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This takes place after the events in my fanfic Soulmates always find a way.
The POV's will be from Damon and Elena.
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This chapter will be strictly from Damon's POV. It will tell the story in flashbacks. Sorry it took so long to update but I wanted to get the chapter perfect. Let me know what you think.

Chapter 21- Shattered

Damon's POV

No. No. No. I shook my head in disbelief as I saw Meredith walking towards where I was sitting on the floor in the hallway. Her face showed the words that she was going to tell me. I couldn't believe her. I didn't want to. It had all happened so fast but it felt like it had been forever.

I had just finished spoiling my princess and we were having a very loving conversation about the first time I had ever cooked for her. All of a sudden she grabbed her stomach, at first I thought she was just nauseated but then she screamed. God I could still hear the pain in that scream. I looked for my phone then realized I had left it in the car next to Elena's. "Don't leave me Damon." She had shouted the words. I knew I had to get to a phone. I pulled the covers back to lay her down and that's when my world stopped.

"I have to get to a phone baby. You're..." I paused when I saw the blood. "Oh shit! NO!" I was off the bed and to the car faster than I ever thought possible. I quickly pressed the #3 speed dial and waited as the ringing went on and on. Finally she picked up.

"Damon?"

"MEREDITH!" I screamed her name. "Ineedyourhelpnow! Elenasbleedingout!" I screamed the words so fast I wasn't sure she understood me.

"Wait. Damon slow down. What's wrong?"

I noticed she had taken on that strict doctor voice. "She's bleeding out! Get here fucking now!" I ran back inside and straight to the bedroom.

"She can't be. She's only 6 months, it's way too soon."

I had walked in and heard her scream again. I knew Meredith heard it too because I heard her gasp and stumble around. If she was smart she'd be getting her ass ready to get over here. "You think I don't fucking know she's only 6 months along! She's fucking bleeding out!" I state the fact again. "You get your ass here now Meredith with a fucking vampire! I won't lose her! I can't lose her!" I had closed my eyes for a split second and when I opened them I thought I had lost her.

"I'm bringing Jeremy. Be there soon." I heard her words as I felt the phone leave my hand as I jumped on the bed next to Elena.

She looked like a porcelain doll. She was so cold and I could feel her pulse stopping. "Elena?! Baby! Stay with me! Please!" I was begging her. I knew she was so so strong. She had so much fight in her. I pulled her in my lap and kept whispering for her to not give up. I know I was being selfish but I couldn't lose her, or the babies. I needed all 3 of them. I held them in my arms while something in my head told me would be the last time.

"I love you."

I hear her whisper the words that I so desperately wanted and needed to hear from her everyday for the rest of my life. "I love you Elena. Please, stay with me baby. Meredith and Jeremy are on their way. Stay with me please baby." I don't know if she ever heard anything I said past I love you. Her eyes closed and a tear escaped her eyes. I rocked her back and forth praying to a God I hoped like hell existed that he wouldn't take her from me. I didn't hear the door being opened or people come rushing in until I felt Elena being pulled from my arms. I couldn't hold onto her. My arms were like jello, so weak that I couldn't hold onto her. I heard voices but I couldn't make out their words. Part of me didn't want to.

"Damon?"

I didn't know who was talking to me. I knew they were worried but I didn't know who they were. I heard them talk to someone else and I heard the word catatonic mixed with my name and the word hospital mixed with Elena's. I was still rocking back and forth until I felt a shirt being put on me, like I was a child. I shook my head as someone pulled me to my feet and forced me into a pair of cargo shorts. I finally saw the blonde semi-carry, semi-drag me to her car. "Caroline?" I question as she puts me in the passenger seat.

"It'll be okay Damon. Jeremy and Meredith will make her okay. I'm taking you to her." She sped off towards town and towards the hospital. I could feel her eyes look me over every once in a while and I distantly wondered what she saw. I realized I was rocking back and forth in her seat and when I looked at her again I saw the emotions in her eyes. Sadness, Determination, Fear, Hope. She pulled out her cell and pressed in a number. "Bonnie. We need to do it. He needs him. We won't be enough, not this time."

