"I start to catch my breath, and I start to catch your eye.
No need to second guess that you've been on my mind.
Well, I dream days away but that's okay.
…
One day I'll turn around, I'll see your hand reach out.
I'm only fooling myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
And baby, when you smile, it means you'll stay a while.
Just maybe you'll take me now.
I'm only fooling myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
I'm only fooling myself.
…
I sigh, step away to a day that'll never come.
It's like a splash of water to my face,
When I suddenly realize that you could never find a place.
In your eyes, and I don't know why I keep thinking
One day I'll turn around, I'll see your hand reach out.
I'm only fooling myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
And baby, when you smile, it means you'll stay a while.
Just maybe you'll take me now.
I'm only fooling myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
I'm only fooling myself."
-"Only Fooling Myself," Kate Voegele
Jackie gazed at him, sitting there. It'd been a while since she felt this, this tingly beginning of a new crush feeling.
It had been nice with Michael, for a while. He had been fun and all, and beautiful, but he was just not a good boyfriend. Honestly, he hardly ever listened to what she told him to do, and he was always complaining about her to his friends, and his friends were horrible and rude most of the time. Well, Donna was nice enough, even if she needed a wardrobe update, and Fez was sweet, though slightly creepy.
Eric, though, had decided she was the devil. Which told her that he was not fondof her, like she was not fond of him. Michael was Michael.
And Steven…Steven was something else. He was mean and rude and annoying and pessimistic most of the time. But he could be nice to her, when it was just the two of them, when she was upset and he would comfort her.
Now Michael was gone, and they were done. Eric was gone upstairs somewhere, pining over Donna, who was in California with Michael. And Fez- who knew where Fez was half the time? Knowing Fez, he was probably buying candy or something.
But Steven was here, sitting on the couch beside her, and she started to get that having-a-crush-again feeling. And he wasn't with anyone, and she wasn't with anyone, and it was just the two of them.
She sat there, not paying any mind to the show that they were watching, but only imagining what could happen.
He would be sitting there, and all of a sudden reach out to her, telling her how much he has wanted it to be the two of them alone, and how much he liked her, and that he's always liked her, and he was just waiting for Michael to be out of the picture. He would smile at her, and kiss her, and they would be together forever.
That was what was going on in her head, as she watched him out of the corner of the eye, noticing that he stared straight ahead at the TV, and his head didn't even move in her direction once.
Of course, she thought. Like that would ever happen. Only she would think that. Because it would never happen. Not in a million years. Because not only would Steven never do something like that, he would especially never say any of those things to her. Because he hated her, he had even said it to her, and to everyone else.
So why was the scene still playing in her head? Over and over again, it went. But it would never happen.
So, why, why did she want it to be true so badly?
"Jackie?" Hyde said.
"Yeah," Her voice was annoyed now, because of her irritation with herself over her stupid, impossible crush.
"Listen, Jackie, Kelso's gone, no one's here, and well, I sort of- I kind of-" He cleared his throat, then leaned over and kissed her, and then returned to watching the TV show.
She smiled. Maybe her crush wasn't impossible. Maybe, for once, she wasn't fooling herself.