Entwined – Secrets
Warnings: Strong language, lemon (sexy times)
A/N: I'm so sorry about the long time. But now I have a job, and I can only write in the weekends. Still, expect more updates for Entwined. Only about 10 more chapters and it ends. I intend to end it this year, so please bear with me, and my stupid random updates.^^'
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Chapter 20 - Powerless
Kira
The Garganta opened in broad daylight. The sky was blue, and the sun was strong, almost burning. From its position it was certain it was about noon. Izuru's blue eyes weren't adjusted to the light anymore and it was hard to see anything.
He was regretting now, not asking Grimmjow Jaergerjaquez to send him to somewhere familiar in the Human world. But it didn't matter because Izuru only needed to open a Senkaimon and go straight to Soul Society, that is, if the Senkaimon worked again.
But something stopped him. Not something, but someone. A girl who was in front of him with grocery bags in her arms. He knew that girl, and the girl recognized him because she was shocked watching him.
"Ururu-chan," he said, and the girl almost let the bags fall.
"K-Kira-san," she replied shyly, and her eyes slowly moved to his arms covered in blood. He also looked down, and noticed he still had the Espada's blood in him. And then he realized something else, he was only wearing the white hakama, and he wasn't exactly clean. He couldn't go to Soul Society looking like that. What if they tested the blood in his hands and arms and discovered it was from the Espada? What if they discovered Izuru healed one of the strongest Espada?
"It's not my blood. Don't worry," he assured the girl. "Can you take me to Urahara shoten, please?"
The girl stared at him for a few seconds, but nodded.
The store wasn't far away. In fact, it was very close, so close Izuru wondered if Grimmjow did it on purpose.
Once he arrived, he noticed something was off. Tessai and Jinta were searching and analyzing every bit of the entrance exhaustively with strange devices. The redheaded boy sensed Ururu's arrival.
"Finally, what took you so long? You need to hel..." his voice silenced when he saw the blond Fukutaichou.
Urahara was the only one who didn't look surprised that Izuru arrived. He offered food, tea and a clean shihakushou; he also offered him to rest, but Izuru was too anxious for that, so instead Urahara took him to his laboratory.
"I can't believe it's been two months," Izuru said. He knew he was away for a while, but two months? That was so much time...
"It's easy to get lost in time in Hueco Mundo. The desert can play tricks on you, and the night sky doesn't help either," Urahara replied.
"No one is here anymore, and no one went after me..."
The shop keeper sighed and scratched his chin. "Well, things aren't exactly good for you. It's a matter of time before Seireitei notices you are here and send someone to get you."
Things weren't exactly good for him? What did that mean?
"Some people speculate that you may be part of this new menace, and they may not believe anything you'll say. I may be able to help you, but for that you need to tell me everything that happened in these past two months."
It hurt. It really hurt that Seireitei didn't send anyone to rescue him, that the Gotei 13 thought he was part of the Negativa, that Shuuhei didn't go after him. When did he ever showed any reason for others not to trust him? Maybe that time when he attacked Hinamori? But he was protecting his Taichou, that was a normal response to the situation. So why wasn't he trustworthy? Regardless the answer he told everything to Urahara, except some parts of Ichimaru's video, he didn't dare to tell any other soul that Ichimaru apologized to him or that wanted to make him King of Hueco Mundo. How silly that would sound... And he didn't tell about Grimmjow and the other Espada either. That could bring him a lot of trouble, and who would believe 'But he was actually a good person that helped me!' after watching the horrific bite scar in Izuru's neck? Thankfully Urahara didn't ask him about the Garganta or how he came back.
"So they are after Matsumoto-san's baby. That may give us some time..." the former Taichou talked thoughtfully. "That will make the only reiatsu they need. Somehow, they were able to steal Yoruichi's reiatsu sample, and they were able to take Hisagi-san's reiatsu too."
Izuru's head perked when he heard his lover's name. "Hisagi-san?"
"Yes, we deduce he's wrath. After seeing you injured, he was very angry and started seeing the enemy and fought them. They were winning, and Hisagi-san was badly injured until some friendly visitors joined the battle, scared the enemy away and healed the wounded. By that time you were missing."
Shuuhei was wrath?
"For their power to work, the seven sinners need to be connected, they need to be entwined with each other."
He was definitely connected to Shuuhei... at least he hoped so. Two months were a long time. He was only with Shuuhei as a lover for two days. What if in these two months, Shuuhei changed his mind? What if he believed Izuru was a traitor?
"Kira-san, if what the Negativa told you it's correct, then there is a chance they will attack Soul Society. You can use that to defend your case to Soutaichou. Tell them everything you told me. You have nothing to hide, am I correct?"
Both blonds shared a look that made Izuru feel guilty, but he replied what he needed to reply.
"You are correct, Urahara-san."
