She cried her self to sleep, I lay her down on the couch I see in the room and I call Rachel and Quinn. I look at her until I hear knocks at the door, I open and they enter.
"What's happening?" Rachel asks and then they see Santana asleep.
"What have you done?" Quinn asks.
"Nothing she fell asleep. There's a chance we can stay here tonight?"
"Finn told me his parents are gonna be here early, he's already cleaning everything he can"
"Quinn?"
"My parents are at home"
"I don't wanna bring her at her house, what if her parents wake up?"
"They love you Britt, they'll be happy you're the one who brought her home" Quinn says.
"Are you going to take her at yours?" Rachel asks. Well I can, she already stayed there.. But if I bring her to mine when I'll wake up I'll be alone for sure, if we're at her house maybe she'll stay.
"No I'll bring her to her house, can you bring here my car? It's just a few house away" Rachel nods taking my keys "do you need a lift?" I ask to Quinn.
"No I'm fine. She cried?" She asks me while looking at Santana's face.
"Yeah" we didn't say anything else.
"Your car is outside" Rachel says entering the room "do you need a hand? I can call Finn"
"No it's fine, can you just come and open the doors for me?"
I take Santana bridal style and I walk outside with Rachel, I see Lara looks at me, I can see in her eyes that she's disappointed. Once outside I place her in the front seat, I lay it down a bit so she wouldn't fall or be uncomfortable. I turn the car on and I drive to her house.
What's gonna happen tomorrow when she'll wake up? I know one thing, this time she'll listen to me and she won't run away. I park outside her house and I take her keys from her bag, I open the door and I come back to take her. I bring her upstairs to her room and a light turns on.. Fuck..
"Santana?" Maribel comes outside her room "oh Brittany, is she ok?"
"Yeah she fell asleep"
"Is she drunk?"
"I don't know, she drank, but I don't know how much"
"Stay here tonight, I don't wanna you drive this late. And thank you, for taking care of her" she smiles and comes back into her room.
I enter Santana's room laying her down on her bed, I look around, should I change her? I would no one to see me undressed with me unconscious , but I would let her now, and Rachel obviously. She'll freak out anyway tomorrow! I take a shirt and pair of shorts from her dresser and leave them on her bed.. I take her shoes off her feet, I take her back and I make her sit lifting her dress, she stirs a bit and I stop, I put her shirt on and I lay her back down on the bed. After I had put her shorts on I cover her with her sheets, I take my shoes and jeans off and I lay down on her bed too, but above the covers, I don't want her to think we did something else than the kiss.
The morning.
I slowly wake up, I blink my eyes and then everything comes back to me, I suddenly turn to Santana but her side's empty, I look up and then close my eyes, leaving a heavy breath.. What I was expecting? I knew it already.
"I'm here" I hear and I immediately sit up, she's on her chair near her desk looking at me.
"Ehy.. do you remember -"
"Yeah" I thin my lisp looking at her, and now? I know I told she would have listened to me this time, but I don't know what to say!
"Thank you for staying"
"It's not I was gonna go away from my house"
"Yeah" I knew it "that's what you do better"
"Just because you're gay it doesn't mean everybody else is too"
"'Cause if they were it would be wrong right?"
"It's not about right or wrong it's just.. It's just not"
"Oh wow that's an explanation!"
"Fuck you"
"Why did you kiss me?"
"I told you I didn't mean to"
"Don't even try, you wanted and you kissed me back yesterday so what?"
"I don't wanna talk anymore" she says.
"No, now we're gonna talk, you've to talk to me, so talk!"
"If I don't wanna talk I won't!" She shouts.
"Fine!" Fastly, almost in one motion I stand up and I take her for her thighs, lifting her up from the chair and sitting her up on her desk, I place my self between her legs and I kiss her. My hands stay under her thighs while hers are on my shoulders, I thought she was gonna pushing me away, but she didn't "why did you cry?" I ask her almost whispering against her lips.
"Brittany I shouldn't -" I kiss her again, I don't wanna hear stupid things like she doesn't want this, 'cause she does.
"Please" I look at her.
"I-I-I can't" she looks down. I raise her face with my hand.
"Please don't push me away, we can talk about it when you're ready, you don't have to run away from me San, I'm here" she hugs me and I hug her back.
I don't know how much we stayed like this, we broke the hug when Maribel comes upstairs looking for us. She knocks at the door asking us to join them for breakfast, I look at Santana and then I put my pants on. We go downstairs in the kitchen and sit, Maribel is cooking something meanwhile Santana takes a glass of orange juice, Robert is drinking a coffee and I don't know what to do. Santana takes another glass of juice and offers it to me, then Maribel gives us the pancakes.
