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Chapter 21
The Dark Side

Jacob's POV

My father's eyes burned in disbelief.

Rebecca walked towards me, with horror burning every sparkle in her eyes, and God, did she remind me of my mother as let her hand hold onto my shoulder, pressing it in sympathy and compassion and she talked too fast for me but I knew that one of the words were asylum and connecting it to that look on her face, she wanted me to be in one and how would I loved being in one, too.

I should rot.

Edward's hand grabbed onto mine as he pushed me to him and shook his head and he was protesting but as usual, no sound I can hear, just silence that burned me to the core as he kissed my hair and the act of affection made me feel close to him. I had stepped into the dark side of the world.

I was insane.

I was different.

I wanted to be the same. I wanted to love Edward. Part of me didn't believe in love now. Part of me just believed in the ability to lust but no…I won't let that part dominate me. I won't let that part tell me that I can't love.

And—

Asylum…

"DON'T LET ANYONE THINK THAT YOU'RE INSANE, JACOB!"

Edward's POV

The shock that was draping across his face.

The way he was suddenly dosed into the reality of the situation, the way his muscles tensed, the way his eyes and heart bled, the way that the world spun when he stared at his sister and he said "no."

"What?" Billy asked, his eyes widening but I ignored it. He ignored it.

"I'm not insane!"

He was screaming. Screaming his heart out. And still, he can't listen to himself and how he wanted to. He wanted to hear the acid that was spitting in his voice that was somehow burning his heart without a sound.

"Jake…" the girl started.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!"

He was confused.

He was hurt.

He was so into his pain that tears were burning into his dark eyes as he pushed himself backwards and I held him as he sobbed recklessly.

His throat was burning from the acid and I stared at him as he tried not to break into too many pieces, as he tried to contain his pain but he couldn't. He was a victim of an arranged marriage. He had his people and he didn't want any of it. He wanted to be normal and suddenly, I shared that need to. If we were stupid teenagers whose cares were prom and going to a dance, this wouldn't be the case.

I held him close to me as he continued to sob.

"It's going to be alright, Jake…"

That moment, he let out a heart breaking scream that made me carry him, press him against me, run off again into the blackness because we didn't need Billy or Rachael or Rebecca or whoever…we only needed the comfort of each other right now and I didn't care about their protests.

My eyes were only on Jacob.

I fell onto my knees when I felt him grip onto my hair and rip a tiny tuft of my hair out and the pain that was in him. It was so unreal…

He was transforming. Good god.

I stood up again even if Jacob was protesting "I don't want to go anywhere! I'm not insane! I'm fine!" and it hurt me to see that he'd think that I'd betray him and running towards Carlisle's and seeing their shocked eyes while all I can think of was the boy that was curling and breaking and crying right now from the pain that was overtaking him and as I laid him down onto the bed, Carlisle ran his hand through Jacob's hair and took his temperature and I stayed beside him the entire time.

"They wanted him to get married…"

He nodded his head and I watched him drift off to sleep before Carlisle told me that he needed to talk to me.

We were enclosed in the kitchen.

All I was thinking about was Jacob, my Jacob, suffering because of his transformation so badly, turning into a vampire…in so much pain and languish that I felt like I wanted to die all over again just remembering how he'd ripped my hair out of its place. Just remembering how those dark eyes were burning with tears.

"Edward…"

"Yeah?"

"He might not survive during this transformation…"

"…what?" I asked, thinking of my Jacob, and how I can't have him die. I can't have him get hurt anymore. I wanted it to stop because it was hurting me too. Seeing him so dead on the inside. Seeing him cripple because of the pain. I wanted it to stop. I can't take it. I can't take it! I CAN'T TAKE IT!

I…

I…

"He's the first of his species that ever had ever gone through this type of pain. It's not natural for anyone to feel this much pain…and—"

I walked out of the room because I can't handle anything that Carlisle was saying anymore and he stood up to follow me but he didn't understand anything. No one understand anything, did they?

"Edward—I—"

I stopped dead in my tracks and he stopped too.

My heart was gone.

In an instant.

Dead.

Jacob was gone.

And in his place was a note.

Carlisle was talking, explaining it to me and I sunk it all in. "He seems to have forgotten that you both had run away when they announced his marriage. Amnesia…he doesn't remember…he's starting to forget the wolf life and starting his life as this fresh new Innovative…Edward, he won't love…he—"

I grabbed onto the note and stormed out to find him.

You are not making me marry anyone. I'm going to beat you to the game. You can't let him marry me if I'm dead. I'd rather die than have you do this to me…—Jacob Black

What do you think Jacob will do to himself?

Better yet, do you think that I'll kill him in this story too? Jeffy: No! No! Pwease!

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