A/N~
Thank you, as always to my wonderful friend Butterfly Betty, for your support, encouragement and spell check!
This chapter contains talk about abusive relationships, infertility and pregnancy loss. Please do not read if this upsets you.
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Leading me to Comfort ~ Chapter 21.
BPOV.
Oh what that man did to me...with just a look, or a wink, never mind with a touch! That was going to be the problem, I craved him, I needed him, and I wanted him all the time, but now I had my period, so it would be a few days till I got me some of Edward's loving...
I watched him leave the room, completely caught up in my own thoughts until Rose coughed, alerting me to the fact she was standing watching me, laughing as I shook the lustful images out of my head.
"What?" I giggled, before groaning.
"What's wrong Sweetie?" She smirked.
"This was never a problem before." I admitted, "I was never with anyone before Edward."
I didn't look at Rose, we had become closer, but I had struggled to talk to Kate & Emily about personal things, let alone about sex. So a sex during your period conversation with Edward's all be it sister...was not going to be easy at all.
Rose sat down beside me after placing the box on the floor.
"I know, this whole relationship thing is new to you, and I know we didn't get off to the best start...But...I really like you Bella Swan, and I love Edward as a good friend, more like a little brother, so let's talk about this ok."
I nodded, smiled and sighed; Rose said it like it was. She was a great mother, a fantastic sister and I hoped in time, a good friend to me. "Edward has told you, that I was in an abusive relationship before I met Emmett?"
I nodded, "He hasn't said much but I knew about that."
Rose sighed, her hand moving over to find mine; I gently squeezed it, hoping to give her courage to say what she needed to tell me.
"Royce...he hit me, he never stopped when I said no to sex, he slept around, and he gave me an infection that messed up my insides, making having children difficult and my periods very heavy." Rose closed her eyes, as she struggled to continue.
"My children, they truly are my blessings, I am thankful for them every day. Doctors warned me, that my tubes were blocked and my uterus badly damaged, I have endometriosis as well...so each month my period screamed at me, telling me how I had failed again to get pregnant once more."
Tears were in both our eyes.
"Edward was so supportive with both Emmett and I, finding out all sorts of information for us. He held me when I cried and listened when Emmett cried. I always thought Alex would be our only child, we had some tests done, and I fell pregnant again, but lost the baby early on. It seemed like everything was falling apart. Edward helped Emmett and I find a way through it together.
He met Tanya, she never liked me, or the relationship I had with Edward. They came to visit, not long after they started dating, it was just a few months after the miscarriage. During the night...my period started, it was really heavy, and I thought I was having another miscarriage; I lost it completely then Bells. Emmett was away on business over night, I was covered in blood and screaming, Edward..."
Rose took a deep breath, reliving that night was causing her so much distress; I held her hand tighter in mine.
"He knew I was having period problems, I had been for a scan so we knew I wasn't pregnant, he tried to get Tanya to help me get cleaned up, but she said she didn't want to get all dirty..."
As my hand wiped away my tears, I wished so much pain on Tanya, so much that if I ever met her I would slap her hard.
"Edward took me into my bathroom, helped me undress, and he started the shower, and while I cleaned up he stripped my bed, got rid of the blood soaked clothing and brought me everything I needed. He dried my body; he wiped away my tears and dressed me in clean clothes."
We sat there in silence. "I know that sounds weird Bella, he is my brother in law, he has seen me naked and bleeding, and emotionally dying, but he just took care of me. Tanya, she was so jealous, she wanted to go home the next day, but Edward would not leave until Esme got there so I would not be all alone while Emmett was away." Rose was barely whispering now.
"I understand how she might have felt threatened in a new relationship; I would not be impressed if it was Emmett putting her in the shower, but..." Rose looked at me, her eyes full of sadness and grief.
"I understand Rose. You do not have to worry about me having any misconceptions about Edward and his behaviour."
Rose sighed, brushed the hair away from her face, and used her tissue to tidy up the mascara that had run with her tears.
