Fuck, fuck, fuck fuck fuck, I love the way he kisses me. He holds my face and just makes out with me and I can only focus on the feel of his tongue. He moans and I push my chin more into him forcing us closer. It's times like this when I just wish I wasn't pregnant because I would be able to do what I'm thinking about doing. It's not fair.

"I love you." He tells me against my lips.

"I love you more." He smiles causing me to do so and he kisses me just once.

"Everyday I tell myself how lucky I am to have you."

"Are you only saying that because I landed Gucci?"

"Of course not. I mean that stuff is just the extra icing on the cake." He bites his lip and I swear nothing is sexier.

"You're so hot." He needs to know. "Like I'm not even kidding, you're so sexy." He chuckled. "Thank you for growing out your beard a little for me,"

"Anything for you."

I just gawk at him. Fuckkk.

"Are you ready for this baby shower thing?"

"I would much rather stay in bed and make out with you."

"Ditto." His mouth opens to mine again and I get lost in the journey. My eyes slowly lift open as he pulls away almost as if in slow motion. "Your phone is ringing,"

It is? I blink and that's when it blares in my ears. Shit, my man has me zoned TF out. I reach for it and am not surprised at all.

"Hey, mum."

"Are you busy?"

"Depends…"

"Are you setting up or is Ann?"

"Setting up for what?"

"Did you forget that your shower is today?"

"No, but I wasn't really gonna do much setting up. People from work are coming and I don't it to seem like I'm some stuck-up snob or show off."

"Oh boo-hoo, I'm coming over with my kit."

She hangs up on me and I slowly lower the phone from my ear. Stefan questions me what's wrong and I tell him that she's bringing the kit. Her party decoration kit, it's as valuable as a man's toolbox.

"I guess I better change,"

"What's wrong with what you have on now?"

I give him a look. I'm only wearing a bra and panties so I guess I see why he's not opposed. "Everyone's not ready for this jelly."

He laughs some and I smile walking into our closet. I want to wear something fitting but I realize that I have none of that unless I want to wear what I did to my gender reveal party. I wonder if one the red bodycon dresses that I got pre-pregnancy would work.

"Babe, can you help me?"

Stefan shortly walks in and I ask him to pull the dress down. It's a little snug but I'll deal. I'll just have to only stand so I don't tear it. Stefan compliments my body making me feel extra special and we go at it again with his hands over my ass. I move my hands up his shirt to remove it and he smiles before I attack his lips again. He walks backward and I follow after him over to the bed and suddenly I'm on my back. His hand slips into my dress and his nails softly rake my thighs as he pulls my black panties down. I count to ten then he's inside me and all the weight on my shoulders vanishes. He comes pretty quickly which I don't mind because my mom will be here soon.

When she does arrive, not ten minutes go by when I can't even recognize my own living room. It looks good like really good. She even got gold balloons and tired them to chairs and stickers that spelled out Elaye's name which she stuck to the far wall. A music box or whatever those old-school things are called playing old school songs on a CD. Oh, a CD player. Not a music box.

My Ann and her Lexington are obviously the first to arrive and five minutes later people start pouring in. I'm honestly surprised to see the majority of the office here, honestly but that means more gifts. I haven't seen Stefan since our guests arrived but I guess he's catching up with his friends. Speaking of I wonder if Frank is here and if he bought Amber. I go look but catch eyes with Damon and his family. I smile and make my way over. Of course, he comments on how huge I am but I hit him and tune him out. I cranked my neck when someone steps behind me and smile seeing it's my man. We all chat and are shocked when Damon announces that they are having a baby. I am super excited because I know that Damon wants that experience of raising a child and having one of his own so it's great to see it happening for him. I ask Danny how she feels and she's gladly excited and hopes she's getting a little sister. The house silences some hearing someone lightly tapping a glass with a fork or knife or whatever and I turn seeing it was my mom and she's making her way over here.

"Hello, everyone, I'm Bonnie's proud mother and I just want to say thank you for coming and quickly mention how excited I am to see my baby girl have a baby." I smile. "She may get mad at me for saying this," oh no, "but kids were never really on her mind and somewhere along the way, thankfully, it started to become a possibility and now it's finally happening and I couldn't be more happy with who it's happening with." I look over at Stefan seeing him smiling. "Stefan, I just want to say that I love you and I couldn't ask for a better son-in-law. You make my daughter happy and that's all a mother could want."

