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Bella (POV)

I never thought I that I would depend so much on an object. Ever since I came back home my phone has become my lifeline. It was my one connection to Edwa-something, the only thing that could link me to him. Since we no longer had the luxury of being in the same house, we had to rely on our phones to keep in contact. His voice wasn't enough though. I needed his arms, his smile, his smell, and most of all the way I felt when he held me. Fuck I missed it all, I wanted it all. I used to make fun of the girls who claimed they needed their boyfriends like they needed air. Hell, I even swore to myself if I ever became like them, I would shoot myself. Give me the gun, I'll do it. Nah, I'm too chicken shit to do it.

Since I had no boyfriend to distract me, I have put all my time into my work since I was seriously falling behind schedule. Just yesterday I submitted my new story in for editing and I am now currently waiting for their thoughts. Meaning I don't have anything to do and no one to bug for my own entertainment. I haven't seen Jasper and Alice in weeks, Emmett is too busy fucking Rosalie, and Poncho went to Mexico to visit the rest of his family. I would call someone else but they get annoying after a while and my nerves are so on edge that I might end up killing one of them. And I highly doubt I'll get away with it, meaning I'll go to jail, and become the bitch of a woman named Beef. As appealing as that sounds, I am a one man kind of girl now. Wow, who would have thought that I would stop my promiscuous ways? I try not to dwell on it much because it just reminds me that I haven't gotten any dick in two months. It's been two months since I came home meaning two months without Edwa-something. These two months have not been fun.

After doing my usual morning routine which consisted of showering, changing, doing my hair and all that shit, I went downstairs to get me food. My stomach was loudly protesting the lack of food it had as I walked into the kitchen. I searched all the cabinets, looked through the refrigerator, and went on my knees in search of crumbs on the floor, but I found nothing. "Fucking Emmett," I muttered angrily. Of course my brother had to eat all the food. Jackass didn't even bother going grocery shopping to replace all the food he probably inhaled.

Or maybe he did …

I went through the kitchen again, but instead of hunting for food I hunted for a note. After wasting thirty minutes of my life – minutes I will never get back – searching for a stupid note, that may or may not exist, I lost all hope. But then I realized something. This is Emmett we're talking about, were would he put a note? I looked in the cookie jar, the freezer, I even checked the vegetable bin, but then I smacked myself in the head because Emmett would never go near anything healthy. I was going to give up when I realized that there was one place I didn't check.

I walked to the microwave and opened it. I groaned when I saw the note, thinking about how much time I wasted on a little piece of paper. I grabbed the note and opened it, revealing a short message in messy scrawl.

Dear my lovely sister/pain in my ass,

I ate all the food. I knew that I could have done the right thing by getting more food but then I said nah and headed over to my Rosie's house. An option that would benefit me and my member. So I have left you the task on getting more food! You should feel very honored right now, little sis. So go off and get your ass to the grocery store and get me food cause I'm going to be hungry later.

Do not fail the mission!

The most handsome man on the earth/your brother/sex-on-a-stick/body to die for – your brother Emmett.

I shook my head in anger, but without my control, a chuckle escaped me. I was seriously considering not getting food, knowing that I could last much longer without food than he could, but decided against it. It's not like I had anything to do anyway. Even though I was sort of angry at Emmett I quickly understood that there was no point, and besides I didn't have the energy to be mad at him. Once I got in my car and drove off to the market, I remembered that Edwa-something hasn't called me. What's the dealio? He usually calls me every day. My mind came up with several disturbing ideas as to why he didn't call so I simply decided to ignore them. I needed to trust him, and besides I need my space and he needs his. Surely I can go one day without speaking to him…right? Oh geez I sound pathetic! I just need to focus on getting food and then the day will be over before I know it.

Parking my car, I could have sworn I saw a very familiar car in the parking lot. I focused more on the car and almost gasped when I saw the model of the car. Should I leave? Taking another quick glance at the car, I took a deep breath and exited my car. It probably wasn't even him. With my head held high, I squared my shoulders, and marched to the automatic doors. I was going through the numerous aisles when I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. Looking at the screen, I read the caller id, and smiled.

Jac-o-something (POV)

Okay so I got enough cereal to last me a fucking lifetime, so what's left? I can't cook to save my life so I rely on cereal and microwaveable stuff.

I drove to the market as soon as I saw that I was dangerously low on food.

I was looking at all the food I couldn't cook when I heard a familiar voice. A voice that I hated yet desperately wanted to hear again.

"Hey babe," Bella said.

Babe? I walked towards her voice but I soon came to an abrupt stop when I saw her in the chip aisle. I went on the other side of the aisle so that she couldn't see me but I could still hear her voice.

"You know I missed you too…yea?... actually do you want to know what I want?... I want to feel you against me; I want to fall asleep in your arms." My stomach tightened, my hands clenched, and my heart raced. I wanted to scream, yell, and direct all my anger at anything in reach, but I had to keep calm. I listened to the rest of the conversation as I followed her around the super market. There were several close calls, but I managed to remain hidden. By the sounds of it Bella was in a relationship. She was in a relationship that didn't involve me. Bella was supposed to be with me, she was supposed to be my girlfriend. What, was I not good enough? And who was this guy anyway? During the whole conversation she never said his name, never gave any information that would lead me to his identity.

