A/N: And I am back! Okay I am really, really nervous about this chapter, so please be super kind and leave me a review! Now, this chapter is pretty much the end of Running with Motivation. I will put out on more epilogue chapter; but this is it! Also, please ignore any typos!

I really, really hope I'm giving this the ending it deserves. But, enough with this, please enjoy everyone! I love you all!

Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush

I was actually shaking as I settled down into the car. James and I hadn't been…together in far too long. I missed it. So much.

Especially the way his tongue-

"Emma? Ready to go?" The sun was just beginning to set, and the light added a glow to everything in the car. Including James who was grinning ear to ear.

I reached over and kissed his neck gently. "I can't believe you actually have to ask that…but yes. I'm ready." And I totally failed at keeping the lust out of my voice.

He chuckled. "Soon. Baby I promise." His fingers trailed up my legs and stopped at the hem of my dress.

A moan fell from my lips. "James Diamond I swear to God if you tease me any fucking more I am going to-"

Suddenly he stomped on the gas pedal and we went zooming out of the parking lot. The speed of his acceleration slammed me back into the seat. I held his hand in mine the entire ride. We were silent; both of us knowing what was going to happen tonight, and damn, was I excited.

It had just been way too long.

And soon, we arrived at our destination.

It was a beach similar to where Kendall and I…uh…hooked up, but it wasn't the same one. It was smaller and much more private; much more hidden.

More intimate.

James quickly kissed my cheek, got out of the car and then opened the door for me.

"Why thank you sir." I smiled and took his extended hand stepped from the vehicle. Off to the left was a worn path made in the sand; it curved further to the left a little ways down, so you couldn't see much past that.

The sun was just beginning to set, but it's warmth from the day still lingered in the air and on the ground. I bent down and took off my heels before tossing them in the car.

"Ahh. That's much better." My bare feet sunk into the soft, warmed sand of the path. James simply laced his hand with mine and gently led me down the path. There were trees on either side of the path and the light from the sun gently filtered through the trees and made various waving patterns on the white sand.

"Babe? Have you been here before?" I asked, somewhat already knowing the answer.

He pulled me closer to him and kissed my temple. "Yes, I found it awhile ago. The waves are perfect here to surf."

Suddenly the path curved to the right and opened up to a cozy, intimate spot. It looked like something out of a travel channel program; clear waters gently lapping at the white sand beach, it was protected and made private by more trees and various foliage surrounding the whole area.

But, what demanded my attention was the set up on the beach. A very soft, inviting looking red blanket was spread out with candles and a basket.

"James?" My voice was barely a whisper.

He spun me around into a tight embrace. "Yes baby?"

"Why is there a basket? We just ate. Which was absolutely fabulous by the way." I leaned up and kissed him on the nose.

"An extra dessert…or two." He grinned.

I suddenly grabbed his hand and took off towards the setup. "James! This is incredible!"

Without hesitating I reached back and unzipped my dress before peeling it off and tossing it onto the blanket. But I left my brand new necklace on. Even though the sun was just a few minutes above the horizon, it was still warm and I smiled as it kissed my skin.

I turned back to James and flirtatiously fingered the sexy thong I was wearing. "Well come on baby, I'm not the only one who is going to be showing skin tonight." I ushered him forward and he basically tripped over himself trying to get nude. Eventually he stood beside me in just his boxers and he pulled me in for a hug. The smell of his cologne still radiated on his skin and I snuggled into him.

I could also feel that he was beginning to get hard.

"Aww. No boxers allowed." Without me even having to help, they were practically ripped from his body.

"Hey now, Miss Hypocrite, take yours off too. Not that I don't absolutely love your choice of lingerie…" His hands slid down my back and he slapped my ass once before fingering the skimpy G-string and ripping it off.

"Oh fuck James…" Just having his hands on my ass was the closest we've ever gotten to anything intimate. And I was climbing a peak for more.

James rubbed his hands up and down my thighs gently before sucking at the base of my neck, which I was positive was going to leave one hell of a mark.

Moaning, I tugged at his hair. "Oh, God."

Suddenly his hand came up and unclasped my bra, which immediately fell to the ground. I shivered slightly at the rush of air against my sensitive breasts, but I was moaning when James enclosed his mouth over my left nipple.

His wet tongue flicked at it and swirled around it a few times before he pulled it between his teeth and sucked on it. My back immediately arched against him. I wanted this to last; but at the same time I wanted him in me now.

