk into my life, ice cream in hand... But then... if it hadn't happened this way? How would things have been? It didn't even matter anymore, because what could've happened hadn't, and what did... is still just getting started.

I smiled at him, and stood up. He smiled at me, too. "We really were quick to get over all this, weren't we?"

I shrugged. "Does it matter?"

"Well, I just–" I didn't really want his answer, who knows what he would've said. I had hugged him, because we kind of always shut up when we were hugging. I just couldn't talk unless I wanted to sound like a babbling idiot, there was something about being in his arms. I don't know what his reason was, but whatever the case, it worked. After a minute, he moved his arms around me, too. "Namine,"

"Hm?"

"Do you think... that it's possible to be too young for love?" My heart fluttered. What was he trying to say? Did something depend on my answer?

"Everybody... is loved from the moment they come into the world, and a lot of people are loved before that. Most people start to love others... before they even know what it means, or what it is. I still don't know, but that's not really something to stop it. So... No. I guess... you can't be too young. Why? What do you think?"

"I think..." He held me a little tighter. "I don't really know. All I can say is that I believe in love, and I trust it. I think I know what love at first sight is... but... whatever." I could feel him shrug. "This isn't like... freaking you out or anything is it?"

I smiled and laughed a little. "Not at all. Roxas, I'm sorry, I guess I kind of ruined today for you. You look forward to the first snow day of the year and I kind of... make it all overly dramatic." He laughed and let me go.

"Not at all." I smiled, again... it would've been the perfect time for a kiss, but I couldn't bring myself to it. If he wanted it, he could make the move. I didn't want to ruin anything else of his today. "But I guess your first snow day was kind of a flunk, huh?"

"No, never. I spent it with you. And besides, I think I caught a glimpse of some different things today." I looked out the frosted window towards our friends. "Good things do happen, dad. You were right." I smiled. "Thank you." I whispered. I suppose Roxas probably had no idea who I was talking to, and maybe he thought that I was having another... episode or whatever. But he didn't care, he took my hands, moved in a little, and kissed my cheek. I smiled at him, not finding the heart to blush, and we walked back out into the snow.

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I just stood there for a minute, then I smiled thankfully at Hayner. Who knew that the idiot could be such a help... Just as I was about to go in, Kazuki came out. He kind of looked at me, then at the door, then back to me. I got it, and started to walk in, and when I did, she was still just sitting on the floor. Exactly like when I left. "Nami–"

"Don't." But it was okay, because I knew I couldn't hear her say my name, either.

"I'm sorry." She looked back at me, probably confused.

"What?"

"I'm sorry." I walked over to her and sat down, but a little behind so that she didn't necessarily have to face me, but she did. Her eyes were staring dead into mine. I wanted to avert my gaze, but I couldn't remove my view from her. She looked like she was observing me or something, trying to figure me out.

"Ro–"

I shook me head. "Stop." She sighed and looked down. It was weird with us both so depressed. "I'm sorry, I'm so... so sorry. I haven't been trying as hard as I should be to be there for you. I know... I know that you probably trust Kazuki more than me, and... I know that you probably have reason to. But still, I–"

"You know, I guess I thought you were smarter than that." Okay, well apparently Hayner and Namine thought alike. I knew what she meant, but I couldn't bring myself to give her an answer. How could I not think that, with the way she always prefers him over me? It hurts. "Why would you think that? And once more, why would think you knew?"

"I guess I just realized you talk to him a lot more, and when you talk to me, sometimes you just stop... to talk to him. You just tell him things you can't tell me."

"I can't even... what do you think I talk about with him? What do you think... I think?"

"I guess... I don't know. I haven't really thought about it. I mean... when you really talk to someone... do you need something to talk about?" What... Namine thinks. About what exactly?

She smiled. "I guess not." She turned back to me. "Hey,"

I turned my eyes up, and again they met with hers. "Yeah?"

