Esha Napoleon, thank you, XD. redsandman99, yeah, me too. She didn't need to be. Dark Fae Angel, Jeff muse: I can't get preggers. I had my tubes tied. Matt muse: You're a boy. Boys don't have tubes. Jeff muse: Well, then how do you explain boys getting preggers in here, mister 'I know it all'? Matt muse: (sighs) Jeff, let it go. Edge muse: Yes, please? For the sake of my sanity? Mor muse: (scoffs) In here? That don't count for much. Terrah: Hey, watch it, mister. Jeff muse: (huffs loudly and stomps foot) You're not being fair to me! I want a baby with my Addy. Edge muse: Doesn't it matter what I want? Mor/Jeff muses: No! Edge muse: (folds arms and pouts) Yes, all that basically it in a nutshell, lol. P.S. No, not killed.. but I doubt it's gonna happen. Jeff muse: There's no way me an' Addy can has baby if I gets preggers. I top Addy and Imma stay a top b/c I say so and it would just make no sense. Mor muse: (looks over at Edge) So apparently Jeff is on his period this week? Edge muse: (not commenting on account of him being killed) Jeff muse: (growls) Come, Addy.. (drags Edge away) We'll just hafta try again. Edge muse: (whimpering) Help me.. JoMoFan-spot, chp 19, 'Sold' does seem to be running a 'point/counter point' here. Esp when it comes to who Adam should be with and who's love for who really matters. My concern is more Adam, as it always is, and making sure he's where he should be. After-all, the story is about him. I see what you're saying about Randy.. sheesh, when I first started this everyone was concerned I'd leave Matt out... Oddly, I think threesomes can work.. but that's to be debated another time. Chp 20, I dun really want my Jeff muse preggers at all. He's hell to deal with now. I dunno, I like my Jeff's psychoticness. Usually when people look at Jeff Hardy they see some sweet little innocent victim. But when I look at him, I wonder what he's hiding (Fae got me started on that deal.. something about bodies and it always being the quiet ones..) I see someone who looks like they could snap at any second. Amy was only there to give Adam some clarity. It may or may not have been the clarity he needed. That and I just wanted to give her a chance to tell her side of the story. But, you have a good point. Randy muse seems to feed off your points. I feel about the same way w/ Edge when it comes to fics. Like his lawyer, always defending him, lol. Matt muse: Tattoo would'a been done, but out of all the things that exist in this head, there's no tattoo parlor. Terrah: (blinks) Really? That's strange. Matt muse: And I don't think Jeff would let someone else look at Edge's ass long enuff to do it. Terrah: Hm? I'm sure Jeff'll figure something out.. as soon as it crosses his mind again that is... LegacyChick, I know. It seems frustrating to Randy that he can never get Adam. Poor guy. And my Randy muse is insane.. sadly, he's proud of that ;) Seraphalexiel, oh, I watch reruns early every morning on TNT. You're actually my counter point to JoMoFan, & I get where you're both coming from. KakashiXIrukaLover, yeah, that's prolly the truth. Update would'a actually been sooner, but I was too lazy to type it out :P BellaHickenbottom, lol. I don't think Randy's confident at all about it. And I still agree :)
Sold to a Hardy;
Chapter twenty-one/ 'Past Faults'
Rated; M/ L (a somewhat of a violent theme, 'plot' to kidnap)
Adam told Randy all about the conversation he had with Amy and Shannon. Randy listened as a friend would. Silently noting to himself how all it had accomplished was stressing the blonde out more. Due to this, Randy seemed compelled to leave out his encounter with Matt.. At least for the time being.
"It's all my fault.. It's my fault. This whole damn thing." Adam went on, pacing the floors.
"Adam, please.." Randy said softly.
"All I had to do was not let her seduce me.. but, no.. No no no! I had to be a clueless bastard!"
Randy sighed, watching the distraught blonde pace, grabbing at his hair as he muttered something incoherent.
Adam whimpered and flopped down on the edge of the bed. "How couldn't I have known? How can I be so stupid? Stupid stupid stupid.."
"Adam, this isn't your fault, okay? What's done is done. It's over." Randy tried to reason with him.
Adam's head was in his hands, his long golden locks falling over in front of his face.
"Adam, come on, doll. Just calm down." Randy sat down beside him and carefully reach over to wrap an arm around Adam's shoulders.
