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The next evening Dave and Sasha had agreed to meet. Sasha was coming by herself and no kids and no husband. Dave however had Alex by his side. Sylvia and Ted had offered to keep the kids for them while Sasha came over to meet with them. Dave was more nervous than he had been for a long time. He had no idea what was going to happen or how things were going to turn out. He hoped that he would be able to get to know Kyra but he highly doubted it. Alex on the other hand wasn't really up for the idea but Dave felt so passionate about it she wasn't going to tell him he couldn't meet up with Sasha. She didn't care if he got to know Kyra as long as it didn't disrupt her family. She didn't want Dave to know but she was torn between two emotions. A part of her wanted Dave to be in Kyra's life but the other part of her wanted him to have nothing to do with her. She knew the second part was harsh but she couldn't help the way she felt. Then she was starting to realize maybe it wasn't him being in Kyra's life she had a problem with maybe it was Sasha. She never liked Sasha and Alex never really confronted her for sleeping with her husband years ago. Of course Alex wasn't going to confront her now. It was too late but the feelings of dislike for Sasha still ran deep inside of Alex. Dave and Alex were sitting in the living room waiting for Sasha to arrive and Dave was pacing back and forth. Alex could tell he was nervous and said, "Baby, relax. It's going to be okay."
"I know but this is the first time I've talked to her since that night," he said. "You know."
"Yeah. I know the night she told you she was pregnant. You told me. It's nothing to be nervous about. You just tell her how you feel and that's it. That's the hardest part."
"The hardest part would be her saying no to me," said Dave. "I know she isn't going to want me in Kyra's life and I know I said I would be fine with it but right now I'm not so sure."
"Can I just say this?" asked Alex. "IF she says no.. prove you're a real father and let the other man have the child. It's like the story in the Bible when the two women were both saying they were the mother of the baby and the king said to solve the issue he was going to cut the baby in half. The REAL mother stopped him and told him to give the baby to the other lady so that the baby wasn't harmed. She acted in the best interest of the child. That had to be hard for her but she did what was best for the baby. That's a lesson you should take to heart right now. Sometimes doing the hardest thing is the right thing."
"Why is it you can name a story from the Bible for EVERY situation?"
"I don't know," said Alex. "I guess that's what happens when you have to read the Bible everyday of your life growing up."
"So you're telling me that giving Kyra up is the hardest but the best thing or the right thing to do? I'm sorry but Sasha hasn't exactly done the best thing. I mean keeping a child away from their biological father for 10 years is not the best thing."
"Well, Dave why don't you bring that up to Sasha instead of to me. I didn't keep a child from you for 10 years so I can't exactly tell you what she was thinking or doing. You have to ask her yourself."
"I know," said Dave. "I'm just so nervous."
"I know," said Alex. "And you have nothing to be nervous about. Everything will be all right. Just calm down." She always hated when Dave got nervous. He could become very anxious and it took him a while to settle down. Alex knew he wasn't going to settle down until everything with Sasha was said and done.
As Dave continued pacing back and forth the doorbell rang. "Alex, can you get that? I'm too nervous."
"I guess," said Alex getting up from the couch and walking to the foyer to the front door. She looked out of the little hole in the door and saw Sasha standing there in a white baby t-shirt with a black leather jacket that went to the top of her stomach over top and a pair of black leather pants and a pair of Ugg boots. Her dark brown hair was hanging down. Alex rolled her eyes and opened the door. "Hey, Sasha. You can come in."
"Thanks," she said as she walked into the foyer. She looked around and said. "You have a really beautiful house. Who designed it?"
"I did," said Alex, "thank-you."
"Well, it's beautiful," she said.
"Thanks. Dave is in the living room. You can follow me," said Alex leading her to the living room. "Dave, Sasha is here," she said as the entered the living room.
It fell silent for a few minutes and the tension between Dave and Sasha was strong. Neither of them really knew what to say it had been so long since they had seen each other. The more Dave looked at Sasha the more he realized the reason for the affair. Alex and Sasha kind of resembled one another. Sasha finally got the nerve and said, "hey."
"Hey?" asked Dave. "That's all you're going to say after 10 years, Sasha? I think you have a lot more to say than just hey."
"Dave, what do you want me to say? Because I don't regret what I did. I'm glad I did what I did."
"So you're glad you just left and kept our daughter away from me?" he asked. It made Alex cringe when he called Kyra his daughter.
"Dave, what did you expect me to do?" She asked. "I remember that day like it was yesterday. It has not left my mind since it happened. I went to your locker room to tell you that I was pregnant and of course you didn't believe me. You told me I was lying until I showed you the ultrasound picture. Then you told me to take care of it and get an abortion because the baby wasn't wanted. You said you didn't want to be the baby's father. And you told me you didn't want to be there. So why are you getting so upset right now?"