Damn. Patience was never my strong point.

As soon as my left nipple was painfully hard, he moved to my right one. As he distributed his lovely mouth across my breasts I immediately missed his mouth on my left.

I brought my hand up and rolled it between my fingers, but James slapped it away.

"James!" I cried out in protest.

He looked up at me with dark, shining eyes. "I am the only one going to pleasure you tonight." His voice was deep and husky; he wanted this just as much as I did.

His warm fingers replaced mine as he went back to work. Every lap of his tongue, every pinch of his fingers, every time my nipple got sucked between his perfect teeth a shot of pleasure went straight down.

By the time he was done, I was already a writhing mess.

"Come on baby. Lay down." We both sat down onto the blanket; which was just as soft as it looked, and he quickly opened the basket and pulled out a lighter.

By this point, the sun had almost completely set, and he made quick work of lighting all the candles. It illuminated the area in a warm, romantic glow. Breezes were few and far between, but when they decided to roll through the area, it was warm and soft.

"God. You are absolutely beautiful, Emma." His voice was soft as his eyes raked over my body. "You're my angel."

At that point I wanted to cry. I wanted to smile until my cheeks bled. All I wanted was him. No one else but him. Ever. He made me feel loved, so incredibly loved. He did so much for me and all I wanted for the rest of my life was him.

James.

I pulled myself up onto my knees and moved towards him. "James…" There was so much I wanted to say…but I had no clue how to lay it all out.

"Babe?" He grabbed my hands and squeezed them gently.

"James…thank you. For everything. You…you have done so much for me. You have changed my life. I will never, ever be able to thank you for it. I love you James Diamond. I love you more than anything else in this world." My voice caught several times at the sheer amount of emotion that was in my voice. Tears were in my eyes.

And James saw that.

Without saying anything, he immediately cupped my face and pulled me in for a passionate kiss. I thrust my tongue into his mouth and he eagerly sucked on mine. I wanted to go deeper in him; and I basically tried to choke myself on his tongue.

I dug my nails into his back and he shuddered against me. His hands tangled in my hair and pulled my face closer to him. Within a few minutes he had spread my legs and was crawling between them. When I felt his hard on I cried out.

"Angel? Are you okay?"

I wanted to giggle at his new nickname for me. I loved it.

"Yes! Oh yes I'm more than okay. I just..babe it seems like it's been forever. You feel so fucking good…"

He smirked and brushed his thumb against my cheek. "And I'm not even inside you yet…damn." He ran his luscious tongue up my neck and sucked at various spots.

"James!"

He ran his hands down my sides and gently spread my legs further apart. Just that simple motion made me smile. The feeling of warm air there made me shiver. I had been neglected for way too long.

His hands gently stroked the inside of my thighs and I simply threw my head back. "Please! Oh God James please! I've been waiting for this. Baby please. Please…" I began moaning a mantra of 'please'.

And James laughed. "Oh Emma by the time I'm done with you, you won't even be able to walk."

Oh…fuck.

His voice was like velvet dripping with pure lust.

James shuffled his body down so that his head was right between my legs. His hands moved down as he spread my lips apart. I whimpered out in frustration when my clit was exposed to the air around me. James stayed there. He didn't immediately attach his mouth onto me, but he just stayed there.

"Baby?" I whined.

He stared me up and down. "Emma…you're just gorgeous. I love looking at you like this. God."

I was about to say something, but then he spread me apart further and latched his mouth to me.

And once his tongue made contact with my clit, I cried out. God I missed it so much.

"Oh fuck James! Oh God you feel so good. I missed you." I gently tugged at his hair, which only encouraged him more.

He sucked in my clit between his teeth and ran his tongue across the most sensitive, hidden part of me. My breath came in short, shallow pants, until he started biting my clit. He had done this before, but never this rough. He went for it and sunk his teeth into me.

And I screamed out in pleasure and pain. The pain, however, wasn't…well…a turn off, but only significantly added to the pleasure.

"Oh FUCK, James! Do that again. Please!" And he did. Again, and again, and again.

Well, this is new.

I had never participated in rough sex but…I guess now was as good a time as any.

Every time he ground his teeth across my clit, I came closer and closer to an orgasm. Suddenly he moved his tongue to my inner thigh and, without any warning, thrust a single finger into me.

I gasped out sharply and thrust my hips forward. It was slightly uncomfortable, but, after a brief moment, it was sheer pleasure.