"It's my honor."

I look up at him and I'm happy when he kisses me because I wanted to kiss him.

"With that being said, I would like to welcome everyone into the living room for some quick games then we'll open gifts then you all can trickle out after eating."

I hold my man's hand then he pulls me in to hold me from behind as my mom explained the first game. It's boys versus girls so my women better win. I plugged my ears preparing for popping sound as people sat on balloons intending to pop them. It's actually pretty funny because you have no idea when they'll burst so the person is always in some type of shock. I bet though if I sit my ass on one, it would pop easily. I boo since the boys won the game but I have faith in my girls this next game.

I'm forcing Stefan to play this once since it requires diaper changing and I will not be the only one who—

"This challenge will be only against the parents so Bonnie, Stefan come over here."

We look at each other like it's on because we're both competitive people and just like my gender reveal my plan is to beat his fine ass.

"You ready to lose?"

"Are you talking to me because I never lose,"

He kisses me softening me some but I snap back into it. We have one minute to change as many diapers as we can. I have my mom countdown so I can stretch and be more focused and the second she said GO I was off. The trick is to never look at your opponent when it comes to games like these, stay focused on your shit and your shit only. You'll never get distracted and it keeps your head in the game. The minute is over and it really only felt like a second. My mom comes and counts and Stefan and I stare each other down.

"You're so fucking sexy." He says in my ear.

"Alright, it looks like we have a tie!"

"What?"

"Are you kidding me?"

"So the boys and girls get a point added to their score putting the guys in the lead. The next and last game gets two points so whichever team win wins the prize of all."

"Let's go, ladies," I clap several times and Stefan laughs at me.

"You sound like a coach."

And that's exactly how I'll act with this next game. Lacing your shoes up again with a balloon on your lap as if you're sporting a pregnant belly. It's three against three and on my team, we have Ann, Danny, and Janet (no comment). On Stefan's team, we have Damon, Jason, and Frank (yay he made it), I realize I'm cheering too much when Stefan massages my shoulders in hopes to calm me down so I just watching in anxious. I hate to say that it looks like it's anyone's game but it is. I hug Danny because she's surprisingly the first to finish although it makes sense because when I was younger I wore sneakers all the time thus forcing me to wash them meaning I needed to lace up my shoes from time to time. Stupid Damon is next and my Ann isn't far behind leaving it up to Janet. Jason finishes and I'm trying not to scream 'You bitch you better tie them fucking shoes!' so I resort to bouncing on my toes. When she puts the bunny ear through the hole I can't help but dance by bending my knees and shaking my ass. Jason was like a second later but we win! I actually hug her but then settle down because my boy is kicking the hell out of me. I tell people to look so they can see and I hear sounds of amazement and some of slight disgust? Grossness? Weirded out is probably better.

"He's upset because the girls won,"

People laugh making me want to crack another joke but I got nothing. I go to answer the door not really sure who was here but I guess better late than never?

My eyes basically fall out of their sockets. "James?! What are you doing here?"

"I think I was accidentally CC'd on the email but I thought it would be a nice surprise."

"Of course, where's K—"

"Oh she's back home, I'm leaving tomorrow so,"

"Yeah. Well welcome, come in." I step to the side and close the door as he stepped in. "You missed all the games but just in time for cake." I watch him smile.

He suddenly gets noticed then the work people somewhat crowd him so I leave to find Frank and see if Amber's here. My home is a lot more crowded than anticipated. I hear Stefan's laugh so I follow that and lo behold. But Frank is alone so I'm not really sure what that means.

"Bonnie,"

I turn hearing my name and a smile jumps on my face seeing her. We hug for a few seconds. "How have you been?" We pull away.

"Pretty great. Still not pregnant," we chuckle. "Uh but yeah things have been really good. Things with Frank are restored, we got engaged, we're moving in to—"

"Wait, what?!" I grab her hand and frown at the ring. Not because it's ugly but because it's beautiful. "Congratulations, so much good news today," I hug her.

"Bonnie, I am so sorry. So much shit was going on in my head and I didn't know how to fix it so naturally, I made it worse but you're my only true friend and I can't believe that I lost you and I still can't believe that you talked to me again. You were there for me when I was terrified to even utter the P word and you just made everything better. There's no way that I can express my gratitude, honestly."

"You just did." My eyes tear and she wipes the slippery ones away.

"Everyone grab a slice of cake while we open presents."