Adam looked up and forward. "I deserved it, Randy. All of it.. I.." The blonde swallowed. "I deserve.."
"Oh, don't even give me that bullshit, Adam. No one deserves what Matt Hardy has put you through. Okay, fine. You fucked up. People do." Randy said, motioning to nothing in particular with his left hand. "They make mistakes and I'm not saying it was right. But what you did wasn't the worst thing you could have done. You're not at fault here." The brunette said soothingly, squeezing the blonde's shoulders gently. "Matt's the one at fault. Matt's the one that spent four years dragging it out and dwelling on the past. Matt's had no right to have been this vengeful.."
Adam shook his head. "No, Randy.. I.."
"He raped you, Adam. Raped you, okay? Don't sit here and act like what he did was justified, man. Even if.." Randy swallowed thickly. "Even if Matt loved you back then.. he couldn't possibly still love you to have put you through that shit. You don't put someone you love through that kind of torture."
Adam fell silent. He just stared forward, biting on his thumb nail like that would solve his problems.
"I love you, Adam." Randy whispered, nuzzling his face next to Adam's ear. "I would never hurt you that way. Matt doesn't love you and Jeff couldn't love you enough."
"Don't bring Jeff into this." Adam mumbled. "It's not his fault."
Randy snorted and stood up. "Not his fault, huh? Adam, you aren't good enough for him. If he truly loved you at all, he wouldn't want Matt too. He wouldn't be okay with what Matt did to you if he did love you... If Jeff loved you at all," Randy wet his lips. "He wouldn't stand for Matt hurting you the way he did."
Adam shook his head and closed his eyes, pushing his hair back and holding to it.
"Fine. Don't believe me. Y'know, I'm only trying to protect you. Even if you did go back to them, they'd find a way to hurt you again. Matt would find a way to hurt you again. Matt Hardy is unstable, Adam." Randy said calmly, getting down on his knees in front of Adam as the blonde sat on the edge of the bed and placing his hands one on top of the other on Adam's knee. "Please, just stay away from them. You don't deserve to be hurt like that. I know you think that you do, but you don't. You deserve love and compassion.."
Adam dropped his hands to his sides and looked down at him. "You don't know how it feels, Randy."
"How what feels?" Randy asked, looking up at the blonde with concern.
"To live with the fact that you've screwed up so bad there's no way to fix it."
Randy got up with a sigh and ran his hand over his short hair. "I've screwed up plenty."
"Yeah? Nothing some cash or some anger management wouldn't fix. I don't mean shit like that. I mean.." Adam dropped his head before raking his hair back, sighing.
Randy sat back down and took him in his arms.
"I dunno what I mean anymore." He said softly, wrapping his arms around Randy's waist.
Randy kissed the side of his head. Lingering a bit and breathing into his hair. "You need to let the past go, baby. It's not worth seeing you drive yourself crazy. Just trust me, let me help you. You'll be okay."
Adam sighed and held on to Randy as the brunette softly rubbed his back. He wasn't so sure about all that.
--xx--
An hour had passed. Randy ordered them room service and they ate. Adam still hadn't let it go.
"Amy was right. I did love Jeff, but I never went after him.."
"She's just trying to get into your head.. What about Jeff? He never cared enough about you to go after you. If he's such a 'risk taker' why didn't he take a risk on you then? Why now?"
"I dunno, maybe he was afraid."
--xx--
"Do you really not want me talking to Matt?"
"Not really, Adam."
The blonde sighed in the dark. "Yeah. Maybe you're right anyway. I mean just because Matt used to love me, doesn't mean he still does. So it doesn't really matter anyway." He mumbled, recoiling back down into bed beside Randy.
Randy sighed and held Adam closer to him. Wondering who he had been trying to convince; Adam or himself. Randy really didn't want Adam talking to Matt. It made him feel and look selfish, but he just couldn't stand to lose Adam. And he damn sure didn't want Adam to be hurt again.
--xx--
Days had passed. Adam hadn't seen the Hardy brothers not once. Matt backed off. This only made Adam believe that Matt didn't really love him anymore. And that maybe the stubborn asshole got tired of him already. Adam wouldn't admit it, but that was secretly depressing. He secretly wanted him to try harder. Fight for him. But he knew that was a lost cause.
Adam found himself spending all his time with Randy. Even when he went home, he went home with Orton to St. Louis. Adam also found himself getting closer to Randy. Falling for him a little more each day. It bothered him. Confused him. He thought falling for Randy would put the Hardys behind him, but he still loved Jeff and still craved Matt in this weird way that he couldn't explain.