"More!" He obliged and added another finger. James wasn't going gently, he was pounding into me roughly with his fingers.

"Oh God…Oh God…Oh God…" My breathing was short and shallow. I was so fucking close.

"Fuck, Emma! God you're so tight. You feel so fucking good. Come on Angel you're right there." I opened my mouth to say something, but when he started biting my clit, I screamed. I absolutely screamed.

And my screams got louder as he added a few more fingers. Within a few more moments, I came. Hard.

My hips kept twitching and I kept convulsing as he continued to suck my clit to make my orgasm last that much longer. And, damn it, it worked. I continuously orgasmed for what seemed like forever.

I screamed and pulled his face closer to my body. I needed him now. Fucking now.

He started kissing his way up my body and back to my lips. I wrapped my legs around his waist and practically bruised our mouths with the force of the kiss. It was sloppy, heated, and passionate.

Soon I reached down and grabbed his cock.

Was he always this big?

As soon as I squeezed him, he gasped, broke the kiss and involuntarily thrust his hips forward. "Oh, shit, Emma…"

I unwrapped my legs from him and made a motion to give him oral, but he immediately stopped me.

"James! Oh God please let me return the favor. Please." I scraped my nails gently up and down his body, but he remained firm.

"No. No not tonight. I'm hard enough as it is…"

Yeah, I could bear witness to that one.

As soon as I laid back and spread my legs, he closed them. My eyebrow shot up.

Aw hell no.

Judging by the look on my face, he realized what I was thinking. "No! No believe me baby I am not backing out. We're just going to try something else tonight."

"Anything." My voice was extremely breathy.

He grabbed my hand, got me up on my knees, and then turned me around.

I blushed.

"You sure James?" I asked.

His hand gently lingered on the top of my spine before roughly bending me over. A whimper escaped my mouth.

He then pried my legs apart and pushed me down further.

Talk about face down, ass up…

I then heard him moan. After he whistled he chuckled, "God damn baby. You're incredible."

"That's nice…just fuck me. Now." I was this close. So close to having him inside me. So close to feeling whole again. So close to James.

Suddenly he brought his hand down on my ass. Hard. My body uncontrollably lurched forward and I cried out softly.

James then leaned forward and pressed his chest to my back. "Oh, does someone like being spanked?" I could practically see the grin on his smug face.

As an answer, I tried to back my ass up against him, but he pulled back and settled my hips before spanking me again. And again. And again.

He rubbed my ass where he would hit, and then bring his hand down again. I sucked my lips to the point where they were probably blood red. It just felt so fucking good.

So good that I was willing to postpone the sex.

"You never answered me. Do you like being spanked? DO you like me smacking your dirty little ass?"

Shit.

I wasn't even going to try and fight back. "Yes! Yes I do! Don't stop!" My voice was so desperate, so full of want, that he didn't come back at me with a witty retort.

He just brought his hand down repeatedly, to the point where I thought I would orgasm from it. Although I'm sure my ass was as black as a cherry.

Soon he brought his hand down over me and rubbed me a few times.

"James?" I whipped my head back and tossed my hair over my shoulder.

He looked up. God…the way the candlelight and the moonlight mixed and radiated off of his skin made him look other worldly. Like a god.

"Please…just do it." I prayed he would get it, and he did.

His eyes widened slightly. "Angel, are you sure? I've…I've never done it bare before."

I nodded. "Just pull out. Please. I need you." All of you. No obstacles.

To my delight, he agreed. After running his tongue up and down my back, and kissing the sore spot on my ass, I could feel his warm, already wet tip at my entrance.

I was shaking with anticipation. I needed this.

His hands firmly grasped my hips as he slowly put his head in. Just that little bit made me cry out in pleasure.

Oh fuck how I missed him.

Suddenly, he took it out. I cursed loudly at him and backed myself up.

"Now, now. Patience."

His chastising tone pissed me the hell off.

But, without any warning, he thrust himself fully into me. I screamed. I fucking wailed. I shouted to the heavens above and everything around us. And he screamed out with me.

"Emma!" He gasped out his pleasure just as I did. I could feel him twitch against me as he tried to adjust to the feeling of sex without a condom.

He was just so God damned big! My hips wobbled slightly, but his hands kept me upright. I still buried my head into the blanket below.

Not only was the feeling of him overwhelming, but he was hitting me at a whole new angle. I was in pain, not going to lie on that, but it was such a good pain. The beauty of the pain was that soon, It would turn into blissful pleasure.