"When I was unwell a few months later, it was Edward who insisted I take the pregnancy test, even though I was shouting at him that there was no way I was pregnant..."
Rose sniffed as I handed her another tissue. "I was telling him there was more chance he could make the test show positive if he pissed on the stick than if I did it!"
We both laughed before wiping our tears away. "Emmett was away again, Edward sat and held my hand and we waited for the result. Tanya came in and thought it was Edward who must have got me pregnant, she was furious."
I shook my head, I detested Tanya so much.
"Anyway..." Rose smiled, "I was pregnant, and it was a rough time, as you know Emmie wanted to come early, Edward almost had to deliver her, Tanya...was never 100% convinced that Emmie is Emmett's daughter."
I laughed, "You just have to look at her and you know she is Emmett's child!"
"I know right!" Rose snorted, "I mean its Alex they should worry about...he looks more Edward!"
I burst out laughing while mischief twinkled in Rose's eyes, pulling her into a hug, I shook my head and said "Well that makes me marrying Alex when he is older a whole lot more icky!"
"Bella Swan..." Rose hugged me back. "You are such an amazing woman, you are just what that man needs, and I want you to know we all love you so much already."
After talking some more about the children, Rose looked down and said she had some things for me that might be helpful.
"I had laser treatment on my uterus after Emmie was born, I don't have periods any more, they were just so bad, and I wanted a better quality of life with my family. But I remember how awful it was when I first started having periods in a new relationship. I told you all of my story so you would be able to relax knowing Edward would not freak out about a little blood, and to give you some stuff."
I opened the box to find all sorts of things that help deal with periods more easily, massage oil to help cramps, hot water bottle and more wheat bags to heat up, and flat pads to put under the sheets to protect the mattress.
"I used to keep all of these things here, for the times I stayed here with Edward." She explained.
"My bleeding has not really been that bad since I went on the pill, but I was worrying about the sheets and mattress, I get a bit weepy and some cramps more than anything."
"Well these should help you relax a bit." She nodded.
"Thank you Rose, and thank you for sharing with me."
"He is a good man, and he loves you so much, I never saw him look at Tanya like the way he looks at you Bella, not once."
I sighed, "He has never caused me to doubt that he loves me Rose, everything we have done, has been in my time and...well I am so horny right now it is killing me!" I admitted blushing so red I could feel my face on fire.
Rose started laughing and it was lovely to see after her heart breaking confession just a few moments ago.
"It is good for cramps...an orgasm or two." Rose pulled me into a hug and smoothed my hair away from my cheeks.
"He is going to look after you Sweetie." I blushed again as she laughed even louder, "I didn't mean like that...I don't want to know all the details...well not tonight! When we have a girlie night maybe..."
"Alice can't be in on that...he is her brother!" I shuddered and giggled. "When my friends Kate and Emily come to visit, we can have a girlie night and have more girl chat then!" I promised.
"I can't wait, the boys can baby sit, Alice and Esme can join us."
"I am not talking about sex with Edward's Mom and sister there!" I squealed. "Esme is more like a Mother to me than my own has ever been." I confessed.
"Me too Sweetie and she will love you forever now too." Rose nodded before she helped me sort the pads under the bed, putting them on both mine and Edward's side, and in the middle...laughing as I told her how we always ended up tangled up together on either side of the bed in the morning.
Edward knocked before walking into our room. He gave Rose a hug and came over to embrace me. I instantly felt better, in his arms, everything was always better. Rose wished us goodnight and we were alone.
"Let's get you into that bath my Darling." Edward whispered into my hair, I nodded and snuggled in closer.
"Will you join me Edward?"
"I would love to Honey." He lifted me up and carried me into the warm steamy bathroom.
"Do you need a moment?" he murmured.
I nodded blushing; knowing he knew what he was leaving me to attend to. I used the toilet, got rid of the protection and washed my hands. Nervously I stripped off until I was wearing nothing but my panties, bra and tank top. I stood there not sure if I should get in before Edward came back or not.
