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Previously…When the guys walked in they were…

Dressed in jeans and no shirts they were Abercrombie models

"Oh my gawd I love your costumes." Alice said looking at Jasper

"Same" The guys said and Edward was checking me out and I was checking him out too his chest was sculpted and his 6 pack was amazing I smiled and walked over to him.

"Wow you look amazing" Edward said

"Not to bad yourself" I said back

"Did they bribe you?" Edward asked

"Yes Alice bribed me to wear this." I said and we laughed

"Want to dance?" I asked

"Hell yes" Edward replied and we playfully grinded when we danced same with Emmett and Rosalie and Alice and Jasper. Then a slow song came on Far away by Nickel back and Edward placed his hands on my waist and I placed my arms around his neck.

"I love you so much" Edward said and his Emerald eyes met my brown eyes

"I love you too" I said and Edward pulled me into a kiss the kiss was soft and sweet but still satisfying

We danced half of the night then Rosalie came up to me and pulled me away

"Me and Emmett are going to his apartment" Rosalie said while wiggling her eyebrows and I laughed

"Ok" I said then went back to Edward

"Want to go somewhere a little more private?" Edward asked and I nodded we went upstairs to my room. (Carissa was in the guest room which is now the nursery sleeping soundly). He shut the door behind us. It was one of those moments and we looked into each other's eyes and he started to kiss me and we sat on the bed and continued kissing this kiss was not as careful as our other kisses it was intense. He started to unbutton his pants.

"James stop" I said and Edward froze shit I can't believe I just said that.

"I'm sorry Bella" Edward said

"I'm so sorry Edward" I said

"I didn't mean to say that" I continued

"I'll just go now" Edward said awkwardly and left ugh I hate James thanks to him I can't truly love someone fully again.

I feel asleep and woke up to Carissa crying great I went to her room and cradled her and poured milk and heated it up in the microwave and fed it to her. After a couple hours she fell asleep. Rosalie and Alice came back at about one in the after noon at least someone had a good night. They looked happy and I looked extra crappy.

"Bella are you ok?" Alice asked

"Freakin peachy" I said sarcastically

"What happened" Rosalie said

"Well Me and Edward were having a great time and then we went up to my room we started to kiss and when he unbuttoned his pants I said James stop and he left." I said

"Oh well if he loves you he'll accept that you're not ready yet" Alice said and I nodded

"It's just I'm afraid I'm going to lose him if I can't forget what James did to me." I said and Alice and Rosalie hugged me.

"We're going over the guys apartment want to come?" Alice asked

"No if they ask I'm sick" I said and they said ok I walked to my room and took out a blade that I haven't used in a long time and cut myself. I quickly cleaned up the mess. I grabbed Carissa and went to the guys apartment

"Can you watch her I have to go to my cutting group. If I miss one more class I have to go to cutting rehab." I said and Rosalie took Carissa. I went to the cutting group.

"Bella your late" Aro said

"And you're a bastard but I don't say anything about that." I said and sat down next to Jacob

"Bella are you going to finally tell us why you cut? And by the looks of it you just cut your self recently" Aro said

"Yea I did if you cut your self then maybe you would be less bitchy." I said and everyone gasped

"Bella can I talk to you after class?" Aro asked

"Yes" I mumbled

"Do you want me to wait for you?" Jake asked

"No I'll be fine and I have a ride home." I said

"Oh yea your crapish truck." Jake said

"You wish your car was as awesome as mine." I joked

"Yes everyone is jealous of your truck." Jacob said sarcastically then we laughed and he left

"Bella come here please" Aro said and he was standing near a closet and I came over

"Why the hell are we standing next to a closet I asked and Aro pushed me in there and he came into the closet to then…

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