"I don't know," he said, "but now that I think about it.. You called me a deadbeat. I am not a deadbeat and you can ask Alex. Alex, am I deadbeat?"
"Don't bring me into this," said Alex. "I look at it this way if you wouldn't have cheated on me and kept it in your pants this wouldn't' be happening right now."
"And you have a point," said Dave. "But it happened and there's nothing we can do about it now. I want to be in Kyra's life," he said.
"Not going to happen," said Sasha.
"Why?" asked Dave.
"Because I did what I could to get away from you. I didn't want to be around you. You're the reason I quit my job, you're the reason I left Connecticut and just disappeared. It's your fault," she said, "and if I remember correctly you called me a problem and said I was the reason there were problems between you and your wife. You told me I couldn't be pregnant because you were trying to work things out with your wife and if I was pregnant it would mess things up. It seems to me that you got the perfect life you wanted with her. I read tabloids.. I read books. I know how you've turned out and I just want to say that I find it funny you can take in and be a dad to Kaylee the child you had with another woman but my baby wasn't good enough. My baby was a problem. Dave, you were the problem. Not me. It took me years to get over it. I cried my eyes out when Kyra was born and I saw she looked like you. EVERYDAY has been a reminder of how much of an asshole you really are. I did what I did so I wouldn't be a burden to you and your wife. Kyra doesn't know you and she has a dad. Tom is her dad and that's how it's going to be. I'm not changing my mind. You had your chance. You didn't want to be her father and you didn't' want to be there."
"Sasha, I was a different man back then. I was an asshole. I did a lot of things I wasn't proud of and said things I didn't mean. I tried calling you and getting in touch with you to tell you I wanted to be there but no one knew anything."
"I know," said Sasha, "Mickie told me and she also told me about how you humiliated her backstage too."
"So Mickie knew where you were the whole time?" asked Dave.
"Yeah. And surprisingly Mickie is a VERY good friend of mine. If she would have been a very good friend of yours you might have known where I was and could have told me but truth is Mickie didn't like you and she wasn't going to tell you where I was. When she told me you were trying to find me to tell me that you wanted to be in the baby's life I was going to call you and I was going to talk it out with you but Mickie made me see you for what you really were so I moved on and at first it was hard but when Kyra was 6 months old I met Tom, we started dating and a year later we were married. Tom is the only dad Kyra knows and he's the only dad she will ever know. I told you when you told me to leave and told me to take care of it that I wasn't going to do it. I told you that our baby would be calling someone else Daddy and that's what she's doing and that's how it's going to be. You made your bed… you need to lie in it now."
"So you're not going to let me be in Kyra's life?" he asked.
"No, I'm not. You didn't want to be there 10 years ago.. You're not going to be there now. She's happy with the life she has now and Tom is an amazing father to her and Teagan. I am not going to upset Kyra and tell her the guy she has known as her dad isn't really her dad. In her heart he is her dad and that's all that matters."
"And what if I choose to take this to court to be in her life?" asked Dave.
"Go ahead.. Tom is a lawyer.. You wouldn't win," said Sasha. "Why are you making it so difficult. You got what you wanted. You didn't want to be a father to her.. So you're not."
"I told you it was different back then, I was different. I'm not that guy now. How can you keep my child away from me?"
"I'm sorry," said Sasha, "your child? I don't' remember you doing anything for her. I don't remember you saying you would help out even if you were married. No you told me you didn't want her. So just because you changed and became this big family man and now you want to be in her life doesn't mean you're going to be. She is happy and I am not going confuse her and destroy her. If you cared about your daughter like you say you do.. You would leave it alone and leave things the way they are."
"But she is my daughter too," said Dave.
"Any man can make a baby but it takes a special man to be a dad and Dave you're not that special man. I'm sorry."
"I am a good father," he said. "Alex, tell her I am a good father." Dave was about to lose it. Being told no about being in Kyra's life was a huge blow to his ego. Alex didn't say anything. She stood there silently and he said, "Alex. Tell her."
"I told you don't bring me in it," said Alex.
"Just tell her I'm a good father," said Dave.
"Fine. He is a good father. I have never seen a man as good with his kids as Dave is. He is an amazing father," said Alex.
"I'm not saying he's not. I'm sure he's great with your kids but it's not going to change my mind. I have to look out for my kids. My kids are what matter most to me and I can't tell Kyra that Tom isn't really her father because I know it will destroy her and I will not hurt my daughter. It's not about us and it's not about you, Dave, it's about Kyra and what's best for her. What's best for her is leaving things the way they are."
