So for the first three weeks of her summer vacation Kagome was in the hospital, recovering from the damage that was done when Kikyou hit her over the head with the bat. The only reason that Kagome stayed there for three weeks besides running tests and doing surgeries on her skull which was fractured and a metal plate had to be put into her head from all the damage.
For the first couple of days, Kagome did nothing but sleep most of the time, or when she was awake she wasn't really there. She felt kind of trapped in her own dark litle world but, The doctor told her it was jus a normal reaction to the antibiotics in her system trying to correct the damge that was done. They also told her that she as luckey, onemore hit to the same area would have caused some brain damage or a hole in her skull which could have resulted in death.
Weirdly enough, Kagome didn't think of it as a near death experience but mearly a fluke that happened over a boy who, Kagome had been in love with all along. The boy she had for so long mistakened to love his brother and for so long, hated him . They were never really"friends" in elementary school and they were never really enemies. Almost like aquaintences that just somehow found eachother threw it all and fell in love. But,Something was missing,Kagome could feel it in her just waiting to burst out. They weren't boyfriend and girlf friend yet but that was something Kagome already figured out. He was to wrapped up in his dignity to even become her boy friend. Thats what tore Kagome apart durning her hospital visit. Some of the doctors thought she had gotten some brain damage because, of her day dreamy look on her face,written across it plainly. All the drugs she had been taking should have been out of her system by now but, each time they asked if she was okay, she replied the same thing.
"Oh of course doctor.I'm just thinking for the moment. Arigatou though."
The day,Kagome got out of the hospital, was a Wednesday.Not a friday, Not a Sunday. It was a Wednesday. One of Kagomes favorite times of the week. Not quite done the week, not quite begun. It was just,Wednesday. No one knew when Kagome got out of the hospital until she walked into the comforts of her own home and her family rejoiced around her. She saw all the happiness in her mothers eyes that reflected as Kagome walked threw the door. She saw all the happiness that mirrored back and tried to make her feel happy. Kagome wasn'ty. Her heart was breaking and she needed to do something about it before the pain, became any deeper.
She was up in her room now. A week since she had gotten back and she was listening to music.Deep, violant, Depresionate music that was searng her soul and baring it to the world. She wasn't listening to music because she was in the mood. She was desiding which songs to sing that night at open wired night at the "Wired Monk"(A/N: Yes Kim,Thats all I could think of. She would sing two songs from her heart and she had invited all her friends to come. Leaving 50 messages to Inuyasha for him to come. This would be the final moment they would share together before Kagome closed the book on him, shutting him out. It's what he deserved and what was driving her mad. For her reasons,Kagome could not look him in the eye anymore knowing that this man before her would never be brutally honest with the world and tell everyone she was his and his only. Insted ,he chose to ignore it all together and now,He was going to get all the pain that was coming to him. She would ignore him from this point on after her preformance.She would walk by him without a care and pretend nothing was wrong.
The phone rang, ringing her ear drumbs but she ignored it. now would not be the time. She fixed up her matted hair that clung to her face from crying from all the pain deep inside her. She wiped her face clean of all teh salty residue that lingered and waited for her eyes to stop being so puffy before putting on a light blue powder on her eyelids and a darker shade above it to make her eyes stand out. A thin layer of maskara was applied before she took a dark blue pencil to her eyes. Making a point on the side of each eye. There was a thin pencil line under her eyes to make her eyes pop. Just that little hint made her smile and she was glad for it. So far she was doing a good job of looking like she was just going out for a night on teh town, not truly showing how the pain inside her was slowly taking her sanity as well as her will to live.She knew she would get over it, but, for now, no.
She slipped on a white tank top shirt that had a stretchy cord halfway threw that tightened under her breasts to make them look bigger before it hang loose over her flat stomach. There was a lace trim around the shirt that made the shirt look elegant as well as casual. There was a v-neak line in the shirt that caused her midrift to be exposed.
Her pants were a navy blue that was tight at teh bace of the pants but then frayed out and fanned over her legs. There were zippers everywhere on the pants. Some were pockets ,some were just do-dads but there was two zippers up the side of her pants that she un zipped so the pant legs flapped about caresly as she walked.
"Perfect," Kagome whispered to herself as tears threatened to fall over her new make up. She quickley held them back and let out a breath of fresh air. This would be her goodbye outfit.She knew this was it.No turning back now.