"Wait, mom, what about the reward for the ladies win? You said we get "all" what does that mean?"

"Oh," she leaves for a second then comes back with a bag.

I smile as she hands it to me but that drops from my face when I pull out the brand All laundry detergent. Stefan laughs a little too loudly and the rest of his stupid friends join in. If my mom wasn't here he'd be getting a very specific finger.

"It's OK, ladies, we'll split it on the weekends."

"That's fucking hilarious, oh my god,"

So he really wants me to hit him.

When everyone had their cake, Stefan and I sit down in front of the far wall of our living room and my mom hands us presents then writes down who gave us what for thank you letters. We receive so many cute clothes and diapers and wipes and my Ann gets us a stroller that is black and gold and I screamed. My mom actually gets us the car seat we wanted and I kiss her cheeks. I get a pumping machine— well not- yeah I guess it's a machine. Elaye gets some toys and books that his daddy's going to read to him. He gets blankets and cloths and these cute ass socks that look like shoes, I could die.

"Thank you so much, everyone, I don't want to cry but this means the world to us."

"Yes, definitely we're so grateful and cannot wait until our little baby boy comes into this world and show him to you all."

He moves his hand to my stomach and I top it with mine. I'm soooooo ready for my Elaye!

...

I swear I blacked out and now I'm officially a mother. There's a baby boy sucking on my nipple right now, I pushed him out of my— area and he cried loudly and I cried and Stefan cried and my mom cried and my mom-in-law cried and it was just a mess. But it's all because of my seven-pound baby. A chunky little cute ass baby and he's all mine! (And Stefan's).

"Is he finally latching?"

I look up at my husband. "Yeah, thankfully. He's like feeding non-stop now and I'm hungry."

He chuckled. "I'll feed you some fries."

"Three at a time," I open my mouth.

He shakes his head but feeds me my fries as instructed. "I'm so proud of you, babe."

"Can I get a Mercedes as a pushing gift?"

He chuckled. "You wish,"

"I do. Now go make my wish come true."

He rolled his eyes and fed me again more than likely to have me shut up for ten seconds. I look down at my angel and his eyes are closed but he's still feeding. I smile. I see Stefan pull out his phone so I keep looking at our little joy because I know he wants to take a photo so I let him.

"I'm so lucky." I look up at him and his eyes lift from his phone to me. "I don't know how to thank you."

"Thank me for what?"

"This life that we have together. It's fucking better than I could've ever imagined and it's just beginning."

"Just stay how you are, Stefan, and that's all the thanks I need." I lean in so he could kiss me.

...

Elaye is almost two days old now and my boobs are already ready to give up. Stefan says I should've been more willing to let him play with the sisters before I even got pregnant that way I would be used to it. I rolled my eyes but couldn't stop my mind from wondering if he actually has a point there. Anyway, he's finally cute enough for me to post a picture on my social of medias although I'm quite positive that Stefan already posted photos but that's beside the point.

We cannot decide who he looks like more so our moms are bringing in our baby photos so we can compare.

"Baby?"

"Yeah?"

"Can you help me to the bathroom?"

"Of course," He stands from the chair and places Elaye in his bassinet as I move the bed's mattress to help sit me up.

He takes my hand and we walk together to the bathroom. He pulls down my stretchy panties and I sit on the toilet. I honestly never thought that I would need help getting to the bathroom but here I am. I'm healing pretty well but the last thing I do is want to take a chance so I'm using him to my advantage for now. I squeeze the water from the bottle to clean myself and stand with Stefan's help. I exhale and we walk back to the bed. I lay my head down and close my eyes for a few seconds but open then to see Stefan lifting Elaye up before holding him close to his chest. I smile. He kisses his nose and talks to him lightly.

I wake up to laughter and see that our moms are here with pictures. I make myself known by moving and all eyes turn to me and lips stretch into smiles. My mom stands and kisses me on the forehead. "How are you feeling?"

"Really good actually, I was so tired."

"I'm glad you got some rest. We were just comparing photos,"

"Who does he look like?"

"His father, of course."

I chuckle. "I know he's really happy,"

"Can't stop smiling."

We both look over at him as he talking to his mom with a smile on his face. A part of me hated to think it but for some reason, I thought that I would regret having a baby. I didn't want one to begin with and I was OK with carrying him but to actually have him here I knew that I would love his heart and soul out but I would look at him and question. It's horrible but one thing's for sure, I'm glad that I don't actually feel that way. He's only two days old and I can't picture my life without him. I want to hold him.