"If you don't want me to join you Honey, I won't be upset." Edward was behind me, his hands moved from my shoulders, down my arms before coming to wrap around me, his mouth brushing my ear as he whispered to me.
"I am trying to convince myself, that this is all ok, that it is just some blood and nothing to be embarrassed about." I admitted as Edward used his nose to caress my cheek.
"There is nothing to be embarrassed about; you are everything to me, every day of the month."
I let out a long slow breath.
"Trust me?" He asked with so much love in his voice.
"Always..." I promised as his lips softly touched the top of my head.
Edward's hands moved down and started to grasp the edge of my tank top. "Hands up baby..." He lifted the material slowly up my body, his fingertips skimming my skin, leaving a trail of goose bumps in its path. The material brushed over my bra covered breasts, rubbing against my hardening nipples, such a delicious sensation, I moaned in response.
Edward stepped back slightly as he removed the top over my head, my hair falling down and tickling my back as it fell.
His strong fingers worked through the strands, rubbing against my scalp before scooping it up as he lifted my hair up into a messy bun and tied it out of the way. "Not too tight?" he asked, his voice laced with concern, but edged with desire.
I slowly shook my head from side to side, still standing with my back against his hard body.
I could feel his breath on my neck, his lips moved against my skin as his thumbs moved down either side of my spine until they met the clasp on my bra, he didn't unfasten it, but moved his thumbs around, his fingertips following the length of my bra until his hands cupped my tender breasts.
"Are you sore Baby?" He hesitated before moving up to cup my breasts as I replied.
"No, just really sensitive..."
My whole body was on fire, my chest heaving with anticipation. Edward's fingers circled my nipples, carefully toying with the responding puckering they found. All too soon they retreated and his hands moved back along the material to my back, I didn't have time to ask him to return them back to my aching breasts, he undid the clasp and trailed back to encase my bust with his hands. His teeth carefully lifted each strap from my shoulder, his nose nudging it over my shoulders until he held the cups in place as the bra fell away from my body.
"You feel different, heavier, fuller...I always love your breasts Baby." He admitted, kissing my neck, tugging my ear lobe on one side before giving equal attention the other ear. I was gasping and he had not even removed my bra completely. Edward gently lifted the bra away from my breasts and threw it to the other side of the room. I giggled until his lips found my skin again.
I could feel him move across my back, sometimes soft hints of a kiss, then his open mouth lavished me with attention, my eyes closed I savoured the feeling.
I knew he was doing something behind me, but waited for Edward to return his hands to me, as he did I realized he had removed all his clothing! His naked skin moulded against mine, only my panties separated us now. His hard arousal rested against me, pushing back slightly, he groaned as I brushed against him.
"Are you ready Baby?" he asked as his fingertips touched the edge of my panties. My hands moved down to join his; I nodded as we both pushed my panties lower. Edward sank down behind me, his lips kissing along my spine as he removed the last item of clothing. He held my hips as I stepped out from them.
My eyes opened to find Edward had stood up and moved round to face me. His hand took mine as he led me over to the almost overflowing bath. I wasn't worried about it spilling over; the floor had a drain built into it, the shower drained right onto it like a wet room.
Edward checked the temperature, and then helped me step into it. I sat down, silently watching as Edward opened the door, letting the bedroom light in before switching off the bathroom light, softly illuminating the room. I could hear the music he had set playing quietly next door. I held my hand out to him, smiling he nodded and climbed in behind me.
Quietly I told him about my conversation with Rose, Edward tensed as I spoke about him helping her shower as she broke down finding the blood, thinking she was losing another pregnancy.
"It was such a hard time for them." Edward muttered.
"You made it easier for them both." I rested my cheek against his wet skin.
"I won't even say how pissed I was at that bitch's lack of compassion." I had decided she was not even worth saying her name at this point.
"I didn't have time to think about her, or her needs, I needed to focus on Rose and there was no one else to help her." It obviously hurt Edward to remember this painful time.
"I am so proud of you my Love."
