Disclaimer; All characters belong to Stephenie Meyers. I do not own any of the characters.

Authors note; Sorry it's been a while since my last update. I was focusing on my other story 'Is This What It Feels Like?' If you haven't checked it out, please do :)

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Warning: This chapter contains a lemon at the start but also violence, and attempted rape towards the end.

*25th December 2013*

'Merry Christmas baby' I whispered kissing Carlisle's lips before gently nibbling his ear. He groaned before wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me on top of him and opening his eyes.

'Merry Christmas beautiful' he replied, sitting up and kissing me. He bit my bottom lip softly and I moaned against his mouth, opening to allow his tongue entrance. I fisted my hands through his golden hair, pulling at it as he kissed and sucked at my neck and before I knew it he had flipped me over so I was lying underneath him. I wrapped my legs around his waist and using my feet pushed his trousers off of him as he pulled my pyjama bottoms off me. He began kissing at my neck again, teasing me.

'Carlisle…please!' I begged, wanting him badly. He stopped kissing me and looked down at me.

'Oh, I don't know Is…maybe later' he smirked before kissing my neck again.

'Carlisle' I groaned in both exasperation and pleasure.

'Anything for you baby' he breathed seductively into my ear before slamming into me causing me to scream out his name again and grip hold of his back as my hips met his thrusts in time with his rhythm before we both let go and he collapsed on top of me.

'Well that was a nice Christmas present' I giggled lying in his arms, he smiled and kissed my forehead.

'Is! Its three thirty in the morning!' he scolded, looking over at the alarm clock. I chucked to myself.

'The girls woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep and well when they did go back to sleep…all I wanted to do was wish you a merry christmas' I smiled, playing with his fingers that were entwined in mine.

'Well, I'm glad you did' he smirked seductively. 'Now go to sleep! It's been a long day' I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes, the rhythm of his breathing rocking me to sleep.

3 and a half hours later I was awoken by a text message. I reached over for my mobile. It was from Alice.

'Merry Christmas step mom Bells. Me and Jazz will be over in an hour or so. Love you loads xxxxxx'

'ALICE!' I replied with an angry face. She knew exactly what I meant, she knew I hated her referring to me as mom, she'd been doing it since the twins were born and she found out. Carlisle told me she's only doing it because its winding me up and just to ignore her but it was so hard when she even saved my mobile number as 'Step Mom Bells' in her phone contacts.

I put my phone back on the side before rolling over to wake Carlisle up…but he wasn't there. I rolled my eyes, annoyed that he hadn't woken me up…but it was christmas day I couldn't be angry, especially when it was our first Christmas together and our beautiful 3 month old daughters first Christmas. I quickly got up, used the bathroom, brushed my teeth and washed my face before quickly slipping on my dark red rose patterned dress, and dark red shoes. I brushed my hair, deciding to keep it natural today before walking into the kitchen, where Carlisle was just feeding the girls their breakfast.

'Oh look, lazy mommy has finally got out of bed' Carlisle joked pulling faces at Jessica and Elizabeth making them giggle. I smiled, and hit Carlisle playfully before standing on my tip toes to kiss him.

'You look stunning…oh and Merry Christmas…again' he whispered with a hint of amusement in his voice. I smiled remembering early hours of this morning.

'Santa's been!' I spoke musically, walking over to Jessica and Elizabeth and kissing them both on the top of their heads.

'Shall we open the presents then?' Carlisle beamed, picking up Jessica and bouncing her up and down in his arms whilst I got Elizabeth. We walked into the front room where the presents were. There wasn't lots of presents like people would have expected. Me and Carlisle had decided to not do much this year, as they didn't really understand it that well and there wasn't really much to get for them because of their age. Carlisle quickly set up a video camera on a tripod and pressed the play button to record our first Christmas together as a family. We opened Jessica and Elizabeth's presents for them. They had clothes, toys and a few teddies. We'd also brought them both a beautiful little charm bracelet each with a 2 teddy bears on, with both of their initials on and a heart with mine and Carlisle's initials on. Each year we were going to buy them a new charm for it and give it to them officially for them to wear on their 21st birthday. Oh and a new double buggy for them for when we went out. Jessica seemed more interested in the clothes we had gotten her and kept picking up a pair of shoes where as Elizabeth loved the singing teddy we had brought for her. It was then time for mine and Carlisle's presents. I passed him the one from the girls first, which was a plate with their hand prints on from when they were only a few weeks old. A tear came to his eye as he opened it. I was so proud of him, he loved the girls just like they were his own…well they were his and he would never let anybody hurt them. Next I gave him the present from me, it was a Kindle Fire. He loved reading but always complained about having to store the books, so with his new Kindle he wouldn't have to complain anymore or even get rid of any to make more room, with it I had gotten him a personalized case that had a picture of me, him, Jessica and Elizabeth on.