But all that would be pushed aside as soon as Randy would do something sweet.. only to resurface later.
--xx--
Jeff was released from the hospital to heal at home. His head? Better. His heart? None. Matt noticed that Jeff wasn't as carefree and happy as the younger Hardy used to be. Jeff had become brooding. A little bitter. He especially didn't like hearing that his Addy was with Randy Orton.
Matt didn't like it none either, but figured if he pushed Adam anymore than he already had, all he would do was push Adam further into Orton's arms. He wanted to go and try and talk to Adam again. He fought with himself over it constantly. But deep down he knew it'd be a lost cause. Matt also wasn't sure how to face Adam. If he did confront him and lay down old played-out threats it wouldn't help Jeff's case.. And Matt just couldn't up and tell Adam he still loved him after all he had did to him. That'd be stupid. This could've all been avoided and Matt regretted that. Matt regretted everything more and more each day. He regretted not being truthful with Jeff, Amy or Adam. He regretted stepping aside and letting his blonde get away. Worse, he regretted letting it get so out of hand.
Amy had finally told Matt what she told Adam about why she seduced Adam in the first place. Matt was sore at first, taken aback. But he just shook his head and let it go. It wasn't worth it anymore.
Jeff wanted nothing more than to go kidnap Adam. Matt even caught him making plans for it.
"Matty, gimme pen." Jeff said, laying out a plain white poster board. "Actually a marker will do better. Gimme that."
Matt sighed. "Why? Do I even want to know?" He watched Jeff look around the room for a marker.
"I'm plotting." Jeff said simply, finding his marker in a drawer.
"Plotting?" Matt asked following Jeff back over to the poster board.
"Yeah. I'm kidnapping Addy back from Randy."
Matt silently groaned and rubbed his eyes. "Jeff, you can't kidnap him."
Jeff stopped and stared at his brother. "Why not? You blackmailed and raped him. It's alright for you, but not for me? I actually love him. I know he loves me. And whether you or Randy likes it or not, Addy's coming back home with me." Jeff proclaimed, turning and continuing what he was doing.
"He's not a pet, Jeff." Matt said, bringing back up Jeff's attention.
The younger Hardy rested his hand on his hip. "Oh, suddenly Matt is moral authority? You have serious issues, big brother. You really need to get over it." Jeff returned to his poster board, scanning it over with his eyes as he uncapped the marker.
"I am over it."
"Really?" Jeff muttered, moving the tip of the marker over the large white poster. He stopped and shook it. Damn thing was dry.
"Jeff, we've discussed this." Matt groaned tiredly as he pulled out a chair to sit down.
"Then why do I feel like you're leaving shit out?"
Jeff still didn't understand why Matt did what he did. And Matt wasn't helping him any. Jeff was busy waiting till he recovered anyway. That part was hell.
Matt just shrugged and ignored the comment so Jeff dropped it.. for now..
--xx--
Adam kept doing his job. Growing more confused by what that was by the day. Matt wasn't putting much attention into it and gradually it got back to somewhat normal. His marching orders would come from Vickie or Vince. People were losing interest in the whole 'Matt owns Edge' angle quickly since Jeff Hardy was injured and Matt Hardy had been 'off' for 'personal' reasons, thanks to being suspended for the little locker room altercation with Orton that resulted in Jeff getting hurt.
Vickie barely acknowledged Edge in the hallways. Once she just nodded hatefully as she passed him and then disappeared into her office. Edge breathed a sighed of relief everyday, hoping he was finally free.
Then one day Vickie called Edge into her office to talk in private. She had brought her lawyer.
Edge left somewhat happy that day...
--xx--
That night Adam lay beside Randy in bed. Randy's arm wrapped underneath him as usual. And Adam's arm draped across the younger man's waist and his head resting on Randy's chest. Listening to his soft breathing and the steady rhythm of his heart.
"Do people really not like me?" Adam mused quietly.
Randy stifled a yawn. "What?" He asked drowsily as he let his fingers ghost along Adam's bare arm.
"Matt said, after he told me he brought my contract, he said that Vince was more than happy to go along with it. That he thought it'd be good for business and that the fans would love it, since no one really liked me anyhow." Adam recalled. "S'it true? Am I really not liked?"