He didn't respond verbally, he just kissed the back of my head and held me closer. We lay together, washing each other, soft kisses to one another's hands and finger tips as we cleansed away fears and hesitation. Edward got up, and offered me his hand again, reaching over to pull the plug as I sleepily stood up. A small trickle of blood ran down my leg but Edward lifted my face up so I looked into his eyes.
"I don't want you to feel uncomfortable with this Honey; it doesn't bother me, not in the slightest." I nodded at him, blushing but trying to relax about the whole situation.
He lifted me up and out of the bath to stand on a towel he had thrown on the floor. Tenderly he dried my body and helped me step into pair of panties, handing me a pad as I pulled them up to my thighs. Edward went to leave the room, but I caught his arm. "It's ok, just give me a moment." He grinned and nodded as he started drying his body while I popped the pad into place. Edward stood before me naked and semi aroused as he smoothed the sides of my panties at my hips. We cleaned up the bathroom, even though Edward had suggested we leave it till the morning, brushed our teeth and turned to leave the bathroom hand in hand.
Edward laid a huge towel on the centre of the bed. "This is not for you to sleep on...I have some massage oil that is good for your cramps." He looked into my eyes. "I love you Isabella."
"I love you too Edward, I love you more than I thought I could love anyone." I laid down on the towel, exposed and vulnerable, but with nothing but trust for this beautiful man.
"Lay on your side Honey."
I turned over, unsure of his request. Edward snuggled right in behind me, his hand on my hip, and his lips on my shoulder. He moved away for a moment before his hand moved back, now slick with oil and started moving around my hip again, his fingers spreading out like a fan as they moved across my abdomen circling my pelvis under my panties that he has pushed down slightly. I became more and relaxed as I inhaled the scent of the oils being massaged in a circular motion on my skin. My foot started moving against Edward strong muscular leg, I needed more from him, and I knew I needed to tell him it was ok for this to progress.
"More..."I gasped as his finger tips grazed the soft curls between my legs. Edward pushed my panties down a little further.
"Off..." I whispered. Edward moved down and pulled them away from me, I felt around to make sure the towel was still protecting the bed.
"Relax Sweetheart..." He murmured.
One of his arms was now underneath me, cupping my breast, his thumb circling my sensitive nipple, encouraging its elongation, before moving over to do the same with the other one.
"Bella..."
My hand was resting on my ribs; Edward moved it up to capture one of my breasts, his hand showing me he wanted me to stimulate my breast before he returned his hand back to the other one. I groaned and whimpered in delight at the duel attention, not embarrassed but aroused at his request, knowing he could see over my shoulder that I was doing as he desired. His hand lowered and lifted my leg slightly, leaving it to rest on his body. I felt him adjust as his erection move down between my legs, my slick arousal helping his hard throbbing member slide through my folds, causing me to buck against him as he started moving against my stretching motions. I was so turned on, was it possible I could come just like this?
Groaning as Edward parted my lower lips, he used his finger tips to tease my bundle of nerves, helping me, nudging me towards climax. "That's it baby..."
His voice, like melted chocolate..."For me..." He coaxed me a little more, I felt him hold me as close to him as he could, I cried out his name, and fell over the edge...panting as I tried to tell him how much I loved him.
EPOV.
I adored this woman in my arms, I wanted her to feel how much I loved her, desired her, all the time. As long as Bella was alright with us making love during her period then I was happy. If she did not want us to be intimate then I would have just held her close and rubbed some oils on her abdomen to sooth any cramps she had.
After stoking Bella as she came down from her orgasm, I moved back slightly, grabbing the condom I had laid behind me, I hoped catching my ejaculation in this would help Bella with less mess to contend with.
Not very romantic, but she was worried enough about the bleeding, having my sperm leaking from her would just add to her worries. I slid the offending rubber over my straining dick, knowing how good it felt skin to skin made the thought of this barrier less appealing, but it was on now, I snuggled back up against Bella and started kissing her, pulling her leg back up, opening her up to my dick that seemed to head home into her warmth.