No one would ever know about Grimmjow or about the end of that video. No one. This would go to his grave with him, joining his greatest secret.
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In that same day, Urahara contacted Soul Society, and Izuru went to Seireitei.
When he stepped outside the Senkaimon, part of him felt like doing something silly like laughing or jumping of relief. He missed it so much. The shiny sun that looked so perfect in the sky – much more than in the human world-, the characteristic smell that only Seireitei had, the vibrating reiatsu echoing in his body, despite all the Sekkiseki trying to negate it so resolutely. Izuru was always sensitive, and could always feel the little amounts of reiatsu flowing inside those blocking walls. He tried to sense Shuuhei's reiatsu, but it was in vain.
Outside the Senkaimon there were members of the Second Squad including a couple of men from the Onmitsukidou, and of course the Taichou of the Second Division was there herself, all waiting for him.
They were not harmful or aggressive. Soi Fon-Taichou told it was the procedure and they took Wabisuke from Izuru, put him reishi blocking handcuffs, and then took him to one of the interrogation rooms in the First Division barracks.
Izuru sat there in silence for a while, waiting for someone to come and ask questions. Despite of Soi Fon-Taichou not being mean, she was still very intimidating and frankly... she scared the hell out of Izuru.
By now, everyone should have known he was back. Did Shuuhei also knew? Was he mad or happy? Was he outside these walls desperately trying to reach Izuru?
He wished he could see him at least once. It could be from far away. Just a small glance. That's all he asked for...
The door opened and Soi Fon entered alone. She had her severe features on, but her voice was unusually neutral.
"Kira-Fukutaichou, do you understand why you are here?"
Izuru swallowed dry, and nodded. "Yes, because I came from Hueco Mundo."
She glared him for a while, reading him as if she could see inside his mind.
"Did you return to Soul Society willingly?"
What? Of course he did! Why wouldn't he want to come home willingly?
"Yes."
"Did you went to Hueco Mundo willingly?"
Izuru's eyes widened. This was the part where they were telling they didn't trust him.
"No. I was injured and unconscious. When I woke up I was there."
"Who took you there?"
"One of the Negativa, I believe it's their leader."
"And he healed you?"
"Yes."
Soi Fon's eyes never left him, not even once.
"Why?" she asked. "Why taking you?"
"They needed me."
Soi Fon narrowed her eyes. "For what?"
Izuru looked down. He didn't want to tell about the video, but part of its content was what could clear him.
"They needed me to decode a password from a video that Ichimaru Gin left them."
The small Taichou's silence instructed him to continue.
"The video has the instructions for their abilities to work."
"Did you know the password?"
"No."
"Did you decode it?"
A small pause and Izuru answered. "Yes."
Instead of bursts of rage and anger and 'How could you help the enemy?' Soi Fon continued her questioning about his involvement.
"Why you?"
"Because the password was about me."
"Did you decode it willingly? Or did they made you do it?"
Another small pause. "Both. They told me they would let me return if I did it. Also, I knew that if I had access to the video I could understand how to defeat them."
"Did you?"
"Yes."
Soi Fon sighed and looked at the closed-door, taking her eyes from Izuru for the first time.
"Alright, come with me."
"W-where?"
"To speak with Yamamoto-Soutaichou. If I were you, I would tell the truth even if you betrayed us."
He was insulted in an old-fashioned way. Being accused of betrayal was the worst thing that someone could do to him. He followed Soi Fon to Soutaichou's meeting room. Outside, Omaeda-Fukutaichou was waiting looking bored until he saw Soi Fon and Izuru. He raised a suspicious eyebrow at the blond. Great, now Omaeda was looking down at him...
"Omaeda, I told you to get out. I don't need you, go die somewhere far away," Soi Fon harshly spoke.
"So cruel, Taichou! I just came to see if you need any help."
"Do I look like I need your fat ass help? Leave now, your presence bothers me."
"Alright! Alright! I'll go!" he said, but not without giving another disgusting look towards Izuru. Soi Fon waved her head at the guards at the door, and they opened the two doors leading to meeting room. Izuru followed the small woman inside, and the doors were shut behind him with a loud noise, startling him.
He kept walking further, and was surprised when he noticed that there were more people in the room besides Soutaichou. Sasakibe was there, and so were Unohana-Taichou, Ukitake, Kyouraku, and Kurotsuchi. The presence of these first three Taichous made Izuru feel a little bit safer. He knew Ukitake was a kind man, and he knew Unohana was a fair person, she wouldn't allow anything that he didn't deserve. But there was someone else there too, that he didn't expect: Shihoin Yoruichi. And he felt even safer, because among the long faces she gave him a small smile.
"Kira-Fukutaichou," the husky old voice of Soutaichou echoed in the room. "It is costumed for someone in your current position to be ruthlessly interrogated and face trial before the Central 46."