Stefan turns and meets my eyes and we smile. I love him.

My mind is dizzy. Stefan still drives me dizzy. He kissed me just once but I pulled him in again which led to us making out for I don't know how long but I'm glad we weren't interrupted. He bites his bottom lip looking at my lips then meets our eyes. "Daddy,"

"Don't. I fucking love you just don't do that to me until I can fuck you again."

"On your motorcycle in the backyard."

"I promise." He kisses me. "Are you ready to go home?"

"Yes, I'm excited. My mom says she's baking cookies."

"Fuck yes,"

We laugh and he kisses me before going to get the car seat like he was going to do before our moment of passion. I miss him. I turn to our little Elaye and stop myself from picking him up because I don't want him spoiled so quickly. He's sleeping peacefully so I'll just stare at him. He looks like Stefan when he sleeps and it makes me chuckle. "My little man," I love him so much.

When Stefan comes back I stay gazing at our son.

"I can literally see the love in your eyes," Stefan says and I snap out of it for a second to see him smiling at me and I smile back before resuming my gawking.

"He's perfect, Stefan."

"Of course he is, he's our son."

"He's our son. We have a baby,"

"We have a baby," he kisses me twice. "I love you."

"I love you more." I kiss him.

There are two knocks on the door and the guy comes in to check out the car seat. Stefan starts packing some more as he's out doing that and I decide to change into some normal clothes. I've been lazy when it came to clothes but I guess that needs to change. No more sliding my sleeves through a cloth and being on my merrily way.

"Damn, gurl,"

"What?"

"Your ass in dem jeans."

"Shut up," If he was closer I would've hit him. "You're stupid."

"Let me just," he walks up to me and grabs two handfuls. His eyes lower to my cleavage.

"No."

"Shit, babe, how am I supposed to make it?"

"Like I said poopy diapers and crying fits." I kissed him. "We'll do fine." I hope.

We turn our attention to the door when there are knocks and it's the guy with the car seat. He gives us the aye OK which I wasn't worried about at all since my mom actually bought the one on the registry. Stefan kisses me once we're alone but I pull back before I found my back on the hospital bed. "Go take our stuffs to the car,"

"One more kiss," I lick his nose then kiss him once. "Tease, such a tease." He slaps my ass then does as I told.

...

This is going to be one of the hardest anniversaries ever. Four years today I've been with my Stefan and my life has changed so much for the better and I'm forever grateful for him and everything that came and is coming with him. I'm also grateful that our Elaye is with us making it that much more beautiful and special. I sit up in bed as the door opens and I smile seeing my man holding a cake that's lit with candles.

"Four years, baby,"

"Four years, baby."

We close our eyes and blow out the candles together then kiss.

"Bonnie Salvatore," we smile, "you- I-" fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck he's tearing up. My throat starts burning and my heart is pounding and my eyes are watering.

I pull him in hugging him and he holds me so close like I would ever be stupid enough to slip away. He's crying making me cry and we're both just a mess. I am honestly the luckiest bitch in the entire world because I have a man that loves me so much it put him to tears. I turn my head to kiss the side of his neck multiple times and he turns his head to kiss me. We keep our lips together for five seconds then he peppers my lips with kisses holding my face. Our foreheads meet.

"You are my everything."

"I'm yours forever."

"Promise me."

"I promise."

I look into his eyes so he can see my promise is true.

...

Stefan tells me that he'd be making dinner for us tonight and I gladly accepted it. The last thing a woman really wants to do is cook on an anniversary. Stefan and I talk as Elaye's feeding and he's doing the cooking. We run over past memories and happy times that we've shared these past four years. It weird to think that it's only been four years. I mean saying it, four years seem like a long time but actually living it, it seemed like no time at all. And I have a feeling that time would fly even faster now that we have Elaye. He will be the time that we can actually see and look at him when he's fifteen years old and remember back when he was five days old.

"What's in your mind?" Stefan so famously asks me.

"Time,"

He smiles a little. I close my eyes as he walks up to me and he chuckles before kissing me. I wanted kisses. I open my eyes and he moves his hand to the side of my face and my shoulders slump. I loooooooooooveeeee him!

"I love you." He tells me.

"I love you more. I'm so in love with you."

He meets our lips again this time for like ten seconds.