The more she talked to him the angrier I became. She spoke with such affection and happiness, as if he was her world. I wanted to be her world, but she wouldn't let me, she wouldn't even give us a try. Her words hurt me the day she said she wanted nothing to do with me. I have never been rejected before so I wasn't used to the feeling, making it that much harder. I was never interested in relationships, truthfully I never wanted one, I never saw the draw. But with Bella, it was different. I could almost see our future together. We would have been perfect.

Bella had everything I wanted in a girl. She was feisty, stuck up for herself, she was so damn beautiful, was great in bed, and she had so much more to offer.

I tried to convince her about being with me with phone calls and messages. I never received a reply, leaving me to wonder if she even read them. I called her in the hopes of making her mine, only to have her turn me down – reject me. I was so angry, so naturally I told her off and hung up. But ending the phone call didn't end the pain or pacify the anger I felt.

I did my best to forget about her, I did, but she was always in the back of my mind. As sick as it is I even thought about her when I was with other women. I always wished I was inside her, making her scream my name, but then I would blink, revealing some random girl who will never mean anything to me. It was even harder to forget about her when I saw her talk with Poncho.

I wish I could I say I would rather be her friend then be nothing at all, but I just can't do it. I know I would always think about her in a more than friend's way and I don't think I could be around her if she was with someone else. Even now, knowing that someone had the right to call her his girlfriend made me so angry and jealous. If I were her friend how would I handle these emotions without going fucking insane? I couldn't, I would go mad and who knows what I would do.

I watched Bella as she smiled and laughed, holding the phone tightly to her ear. I could have been that guy, the one who made her happy, and I can still be that guy. I had a few tricks up my sleeve that will surely have Bella under my arm in no time. I just needed some more information on her boyfriend.

Bella (POV)

I was unloading all the groceries into the trunk of my car when I heard Edwa-something sigh into the phone. "Hey what's with the sad noises?" I asked hoping to cheer him up in some way. I mean I wasn't exactly happy with the distance between us, and I often bitched about it, but I didn't want to waste the time we had with things we couldn't change.

"I just – I miss you Bella. My heart practically beats out of my chest when I see someone with brown eyes or brown hair – it's maddening. My arms feel empty with you to hold, and my body especially misses you when I try to sleep. Home doesn't feel like home anymore, home is where you are, I should be with you. I love you Bella." Edwa-something told me into the phone, his voice soft and tired.

I opened the door to my car and got inside. I sat down and let his words fill my head. If only he realized how much I missed him too, that I also needed him. "I miss you so much. Having you here was so amazing; since you're gone I became conscious of the fact that I took your presence for granted. Most of all, I miss your smile. Every single time I managed to make you smile, I felt like I was worth something."

Edwa-something let out a breath, "Bella you are worth so much. You are my everything, my all."

My heart felt like it was being squeezed as I let out a ragged breath. I didn't like where this conversation was going, I was never good at all this emotional stuff. It was all becoming too much. I ran my hand through my hair in hopes that it would soothe my nerves, but to no avail. My nerves were still in their all time high. It's not that I didn't like his sweet words; it's just that I wasn't use to them. Never in my life have I ever truly mattered to someone, and honestly it felt nice.

Fuck I'm losing my edge.

"Bella you know I want nothing more than to talk to you for hours but I have to go, okay?" I nodded event though he couldn't see me and told him I will talk to him later. He ended his goodbye with an 'I love you' and I ended mine with a dirty comment.

Edwa-something (POV)

Work was becoming more and more stressful. I never loved my job, not even close, but I still felt a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day. Work was the one thing that showed I could be somewhat social, that I could sort of be normal. But then things started changing. My job suddenly became tiring and with everyday that passed, my resentment towards it grew. The only place I wanted to be at was with Bella, in her home, and preferably in her room. I wanted to hold her, kiss her, touch her, and feel her everywhere. For some reason Bella was hesitant about having sex with me. Although I am nervous, since I never have done it before, I want Bella to be my first, and my last. Perhaps, overtime, Bella will love me as much as love her and that will be the day we both make love for the first time. I know I am far from being Bella's first but I know I will be the first person she ever makes love to.

I was leaving my office when I bumped into Tanya. "Oh, I'm so s –," She stopped speaking when she realized who I was. Tanya ran off, her eyes wide with horror. After the confrontation with Bella, Tanya hasn't said one word to me and has done her best to avoid any type of contact. No I don't miss her, but I have begun to feel sorry for her. I often see her looking behind her shoulder every now and then, almost as if she is waiting for Bella to come after her again. It appears that Bella has scarred Tanya for life, not only emotionally, but physically as well. Her face had several cuts and bruises after the fight, but that is not what bothered Tanya the most. Tanya threw a huge tantrum when she found out that she would have a permanent bump on her nose. Poor girl, her appearance has always been everything to her. Rumors have spread around the office saying that she is going to have the bump surgically fixed. Which I think is quite drastic, since although the bump is big, it's not necessary because if you squint your eyes, turn you head, then close your eyes completely, and imagine that the bump is gone, then it's like nothing happened!