Trial? Izuru's heart sunk. Why? He was accused of betrayal, but he didn't have an opportunity to expl-
"However," Soutaichou continued. "Yoruichi pleaded for you and Urahara made me believe it was worth to give you a chance to tell us everything, before I make any decision. What do you have to say?"
The blond stared wide-eyed at the old man. This was too vague. He rathered have others asking him questions.
"I..." he looked at the other Taichous, and then looked down nervously.
He remembered when Ichimaru told him that Hueco Mundo was his. Maybe it was the greedy side of him that was being so futile now. But if he was the King of Hueco Mundo, no one would interrogate him or jump to conclusions and accuse him of things he didn't do.
"I'm sorry and this time I'll say goodbye, 'cause this time I can finally tell ya that I..."
"... that I..."
Izuru closed his eyes and sighed, gaining some inner strength that he didn't know he had.
"I know that you've been told that I'm involved with the Negativa and Aizen, but that's not true. I never was and I will never be. I was badly injured and taken to Las Noches by the leader of the Negativa. He healed me and told me who he was and what he wanted. He and his brothers told me that they wanted to become Human again, and that they could do it if they gathered the reiatsu of seven people with seven different traits - the seven deadly sins."
"Ridiculous, bringing back dead to life is impossible," Kurotsuchi said. Unohana intervened, though. "I disagree, according to what was said before, they mentioned they were Human."
"Humans with broken Hollow masks? Maybe your concept of Human has become too vast with all the healing you're doing."
"There's nothing wrong with healing, Kurotsuchi-Taichou," Unohana responded.
"There is when you heal the enemy. Or maybe I have to remind you what you did in Hueco Mundo?" Kurotsuchi told Unohana. Kira gulped at that.
"Enough, let Kira-Fukutaichou explain," Ukitake-Taichou said.
"They are not Human. They were Hollows turned into Arrancar by Aizen. But the consumption of those special reiatsu will make them human. Personally, I think that the Human talk was only to gather our sympathy. They are liars and manipulative. They just wanted my help to decode a video, with Ichimaru's instructions for their ability to work."
"Ichimaru's? But wasn't he in our side at the end?"
"I don't know. Maybe. The Negativa told me that Aizen abandoned them when he found out that they had no use unless they gathered seven perfect reiatsus, in which the owners emotionally entwined with each other. Aizen though it was impossible such a thing, but Ichimaru saved the Negativa, and believed that he could make their power work. The Negativa belonged to Ichimaru not Aizen."
"Then why would they want to hurt us now?" Yoruichi asked. "If they were Ichimaru's, they would stay by our side."
"Maybe they truly want to become Human. Kira-Fukutaichou you said they needed their ability to become Human, what is this ability?" Unohana asked.
"If they succeed, the ability is to resurrect or kill anyone they wish. They just need to want it, and it'll happen."
"Resurrect? Then could they bring themselves to life?" Kyouraku asked.
"If they can kill anyone just by wanting it, that will be the end of everything we know. We need to stop them before they can do it," Ukitake spoke.
"Was there more information you gathered from the video?"
They thought what Grimmjow said to him was from the video? Okay, Izuru could work with that.
"Yes. They are after Matsumoto-Fukutaichou's child. The child is sloth, the only reiatsu left."
"We need to put the 10th Division under protection."
"I doubt," Soutaichou spoke, "that they'll be able to enter Seireitei. Since the Ryoka invasion, the defenses are reinforced."
"They were able to infiltrate and steal my reiatsu from Urahara's place. And that is possibly the safest house I know. We cannot underestimate them."
"I agree." Ukitake said. "It is best to guarantee the 10th Division's Fukutaichou safety."
"Kira-Fukutaichou," Soi Fon spoke at his side. "You told me you have found a way to defeat them. Tell us."
Everyone's attention was directed to him with high expectations. It was making him very nervous.
"There is only one way to defeat them. It's to cut the connection between one of the seven sinners. If they lose one link, then the rest won't work."
"Cut the connection?"
"According to Kisuke, he says the sinners have the same type of emotional breakdown. Maybe if that emotional disruption is not related to the others then it can cut the link," Yoruichi said. "Am I right, Kira?"
"Yes."
"Kurotsuchi you'll find a way to cut this connection. In the mean time Matsumoto-Fukutaichou will be under strong protection." Soutaichou said. "Kira-Fukutaichou your fate will be discussed by us. We'll decide in private if you are going to face trial. Do you have any last words as your defense?"
Izuru looked down. He couldn't face trial, he just couldn't... he wanted to see Shuuhei, and wanted to be with him so much...
"Yes. First, I wanted to say that I believe that the Negativa may try to come here for other reasons than Matsumoto-san's baby. I saw in Ichimaru's video, that they will need a host. I have no idea who. But I think it is a Shinigami.