"We need to discuss something" Maribel says looking at Santana, Robert looks up from the journal he was reading "you were at a party yesterday and it's ok, but the way you came home it wasn't" Santana looks at me "how much did you drink?" Robert leaves the journal on the table.
"What're you talking about?" He asks.
"She was drunk"
"I was not" Santana says.
"You weren't awake and she had to take you upstairs, how do you explain it?"
"I fell asleep, I drank but I was not drunk"
"How can you fell asleep at a party?" Robert asks, Santana looks at me again.
"I fought with Quinn and then I went into a room to be alone and I fell asleep, Brittany must have found me there"
"Well that doesn't make me feel better, what if it wasn't Brittany who found you? You're grounded" Maribel says.
"What?"
"You heard me, be more responsible Santana, I don't wanna ever see something like that again clear?"
"Fine" she hisses walking to her room leaving us.
"I'm gonna take my things and then I'll go home" they nod and I go upstairs, her door is closed so I knock.
"What do you want?"
"I need to take my things" I open the door and she's on her bed "are you ok?"
"I'm fucking fine"
"Santana"
"No Brittany everything you do it brings me problems so just stop"
"Can we not fight for 5 minutes?"
"Apparently not"
"We weren't fighting when we were kissing" she becomes tense, how to make her uncomfortable in 2 seconds!
"Stop it, stop talking about it"
"Why? 'Cause it'll make it real? It happened, it's already real Santana, you just have to admit it to your self"
"Admit what? That I'm gay?"
"No, I don't know what you are, it doesn't matter, that's something you've to figure out, but just say it, we kissed and you liked it"she stays silent, I get closer to her and she looks at me, but still silent, I sit near her and place my hand on her knee "it's ok, nothing'd change, who is your friend would still be your friend, your parents are gonna still love you the same and you wouldn't waste your time with people you don't really want. Do you wanna tell me what's scaring you this much?"
"I can't be gay"
"Why?"
"'Cause I can't"
"Tell me why, what's wrong with being gay?"
"Nothing, it's just.. Not everyone's gonna accept that"
"Quinn's my friend and your parents are fine about it, where's the problem?"
"I'm talking about other people, at school, they're gonna be awful to me, they're gonna call me names and things like that and I don't want to, I worked so hard to be on the top and it'll all disappear. You're coming closer and Quinn's already asking questions, what if the others are gonna notice too?"
"Why do you care?" I ask.
"Because I do"
"You shouldn't, I hear them, what they call me but I don't care, they're just people who doesn't know me. You were one of them Santana, you called me names and now looks at us.. Who's really your friend won't say anything bad about you, don't let them put you down, you come first. They're gonna talk anyway, if it's not about being gay is something else"
"You make it easy. People talk and do things, not only at our school, I mean outside there"
"I know, but private life it's called private for a reason, you don't have a sign on your head that says "I'm gay" Santana, but this's another story, before that you should be comfortable with your self. Is that why you act in that way at school?"
"Yeah if they fear me they leave me alone"
"I don't scare anyone and they leave me alone too" she looks at me "you need to learn how to not care about what other people think about you, once have done that you'll be happy and they'll even leave you alone 'cause you're not gonna care about their judgments and if doesn't work you can alway scare them away" I smile to her "liking girls isn't gonna change you"
"Why are you so sweet to me? I was nothing that a bitch to you"
"Yeah but now I understand"
"What do you understand?" She asks.
"Why you act like a bitch, you wear your bitch mask when people're around you 'cause you're scared they'd see you, but when I started to know you, you slowly learned to take it off and I can tell you that you're not a bitch"
"How can you say it when I keep you pushing away?"
"'Cause you're worth it" we look at eachother, her eyes soften at my sight, they're so dark and deep, she looks down at my lips a second and then again up to my eyes. She starts to lean in carefully like, I smile when I can almost feel her lips on mine and then she kisses me, it's not eager like the others, more sweet and slow.
Just our lips taking one another, changing the angle of our heads, she's exploring and discovering, we already made out but there's no rush, kisses like these can be really amazing. She then leads back and looks at me.. She doesn't run or freak out, just looking at me.
"How do you feel?" I ask.
"I wanna cry again" she whispers.
"Why?"
"'Cause it feels good" she says and I smile.
I wanna thank you all for your reviews CMlove2123, 15solo, StephaniieC, brittanastory1, caroloveles, Guests, GundamBrittana, Minduba and mmaarr22 you're amazing, I love you so much! And obviously also thank you for keep following :) What do you think about this one? I needed Santana to open up a bit to Brittany.. Sorry for my mistakes ..