The bruises have healed but some scratches have healed and become scars, which again, heavily angered Tanya to the point of a fit. I expected her to be angry at me and make my life hell, but she has done the exact opposite. She completely ignores me. When she sees me walking down the hall, she walks the other way. When I walk into the lunch room, she walks out. When we are forced to talk to each other, she speaks quietly and chooses her words carefully. The whole situation is rather odd.

I made it to my house shortly after leaving the office and I quickly walked inside. I sighed as I walked in my empty apartment, feeling lonelier than ever. I never missed the company of others because I never experienced it and the idea of such a thing use to scare me, but now I knew what it felt like. Now I know that I can actually enjoy someone's company, and even want it. Bella showed me all of that.

Walking past the kitchen I heard my stomach growl so I made myself a sandwich and walked to my bedroom. After I finished I placed my empty plate on my nightstand causing me to see the picture of Bella I had there. It was the picture of her that Alice sent me so long ago. If only I realized how important she would be to me back then, then I would have had her so much sooner. But I can't dwell on that because it would only anger me of how much time I had wasted. I looked at her picture again, marveling at the beauty it held in one frame, but it couldn't compare to the real thing. Smiling sadly, I went to bed and fell into a deep sleep, thinking about my love.

I woke up the next day only to find out that I had a wet dream about Bella. I was very disappointed that it wasn't real. What I wouldn't give for it to be real. I wanted to touch her in intimate places and vice versa. My body ached to feel her hot body pressed against mine, as we connected in places only lovers connect.

My mouth turned down into a frown when I realized I needed to take another cold shower. In the shower as I washed my body, a thought came to mind, making me smile.

Bella (POV)

"Bella, hold still, will you?" Alice asked impatiently as she finished painting my last toenail. I was so desperate for human interaction that I went to my last resort: Alice. "There, it's all done and I must say your feet have never looked prettier."

"There feet Alice, how attractive can they be?"

"Just take my compliment!"

"Fine, but don't expect me to do yours." I told her, crossing my arms.

Alice pouted, "Why?"

Holding back a smile I said, "Because your feet are scary. Seriously, they are so funky looking." Alice's eyes widened as soon as the word came from my mouth. Using her flexibility, Alice grabbed her foot and held it up to her face.

Her eyes looked like they were on the verge of tears as she examined her foot, "Really?"

Losing all of my control I burst out laughing. You should have seen her facial expression! I held on to my sides as they started to hurt, but the pain was so worth it. Alice huffed as she stood up and walked to my bed. She grabbed my pillow and came back so she could immediately start hitting me with it. I ran away from her and grabbed a pillow for myself. Pillow in hand, I ran to her and smacked her in the face with it.

She rubbed the right side of her face and screamed, "You bitch!"

"If you can't take it wuss then leave!" I said, knowing that she wouldn't back down from the challenge. She didn't disappoint me. We were in the middle of a huge pillow fight when Emmett walked in.

"What the hell! You guys were having a pillow fight without me?" He accused. Alice and I both stopped what we were doing and looked at each other. When the silent message between us ended we both threw our pillows at Emmett, one hitting his face, the other his crotch. "I will get you guys back, but it will have to wait. Bella someone is here for you!" He winked and walked off. Alice looked at me and shrugged before she started picking up all the nail polish bottles off the floor.

"Come on; let's see who is at the door!" Alice ran off before I could reply. I ran after her and towards the front door. She was about to open it when I ran at warped speed, and I pushed her out of the way, causing her to fall to the ground. "Hey!" Alice complained as she rubbed her ass, moaning.

"You'll get over it." I replied, opening the door. There in all his hotness, was my fucking boyfriend! I screamed in utter delight as I hugged him. He chuckled as he held me closer to him, spinning us around in my front lawn. I quickly grabbed his face and kissed him with everything in me, needing him to know how much I missed him, because I did.

"What happened to our girl time?" Alice whined from somewhere.

"Go molest Jasper or something, "I suggested before kissing Edwa-something again. We both moaned in satisfaction as our tongues met. I wrapped my legs around him then he held me up by putting his hands on my ass. Only my dreams has he touched my ass, of course in dreams he was also taking be from behind but you know…

"I love you Bella," he whispered before he reconnected our lips again. With his lips on mine everything felt like it would be alright, all I needed was him to make my life worth living.

Jac-o-something (POV)

I sat in my car, watching them. I saw when he knocked on the door, with a smile on his face, as he waited for someone to open the door. I saw when she opened the door looking so damn happy when she realized it was him. I saw when she hugged him, when he hugged her back like she was his everything. I saw when they kissed. I saw when she wrapped her legs around him, letting him grab her well-rounded ass. I saw it all.

I saw him touching what was mine. Something had to be done about this and soon.

Did you think Jacob was gone for good? Well he isn't, he has something planned to shake up Bella's and Edwa-something's world. Can they handle it?

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