I have no clue what she's talking about. I'm not sure if she's even talking about me. Quicker than I thought possible we are at the hospital and she opens my door and pulls me out. She takes my hand and never lets it go. We walk through the doors and she leads me to a secluded section of the hospital where I see Bonnie is sitting the waiting room already with our family members. They all look at me and their faces are all the same, something about me is making them lose their hope. I feel Bonnie's hands as they wipe the tears I didn't know were falling and she turns to face the rest of the room. "Please go to the other room. We'll be there in a minute." I watch them leave at her request and then Caroline sits in the chair on my right. Bonnie starts chanting and all of a sudden I feel someone behind me.

"I'm so sorry Brother."

I freeze at his voice. I turn around and immediately run to my little brother. "Stefan. I can't...I can't lose her. Not again. So...so many times I've been so close...and I...I..." My voice chokes and I feel my legs give way underneath me as I fall to the floor. Stefan's arms are around me and he's comforting me. My little brother, who is a fucking ghost from the other side, is comforting me.

"I know Damon. I know. Don't lose your hope though okay? She always came back to you."

I shake my head against his chest. "This time is different. There's a chance she won't. I know the odds Stef. They aren't in her favor. One person can only handle so much."

"She's a fighter Damon. She'll fight. She will."

I know my brother. He's trying to convince me but I can tell from him tone that he's also trying to convince himself. I break down in his arms and I barely notice Bonnie and Caroline step out of the room. This must have been what blondie was talking about, she and Bonnie knew I would need Stefan. They knew I would need my brother. They did this for me.

"Damon. Come to the observation room. You can see her."

I look up and see Jeremy standing at the door and I just shake my head. I can't take it, I can't see her not like that. I feel Stefan pulling me down hallways by the arms never letting me go. Finally I'm in front of a window and I see her. There's so many tubes and wires and the heart machines. There's two. Hers is beeping slowly but steadily. The babies is beating fast and very strong. I watch Meredith prep her for the c-section and I see Jeremy go in and cut his wrist. He's putting his blood in a very large glass when she makes the first cut on Elena's stomach. My heart lurches and I throw myself at the glass wall. "Jeremy! DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE GILBERT!" I'm beating the glass when the door is kicked off the hinges right as Jeremy lunges for Elena. I saw the blood lust in his eyes, he wanted to feed on her. I saw Caroline bust in the door and hold him tightly by his jaw against the floor. I throw open the door and run down the stairs. I grab Klaus's shoulder and pull him down the hallway with me. I know he's the only vampire who won't be overcome with the urge to feed on her. I run in the door and see Jeremy throw Caroline off of him.

I see him knock Meredith out of the way of Elena's stomach and I see his fangs go straight towards the blood. As a last ditch effort I throw myself at him. "DON'T YOU THINK ABOUT IT YOU FUCKING BLOODSUCKER!" I hit him in the chest and surprisingly he goes flying. I grab him and throw him out the door and kick him in the ribs. I continue beating his ass all the way down the hallway and into the waiting room where the family is. "You. Fucking. Bastard. You can't feed on Elena. I won't let you get away with it." The more I hit him the more I can feel everything coming out. All the emotions that I had let go on Stefan I was now letting out the only way I knew how. Anger. I felt arms grab me but I flung whoever it was off and heard them hit a wall. Good, just fucking good. I kicked and punched and screamed. Jeremy took it all in stride. He didn't try to fight back but somewhere in my mind I knew I wasn't hurting him. Finally after my punches and kicks lost most of their strength I felt Jeremy grab me by the shoulders.

"Calm down Damon. You can hit me and beat my ass just calm down. I'm sorry. Elena will be okay."