'Thank you so much! I love them!' he whispered, chuffed to bits with his gifts. Then he passed a parcel over to me. I shaked them gently, smiling at Carlisle.

'I wonder what it could be' I whispered, tickling Elizabeth and Jessica, who were both now sitting up on my lap with the support of my arms wrapped around them and the present in my hands in front of them. I carefully opened the present to reveal a familiar looking rectangular box. I lifted the lid off of it to reveal the charm bracelet Alice had brought me for my birthday. It had a new charm on though, next to the angel with an I on, were two rings interlocked with one another, one said Carlisle on and the other said Isabella. On the footprints that once had nothing on, now had 'J.M.K.C' on for Jessica Mary Kate Cullen and the other had 'E.R.C.C' for Elizabeth Renee Carlie Cullen. They were beautiful.

'Thank you so much! I thought I'd lost this' I whispered, a tear falling down my face.

'I took it when you were sleeping, it killed me when you got so upset when you thought you'd lost it…but I couldn't let the secret out' he smiled, moving to sit beside me and wrapping his arm around my waist. 'I'm sorry'

'Carlisle it's beautiful…I love it! I'm glad you took it, and did this it's amazing' I whispered still in shock. He took the bracelet out of the box and clasped it on my wrist for me where it had been before. 'Thank you' I whispered again, kissing his cheek.

'I've got you two more presents' he announced suddenly passing me another box shaped present and an unwrapped box. 'Open the present first' I nodded and opened the present. It was a ring box, I frowned he'd already brought me my eternity and engagement ring. I opened the box slowly, but where a ring would normally be sat was a silver key.

'W…what's this too?' I stuttered.

'It's too our new home baby' he announced. My jaw dropped. He'd gotten us a house?

'C...Carlisle?' I couldn't speak I was speechless. When I'd asked about moving he said he didn't want to, I mean he still didn't live properly with me and the girls. He always went back to his house at the weekends and came back here on the weekdays. He told me he didn't want to move in right now. 'Y...you don't want to live with us though?'

'Of course I want to live with you properly! I kept saying no before because I was going through the legal processes of buying our house and I knew if I moved in I would have to move all my stuff here only to move them again for the new house' he explained.

'But I thought you didn't want to move at all?'

'I know you can't stay here because of everything that happened with Edward under this roof, and I didn't want to move here knowing it was once your and his house…and I know you didn't want to move into mine because of Esme' he admitted.

'I don't think you understand how much I love you Carlisle Cullen! Thank you!' I leaned over, kissing his lips.

'I'm currently in the process of moving my stuff in. We've decorated all the rooms and sorted all the furniture out. I've brought new furniture…I didn't want Edward and Esme to keep ruining things. That's what I've been doing on the weekends. All we need to do now is move yours and the girl's things in…then we can start our lives together as a family properly.'

'I can't wait' I replied truthfully. I was looking forwards to being a real family, and then in just under 2 years I will officially be Carlisle's wife. We had decided to wait until the girls could walk so they could walk down the aisle with us and be by our sides as we got married.

'Open the box?' Carlisle suggested, pulling me out of my thoughts of our wedding. I picked it up. It was so pretty. It was a red box with a red ribbon tying the opening up with a silver gemmed heart of top. I unlaced the ribbon and opened the cardboard flaps open. Inside sat a red and silver swirled scrolled. I picked it up gently and opened it up.

It is our moment to celebrate and declare the love that unites us.

Isabella Marie Swan

And

Carlisle Cullen

Together with their families

Request the honor of your presence

At the celebration of their marriage

Monday, the seventeenth of March,

Two thousand and fourteen

At Two o'clock in the afternoon

420 Woodcroft Ave

Forks, WA

Reception to follow

R.S.V.P

I gasped as I read it. It was a wedding invitation…to my own wedding! Carlisle had planned our wedding, without telling me…and it was less than 3 months away! I turned to look at him, my eyes wide and I could feel the colour drain from my face.

'Carlisle we can't get married in March! Its less than 3 months away! The girls won't be walking…I haven't gotten anything ready! It's to short notice to send out invites now'

'It'll be our 1 year anniversary. Of course people can't know that being they think I got you pregnant but that will be our secret. Alice has told me you've got your dress, the girls have got theirs, and she's going to sort everything else out. It's plenty of time, all of the invitations were sent out 2 months ago…we just all hid it from you'

'But what about the girls?' I asked referring to them walking.

'Alice and Jasper are going to carry them down when they walk down and then we can either hold them or they can sit with your mom and dad' he explained.

'Okay' I smiled, suddenly feeling more relaxed. 'We're getting married!'

'I know! I didn't want you to wait 2 years for us to get married and I sure didn't want to wait 2 years for you to be my wife' he beamed.