However, he didn't give me any time to get used to him. Within a few seconds he pulled himself out and thrust back into me.

I was shaking. I was practically crying. I couldn't believe the feeling I was receiving from him.

"Oh my God James…oh fuck!" He continued that pattern; pulling all the way out and thrusting all the way in.

I could barely handle it.

It just felt so good.

"Emma. Oh God baby you are incredible." Even though I could tell he was trying to be a stud, his voice shook just like my legs did.

Suddenly as he thrust into me, he brought his hand down on my ass again.

"James!" I yelped out. And, combining two new loves of pleasure, he spanked me as he fucked me.

Soon I was clutching the blanket with my eyes shut and screaming with my mouth wide open. I just couldn't believe how good he was making me feel.

He stretched me in the most incredible way. And doing it without a condom? God. Damn. I wasn't being thrust into by a piece of plastic, it was him. Warm, wet, and I could feel the outline of every vein and defining feature of his dick.

"Oh fuck me like a whore. Make me come. Make me yours!" I cried out. And he did. He went even harder, hit me harder, and I could tell he was just as close as I was.

Suddenly he bent forward and sunk his teeth into my shoulder. I tossed my head back and squeaked out. My breathing was a complete mess, and I just needed more.

"Harder!"

And he did. He bit down to the point where I thought he was going to break the skin. A second later, he bit down somewhere else. And somewhere else.

All the while pounding into me.

Once he unlatched his teeth from my back, he continued to spank me.

The sound of skin hitting skin permeated the salty air around us. My ass hurt but the pleasure outdid the pain and everything just became intensified.

"James! James I am not going to orgasm while looking at a fucking blanket!" Without waiting for him to reply, I crawled forward, collapsed once, and, with shaky legs, I turned back around, pushed him onto the blanket and straddled him.

As soon as I sat on his dick, he threw his head back. "Oh…fuuuuuck!" He pretty much lost it when I began grinding my hips in a circle on his dick. I was in control now.

"James, rub my clit. Now." I ordered. He did as I told, and, soon, I was shakily grinding against him while climbing the peak.

James could see that I was close, and, in one move, he turned me over so that we were in the familiar missionary position. And I immediately clawed at his back. Roughly.

To the point where I was sure I was breaking skin. But he didn't seem to mind; I could see his was working hard; he was panting, sweating, and how whole body was flushed in the most delicious way possible.

But when he pinched my clit as hard as he could, my vision seemed to cross.

I tried speaking his name, but it came out as complete jibberish. He, however, hadn't lost the ability to speak.

"Baby, Emma, Angel, come for me. Hard. You're right there baby, you can do it." His voice was in my ear, sexily encouraging me to jump off of the peak. Encouraging me to lose it.

And I didn't have to try very hard.

"H-H-Hard…er…" I whispered out.

And, somehow, he pounded into me harder. And that did it. I dug my nails into his back, wrapped my legs around his waist and came. I came so fucking hard.

"JAMES!" I let out the loudest scream of the night, desperately clinging on to James. My life line.

I could briefly hear him whispering in my ear, "That's my girl. I knew you could do it," but my focus was on not going insane.

I was shaking, twitching and convulsing with the force of the orgasm. And I could feel James and his throbbing length shaking as well. I tried talking to him…but it was useless.

My nerves were exploding with euphoria. Every sense in my body was on overload as I came. And, suddenly, I felt the hard heat inside me leave. I shuddered at its loss, but I moaned out when I felt a hot spray hit my stomach.

James couldn't even speak as he shook and collapsed beside me. I simply grabbed his hand and squeezed.

After a few, silent moments passed, I wiped my lower abdomen off and then sat up beside him.

"I vote we go for a quick swim. You with me?" He smiled and helped me to my feet.

"I'm all for it. But keep the necklace here, okay?" I nodded. "I was going to."

Once I had set the necklace on the blanket, we both walked hand in hand to the ocean and waded into the cool, refreshing water.

"Well someone can't stop smiling." James laughed as he wrapped his arms around me and gently pulled me through the water. I laid my head against his chest.

"Well, after a round of sex like that, how could I not be smiling?"

I felt his soft lips gently press themselves against my cheek. "I have to be honest here. Your kink for pain surprised me."

A warm blush crept onto my face. "It…it surprised me too."

Although I was kind of paying for it with the way the salt water stung my ass.

But it was so worth it.