"What do we talk about most of the time?"

"What do you mean?" She shrugged. How to say...? "Everything... nothing. I don't know. I can't really explain it. Half the things we talk about, I don't remember right after we're through." She laughed. I didn't really see... how this was all that funny. I must've been more confused than I thought I was...

"Me either." But her beautiful smile was gone, and I wished it back, but to no avail. "You know, I think I remember every word I've ever said to that boy."

"Yeah." I said. She cares more about what she says to him, what he says to her."I get it."

"I guess then... that he probably thinks I talk way too much. He's probably tired of my voice."

"He couldn't be." Impossible...

She paused for a minute, maybe I shouldn't have said that. "Well, I mean... he probably thinks I'm obsessed or something. We only talk about you." I almost didn't believe her, why would she talk to another guy... to talk about me?

"Namine, what do you make of this?" I stood up, looking out the window, but I don't know if she looked at me or not. Or if she understood my question.

"What are you talking about?"

"Us, I mean. Our relationship. Everything we have." I looked back at her, and I suppose that for the moment I made an... image... or something. She was quiet for a while, like I was when Hayner explained it to me.

She sighed and closed her eyes, only to open them again in a matter of seconds. "Well... I guess... I'm always happy when I'm with you, and even when things get complicated... or weird... we can get through them alright. I mean, you know me really well, and I can look at you and instantly warm up. I guess... it's what you'd call... a fairy tale."

I smiled at my princess. "My thoughts exactly."

Namine... I'm glad things happened the way that they had. If anything was different, I guess I would still have the same feelings for her... but something just wouldn't be there. It really was our fairy tale. She was perfect, and for some reason, she was with me. Her smile, her laugh. They were my dreams. I wanted to know how I could tell her. I loved her. But was it too fast? We really hadn't been together for all that long. We hadn't even known each other for that long... Were we too young? I couldn't know what she thought. If I couldn't tell her yet, then I would at least ask... what she thought about it.

She smiled at him, and stood up. I smiled at her, too, in all my thoughts... I was completely dazed. "We really were quick to get over all this, weren't we?"

She shrugged. "Does it matter?" It didn't.

"Well, I just–" She hugged me. Just hugged me, and nothing else. I always got this feeling when she hugged me, like for once, she actually liked to be with me, to be closer. I couldn't say anything for the longest time. Finally, I hugged her back. "Namine,"

"Hm?"

"Do you think... that it's possible to be too young for love?" Her grip on me tightened only for a second. Maybe I shouldn't have asked. Maybe I was... way too obvious... well, what's done is done.

"I think..." I couldn't help but hold her a little tighter. Talking about love, with the one... I loved? "I don't really know. All I can say is that I believe in love, and I trust it. I think I know what love at first sight is... but... whatever." I shrugged. "This isn't like... freaking you out or anything is it?" The feelings I had when I was with her... were always kind of what I thought love would be like, but they were so much softer. So pure...

She laughed. "Not at all. Roxas, I'm sorry, I guess I kind of ruined today for you. You look forward to the first snow day of the year and I kind of... make it all overly dramatic." I laughed. There was nothing she could ever do to ruin anything for me. She only made things better.

"Not at all." She smiled, I had let her go. I wanted so badly to kiss her, but I didn't know if she would hate me for it, so I tried not to. "But I guess your first snow day was kind of a flunk, huh?"

"No, never. I spent it with you. And besides, I think I caught a glimpse of some different things today." She looked out the window, and I did to, but I guess I didn't see what she saw in the snow. "Good things do happen, dad. You were right." She smiled. She whispered something, but I didn't hear it. I didn't know what she was doing, but I didn't care. I knew it had something to do with her dad, and I couldn't try to enter that with her. Finally, I couldn't help myself, and I tried to stop myself, but I could only tone it down. I took her hands, and kissed her cheek. She smiled at me, and we walked together into the snow. Happily Ever After.