Bella reacted to the sensation of the cold latex against her warmth. I started moving again, slipping back and for, coating myself in her moisture, "Are you ready for me Honey?" I whispered as I slid against her. Lifting her leg up just a little more, I nudged against her trying to position myself at her entrance, but felt her whole body tense up. "Baby...?"
"Edward..."Bella squeaked. "You are not shoving that huge cock of yours up my ass!" Her hand came back to slap on my hip as I fell back laughing at my Kitten turn into a Tiger! Bella never used language like that!
"What?" I tried to speak but could not get the words out.
"I said...you are not putting that up my ass." She glared at me, becoming more cross as I creased up laughing.
"Oh Bella...That's not what I was trying to do..." I spluttered...her hands were on my chest now that she had moved round, possibly hiding her backside from me.
"Then what were you trying to do and why do you have a condom on?" Bella asked confused and slightly anxious.
"I thought it would make you more comfortable afterwards, if you didn't have to deal with cleaning up my ejaculation." I muttered, suddenly feeling like a school boy caught doing something rude.
"Oh..." Bella's face blushing bright red, "Em...Thank you?" she giggled. "And you weren't trying to show my bum some love?" she started giggling even harder now.
I shook my head and pulled her into snuggle. "No, I really wasn't. I read that if I entered you from behind, it would jiggle your breasts less, and I could control how deep I went...the angle I was in, and well...it is meant to be less painful on you and less chance of knocking your cervix which is more sensitive..."
"Where did you read that?" Bella asked wide eyed.
"In a book Kate sent you..." I mumbled.
"Oh..."Bella nodded, lost in thought about what I had just told her.
"Have you ever, you know, done this before?"
"What...sex during a girl's period...or this position?" I asked her quietly.
"Either?"
"Nope, neither, so that's another first here for me too." Bella moved her hand up and pushed my hair away from my sweaty forehead.
"Do you want to try again?" Her top lip coming down to rub against her bottom lip, she was obviously still unsure about what we were doing.
"Do you want us to try again?"
Bella nodded, but did not look convinced.
"Are you sure sweetie?" This had to be something Bella wanted too. "Can we stop if it we don't like it?"
"Always...I never want you to do something you are not comfortable with."
Softest kisses between us, a slight nod of the head, then Bella turned back away from me and pushed her body against mine. The arousal that had left my groin quickly returned as she grazed her butt along my length. Bella looked back at me, her beautiful chocolate orbs looking straight into my very soul.
"I love you Edward." He lips curved into a beautiful smile, as she lifted her leg up and onto my thigh, offering herself to me. My hand came down to move my penis back into place, my hips moved and I nudged myself into her slick folds once more. I hesitated as I moved the tip into her entrance.
"Ooh..." Bella always loved the feeling as I first entered her.
"Uh huh..."I pushed forward, inch by inch I moved further inside her heat. This was a feeling I would never grow tired off...the connection, the union of our bodies...
"Oh...Edward..." Bella pushed back taking me all the way inside of her. "Don't stop...so good..."
I held still, captivated by the sensations of the moment, but Bella wanted more. As we moved together, finding the rhythm that we both needed, I felt more than ever that I could never live a day without this woman in my life. Bella's arm came up behind me and wrapped around my neck, I held one hand on her hip; the other snaked around to grasp her breast.
We moved together, our bodies knowing just what to do every time we were joined as one.
"Bella...can't hold on...almost...almost there..." I panted.
Bella moved her fingers down and pressed onto her clit, chanting my name over and over again. I was barely holding back, I didn't want to finish before her. She gripped on to my hair, clenched all around my penis before gasping out my name; I followed behind her, burying my face into her neck, shuddering as I climaxed.
We lay there together for a short while, before I got up on my shaky legs to get rid of the condom and clean myself up. There was very little blood on me, and a warm wash cloth soon tended to Bella.
I carried my sleepy beloved through to the bathroom with the towel wrapped around her lower half and after a few moments attending to her needs, Bella was ready to go back and snuggle down to sleep.