As she headed for the door in her black high healed shoes, Kagome looked over her shoulder at the empty house where her mother ,brother and grandpa would not say goodbye to her. She would welcoe a new life the next time she stepped in threw the door. A new life without Inuyasha or her love.Just a clean slate. With that, Kagome closed the door.
Inuyasha was sitting in the chairs around the table that was closest to the stage as possible. He was nearly asleep as all the preformers annoyied him. He laughed once at the comidian(sp?) named "Kim" before slouching in his chair litterally almost asleep. Thats when he heard them announce Kagome's name. His sences shot up and quickley he sat up, waiting with anticipation. Inuyasha knew that after this night, nothing would be the same for her was going to ask her to be his girl friend after her prefomance. He had wanted to ask her for sometime but just could never bring himself to.Now was his only chance. He clapped as Kagome walked on stage and sat with his mouth open and his throat dry. She looked so beautiful too him...No, she was beautiful.
He heard her giggle into the microphone and he could only smile. Sorry to say that would be the only smile he would smile for the rest of the night.
Kagome's face hang low as she had one hand on the mic. stand and the other on the mic its self. Her mouth was close to the mic as her eyes closed.The music began. This was it. No turning back.No backing away. No more being afraid of baring her soul.
Baby join me in death We are so young
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
our lives have just begun
but already we're considering
escape from this world
Kagome's eyes fluttered open as she looked around, the background singers making her words lash out. Cutting Inuyasha like a hot knife that was cutting butter. Smothering it across the ground and leaving it to melt out in the sun.
Inuyasha's mouth was still open but for entirley different reason. What was Kagome doing? Didn't she love him? Didn't she want to be with him? If so ,why was she killing him now with her song. He loved this song but now, it held more meaning. More sadness then it had before. She brought one hand up to her hair and pulled her hair over her ear , only to let it fall over her ear once more. Her hoop earrings, cling to her hair as sweat ran down her face from singing.
and we've waited for so long Won't you die tonight for love This world is a cruel place
for this moment to come
we're so anxious to be together
together in death
Baby join me in death
Won't you die
Baby join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
and we're here only to lose
so before life tears us apart let
death bless me with you
People cheered her on but Kagome bit her lip to hold back the tears thretening to fall down her face. She wasn't sure how much more she could take. This would be her only song. Screw the next song,Her soul already was regreting what she was doing.
Inuyasha actually felt tears stinging his eyes but he fought them back ,He knew this was goodbye and this was what hurt him the most. He would never be with her. He prayed this was dream but he knew it was reality, It would kill him.He knew it. This was the end of his life.
Kagome brought her hand arm back and then straight up as it punched the air before it fell to her side as she grabbed the mic from the stand and sang out the chorus loud and clear with all her heart, leaning back as she did so before standing straight up again.
Won't you die tonight for love this life ain't worth living
Baby join me in death
Won't you die
Baby join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
this life ain't worth living
this life ain't worth living
this life ain't worth living
Sango slapped her head and shot death glares at Kagome. Sango knew how much Kagome met to Inuyasha and now she was ruining it. Sitting at the same table as Inuyasha she saw the expression washing over his face.Pain, anguish and sadness all becoming one. She knew Inuyasha almost as well as Miroku and could tell that the feelings he was experiencing were as violant as an atomic bomb. If they go off, She knew he would do something.She didn't know what but she knew something would. Threw the cheering, Sango whispered to Kagome to stop it and to just shut up. Kagome never heard it.
Tears started flowing down Kagome's face as she looked into the light, choking back her sobs to not disterb her voice like nothing was wrong. She brought back her head and then foreward again, flicking her hair over her shoulder and getting a pleased reaction from the audiance. She smiled for an instant and looked at everyone threw the lights.Thats when she noticed Inuyasha. She could see him breaking. Her voice was stong but she knew she ws gonna break down if she kept looking at him.Quickley she looked away.
Won't you die tonight for love Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Won't you die
Baby join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Kagome bowed and walked off stage. Her heart broken and shattered infront of her. With that, she started crying backstage, not loudly, nore quiet. She say in the darkness feeling her body, tense up.
"What have I done?" She whispered, burrying her head in her arms.
A/N: SOOOOOO It's longer! Yey! Exactally an hour of non-stop writing Xx wow I wrote that much.Anyway. The song is done by H.I.M. and its called Join my in death. Goth music for yah! I've been wanting to do this type of chapter for a while but GOD! ITS SO LONG! dies anyway, please review and remember, I don't own Inuyasha!REVIEW PLLEEEAAASSEEE!