"And secondly... I want to say that being in the Gotei 13 is everything to me. It's my life and my purpose is to serve it, and I would never betray my companions or my Division. My men count on me and I would never let them down. Never."
There was a small silence before Yamamoto-Soutaichou spoke, "Very well, you'll be taken to a cell while we discuss your future."
Izuru felt a bit disappointed. A cell? It was a bad omen, like he was already doomed to be in prison.
He was taken to a cell by Soi Fon. He was locked and then he watched her leave until she stopped and turned her head. "Kira-Fukutaichou, you are lucky that Yoruichi-sama pleaded for you. You should be grateful to her."
"Y-yes, I am."
And she left. So that was why Soi Fon wasn't as mean as she usually was. He was glad that Yoruichi was defending him, but he was scared that it wouldn't do anything and that they would send him to the Nest of Maggots. What if he would go to prison and could never see Shuuhei again?
"Kira?!"
He heard his name being called from the ventilation inside his cell, he went there shocked and with his heart pounding.
"Abarai-kun?"
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Shuuhei
She ran through the quickest paths she knew, she ran fast like she did every time she woke up late, she ran jumping over rooftops, small ponds and sometimes over people, excusing herself loudly as she kept running to not waste time. She ran because she had to, she was excited and anxious.
The sign of the Ninth Squad was in her sight and as soon as she entered the barracks she took her waraji off in an amazing speed. She reached the door she wanted, and knocked loudly and eagerly.
Shuuhei's head moved to the door and he frowned. He couldn't stand if it was Kuna again, she would bother him senseless and the last thing he wanted was to be annoyed to death.
"Come in."
The door opened wide, and there stood Hinamori panting hard. She had run a lot. Her expression was of surprise and shock at the same time.
"Hinamori-kun..."
"I-I just spoke to Omaeda-san and he told..." she panted hard. "Kira-kun is back!"
An arrow hit him right in the heart.
"What?..."
"He's back! Hisagi-san, he returned!"
"Where is he?" he needed to go see him, right now. Leg bound, or no leg bound, he didn't care he needed to go wherever his lover was!
"He's at the First, he's being interrogated."
Shuuhei wasn't surprised about that, but he only knew one thing. He wasn't going to stay here, while Izuru was back. There was no fucking way.
He stormed out of his office, and hoped Muguruma-Taichou would be the reasonable man he always thought he was.
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Kira
"House arrest?" Izuru asked leaning against the ventilation shaft. Abarai was in another cell, and they could hear and talk through the ventilation system. He had no idea that Shuuhei and Abarai didn't go after him because they were both arrested. Part of him hated himself for thinking for a second they didn't care about him...
"Yeah, he's been really down. We were so worried, Kira."
"I'm sorry Abarai-kun. I'm sorry for the whole mess. Because of me you are here..."
"It's not your fault, I'm here because of my own stupidity. I'm really glad you are back."
"Me too..."
The door to the room opened and Unohana appeared. A guard that was with her, walked further into the room and unlocked the cell, he had Wabisuke in his hands.
"Kira-Fukutaichou, it was decided that you were in Hueco Mundo unwillingly and that it was not your fault. You're free to go, but I would like you to come with me to the Forth, just to make sure those wounds are properly healed."
He put his hand on his neck pressing where the bite mark was. He had healed it in Hueco Mundo, but just the wound, not the scar. Only when he went to Urahara's he saw the size and ugliness of the scar.
"Alright," he agreed, but before going he spoke into the ventilation shaft. "Abarai-kun I will do everything I can to make them release you."
"Don't worry about me Kira. Just go rest and go see Hisagi, he misses you like crazy."
He melted at those words. He wanted to see Shuuhei too. He missed him so, so much. He couldn't stand it anymore.
Unohana didn't say anything, but Izuru knew that expression well. She was once his Taichou after all... She wanted him to go to the Forth first, and there was nothing in this world that would make her change her mind.
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Shuuhei
Muguruma Kensei could be one of the coolest guys in Soul Society, but he could also be one of the most difficult to deal with.
Shuuhei stood there in the office waiting for an answer from his childhood idol, who was thinking through what he had just said to him.
"So... Muguruma-Taichou can I go? It's not like I will escape to go after him again. He's here so..."
He had no idea what else to say. It had passed almost two hours since he heard the news and he was still in this damn place! Izuru was back, and because of some minor shitty bureaucratic stuff he couldn't go see his lover.
"It's your punishment. I can't do anything about it. You destroyed First Division property. You reap what you sow."
Shit, Shuuhei hated that expression the most.
"It wasn't my fault. I mean, it was, but I was mad that no one wanted to rescue my bo... my friend. Now my head is clear. I won't do anything reckless again."
At that moment, the phone rang. Muguruma ignored for a while until the ringing became too annoying.
