Jade woke up the next morning to the light filtering into the room. Feeling someone next t her she almost jumped, but caught herself moving her head enough to see the arm that was caught under her head. A content smile seeing the familiar ink. She tried to move not to wake him, but was unsuccessful the moment she sat up.
"Where you going?" He was still half asleep his eyes not even open yet.
"Nowhere."
"Then come back here please." She smiled laying back down this time facing him, he was on his back so she rested her head on his chest just listening to the beating of his heart. He lightly wrapped his one arm around her. Absentmindly she began to let her one hand trial up & down his stomach. She just watched the muscles ripple under his skin. "You like teasing me don't you?"
"Oh sorry…" She stopped & went to pull her hand away, but he placed his hand on top of it.

"Don't be…I like the feel of you touching me…that you are comfortable enough to do that & to let me stay last night."
She moved to look up at him. "Phil…last night was the first night I slept since it happened…I felt safe in your arms…you helped keep him away. It should be me thanking you." She pulled herself up more to give him a kiss. "My knight." They both began to laugh.
"Just don't try to put my in a suit of armor."
"I promise…" She chuckled then heard her phone ringing. Turning over she looked at the number before answering it. "Morning Shane…Yes I feel better…yes he was a big help…Actually I want to talk to you about a change to Monday…yes he is part of it…yes I am sure I can get a hold of him to meet us here…how about dinner?…nothing fancy…Pizza works…well I would cook but I haven't exactly been out shopping…with my neck I don't think I am ready for that yet… OK see you around five…yes I am eating my cupboard isn't totally bare yet….bye."

Punk laughed when she hung up the phone.
"What?" She turned back around to face him.
"I am guessing you were talking about me. You are sure you can get a hold of me? Really…" he laughed again. "He has no clue I stayed here?"
"Who knows…he knew my change in mind involved you."
"What is it?"
"You will see…it actually involves you & Randy."
"Orton?"
"Yes Orton."
"Um…ok."
"Trust me." She moved over closer kissing him. Her hand more freely roaming his chest & abs. "Man I wonder if I will ever get enough of you."
"I hope not…just remember.."
"I know…don't push myself. I want to though…" She began to trail kisses down his jaw line trying not to chuckle at how his stubble tickled her nose. She lead them to his chin & down to the hallow of his neck. He lightly tilted his head back allowing her full access to the tender spot of his throat. Her lips so wet & warm he couldn't help but get aroused at how soft they felt on him. She let them linger on that spot even to the point of lifting away slightly allowing her tongue to trace the hallow & around he Adams Apple. He could not stop the wantonly moan that passed his lips. She shivered slightly hearing him, but not enough to deter her as she then began kissing him again leading to the collarbone kissing across one way before heading back to cover the other. She loved how he felt, tasted, smelled. She then caught herself once again wondering what in the world she was doing. She slowly made her way back to his lips kissing him again. She regretfully moved away from his lips to his ear. "I am so sorry…I shouldn't be doing this to you." She began to sit up when he finally willed himself to lightly grab her arm closest to him near her wrist.

"Jade…" His own breath short. "I am allowing you to…remember I could also ask you to stop." He closed his eyes a moment trying to focus. He then opened them again to look at her "Yes your lips feel to great on my skin…I wish I could just take hold of you…But…I won't before you are ready. I want to so badly it hurts, I won't though…Please don't pull yourself away from me because you think you did something wrong. Now you are torturing me so please continue…or give me permission to get up."
"I am so sorry…I just don't want to be doing it for the wrong reason…"
"I felt your hesitation but also the love behind it…that is not wrong. I understand though."
"Thank you…" she closed her eyes slipping from the bed. "I'll go make us some eggs while you get changed." She headed out the door & he just threw his head back on the pillow. That woman in time would be the death of him.

It was about ten minutes before he managed to calm himself down walking into the main area he smelled the eggs & sausage cooking away. He proceeded to the kitchen just watching her by the stove. "Sexy & domesticated too." He said jokingly watching her.
"As you said full of surprises. I was quite busy in high school."
"Yeah I just bet fighting to keep all the jocks away."She gave a laugh.
"No remember I was one of the jocks, plus I had a…I had a boyfriend at the time."
"Yeah I remember you telling me…I was only joking."
"I know. I think I wear my emotions to easily at times."
"And other times you try to bury them." He watched as she made up to plates carrying them to a small dinette set sitting down. He took the seat across from her watching as she ate. "Tell you what. If you really want to cook tonight how about you make a list & I'll run to the store for the items?"
"You sure?"
"Yeah, hey I would never turn down a home cook meal over a restaurant. On the road so much it is a nice change. What you want to make?"
"Beef stroganoff." He watched her mouth almost salivate over just thinking about it.
"Wow, that can be a little complex can't it?"

