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I smirked as I watched my aunts climb the stairs, ready as ever to kill some demons. I turned back and smiled at Jade soothingly, knowing that with Bianca being here it would be a big shock and having high blood pressure in her state was not good.
"You okay?" I asked, mentally smacking myself. Stupid, stupid question you idiot, I chastised, of course she wasn't okay. Jade smiled in return.
"Yeah I guess so, I just thought that, you know, we had gotten rid of her for good – it was just too good to be true I suppose" she sighed, trying to put on a brave face but I could see it was just a mask. She swept her long brown hair behind her ear and avoided looking into my eyes. That was when I knew she was far from okay.
I felt like such a complete and utter failure, some fiancée I was huh?
"Come here" I muttered, pulling her into the circle of my arms and resting my head atop hers. "Everything will be okay, you'll see. We'll get rid of Bianca and things will get back the way they were before" I promised "Well, not exactly like before cause hopefully my brother won't be a crazy psychopath but you get the picture" I said and that caused her to chuckle, the sound of her laughter making me smile.
"I know it will" She whispered, snuggling closer into my chest before rapidly pulling away from me like she had been stung. Her eyes were wide when she looked at me and she had one hand on her stomach.
"Again?" I asked exasperated, I thought by now the morning sickness would be over; obviously it wasn't. Jade gave me one of her famous 'you seriously asking me this' glare's before sprinting to the bathroom and slamming the door shut behind her. I was about to run after her and check on her but Phoebe came bouncing down the stairs, looking seriously proud.
"We've found Bianca and made up a potion, we don't know how it'll work but it's better than - "She trailed off, looking around curiously.
"Hey, where's Jade?" She asked, her eyes flitting around the sitting room but as soon as she asked that the sound of retching came from off to the right and we both fell silent. Phoebe winced sympathetically.
"Still got the morning sickness huh?" She asked and I nodded.
"I guess so, look we'll meet you up in the attic in a few minutes" I stated and Phoebe nodded, glancing once more at the bedroom/bathroom door that Jade had created before skipping up the stairs. I gingerly walked forward, not knowing what kind of mood Jade would be in. Occasionally she would be alright – just like her normal self but more often of not she would either be a sobbing mess or as angry as hell in which it was best to stay clear unless you wanted to get slapped (she had apologised for that when she had calmed down!)
I opened the door to the bedroom and creeped through to the bathroom, seeing Jade leaning her head on the toilet seat, moaning quietly under her breath as she held her stomach. She looked paler and a sheen of sweat glistened on her forehead so strands of hair was sticking to it. Even though she was obviously feeling like crap I couldn't help but smile a little bit- she still looked as beautiful as ever.
"Jade? You doing alright?" I asked gently, coming to sit beside her and moving her long hair away from her face. She made a noise in response, one that I couldn't make out but at least she didn't look or sound angry, that was a plus, damn hormones I thought fondly.
"What?" I asked whilst stroking her back soothingly.
"I said go away" She moaned, resting her head back on the coolness of the seat. I chuckled fondly at her.
"Nope, I'm afraid you're stuck with me" I teased, relieved when I saw her half smile. I sat there for a few minutes just comforting her when a bit of the colour returned to her face and she perked up slightly.
"Okay, okay – let's go kill the wicked bitch of the past" she suggested and I helped her to her feet. She flushed the toilet and went to quickly brush her teeth and rinse out her mouth.
"You know… maybe it would be best if you stayed here" I suggested, gulping when she turned around, her eyes like lasers though the sight was a bit funnier with a purple toothbrush hanging from her mouth.
"No, I'm going and that's final – anyhow you said it was okay if I go with you and I'm not letting you change your mind" she stated defiantly, spitting out the toothpaste and wiping her mouth.
"Yeah, well that was before I knew the morning sickness could pounce back at any given moment, it's enough to distract you and that could get you hurt" I said, trying to get her to change her mind. I knew it probably wouldn't work, Jade was the most stubbornist person I had ever known; a simple suggestion wouldn't change her mind once it was already made up.
Jade scoffed, shaking her head in exasperation. While she was drying her hands she said "oh please Chris that's not going to do any harm and anyway, I'm dead set on seeing Bianca gone, you're not going to convince me" She stated, her voice had this final tone in it. I loved Jade with all my heart, more than anything, but the way she was being so careless about her life and our child's made me mad.
"So just to get back at Bianca you're going to risk your life and our baby's, it's a stupid thing to do and you know it" I spat back a little more violently than I had first intended. Jade whipped around, her hair like razor blades.
"Don't bring our baby into this Christopher" She snarled and judging by the way she used my full name instead of 'Chris' I knew she was mad. She only ever used it when she was extremely mad, trying to be persuasive or in the deepest throes of passion- I knew for sure it was the first one.
"What else do you want me to say? You want me to go along with your reckless behaviour and let you hurt yourself or wouldn't you rather I protected you?" I asked her, my voice getting louder and louder with each word. Jade looked shocked at first and a little hurt but her eyes soon turned to steel, her fists clenching.
