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CHAPTER 21: Is he going to dump me soon?

Every after class, Mikan and Tsubasa has decided to go to the library for their book report. They have both chosen the book "Things Fall Apart" by Chinua Achebe since they have both read the book already and it would be easier for them to do the report faster since they don't have to read the book again anymore.

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LIBRARY…

"Hi Tsubasa!" Mikan greeted.

"Hi. Have you told your sister already about the thing yesterday?" Tsubasa replied while Mikan nodded. "Well, what did she say? Is she mad at me or something?"

"Iie. She's not mad at you at all." Mikan replied.

"Then what did she say?"

"She just said in the end that she's not in the same level as you are. But you don't have to worry about a thing. Michi's perfectly fine." Mikan replied with a smile as she sat down. "She can handle stuffs like that very well more that I can."

"Oh, okay then. So, what are we going to do now?" Tsubasa asked.

"Dunno. Gather some books for references, maybe?" Mikan replied with a shrug.

"Okay then, I'll go get some." Tsubasa said as he stood up.

"Iie. You stay here and prepare other stuff that we need. I'll go get the books since I am late again. Hahah." Mikan stated with a chuckle as Tsubasa followed.

"Hey, why don't you look who's here?" Tsubasa said as Mikan just finished gathering some books for their references for their book report. She then places all her things on the desk as she looked at the direction where Tsubasa was talking about.

"Who?" Mikan asked as she turned her head as she didn't expect an answer coming from Tsubasa since she saw it very clearly. It was Natsume and Sumire, the EX couple of the campus. Sumire has her arm linked around the arm of Natsume while Natsume didn't even seem to mind it at all. He even looked amused and enjoyed for that matter.

"You know, if looks could kill, Sumire might have been dead by now." Tsubasa commented as Mikan still didn't take her eyes off of the two of them.

"What do you expect? That witch is getting into my nerves." Mikan hissed as she turned to Tsubasa.

"Do you want me to cut all of her hair to make her bald or spill some soda at her clothes later at lunch so that she'll scream her lungs out?" Tsubasa whispered as he leaned over nearer to Mikan as Mikan laughed silently since she knew that the librarian might glare at her if she made some noise.

"Hahah. Nice." Mikan replied. "But honestly, I would like to be the very person to do that to her once I get the chance." She added.

"Well, you already have the chance. I have a pair of scissors in my bag and then the witch is coming over here." Tsubasa explained as they both saw the two of them approaching their desk.

"Hi Mimi!" Sumire greeted with another fake smile plastered on her face.

"Ugh. How dare this girl call me by my nickname? That is soooo completely unacceptable! Only people who are really close to me have the right to call me that like Hotaru! Even Natsume doesn't call me by that name! Who does she think she is?!" Mikan thought. "Oh, hi there Sumire." She mumbled.

"What brings you here?" Tsubasa asked.

"Oh, its nothing special." Sumire replied. "We just passed by for a while. Oh, how is your book report doing by the way? Have you chosen a story already?" She asked wetly.


"Ugh, this acting all sweet is already too much for me." Mikan thought. "Uh-huh." Mikan simply replied.

"So what is it then?"

"We chose Things Fall Apart since we have both read that book already." Tsubasa stated.

"So how is it going then? Is there any progress?"

"It's doing great." Mikan replied. "When will this permy girl stop asking too many questions?! It's getting too irritating!"

"Really?" Sumire asked as she leaned over closer to Tsubasa as if she was trying to show him her cleavage. "That's good to hear. So are the two of you getting along real well? You look like you're enjoying each other's company." She continued.

"Actually, we really are getting along very well." Mikan quickly replied as she looked at Natsume who was just simply listening to every single word that they all utter in their little conversation. "Tsubasa is really cool and gun to work with. He's a really great partner." Mikan added.

"And so is Natsume! No wonder that they are siblings! They are soooo alike! Not only they look so handsome, they are sooooo cool to work with!" She squealed as the librarian shushed her to shut her mouth. Sumire just toned down her voice for a bit. "Natsume is very smart! He always gets straight A's in English! Can you believe it? That's so impressive!" Sumire added.