"What?!" he yelled at the phone. Then his expression changed. "Really?... Alright... Talk to him tomorrow... Huh? How do I know that?... Just leave him alone, and talk to him tomorrow..." His eyes lied on Shuuhei. "I'll send you an annoying brat to take care of yours. Cya."
He hung up.
"Your friend is on the Third, you can go there-"
"Thank you so much Taichou!" Shuuhei bowed and left without letting the other finish. When he was almost at the entrance of the Squad he stopped. Fuck... he forgot... He returned to his Taichou's office. The older man was leaning against his desk with his arms crossed with a condescending look on his face, waiting.
"I'm sorry Taichou... Hmm, can you take off the Bakudou of my leg?"
Muguruma rolled his eyes. Yeah, this man wasn't the nicest, but he was still his idol.
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Kira
Unohana-Taichou insisted in having two of her squad members take Izuru to the Third. He tried to ditch them, but they insisted in taking him home. Izuru knew they were afraid of not following Unohana's orders. He couldn't blame them, he would feel the same.
At the Forth, Unohana made a quick check-up and found nothing wrong with him. Except the way both his scars were healed. The one on his neck for its aesthetic and the one on his chest for no reason she wanted to mention. But it couldn't be serious or she wouldn't let him go home.
As Izuru arrived at the Third, the first person he saw was the one he hoped for. It was Third seat Togakushi. The man carried paperwork paying no attention to where he was going. But once he noticed someone was in front of me, he stopped on his tracks, and for the second time that day, someone almost let the things they carried in their arms fall when they recognized him.
"Kira-Fukutaichou!" Togakushi bowed deeply with an expression of pure contentment. Izuru felt warm inside. The long-haired man walked further towards him. "I'm so glad you are back!"
"Kira-Fukutaichou!"
"Fukutaichou?!"
Several of his men appeared and went to greet him, they all seemed to be happy with his return. This was amazing. They didn't forget about him, neither they thought he was a traitor.
"We knew you would come back!"
"Of course, I came back. I wouldn't leave the Third for anything."
More Shinigami greeted him with kind welcomes and excitement. Izuru send the two guards away. He was safe in his Squad, and it was pretty obvious he was well received and he was in good hands.
"Fukutaichou, we're so relieved you are back. The new Taichou is..."
"New Taichou?" In that moment all the fuzzy warm feelings inside dissipated. This was one of those times when you feel your world crumbling down in one second.
Togakushi, being the smart man he was caught the glint of confusion in Izuru's face. He silenced the other members, and asked Izuru, "Didn't anyone told you about Otoribashi-Taichou?"
Otoribashi? Where did he heard that before?
"No... We have a new Taichou?"
The members looked wary at each other, as if they were sharing the same thoughts.
"Yes, and he's kind of weird... We need your help Kira-Fukutaichou."
"I need to go meet him."
"NO!" there was a collective answer, which scared Izuru for a second.
"Otoribashi-Taichou is a bit peculiar. He's now in what he calls the dead time, where he supposedly needs to stay in silent to gather inspiration."
"Inspiration? Inspiration for what?"
"Everything. Anyway, we are forbidden to disturb him in his dead time. It should end in three hours."
Three hours? What the... But... Huh? What the heck was going on? Why all the mentally weird Taichous came to his Division? Were they doomed? Who was next? Kurotsuchi-Taichou?
"I don't understand. What if you need help? He can't make... breaks like that."
"When we need help we go to Third Seat Togakushi."
"He also turned the common area into a musical studio!"
"And every Monday we have art classes!"
"And he changed the whole Taichou office!"
"What?" Izuru reacted at this last one. "He changed the office? What about the Taichou quarters?" He couldn't believe this... Not even Amagai-Taichou went to Ichimaru's former home.
"We had no idea what to do with Ichimaru-Taichou's things, so I took the liberty to send them to your house, for you to decide what you want to do," Togakushi said. Everyone looked down. Despite everything, Ichimaru was a well-loved Taichou. Everyone at the Third liked him, although no one outside understood why. Izuru wished he could tell them that Ichimaru apologized...
"You need to do something, we can't work properly, and the Division's budget is already gone!"
"Other Divisions are moving forward. We are ranked last again! Even the Forth is better than us!"
Oh God... Two months gone, and the whole Division is falling apart. But Izuru still felt happy, because they were all counting on him to save them.
"Alright, alright. Let Kira-Fukutaichou go home and rest. Tomorrow, we'll deal with this," Togakushi said.
"I promise I will handle this, but first I should go meet the new Taichou."
"You can meet him tomorrow. We'll take care of everything, don't worry. Go rest, you look tired Fukutaichou."
"Thank you."
The third seat took him to the front of his house.
"Kira-Fukutaichou," he said before leaving. "I just wanted to say, that we are really glad you are alright. No matter what, for us, you will always be our true leader."