"Sasha, come on," said Dave, "you have to let me be there."
"I don't have to let you do anything," said Sasha. "I don't want you there. You made up your mind years ago. I'm sorry. This is how it's going to be. I don't think it's worth it. I don't know how it happened but we just happened to send our kids to the same private school and our kids became friends. Let's just leave it that way.. Please."
"Sasha, don't you think I have the right to be there?"
"No I don't," she said. "You pushed me away, you didn't want her in the first place and you didn't' want to be there so no. I don't think you have the right to be there. Had the situation been different maybe you would have the right but it's not different and this is how it's going to be."
"Sasha, Please," said Dave.
"Dave, don't make this harder than what it has to be. You made your decision years ago. Please. Don't make this harder for me."
"Fine," said Dave, "You don't want me in her life that's fine. I can't argue about it anymore but I want you to know that I am hurt."
"And I wasn't hurt the night you pushed me away, told me to get an abortion and said you didn't want the baby? I was really hurt but you didn't' seem to care. I will admit I thought you loved me back then but the more I thought about it I was just another piece of ass for you. I don't know. I knew you were married and I knew I didn't have a chance with you but that little bit of hope was there. Then I finally realized I was nothing more than someone you slept with while you were on the road away from your wife. That hurt me finding that out. I was stupid and I will admit and Alex, I am sorry for sleeping with your husband behind your back. I really am sorry."
"Trust me you weren't the first and you weren't the last. It's okay," said Alex. "It takes two people to tango," said Alex. "I know he had a part in it and you didn't force him to do anything."
"I have wanted to apologize to you for the last 10 years," said Sasha. "I feel really bad for what I did and I am sorry."
"It's okay," said Alex, "What's done is done. Saying sorry about it 10 years later isn't going to change the fact it happened. Truth is you can't change the past. You just have to accept it and move on."
"Thanks," said Sasha.
"Well, I have a question," said Dave. "Since you won't let me in Kyra's life can you at least tell me about her so I feel like I know her?"
"Sure," said Sasha. "What do you want to know?"
"What's her full name?" asked Dave.
"Kyra Morgan Alexander," she said.
"Pretty name," said Dave, "when was she born?"
"June 19th," said Sasha.
"The day after Chelsea was born," said Dave.
"You know it's weird because Kyra used to come home and tell me there was a girl in 6th grade that looked like her and everyone thought they were sisters. Then Teagan was telling me about Ben. I saw their last name was Bautista but I never thought they were your kids. I always thought Chelsea was a year older than Ky."
"She is. Chelsea skipped a grade."
"Oh," said Sasha. "Anything else?"
"What does she do for fun?"
"Rides her bike, dances, hangs out with friends and reads."
"And does she play any sports?"
"Soccer and she does cheerleading in the fall. She used to be a gymnast but it got to be too much for her. It wasn't fun anymore."
"Cool," said Dave. "What's her favorite color?"
"Neon green. She loves that color. Her favorite book is Ramona Forever but her favorite book as a baby, toddler and preschooler was 'Goodnight Moon'."
"Tell me more about her," said Dave.
"Well, her favorite food is chicken. Her favorite TV show is Hannah Montana and her favorite TV show when she was younger was Barney and Dora. She never got enough of those shows. She's creative, smart, funny and she's so well-mannered. She is a joy kid. She is a really good kid. She gets A's and B's in school. She loves animals and wants to be a veterinarian when she grows up."
"Wow," said Dave. "She kind of reminds me of Chelsea. They have the same interest in things."
"They are sisters but they can never know," said Sasha.
"Oh.. Trust me," said Alex, "Chelsea will NOT know Kyra is her sister. None of our kids will."
"Okay," said Sasha. "But Dave do you understand where I'm coming from though about not being in her life?"
"I guess," said Dave. "Do her and Chelsea know each other."
"I don't see how they would," said Alex, "Chelsea is in 6th and Kyra's in 4th."
"They know of each other but I don't think they really know one another," said Sasha.
"Well, Chelsea's birthday is coming up. I'm sure she's going to have a party. Kyra should come," said Dave.
"I don't' think you should be inviting people to Chelsea's party without her consent," said Alex. "You know how she is."
"I know but I think they should at least have play dates together."
"Chelsea doesn't do play dates anymore. She hangs out with friends and you know how hard it is to get her away from Emily, Tessa and Briana. It doesn't happen."
"I know but it's always worth a shot right?" asked Dave.
"Dave, I don't' think you should try to make Chelsea and Kyra be friends," said Alex.