The moonlight illuminated the water, making it look like something out of a movie. I had the hottest guy in the world behind me, and we were both still in that post-sex high. After a few silent minutes of swimming around, he helped me back onto shore and to the now completely destroyed blanket.

"And you mocked my little basket." He said as I shivered slightly. "Here you go." I was tossed a very fluffy towel and proceeded to dry off. Once all the moisture was whisked away from my body, I handed the towel back to him and he tossed me a bundle of clothes.

My favorite pair of jeans, a comfy sweatshirt, soft, cotton underclothes, and my favorite set of moccasins.

"Oh my God thank you so much!" I got dressed and proceeded to sit beside James, who was also dressed in jeans and a sweatshirt.

"Now. Care to know what else is in this basket?"

I nodded. "Why yes, yes I would."

He pulled out a few bottles of water, some of my ultimate favorite snacks, and a cozy blanket.

"Uh…correct me if I'm wrong, but should we just be sitting here in the dark?" I asked timidly.

Suddenly he stood up. "The dark? We have candles," he gestured up, "and the moonlight!" I watched as he got something else out of the basket. "And we have this nice little fire pit."

And then a fire pit magically came to life, and soon we were both snuggled together around it. The sounds of the crackling fire warmed my soul, and the fire warmed and soothed my skin. Not to mention wearing a comfy sweatshirt and snuggling next to the love of your life also did great things to your soul.

James handed me a pack of sour snacks, my favorite, and pulled out a pack of trail mix for himself. We both talked and joked and laughed and kissed as we ate, and soon the fire started to die down.

After James told a joke that had us howling, I wiped tears of laughter from my eyes. "Where on Earth did you hear that one?" James, who was doubled over in laughter, struggled to catch his breath.

"Oh God I don't even remember! Honestly I think Logan told me awhile ago." He grabbed the empty package out of my hands and walked back to the basket. A few moments later he walked back to the fire.

I sighed. "Oh God. Tonight…I don't think I can ever tell you just how incredible this night has been for me." I leaned on his shoulder.

"Baby, believe me. I know." James rubbed my side, but soon became very quiet.

"Everything okay?" I asked.

He paused a moment before answering, "Uh…I need to talk to you about something." The quietness of his voice scared me.

My stomach plummeted.

Oh. No.

"I-Is it s-something b-b-bad?" I whispered.

His eyes widened. "No! Oh God no baby it's nothing bad!"

I sighed loudly with relief, but I was still nervous. "Then…what?"

James smiled softly to himself, and then moved in front of me. "Emma Hudson. You have completely changed my life for the better. You have shown me exactly what true love is, and just how incredible it can be. Emma, you have grown to mean the world to me. I can't imagine a single day without you by my side. Please, Emma Hudson, I know I don't deserve it, but, will you do me an unimaginable honor and become my wife?"

Before I even had the time to start my heart again, he pulled out a small jewelry box from his pocket and opened it to reveal an incredible, jaw dropping ring. It had a brilliant diamond in the middle and a smaller circle of diamonds surrounding it. There were a few other details and stones I couldn't make out, but it was gorgeous.

"I-I…" I couldn't speak. My jaw dropped and just stayed there.

…what? James Diamond just…

No.

There's no way.

He looked at me with concern. "Emma? Emma is everything okay?"

Without thinking, I burst out into tears. I was so happy. I smiled through my tears and nodded my head vigorously.

"Yes! Yes! Oh my God, yes! Yes! I will marry you James Diamond! Yes!" His face lit up in the most wonderful way and he helped me to my feet.

"You…you mean it? You will?"

"Yes! Oh James how could I not? Yes!" I nearly broke my face with how much I was smiling, but he returned it, slipped the ring on my finger, and tossed the box onto the blanket. Every single inch of my body felt electrified. A shiver rolled through me.

He cupped my face. "You, Emma Diamond, have just made me the happiest and luckiest man on this Earth."

Emma. Diamond.

Emma Diamond.

I loved the sound of that.

I cried more tears and nodded. "Oh God James I love you so much! Thank you! Thank you so much!" I immediately jumped up, wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him in for our most passionate kiss yet.

And we smiled during every second of the kiss as I clung onto him.

My husband.

A/N: ...And there you have it! :D I really struggled with this chapter and I would really, really love reviews and feedback! Again, I will be posting an epilogue chapter soon!

I love each and every one of you for reading and staying with this! Consider this as a virtual hug from me to you for being so flipping awesome! :3

~Kara