The blond didn't know how to answer. This was beyond any possible word. This was full realization. And he felt so important, his heart ached. He watched the other man leave, and turned to unlock his door.
He finally entered inside his house, closing the door behind. He was tired, confused and drained.
At the entrance there were some boxes. Definitely, they were the ones that contained Ichimaru's belongings, that he never dared to search through before.
Suddenly a heavy fatigue ran through his body. His mind was heavy and all he could think of was that even if his Division members were happy to see him, nothing really mattered when he had not seen Shuuhei. He wished he wasn't escorted by those two guards, he really wanted to go see him. So much was going on that he didn't even know how to process everything. Negativa, Aizen, Ichimaru, being a traitor, not being a traitor, new Taichou, new possibly bad Taichou, getting asked for help, Abarai in prison, Shuuhei arrested... This was all too much. He fell on his knees sitting on the floor. And... it was all full of dust and dirty... He was so tired... Maybe he could just fall asleep in that spot... but he wanted to see Shuuhei so badly, he missed him so much. He could barely remember his face. He could see the scars, the tattoo, but the eyes... the nose, the mouth... He couldn't see them all together.
A loud knock at the door made him jump startled. The knock was strong, almost piercing a hole through it. Izuru slowly got up, feeling his legs trembling weakly. The door kept being knocked strongly and Izuru opened it wide to see who was knocking so urgently and he froze looking at the person who was looking as shocked at him.
Nose, mouth, eyes, tattoo, scars, everything together. Izuru forgot to breathe as he assimilated Shuuhei's appearance.
So much time passed since he last saw him, so many days and nights wanting to see him, and now that he was seeing him, he couldn't move... But that was okay, Shuuhei got out of his stunned state and grabbed him and hugged him tightly against his chest. In that moment Izuru breathed again deeply, taking in the smell of his lover and for the first time since he returned he felt like crying. They stayed like that for minutes. No words said, no need to move. It was heaven, and both knew how close they were to never feel it again.
Slowly Shuuhei moved, never breaking apart, he carefully grabbed Izuru's head so they faced each other. Blue and grey eyes met, and Izuru shook against Shuuhei's body.
He felt his eyes welling, and his lips trembling.
"I-I was waiting for you," his voice cracked. Shuuhei held his breath. "Everyday... I was waiting." Shuuhei leaned his forehead against his, the tears started falling in Izuru's pale cheeks.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." his lover's voice was barely audible, but Shuuhei kept apologizing. Izuru knew it wasn't Shuuhei's fault that no one went after him, he knew that he had tried, but he couldn't help but telling him these selfish things. He was a very selfish person.
The tears kept falling, but in his idiotic way Izuru was happy that Shuuhei wasn't mad at him or thought that he was a traitor.
He didn't remember when Shuuhei pulled them both inside the house, or when the door was closed, or when they slid against it and sat on the floor on each others arms. But he remembered when he felt Shuuhei's lips. As if they were kissing for the first time in their lives, and for Izuru it was normal he felt that way. It was the first time they kissed in Soul Society and in his house. But it was also something more, it was like this kiss was the first of the beginning of the ending of their lives. Maybe it was, Izuru wished it would be.
Shuuhei's tongue slowly danced with his, and pale hands tugged his clothes pulling him even closer. This was reality. Izuru and Shuuhei were finally together; they accomplished something big by surviving these two past months and now... now Izuru couldn't think of anything else. Just Shuuhei and his beautiful mouth and wonderful taste.
His lover stopped the kiss and stared at his eyes. "I was going after you."
"I know."
"I didn't give up."
"I know."
"I-"
"I know." Izuru hugged him, burying his face in Shuuhei's neck. He knew. He knew Shuuhei would go after him, deep down inside he knew, even with the little doubts trying to corrupt his mind and heart, he knew...
Blue eyes started shutting down, and the smell was amazing. He was finally home and he was safe.
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Izuru woke up against something warm that smelled really well. The perfect smell. He nuzzled against it and slowly opened his eyes, as he felt a hand caressing his hair. He looked up and saw Shuuhei gently smiling at him. They were lying in Izuru's bed.
"Hi," Shuuhei said.
"Hi," he replied, he couldn't take his eyes from the brunet. This was so surreal. Shuuhei here, with him. "I'm sorry, I fell asleep."
"It's okay, you were tired."
He loved his voice. The way it sounded so husky when they were lying down.
"I missed you."
Shuuhei smiled, "I missed you too." And kissed him, lying on top of Izuru. Only then he realized they were almost naked, as he felt Shuuhei's warm body covering his.
His heart raced fast, anxiously. Shuuhei's slow innocent kiss wasn't enough for him. He wrapped his arms around the other's neck and pulled him into a stronger kiss. Shuuhei complied right away, and devoured his mouth. His tongue licking his, sent electric vibration through all his body. He missed this so much! So, so damned much!