"I guess depends, I can write the ingredients down, but not exact amounts."
"Whys that?"
"I leaned via the 'little of this little of that' method. My father taught me how to make it but never wrote it down. You will need to head out shortly after we are done eating if we are eating shortly after Shane arrives I should start prepping by noon so I am not rushing it."
"Five hours to make it?"
"Well maybe more like 2 actually cooking but there is cutting involved."
"No problem." They finished breakfast & she went to write the list out of what she needed for that night. She handed it to Punk along with about $50.
"This should more then cover it including some of your beloved Pepsi." He laughed plucking the items from her hand.
"If not hun I'll cover the rest." he leaned lightly peeking her lips before he headed for the door with her keys.

She just shook her head cleaning up the mess from breakfast. Something about him just made her world been brighter. After washing the pan she headed into the bedroom getting changed for the day. She placed on black jeans & a retro rock tee of Aerosmith She was brushing her hair her mind wandering. She knew despite what he said she couldn't afford to keep teasing him. Eventually he would break & either attack her or leave. She got a cold shiver at either prospect. She couldn't afford to feel alone again. It may be fast but she had to at least try. She knew it would be later that night. She moved to her closet looking for what it was she would need for her next step. Times of nervousness like this or even the last few days she really wished she had a drink, but in the end she knew it would only cause trouble or regrets. She needed to remain clear headed he already told her he would understand if she starts something & backed off, sort of like this morning.

She moved laying back on the bed her lower legs still dangling over she was replaying this morning in her head. Her eyes closed softly remembering how he felt, tasted & smelled like to her. The way he felt under her lips as he worked to control himself. The sounds that passed his lips & ripples to his skin as she licked his throat. She hardly noticed one of her hands gliding across her upper chest her own breath getting caught in her throat at the intoxicating image in her mind. She shook her self out of her daze sitting up. She couldn't afford that & what haunted her more was she was wondering if she was being turned on by him, or the controlling dominant factor of it. The thought that she was turned on by the dominant factor began to make her sick & she rushed to the bathroom before the illness over took her.

Punk opened the door to the apartment before grabbing the bags he had to sit down stepping inside & moving to the kitchen. "Jade?" he called out putting away anything perishable until she was ready to begin. He didn't hear her at first. He lifted his head as he shut the frig calling her again. It was this time he heard the coughing & went to check on her. She was sitting almost curled on the bathroom floor leaning on the toilet. Her skin was flushed from being ill. "When you think you done I'll help you up hun." her stomach turned again his tone so nice to her. She moved to try to block his view as she grew ill one more time. She managed to pull herself up. She went to wash her mouth & gargle before slowly stepping out past him unable to bring herself to look at him. He was puzzled watching her head into the bedroom. He followed after her just staying in the door way watching her fall back onto the bed. "Feeling better?"
"No." her tone almost flat again. He wondered what had changed.
"Was it cause I left?" He hoped she wasn't that dependent on him already.
"No…maybe it would be better if you did though."
He shook his head unsure if he heard her right. "If you are sick why would it be better for me to leave."
"It's not a physical illness." She sighed just starting up towards the ceiling.
"Then what?" He started to move closer to her.
"Phil don't." He stopped looking at her.

"Jade talk to me. What changed?"
"Me…I changed…I can't be healthy for you." He could hear sadness creeping into her otherwise empty tone.
"Why do you feel that way?"
"The way I am teasing you, treating you, trying to control you…I am no better then he is." her teeth almost clenched at that last bit.
"Why do you think you are no better then him?"
"Because…because the feeling of control…it felt so right…but…but it isn't" He watched her bring her hands to her face covering it.
"Jade…Jade…I allowed you to, I wanted you to. Trust me I so wish you were more comfortable doing more then you did, but I understand why you didn't."

"No you don't!" her voice muffled by her hand. She slowly removed them sitting up to look at him. He could read the sadness in her eyes. "Some sick twisted part of me loved the feel of controlling. You just laying there not doing anything unless I said so…your own words…'continue…or give me permission to get up.' Something about you giving yourself so freely…" She wrapped her arms around herself leaning forward lightly rocking herself. "It isn't right…I shouldn't feel this way." She just lightly mumbled to herself. He only watched her a few moments before walking over lowering to one knee & lightly grabbed her rocking shoulders her head quickly moved to look at him.

"Jade I do understand…he ripped that control from you…you just wish it back…trust me I don't mind giving it to you for now…in time maybe we can share it. For now though it is yours. Please don't punish yourself for how you feel. I don't blame you & you should not blame yourself. Please come here." He stood up trying to coax her to do the same & when she did he lightly wrapped his arms around her body allowing her to sink against him fresh tears coming from her feelings of guilt.