I DO NOT OWN THE TWILIGHT SAGA.
A/N: Hey guys! Long time no see, I know. I just haven't had any inspiration to write for this story lately. I've been focusing on my stories "My Name is Max", "Persy", and "Have Faith" recently because those are really popular. Not that this story isn't popular. Anyway, I want to tell you guys that I'm going to be going on vacation for the entire summer, and I'll be leaving at the end of the month. So if I don't update for two months, that's why. Also, one person who commented on how they didn't like how Bella is speaking to Edward "for Nessie"; and I just want to say that I'm trying to make it realistic in the way that this is what I would do if I was in this situation. I obviously don't have any kids yet, 1: because I'm still in high school, 2: I can barely take care of myself, and 3: I'm ratchet af and I I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna die alone with my cat. But still.
Bella's P.O.V.
You never really know how old you really are until you watch your child fall in love for the first time. It's like a wakeup call that says "Hey! You're getting old!" Now you're probably wondering why you don't get the wakeup call until your child falls in love; well, I'll tell you why. It's because for the fifteen or sixteen years or so while your child is growing up and developing, you think of them as a child, they aren't capable of feeling that type of love for someone. Then, all of a sudden, they ARE capable of that sort of thing. It's a reminder that they won't always be your little girl or boy, that one day they'll want to leave you and go their own way. And then you will have to share her or him with someone other than your spouse. It's like, you know that you've done everything you possibly could to make sure that they're ready to take on the world without you, but you're not sure if YOU'RE ready for that next step in their life.
That's how it is for me. A second ago I just watched my daughter get her first kiss, by a man that I used to love myself. It seems like just yesterday that I was watching her take her first steps, followed by her saying her first words. It's true that she grew up into a young woman within in the span of seven short years, but these past one hundred years I've always thought of her as my little girl. Now she's asking to be the older sister the next time we move, and she's possibly now in a relationship. Next, she'll probably want to move out and go her own way for a while. I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. Not to mention that she's so much like me, it's scary. But to think that I won't be able to protect her anymore is the scariest thing in the universe to me.
I'm not sure how Edward feels, he's always been a mystery to me and I'm not sure if that will ever change. But that's his daughter too, even though he's only known her for a short while. I'm no closer to forgiving Edward for what he put me through, twice, and I'm not sure if I ever will forgive him. No, that's not true. I'm sure that I will be able to forgive him eventually, but I do know that I won't ever be able to be with him ever again. He put me through so much heart break; and I've finally worked up enough courage to put my foot down and tell him that I won't go running back to him like I did last time. I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna spend the rest of my life alone. But who knows, maybe I'll meet someone else along the way.
Edward's P.O.V.
I'm not happy. But then again, when am I ever happy these days? I've been in Forks for a week and my life has gone from bearable to complicated. In the span of seven days, I've found out that not only is the love of my life a vampire, but that I somehow had a daughter with her. Then Jacob Black, the man who complicated my entire relationship with Bella one hundred years ago, comes back into our lives, and I find out that he has imprinted on Nessie and will be forever tied to her in some way, if she allows it. Then I break the treaty by going over the boarder when I find out that my daughter is about to jump off a cliff. Then, when I get there, I see said daughter and Jacob making out in the water. In one section of my mind, I'm happy that he jumped in after her; but in another I'm not happy that he's kissing her. But then again I have no say in who she's allowed to date and kiss, that job lands on Bella's shoulders since she's the one who raised Nessie. That doesn't mean I'm happy about it though.
Jacob's P.O.V.
For my first kiss in ten years, the kiss I share with Nessie is amazing. In all honesty, she is an amazing kisser, even though I, somehow, heard her think about that the kiss we shared was her first ever kiss- note to self: ask Ness about that the next time you see her. And even though I'm not a virgin, I lost my virginity to a girl when I went to college back in 2010, nothing could beat this kiss. Her lips were so warm and soft and tasted oddly of turkey and tomato.
I feel really guilty about the way I treated her this morning. I was just really upset and I was being selfish and feeling sorry for myself even though I had no reason to. I hate to think this, but I'm lucky that she inherited her mother's ability to forgive so easily. I don't know what I would do if she hadn't forgiven me, I would have killed myself trying to make it up to her.
My good mood would have lasted if it wasn't for Edward Cullen. He broke the treaty by crossing the border. I'm not sure if I want to include Bella, because she's not technically a Cullen anymore seeing as she and Edward have been separated for one hundred years. Anyway, I was about to kill Edward, or at least kick his ass a little, when Nessie stopped me. Let me tell you, if it wasn't for her, the Cullens and the pack would be in the middle of a war because of his slipup. I can already tell that she's changing me for the better.
A/N: What did you think? Please review!
~Gina