There was so much to talk about, so many things he wanted to tell Shuuhei and wanted to ask, but now all he could do was keeping kiss him. It was stronger than him. It was a need.
He moaned in the kiss, and Shuuhei entangled his fingers in his hair and guided the blond head as he kissed from his mouth, to cheek, to jaw and neck. Shuuhei stopped at the nasty scar, and looked sadly at it. His pace slowed down, his frantic kissing turned into soft gentle pecks in the scarred skin.
Izuru closed his eyes, as he felt the gentle touch; his skin shivered. The kissing became lower and slower, until it stopped completely in his chest. He opened his eyes and looked down, and noticed Shuuhei's face hidden in his chest, his eyes completely shut.
"Shuuhei?"
The brunet trembled in response. Izuru tried to sit, but his lover didn't let him, staying in that position.
"Shuuhei..."
He felt something wet in his skin, and noticed that Shuuhei was trying to hold tears, miserably failing at it. He was crying, Shuuhei was crying for him. And Izuru felt so sad about it. No one ever cried for him, and seeing Shuuhei crying made him want to tear too.
"Shuu..." his voice cracked. He hugged the brunet tightly, as the other silently wept. This two months were so hard for Izuru, but it looked like they were even harder for Shuuhei.
"I should have gone after you," Shuuhei said, "I should have... I should..."
"You couldn't."
"I should have tried harder."
"Abarai-kun told me what you did, it wasn't your fault. I understand-"
"No!" Shuuhei said and finally raised his head. "Even if I destroyed the whole Seireitei, I should have gone after you."
The blond didn't say anything.
"Your body... your neck... you were all alone, and you were waiting for me..." Shuuhei detached from Izuru and sat on his knees, crying behind his hand. Izuru was surprised. He never saw the other like this before. So fragile, crying. He never knew the strong, kind Hisagi-senpai could look so frail. He also sat down and held Shuuhei.
"Don't think like that. It wasn't your fault. And yes, I was waiting for you, but I also knew you were waiting for me, and I did everything I could to return to you."
Shuuhei hugged him back and pulled him to his lap, Izuru straddling him. "You're so much stronger than me, Izuru. You can think so much clearly. I just get emotional and screw everything up."
The blond gently chuckled. "That is a lie. I'm not stronger than you. I'm a weak person."
He did so many bad things in his life, some that could end everything. He was the type that easily got manipulated and would sell his soul to the devil if he heard the right words...
"...'cause this time I can finally tell ya that I..."
And the darkest secret he had... it wasn't strength, it was pure, disgusting weakness. He was a bad person, and he didn't deserve someone like Shuuhei. But he was also greedy and selfish, he couldn't say no to the brunet. He wanted him, and that was stronger than any bad thing in his life or in the world.
"No... I am... I'm pretty sure if I was the one in Hueco Mundo. You would have found a way to save me."
"Shuuhei," he said grabbing the brunet's face. "We're together now." he didn't let the whole speak and kissed him. He didn't want Shuuhei to feel guilty about anything. He didn't blame him for not going after him.
"Izuru," Shuuhei said between kisses, "I love you."
The blond widely smiled, "I love you too."
And they kissed again, deeply and needy. Shuuhei's hands caressed his back up and down, his own hands held the dark hair and shoulder. He could feel his member getting hard, specially as Shuuhei's hands traveled to his legs, and then buttocks. The brunet moved them slowly, creating friction between them. Izuru almost came with just that. It was so long since he did anything, and the thought of the last time they had sex cloud his judgment. It was so good, he wanted to feel it again.
Shuuhei unwrapped Izuru's fundoshi, taking it off, and grabbed the blond's aching member, slowly pumping it.
"I- un, I need to shower," Izuru said not very coherent.
"Me too," the other replied, but continued what he was doing. Izuru's eyes were filled with lust. He also freed his lover's hard cock.
Shuuhei grabbed him and lied him down, kissing and moving his body, their cocks grinding together. Izuru's legs wrapped around Shuuhei's waist bringing them closer than ever.
The brunet repeated what he did earlier, but this time his kisses were harder. He kissed Izuru's neck with hunger and in a possessive manner, making it more powerful in the scar. The blond couldn't help but moan, in how good it felt. The kisses went down to the collar-bone, and then chest. Shuuhei sucked the pink nipple, and damned... Izuru almost felt like coming again. He teased it with small licks and little bites.
Shuuhei sucked the other nipple, and it was even more sensitive making Izuru whimper powerless like a little insect.
His cock leaked already as if he already came, part of him felt ashamed that he couldn't control his body, but Shuuhei soon made him forget everything. His mouth exploring his body, his hands going to the deepest places. Sweat, saliva, hot breath, all mixed in this sensual and arousing scene.