I kick him some more. "You don't know! You don't fucking know!" I keep repeating the words over and over. I barely see him motion for people to leave the room and I feel Stefan standing behind me. I shake my head as he once again tries to tell me Elena will be okay and that she'll fight. I don't believe it. I pick up the nearest chair and throw it at Stefan. It goes right through him and hits the wall right next to where Jenna was standing. I see her through my blurred vision and it takes me a minute to realize I'm crying. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean that Jenna. I'm sorry." I go outside and apologize over and over. I fall to my knees and bang the wall. I feel my knuckles breaking against the sheet rock but I don't care. I keep hitting until I see a hole in the wall.

BEEEEEEEEEEEP

The sound comes to my ears and I feel as though my heart has shattered for the last time. "No." I pull myself up and walk to the operating room. I grab the door frame for support as I see her laying there. Her chest isn't moving and that damned beeeeeeeep is still telling me her heart has stopped. Everything is moving in slow motion. Meredith is taking the babies to the glass with Jeremy's blood and feeding it through a tube to both of them. I watch as they grow to a healthy size and they let out their first cries. "They made it." I whisper to myself. I didn't lose them. I wipe away the tears and then I'm brought back to Elena when I hear Klaus scream at her.

"Dammit! Elena! FUCKING FIGHT!"

I look at them and he's straddling her on the bed. He's banging on her chest with one hand while his other it at her lips. She needs to be alive and have a heartbeat to drink. "I've lost her." I didn't know I spoke the words until I had tried to push Klaus off of her. I had to bring her back. I had to bring her back to me. He pushed me back and I felt my back hit the wall.

"KEEP HIM THE FUCK OUT! HE WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP! SHE NEEDS MY FUCKING BLOOD!"

I feel myself being pulled down the hallway.

"FIGHT ELENA!"

I struggle against whoever has me but their hold doesn't let up.

"COME ON! YOU'VE FAUGHT DEATH SO MANY TIMES DO IT ONE FUCKING MORE!"

I can still hear Klaus screaming until I feel myself hit the end of the hallway. I fall to the ground and start sobbing. "Elena." I repeat her name over and over.

I'm brought out of the memories when I feel Meredith grab my shoulders.

"Damon. Listen to me."

I shake my head again. Reality sets in and I know what she's going to say. Her eyes say it all, she's going to tell me I've lost Elena. I've been broken so many times in the past that now I've completely shattered. So many times I've almost lost her.

A car accident.

Klaus's ritual.

Matt's car accident.

Stefan almost driving her off the bridge.

Rebekah holding her hostage.

Ric kidnapping her in the school when he went crazy.

Tatia kidnapping her multiple times...

So many fucking times I almost lost her. I don't want to believe that she could survive once more.

"Damon."

The new voice, Klaus. I look up and I see him motion me into the room. I don't move. I don't want to see her dead body, who the hell would want to see that. I feel him come and grab me when I don't move. I struggle against his hold and by some miracle break free from the original vamp. He's weak, I can see it in his eyes and the way he's standing. He looks me in the eyes and tries again to pull me behind him. I push him off and shake my head. "She's fucking GONE! I saw her! She died!" I don't know how long we stand there arguing but then I hear something that makes my heart beat again. I didn't see Bonnie go in the room and I didn't know what she was doing but I heard that sound. That voice.

"Damon. I love you. I'll always come back."

My eyes pop open and I run to the room. I'm gripping the door frame so hard that I realize my hand is still bleeding and broken. Elena. She did it. She fought. She came back to me. I shake my head and run to her. I stroke her face and lips and put my hand over her heart. I grab her and kiss her. My tongue goes in her mouth and takes no prisoner. I feel her fangs come out and I smile. I pull back and hold her face in my hands. "My beautiful wife. You came back. You came back." I repeat the three words over and over.

I don't care that she's a vampire. Hell she could feed off me everyday. All that matters in this moment is that she came back to me. I didn't lose her. I didn't stay shattered.