"We both did fine without you Christopher" She said, preparing to storm past me but I grabbed her arm to stop her – we needed to get this out in the open.
"What is that supposed to mean?" I questioned, fury laced under my voice. She ripped her arm from my grasp, glaring daggers at me.
"You were gone okay? You were gone three months and I was the one that looked after OUR child, I kept her safe even though there was constant demons on our trail and Wyatt out gunning for us, the only way I made it out of there was through my own, so called 'recklessness'" She stopped, breathing heavily and tears were brimming in her eyes.
"Yes, I've done stupid things I'm not denying that but I'm only alive today because I went with my gut instinct. You have no idea what Wyatt was planning, what he intended to do okay? He was going to take her away from me, raise her into evil knowing that there was nothing I could do to stop him and do you know how that feels?" She asked, the tears already pooling from her eyes. Her breaths were coming in quick gasps like she was struggling to breathe.
"I'm her mom and I'm supposed to protect her but when Wyatt had me locked up I felt absolutely powerless against him, I knew that if I didn't do something he would take her away from me, use her to get to you, and we would all end up dead. And we would've, Wyatt swore to me that's what he was going to do and Wyatt never breaks his promises. And every night, that whore Bianca" She spat her name out like it was acid, "came to me and told me everything. What Wyatt was going to do to me, that my little girl would grow up under her and Wyatt's care and that you would have to watch" She sobbed, taking a deep breath. I tried to move forward but she stepped back almost instantly, staring at me like I was her worst enemy. The sight made my heart break into a million pieces.
"I'm not perfect, I make mistakes but don't you ever, EVER accuse me of putting our little's girl's life on the line on purpose" She stated in a cold voice, the tears steadily flowing down her cheeks. I felt my own eyes prickle with tears as I saw how broken she looked and how hurt, knowing that I had caused that. She shook her head in disgust before storming from the bathroom and into the bedroom, the door smacking against the wall with a large thud.
I stood in the bathroom for a few seconds, the guilt weighing down on me. She was right, of course she was right, even though we'd both agreed that I should go doesn't mean its right. I still left her at Wyatt's mercy before I knew she was pregnant. I thought back to when Jade first arrived in the past and how she had told me, or so I thought, everything which had happened. I realise now she was down playing it a hell of a lot.
I blinked away the tears and slowly moved forward out of the bathroom; a million scenario's playing through my head. What if Jade hadn't used her initiative and was still stuck in the past, we probably wouldn't have even have found who had turned Wyatt in time meaning my journey here was a waste or imagining the things that Wyatt would do to Jade, knowing that it wasn't of the purest intentions and raising our child to be like him. The thoughts made my stomach churn.
I saw that in the bedroom Jade was lying on our bed, her back turned against me so I couldn't see her face. Just a few hours previously we had been lying there together, tucked up in the blankets, chatting happily about anything we could think of. I had been caressing her stomach and we had shared kisses; now though it seemed like the bed was an escape from me instead of a place where Jade and I could be alone.
I walked forward slowly, completely stumped. I didn't know what to say, my vocal chords didn't seem to work properly. How could I apologise for THAT much stuff, I didn't even know where to begin. I had just accused her of risking her child's life for pure vengeance, something I know Jade would never, ever do. Family was incredibly important to her.
"Jade, I-I'm sorry –"I started to say, placing a hand on her shoulder but she jolted forward, the clear message being 'don't touch me'.
"Just leave me alone Christopher" She muttered, soundly mad but also… defeated. My heart clenched.
"I don't know what -" But yet again she cut me off.
"Just go, now. I don't think I can even look at you" she said softly, turning her head into the pillow while one hand was laid over her stomach protectively, like she was protecting our child from me. I nodded numbly, respecting her wishes. The tears began to flow down my cheeks even though I tried to wipe them away as I walked from the room, closing the door quietly behind me so I wouldn't disturb her. With baited breath, I leaned against the door, wishing now more than ever that I could just race in there and beg for her forgiveness, tell her I didn't mean any of what I said and be happy again with her, but I knew now was not the right time. She needed time to be alone, to think, to calm down and I would respect that. In the meantime there was still an evil bitch out there to kill.
I slowly trotted up the flight of stairs into the attic, not knowing what awaited me there. There was a chance that my family had heard what was said, or shouted, between us, the walls weren't exactly sound proof. By the time I got there I saw Phoebe and Paige standing around the potions bowl awkwardly, the tension in the room could be cut with a knife. They immediately looked up when I entered, their faces sympathetic meaning they heard us.
"Uh, Jade's not exactly feeling, um, too great" I lied, knowing that they saw right through it. Luckily they never said anything which made me sigh in relief. I don't think I could get into talking about mine and Jade's domestics with my aunts right now.
I grabbed their hands as we orbed, each of us holding a bright orange potions bottle.
Wow, I'm so sorry for the late update, I guess you could say my muse flew away! Haha. Right now, my exams are starting soon so there will probably be an update every two weeks, maybe earlier if I'm bored! Don't worry I'm never gonna give up on this story, I might even make a sequel when I'm done with it, would you like that?
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