Shuuhei's mouth reached his cock, and Izuru didn't last one second. The moment Shuuhei licked the tip, he came moaning gently, dirtying Shuuhei's face. His blues eyes widened.
"I'm so sorry!" Shuuhei chuckled and cleaned his face with hand, licking it afterwords.
"It has been so long since I... we..." damn he was really embarrassed.
"Yeah, it has," the brunet said leaning forward pecking the blond's lips. "But now," he turned Izuru around, "now, I can't be gentle anymore. Not after hearing your voice like that." he kissed the pale back, and gave the round butt a firm squeeze. Izuru looked over his shoulder, and saw Shuuhei ogling his ass with famine eyes.
"Lube?"
"Hmm... I..." Shuuhei spread his butt cheeks. "I don't...B-bathroom?" he felt Shuuhei's pervert gaze on him for a while and then his lover left to the bathroom. He liked Shuuhei's pervert gaze, specially because it was directed to him, but he still felt a bit embarrassed. Lying down with someone gazing his butt could be considered a bit... humiliating.
Shuuhei returned fast with a vial in his hand that he recognized it to be healing ointment. He sat in the same place he was before between Izuru's legs, and again spread the buttocks apart. Izuru buried his face in the pillow. He didn't like this position very much, it brought him bad memories.
He felt a finger slowly massaging his entrance, and entering him. Shuuhei leaned forward and kissed his shoulder and then turned his head to the side, pecking his lips.
"Are you okay?"
Izuru nodded and was kissed again. He could feel the finger slid in and out and soon another one joining. It felt weird, but Izuru couldn't stop thinking how good it felt last time, when Shuuhei held him and made him see stars.
Trust, that was all sex was about. Trust and be trusted. If he trusted then he had nothing to fear. And he trusted Shuuhei more than anyone else in the world. He felt another finger inside him, and his breathing became heavier. Shuuhei kissed him everywhere he could, and slid his fingers in and out easily.
"I'm going to put it in," Shuuhei breathed in his ear, with that sexy voice that he couldn't get enough.
Fingers out and he felt something much bigger pressing against him. Shuuhei moved Izuru's legs slightly so he would be on his knees too, with his butt in the air.
Izuru closed his eyes as his lover entered him slowly.
"Oh God, you feel so good," Shuuhei said to his ear. The blond shivered, and felt the long cock stretching him. It didn't hurt like before, it was just the feeling of something big going to a place that is not used to it.
Shuuhei pulled out a bit and entered him again. Slowly increasing the pace, making the blond moan every time he was thrust.
"S-Shuuhei," Izuru tried to speak. "I want to face y-you."
Shuuhei stopped moving and slowly pulled out and then turned Izuru around, who wrapped his arms against the brunet's neck and pulled him into an open-mouth kiss. Shuuhei adjusted himself between the blond's legs and re-entered him.
And Izuru groaned loudly as that amazing feeling hit him. And as an incentive Shuuhei started thrusting harder and harder, making the blond feel it over and over. It was good, he felt like coming again. Sex was so good! Shuuhei was so good! He wanted more.
He held Shuuhei with all his grip. His legs around Shuuhei's waist pulling him closer, his arms holding his shoulders, clinging to him, wanting more contact.
Shuuhei's hand grabbed his cock and started pleasuring him in a frantic pace, as if the world was going to end.
"Shit, I'm gonna come," he told Izuru. And he thrust harder and deeper, and came moaning Izuru's name. He kept thrusting and the blond climaxed as he heard his name.
Shuuhei's full body weight fell on top of him, but he didn't care he still held him close and tightly.
He didn't want this moment to end. It was just the two of them. And there were no problems. Just them.
Izuru was home, and he was with Shuuhei, finally! His life was going to change now. His Division, Shuuhei, himself... Everything was going to be better. He wasn't accused of betrayal, he was cleared, and he was needed, and he was loved. He gently smiled looking at his ceiling. For the first time in his life, everything was perfect.
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Matsumoto
Rangiku woke up from a dreamless sleep. Her room was dark, with only a small glint of the moon entering through the window. She caressed her belly as a reflex. Just to make sure, everything was alright.
She stayed awake for a while, wondering if Histugaya was still in the couch of her living room sleeping. The small Taichou wanted to protect her, and who was she to say no? It was a cute side of her Taichou she didn't want to waste.
Slowly, she fell asleep again. Ignoring that paranoid feeling that she was being watched.
Outside, not guarding the window anymore, members of the protection team were unconscious on the floor, and evil eyes looked upon the not yet born prey.
To be continued...
So, next chapter will be a special one. It will be really big, so I'm still deciding if I'll split it in two or not. If it turns out to be two chapters, I will post both in the same day.
I hope you liked this one, and if you wish you can leave a review. They are always welcomed =)