"I agree with Alex," said Sasha. "Ky already has friends. I mean it would be great if her and Chelsea became friends but truth be told. I'm not going force them."
"All right," said Dave. "We won't force it."
"Thank-you," said Sasha. "Well, if that's everything. I think I'm going to go. I have to go pick Ky up from soccer practice."
"Okay," said Dave. "It was good to see you again but before you go.. I would like to set up a play date."
"Dave, I thought we just discussed not forcing Chelsea and Kyra to be friends," said Alex.
"Not Chelsea and Kyra," said Dave. "Ben and Teagan."
"Oh," said Alex. "I think a play date is a good idea for them."
"I agree," said Sasha. "Teagan is always talking about Ben. I think they should play together more outside of school. When do you want to do this play date?"
"We hear a lot about Teagan too," said Alex, "and how about Friday after school?"
"That works for me," said Sasha. "Thank-you."
"No problem," said Alex. "Dave will just pick them up from school that day."
"All right," said Sasha. "Well, I really have to go. I'll see you Friday."
"See you on Friday," they said together as Dave walked Sasha to the door and let her out. After she was gone Dave shut the door behind him and walked back into the living room. "Thanks for being so supportive."
"Dave, I was being honest. And I didn't want to be brought into your lover's quarrel. I told you it wasn't a good idea but you insisted on it."
"Well, at least I know," said Dave, "and I feel bad because Kyra seems like a great kid."
"That's your own fault. You told her that you didn't want to be there, you didn't want to be her father and you wanted her to have an abortion. I would feel the same way and figure if you didn't want to be a dad then why should you be a dad now?"
"Because I changed, Alex, and if we're bringing up the night she told me she was playing games. She came in saying she was going to get an abortion then she said she couldn't. She was playing games. Alex, I'm not a game player and I knew her real intentions. She wanted me to pack up and leave you so I could be with her. I wasn't going to do that. I refused to do that. Things weren't the best with us then but I was trying to make them right. I wanted them to be right. I wasn't going to leave you because I got someone else pregnant. She is the one that chose to leave. I would have came around eventually and I did… she didn't."
"So she wanted you to leave me?"
"Yes," said Dave, "and I wasn't going to do it. I know it's a little late but if it makes you feel better the one time she got pregnant was the only time we didn't use protection."
"Why would you cheating on me make me feel any better just because you used protection? You shouldn't' have cheated on me at all."
"Let's be straight about this. I remember a certain someone coming to New York about 5 years ago or so to visit their sick mother and ended up sleeping with another guy and didn't use protection.. I think that's how it happened am I right?"
"Dave, you know it was a rough time for me and I was confused. I wasn't thinking clearly. I was dealing with the loss of a baby. It was tough."
"But you had me as a support system," said Dave.
"I know but you wouldn't even let me alone with the kids. That wasn't much of a support system," said Alex. "Either way neither of us should have cheated on the other. When we got married me vowed to forsake all others and be faithful. And we both failed on that promise."
"And that's why we renewed our vows for a new start. And I have to say life is going much better this way."
"It is," said Alex, "except our past does keep coming back to haunt us."
"So after everything how are you feeling? You're not stressed or anything are you?"
"Nope," said Alex. "I am fine and the baby is fine."
"Okay because you know I worry about you and the baby. This is more risky."
"I know but the doctor said as long as I stay healthy and take care of myself I should have nothing to worry about."
"And to stay away from stressful situations."
"I do," said Alex, "I told you. I'm not stressed."
"Just making sure," he said taking her into his arms as she wrapped her arms around his waist. "I don't want anything to happen to you or the baby. I love you," he said as he kissed the top of her head.
"I love you too," she said, "and now can we just forget about everything that's happened in the past and continue to enjoy our new start?"
"Absolutely," he said. "We can do that."
"Good," she said as she rested her head on his chest. She listened to his heart and said, "Your heart is beating awfully fast. Are you okay?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. It will be okay," he said.
"All right," said Alex. "I love you so much, Baby."
"I love you too," he said as they kissed each other passionately.
*A/N: Alex puts on a good act for pretending to care. She could have cared less if Sasha said no or not. At least she supported Dave.. I have to agree with Sasha. She has a point. Dave didn't want to be there when she told him she was pregnant.. why should he be there now when she knows Tom as her dad? That would confuse and upset her. It's better to leave things the way they are. AT least Sasha gave him some information on Kyra. He at least deserved that much and way to go Sasha for apologizing to Alex for sleeping with her husband. And Dave and Alex are still talking and no fights. I love how they worry about one another. Gotta love the love they share. = ) So what did you think? Please review and thank-you for taking the time to read.