When dinner is ready, Stefan takes hold of our son and we sit next to each other. Our Vernon comes and joins us in the kitchen, laying by my feet. I start to pet him with my foot as I start on this meal. It was his famous pasta which I love so much that I'm surprised that I didn't crave it when I was with child. Fat pasta and extra cheese topped with basil. I couldn't think of a better meal to celebrate our lives together.

...

Elaye Bennett Salvatore, the light of my fucking life, the apple of my damn eye. I can't get over how perfect he is. His cone head is thankfully no longer, and straight black hair lightly covers his head. His skin is like Stefan's for now but his ears are darkening a smidge so we'll see. His eyes green (yahhs!) and eyelashes for days which he got from my mom. The lining of his brows are Stefan's which I don't exactly mind because boys with bushy, tamed eyebrows are cool. His nose is a mixture of ours and his mouth is thankfully mine. I say that because Stefan has lips but I have LIPS.

All he does is sleep though which is boring. He's up for a good two, three hours tops then he's gone for like two then wakes up only to eat then he's out again. I am able to get some rest though but I catch myself just watching him sleep. His calm breaths make me calm and I sometimes place my hand over his heart so I can feel it's thumping. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him more than anything and I never thought I'd think that because kids were never on my agenda.

I look up and smile seeing Stefan calmly walking in. "How was work?"

"Pretty good. I missed you both so much." He kisses me.

"We missed you too." I kiss him and he stands straight to take off his tie. "Babe?"

"Yeah?"

"I don't think I can have another baby."

"Wait, wha— what do you mean, is everything okay?"

"No, my heart- I love him so much and I will fight anyone and do anything for him, I can't take another. My heart, it'll just be too much."

"Baby, listen, your heart can take all the love it can get. Rather it is one more or five more, it can do it."

"No,"

"Yes. Who's your everything? Tell me,"

"Elaye. And you too."

"See, remember when it was just me? I bet you never thought you'd love someone as much as you do me, I know I sure as hell thought that way of you then we have a baby and our heart welcomes it. Right?" I nod. "I love you. And like you said, we'll wait a year and maybe then he'd start being a little annoying so your heart will definitely be able to take another major love in your life."

I chuckle. "You always know what to say. I love you too."

We kiss several times and I watch him undress. Three more weeks left but I think I just want to wait an extra week just to be safe. I, however, have a six week check-up so I'll just ask about it then and then my nerves would calm.

"Anything special for dinner?" He asks inside the closet.

"I was thinking steak and salad unless you have another idea?"

He doesn't respond so I'm guessing that's good? I look over and our little El is waking up. I smile and hold him in my arms as his eyes look up at me. I caress his face then lean down to meet our foreheads and softly rock but I stop not wanting him to go back to sleep just yet.

"Babe?"

I lift my head. "What?"

"Did you hear anything I said?" He's smiling so I'm happy he's not mad at me.

"Define 'anything',"

He chuckles and walks over to the bed. "I was saying how I talked to my mom and she really missed those first two weeks when she stayed with us," no offense but I didn't. It's not that I didn't appreciate the help because I really did but I hate being told what to do when it comes to my child. Advice? Sure. Little tricks? Give it to me. But watching over my every move every day and moving my hand not even an inch to secure his head (hoe I got his head) just to get the last word is what bothered the hell out of me. Anyway. "so she was wondering if she could stay for another week. It doesn't have to be this week but what do you think will be good for you?"

How do I say this kindly? "Uh I don't know right now I don't think I need the help. I like it just being the two of us during the day. Maybe like next month or something, I don't know,"

He watches me for a beat. "Okay."

Fuck. He knows. But at the same time, I don't care. But it's not just her, it's my own mom too but with her, she would leave after a few hours so I could tolerate her a lot more.

"How are you feeling, are you depressed or anything like that?"

He was always so concerned about the post-partum for some reason. "No, I'm happy."

"I'm just making sure because you hide things like that from me."

"I'm fine, babe, I promise." I kiss him.

"Okay," he hugs me. "I missed you so much. I keep walking by your office and you're not there. I have to settle for Ann." We chuckle. "People always ask about you too I should just post pictures on the fridge so people can see our little one." I smile. He pulls away and lifts him from my lap. "I missed you too, buddy, daddy loves you so much." He kisses his head. I take a mental picture. Okay. So maybe just one more.

A/N: Fin. Thank you all so much for reading I had a great time writing this!

Until next time!

XO

Ashlyne