"Really? Is that true? I can't believe it myself either." Mikan replied sarcastically.

"That Natsume is such a big fat liar. I remember the very moment that he begged me to tutor him in the 8 parts of speech homework. H e is so totally busted this time. Straight A's huh? Baka." Mikan thought as she eyed Natsume and then mouthed the word LIAR in front of him.

"Yeah." Sumire said as she kept on staring at Mikan. "He is sooo intelligent. No wonder he is a special star. He is so totally amazing! You are so lucky that you have him as your boyfriend!"

"What the heck is going on in here? First, Sumire comes near us just to check on how our report is going and now she's telling me that I am so lucky that I have Natsume as my boyfriend. Something is definitely not right in here. This is just another clue that she really wanted Natsume back to be with her. Yup. I can sense that our little deal will be over soon." Mikan thought.

"Natsume, why are you so quiet all of a sudden?" Tsubasa suddenly asked his brother who was already sitting at the chair right in front of him.

"I'm just not in the mood." He coldly replied as he stared at the amber eyes of the brunette.

"And why?" Tsubasa asked again.

"Nothing." Natsume stated and shrugged as he raised his left arm and then looked at his wrist watch. "Sumire and I are going to El Patio later to discuss some details about our report."

"Huh? They are going to El Patio later? As in the two of them? Together? Judging from the shocked look that is present in the face of Sumire, I could definitely tell that this El Patio thing is an impromptu invitation and this witch is just way too willing to accept. I mean, going to El Patio with a handsome and popular guy. Who wouldn't decline to that invitation, right? Where on earth is Mochu when you need him the most?!" Mikan thought.

"We are?" Sumire asked Natsume confusedly.

"Hn. We are." He stated as he walked out of the library hurriedly.

Sumire just stared at Mikan and Tsubasa for a matter of a few seconds and then she hurriedly walked out of the library as well. She was quickly following the trail where Natsume has gone to as if she was a little dog following his master.

"Something is definitely and absolutely wrong here." Tsubasa blurted out as he closed the book that he was reading and then turned his face to Mikan's direction. "Shouldn't you be the one walking out the library door with Natsume and not that ugly hag?"

"Well, I am not even sure if I should the one to be with him at all." Mikan softly replied as she leaned herself on her chair and then sighed.

"Well, I just wanna say that you and my brother look perfect together. You belong together." Tsubasa said as he looked at Mikan with comforting eyes.

"What makes you say something like that?" Mikan asked.

"You are not after Natsume just because of popularity and things like that. And Natsume really cares about you. I am so sure about that." Tsubasa answered.

"What makes you so sure that he really cares for me?" Mikan asked again.

"Well duh, he's your boyfriend. He won't k=ask you to be his girlfriend is he doesn't care for you at all." Tsubasa replied in an as a matter of fact tone. "And everyone can see that he really cares for you."

"Okay, if everybody in the academy saw that Natsume really cares about me, how come I didn't? I just wish that I will not be the one who will be heart broken in the end of this little fairy tale." Mikan thought.

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MIKAN'S POV

I am currently lying on my bed since I don't have anything else to do. As I was lying, I am pondering about some thoughts.

What is wrong with me? I asked myself several times already. At first, I thought that I was in love with my best friend's boyfriend. Yes, I THOUGHT, but now I know that I really wasn't. I have now concluded that my feelings for Ruka was just mere infatuation and not the actual head over heels kind of in love thing, no more and no less.

This time, I am pretty sure that my feelings for Natsume were real. Why was I so sure? Because just by knowing that Natsume didn't even care about me, it hurts me for about a thousand times worse. Was he going to "dump" me soon enough? Sometimes, the actions of Natsume could really make me believe that he actually cared for me. But I just have to stop myself from hoping for something that would probably never happen. I really need to stop hoping to avoid myself from getting hurt any further.

And before I even knew it, warm porcelain tears are already flowing down my rosy cheek. My life is so totally messed up. Oh great, heartache… please leave me alone.