"C'mon, Adam. People would have to be crazy not to love you. Matt's insane."
"People sure miss Jeff." Adam shivered at the chills Randy was causing him, playfully shaking him off as he shifted to raise up and prop himself up on his elbow.
"Naturally." Randy smirked. "If they only knew how much of an asshole he was."
"Jeff's not an asshole, Randy." Adam said as he lightly brushed his fingertips back and forth across Randy's stomach before making circles around his navel with his middle finger.
"Defending him again, eh?" Randy chided, reaching up to move Adam's hair from his face.
"No. I'm not defending him. I'm just saying I think I understand the things he did in a way. Sometimes when you crave something bad enough, you'll do just about anything to get it. No matter who you hurt in the process. I have some personal experience in that department." Adam softly blew a breath of air across Randy's abdomen.
Randy shuddered. "Adam, they've got you brainwashed." He replied absently.
Adam sat on up and fixed the covers at his waist. "Oh, stop it, Randy. You and I both know I'm not a model person. I've done some shitty things, okay. I've screwed up royally is all I'm saying."
"And you've paid royally is all I'm saying. And that maybe you can start putting it behind you now." Randy sat up and rub his hands up Adam's back to grab onto his shoulders, working his thumbs in a tired knot.
Adam shook his head and grunted. "What I did to Matt was wrong. There's no changing it and in this sick demented way, it's the reason I'm here with you.. Still don't make it right. I hurt one of my best friends. I hurt Jeff.."
Randy sighed and turned Adam around to face him. "You didn't know how Jeff felt about you at the time."
Adam looked down sadly. 'No. I shouldn't have been so afraid. I should've just went to Jeff like I started to.' He thought, not wanting to say it out loud.
"And look at me now. I'm not the same person I used to be. At least at one point I could get what I wanted on my own.. Marrying Vickie..? I don't know what I was thinking. It's not helped me out any. In fact, it's why I'm in the boat I'm in now." Adam swallowed and looked back at the wall. "I can't blame her none. I took advantage of someone lonely when I didn't love them." He looked back down as he played with the sheets, picking at them between his fingers. "I lied. Said I did when I didn't feel any connection with them at all."
Randy reach up and petted Adam's hair back away from his eyes. "So, you're saying you feel sorry for Vickie?"
"No. Vickie somewhere became a spiteful woman. She was sweet, seemed almost naive at first, but then she just started acting like she owned me. Always yelling and just.." Adam closed his eyes and swallowed. "Maybe I did deserve all of it. Maybe I deserved Vickie being mean to me. Maybe I deserved..." Adam trailed off. 'Matt raping me and Jeff breaking my heart.' That damned voice finished. He shook it from his mind.
Randy continued to stroke Adam's hair back. "No, Adam. No one deserves that. Look, you've made your mistakes. Hell, we all have. But, you're just human. I know you, Adam. You're a good guy. You have a good heart. But even the best of us lose our way every once in awhile. It'll be okay. I promise." He kissed the blonde on the side of the head.
Adam shook his head and snorted a laugh. "Vickie asked for a divorce. She's marrying Paul. After all that, she dumps me."
"Well, good riddance." Randy grinned, laying back down and pulling Adam back down with him.
The blonde draped his arm back across Randy's waist. "Yeah. Least it's one less thing I have to worry about; Her. She can still sue the shit outta me if I breach that damn contract though. I'm just glad I never slept with her." Adam yawned.
Randy cocked an eye at him. "Really then? That makes two of us."
"Yeah, she kept buying that 'we're too busy' or 'I have a headache' deal." Adam said, nuzzling his face in Randy's chest.
"Wow." Randy smirked. "If she could only see you now."
Adam raised up and gasped playfully. "Randal, are you saying Imma whore?"
Randy jerked Adam close and shook his head, smirk still in place. "Never. Besides, you're all mine, Addy."
Adam smiled and snuggled into Orton's arms. He felt better at least. But wondered how long that would last.
Randy cleared his throat after a minute of quiet. "So, you and Vickie will officially be over, huh?"
"Yeah."
"Well, we should celebrate then."
Adam purred and growled lustfully. "Oh, really? What'd ya have in mind?" He looked up at Randy, grinning sweetly.
Randy groaned. "Not now, Addy. I have a headache."
Adam huffed and recoiled. His lip puckered out so cutely in his pouting.
Randy chuckled. "Oh, just kidding."