'I think this is the best 1st Christmas ever, what do you two think?' I laughed, looking down at Jessica and Elizabeth. Carlisle reached over and picked Elizabeth up just as the door opened and we heard Alice whisper something. I looked at Carlisle questioningly and he just shook his shoulders whilst shaking his head.

'Merry Christmas guys!' She beamed, happier than her usual self. Obviously in the Christmas spirit. Carlisle stood up and kissed her on the forehead before nodding at Jasper in acknowledgment. I stood up and hugged Alice, with Jessica still in my arms.

'You look hot Bells!' Alice complimented looking at my dress. I blushed, and smiled looking over at Carlisle. 'Hey there gorgeous' she started cooing to Jessica, I passed her over so Alice could have a hug with her little sister. I walked over to Jasper gave him a quick hug before telling Carlisle I was going to go check on the turkey cooking. I walked out of the front room and into the kitchen, when I saw him. I stood frozen, unsure of what to do. Should I shout for help?

'Wow! You look incredible!' he breathed, walking towards me. 'I still love you Bella…I need you to know that but I know your happy with…with him and I'll accept that but if he ever hurts you I will kill him'

'E…Edward he's…he's not going to hurt me…he's not you' I spat without thinking. He looked away from me, and took a deep breath. Please don't hurt me…please don't hurt me.

'I'm seeing someone for my anger…I'm in a relationship too now, she's got a kid and I want to control my anger. I never want to hurt anyone like how I hurt you…I'm so sorry Bella' he began apologising. 'I nearly killed you…and your daughters…our d…my sisters. I left you for dead…I mean for fuck sake I even tried stabbing you before. Please forgive me?' I shook my head, and tears began rolling down my face.

'I can't…I can't forgive you for what you did. I don't even want you here. I should of gotten you thrown in jail for what you did to me. I hate you Edward! The only reason I will act civil to you is because your Carlisle's son!' I cried angrily.

'Bella please?' he pleaded. 'You don't mean what you're saying! I love you and you love me!' he said angrily…he clearly wasn't controlling his anger.

He grabbed hold of my wrist and pulled me towards him, so our bodies were pressed against each other. I tried to push him away but he was to strong. Before I knew it his lips were forcefully on mine. I pulled my face away from his.

'No!' I screamed. He shoved his hand over my mouth to stop me from screaming, before picking up a knife off the table that I had laid out ready for Christmas dinner.

'Scream again and I will kill you…I've tried before but trust me this time I won't fail…and trust me I'm gonna kill him too' he hissed. I began to shake, and nodded telling him I understood. I couldn't die…I had my family to live for. He pushed me against the kitchen side, so my back was against it and he was in front of me, still holding the knife. 'Are you going to scream?' I shook my head, and he slowly put the knife down before grabbing hold of my wrists. My mind flew back to what happened between me and Jacob when he had held my wrists.

'Please…please don't hurt him…I'll do anything' I sobbed.

'Anything?' he asked with an evil look in his eyes. I nodded. I wasn't thinking properly. I was terrified. 'Good, then you're going to go in their and end it with my father and then we're going to get back together, like we should be'

'No' I shouted. 'Please…stop Edward' He pushed me to the floor, and began to kiss me again.

'Well, I wonder what he would do if he saw us together…I know you want me Bella. I know you miss the way I loved you. He can't do half the things I could do to you' he whispered in my ear, whilst moving the straps of my dress down kissing at my throat and brushing his fingers up my thigh. I began to struggle beneath him, trying to stop him touching me…but it wasn't working. I heard him unzip his trousers, and I started screaming. 'No one can hear you Bella…all the doors are shut' I lifted my hand up and reached for a knife off of the table. I felt him start to pull my underwear down and before I knew it, I had stabbed him in the stomach. He fell instantly onto my body, the knife still inside his stomach, as he screamed out in pain. I pushed him off of me so he was lying beside me and I began shaking. What had I done?

I grabbed the side and stood up, stumbling into the hallway. I pushed the door handle down, opening the front room door. Sobbing, my hair a mess, my dress straps down my arms and blood all over my hands and stomach from Edward. Everyone stopped talking and turned to look at me. Carlisle ran over to me, checking to see where I was bleeding from.

'I'm so s…s…sorry' I sobbed, looking at Carlisle. 'H…h…he needs your help'

'Is! What have you done? Who needs my help?' Carlisle asked standing in front of me, I backed away from him when Alice caught my eye.

'It's Edward!' She shouted running into the kitchen, with Jasper behind her. Carlisle's eyes widened, as he pushed past me to go to Edward's aid. I stood where I was, still shaking and crying as I looked at my beautiful daughters. What had they done to deserve a mother like me? I was an awful person. I heard Alice scream, and Carlisle shout something. Is he dead? Am I a murderer? I couldn't go to prison…I was defending myself. I ran over to Jessica and Elizabeth, picking them both up and opened the door. I had to get away, but I couldn't leave my daughters. I strapped them both into their seats before climbing into the driver's seat of Carlisle's car. I started up the car, when Carlisle suddenly appeared in front of it, trying to stop me.