"You're evil, meanie." The pouting continued.
"But I'm your meanie." Randy retorted, kissing him lightly.
Adam smiled under the kiss. Couldn't argue there.
--xx--
And to celebrate Randy got tickets to take Adam to a hockey game. Loving how Adam was like a little kid. All happy and hyper and bouncing like a child. That bright smile and wide eyes shining all made it worth it. Randy even bought him a brand new jersey. But only if Adam promised to wear it, and nothing else, around the house.
--xx--
A few more days passed. Randy's suspension was lifted and of course he had to go back to work on Raw. That didn't necessarily mean that Randy and Adam stopped being joined at one another's hip. They spent as much time together as work would allow. Sharing hotels and waiting for each other backstage. This particular day though, Adam decided to stay and wait for Randy to finish up with Raw in their hotel room. They had to pack up anyhow to move on to the next venue so Adam figured he'd take the liberty to just get it done.
Adam hummed happily, putting stuff away into his bag. He stopped and raised up, looking around to ensure there was nothing he missed. Shrugging, and not seeing anything left, he zipped the bag. He didn't bother looking back when the door came open, figuring it was just Randy. After-all, he had had no use to look over his shoulder for awhile now. The door creaked as it opened all the way before hitting the wall behind it with a thunk.
"Oh, hey, babe. Just packing up. Soon as I'm done we can be on our way." Adam said as he turned around. "I missed.. you.." Adam stopped when he saw it wasn't Randy at all.
He swallowed, seeing Jeff standing there instead. The younger Hardy's elbow rested on the door frame, his other hand held it wide open. A slight pursed scowl adorned the younger male's cherry stained lips. A white stick stuck out from them from the sucker he held in his mouth. Jeff looked like a wreck. All messy and trashy and like he hadn't slept much. His jeans were hanging low on his hips under a tight black tank top. Boots that just seemed to scream 'fuck me' stuck out from his jeans and a white studded belt hung from his waist. Jeff's purple and blue hair was twisted up in a ponytail and his emerald eyes were bloodshot.
Adam shook his head, waving his arms in front of himself frantically. "No. You're not really here. You have to go away. I have to put you away." Adam mumbled to himself, thinking that Jeff was just another hallucination. The blonde ran his fingers back through his hair. Shutting his eyes and sighing. He opened them, but Jeff was still there.
"Put me away?" Jeff smirked. He took hold of the little white stick and moved it, sucking around the lollipop before biting down into it hard. The candy shattered easily underneath his teeth as he crunched. Jeff took the freed stick out of his mouth and tossed it away, swallowing some of the sucker bits he had chewed up before licking the stickiness off his thumb.
"No.. you're not.." Adam took a deep breath. His chest tightening. Not this. Not this now.
Jeff looked back up at him. "What's a matter, Addy? Looks like you've seen a ghost." The younger Hardy smirked wider before letting himself on in and shutting the door behind him.
Jeffy's back, and he's got Adam right where he wants him :P Oh, boy. I've had a lot to get thru. All these little segments were wrote at separate times and putting them together has been irritating. Edge and Vickie are done at least, and him and Randy have gotten closer. Adam's even started feeling a little better... well, least he was.. I sorta like Randy and Adam's little sweet moments. I may love Jedam and Hardedge, but I do really like Redge. If I didn't I wouldn't be letting Randy get away with so much here, hehe.
I was watching a tape from the Rated-RKO days and it was after Randy and Edge just got done destroying Ric Flair and Jeff was stretching in the back and Edge walked up and started bragging. Just being all chatty with Jeff and Jeff was just being kinda snubbish to Edge and Edge was trying to tell him that Matt was an anchor around Jeff's neck and Jeff got up in his face and then in walked Randy beside of Edge. Like all protective, y'know.. & then Matt walked up aside of Jeff being all over protective and I was 'oh, this is kinda like 'Sold'!' That moment makes me all giggly.
So what's next, is Jeff really there, if so, what will he do, what will Adam do, will Randy be the hero? Will Adam need a hero...? Also I have this vision of Adam riding Randy while wearing the hockey jersey. Jeff muse: (growls) Randy?! You fucking asshole! Randy muse: (cackles loudly) Jeff muse: Stop giving Terrah dirty thoughts of you and MY Addy right this instance! Randy muse: Never! Jeff muse: (stomps away, mumbling under his breath) Terrah: (shrugs) Vision was yummers though..