'MOVE' I screamed at him putting my foot on the accelerator and inching it closer towards him.

'Isabella…don't do this please?' I stopped the car, and looked at him through the windshield. He didn't look angry, but he did look hurt and confused. I looked down at the steering wheel, sobbing my heart out when I heard sirens and saw blue flashing lights. An ambulance and 2 police cars drove into the drive and I began to panic. They were going to arrest me. I was a murderer. I started the car again and began to drive forwards. Carlisle refused to move out of the way so I reversed. Jessica and Elizabeth were both crying loudly in the back and my head was all over the place. I put the car in reverse and tried to swerve past Carlisle but police were standing in the way now…including the chief of police…my own dad. I crashed the front of the car into Alice's car on accident and knew now there was no escape. I threw the door open, climbed out, opened the back door and began unbuckling Jessica. I had her in my arm, and was trying to unbuckle Elizabeth when I felt somebody grab me and take Jessica off of me.

'No! Please, she's my baby' I cried, as somebody else held my arms behind my back and put cuffs around me.

'Isabella Swan you are under arrest for the attempted murder of Edward Cullen' I heard my father say from behind me.

'No! Dad…please! I didn't mean it! It was self defense!' I screamed, struggling for him to let me go. 'Please…my babies need me! Carlisle don't let them do this!'

'You stabbed my son! I'll never forgive you!' Carlisle chocked back tears, with Jessica and Elizabeth in his arms.

Dad began leading me to the car, and started to put me in the back. I needed them to know I hadn't stabbed him for no reason. I had to tell them.

'He tried raping me!' I screamed with angry tears running down my face and my body trembling with fear. Dad stopped what he was doing, his eyes wide. 'Please…I was defending myself…and I was trying to protect Carlisle. He said he was going to k…kill him…he pushed me to the floor and…and…'

'Shhh…shhh' Carlisle was holding me, and the girls were in an officers arms. I buried my face into Carlisle's neck and began to sob. 'I should have known…his trousers were…were…your dress…was…your…your hair'

'I'm sorry Carlisle…I didn't know what to do…I…I tried screaming…I tried stopping him…I didn't mean it' I begged him to believe me.

'I'm going to kill that fucking son of a bitch' my dad shouted furiously. He uncuffed my hands and kissed my forehead. 'I'm sorry…he's going to pay for what he's done to you. Waylon, she's not getting done for this!' my dad shouted to his partner.

'Understood sir' he nodded in agreement.

'Is, you need to tell your dad everything that Edward has done to you…everything that happened when you were together too and I mean everything. We need to make sure he pays for what he's done to you' Carlisle said softly rubbing my back comforting me. I nodded, and after Edward had been taken in the ambulance with police, dad took me and Carlisle to the police station to give my statement, leaving the twins with Alice and Jasper. The statement took 8 hours in total, including breaks to calm down, eat, etc…but most of all now the truth was out and Edward would pay for what he had done to me. Carlisle and dad were absolutely furious…especially over some of the things I had never even told Carlisle. We finally got home and we went straight to bed. Alice and Jasper stayed the night, so me and Carlisle could talk properly and Alice promised to help look after the girls. I lay with my head on Carlisle's chest as he held me tightly and protectively.

'I'm sorry Carlisle' I whispered sadly.

'It's not your fault…but I should have known something was wrong Is. I should have known you wouldn't have done that if you hadn't needed to. It was me who rang the police…and I shouldn't have. I should have known. I'm so sorry. I promised I would never let him hurt you again…I've failed you my darling…and I'm so sorry' he sighed sadly, with a tear coming to his eye.

'Do you hate me?' I blurted out suddenly.

'Of course not! Why would I hate you?'

'Because…because…he touched me…and I stabbed him. Its all my fault!' I cried silently.

'Don't you ever blame yourself! Do you hear me?' he asked, using his hand to turn my face so I was looking at him. I nodded…but I still felt like it was my fault. 'He's the one I hate not you! He'll never step near us again trust me, and if he does…I promise you he'll get worse than you did to him'

'Do you still love me?' I asked.

'Forever and ever. I always have and I always will and nothings going to change that. Do you still want to marry me even after what I did to you?'

'Yes and Carlisle please don't blame yourself, this isn't your fault or mine and I love you' I whispered truthfully.

'I love you too baby' he replied, kissing my forehead gently.

'Jessica and Elizabeth are never getting a boyfriend' I announced quietly, as my eyes began to grow heavy.

'No, they're not' Carlisle chuckled, as I fell asleep.

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