Chapter 21 Frans story.
Kendall and I were just getting ready to go to bel air for a bbq James had invited Kendall and I to.
James had told Kendall that Carlos was seeing his ex Tammi.
"I tell you what! it's going to be nice not having savannah about, I really couldn't stand that girl!" Kendall Said as he put ophelias shoes on her ready to leave.
Kendall had never got along with savannah where as I always had. She was funny but extremely damaged which made me always have a soft spot for her since the day Sheriden called me and asked me to be the one to look after her for her runway debut in the fashion shows for Alexander McQueen.
"leave sav alone, it's going to be sad seeing Los with someone new. I hope savannah comes back soon Kendall. It's 8 days until she is due to go to New York and I really don't want to do it for her" I sighed.
I hated being in the thick of it during the fashion weeks. I didn't mind helping Sheriden. I knew how much the McQueen contract meant to her, and I didn't mind doing it to give savannah some time to get her head straight. But I hated, detested and disliked doing runway.
The toilets were filled with the youngest, newest models ramming there toothbrushes down there throats as they are being told that the skinniest models reach the furthest, and the longest serving models were in their private dressing rooms snorting up drugs in to their nostrils.
I was 26 now and had learnt many lessons during my catwalk days, none I wanted to re live but it scared the hell out of me that my addictive personality would drag me back under in to a miserable world where days or weeks would pass and I wouldn't even notice. Ketamine was my downfall. Mainly used as a tranquilizer in animals, it gave me the feeling that I had left my own body. It zoned me out of everything.
Savannah always had me or bobby in her corner if she was ever offered any kind of drug. But I was on my own now covering for her. It was mind over matter on a daily basis!
"Ophelia come on lets get you in the car" Kendall said holding his hand out for her.
"fuck off" came the awful reply from ophelias mouth.
Kendall sighed "why is she still saying that!"
"I don't know baby" I replied.
I knelt down next to phee " phee that word is naughty honey, you can't say that" I said.
She just grabbed her 'go Diego go' toy that she loved.
"come on then sweetheart, mommy will put you in the car" I said picking her up and walking out the door followed by Kendall.
The weather was great for a bbq, I did enjoy going to sheridens house, it was amazing. I would love to have a house like that but it was never likely to happen.
I was a very successful model but no where near as successful as Sheriden had been. Her and James were absolutely minted with cash. I had a few million in the bank and a nice home but I was very careful with what I had. I didn't like to throw my cash away.
This was one of the only things that I had in common with Logan Henderson, we would often chat about things to invest money in, such as properties or new Company ventures that would hand back a healthy sum after a few years.
We arrived at bel air, Sheriden let us in. She was on crutches.
"what's up with the leg now?" I asked her.
"oh absolutely nothing" she grinned.
"are you drunk?" I laughed at the silly grin she wore.
"no! Of course I'm not, I don't drink anymore. James was a bit rough with me yesterday... In the hall" she giggled as I noticed the frame of a mirror leaning up against a wall.
"gee thanks Sheriden! Bit too much info for me though" Kendall said sarcastically looking at the mirror frame and shaking his head.
We walked in to the kitchen, the twins were on the floor, Ophelia went off to sit with them and play with some toys, she handed me her Diego which I placed in my purse.
"okay... introductions..." Sheriden said "erm this is my amazing big little brother Antonio" she said pointing at Carlos' brother who I had seen once before.
"and this is Carlos' gir-.. This is Tammi" Sheriden said gesturing to a plain looking girl with blonde straight hair.
Tammi did not look like anything I imagined. She was pretty but absolutely nothing on savannah. Sav would stand out in a crowd, this little mousy girl just had nothing about her.
"hi" I said.
Tammi just nodded as her reply to me. Kendall gave my hand a squeeze before leaving it and giving Tammi a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
"great to see you again Tammi" he said
"you too Kendall. Ophelia is beautiful" she said looking at phee.
"thanks, she gets it from pais" Kendall said with a smile.
Tammi just looked from him, to me and smiled not really knowing what to say as she clearly knew I wasn't paisley.
I sat at the table in the kitchen with James who had Georgi on his lap, and Tammi was sat opposite me reading a newspaper. Antonio handed me a drink. Sheriden was getting a salad ready.
I made eyes at Kendall to say I felt a bit awkward.
"James how is Darcy getting on?" Kendall said breaking the odd atmosphere. At least if savannah was here it wouldn't be so quiet.
James talked to Kendall about how good big tits Darcy was, and about what the debut single was.
"oh my God!" Tammi then said with a chuckle. "Sheriden I dread to think what your other models look like if you say savannah is the best you have!" She laughed looking at the paper.
"what? What do you mean?" Sheriden said walking over slowly on her crutches.
"oh savannah!" I heard Sheriden sigh out as she looked at the picture in the paper.
I then slid the paper toward me and felt my heart sink as I saw the picture of savannah. She had put on a lot of weight. The headline for the article read "FATannah Pena" then went in to detail that savannah had gone from a size 6 to an estimated 14 or 16. She looked so different, I wouldn't of even recognised her. She had a blonde shoulder length wig on by the looks of things, no way her hair would of grown that much judging by what Sheriden had told me she had it styled as now.
I looked at Sheriden, I don't think either of us knew what to say.
"silly savannah! She can't even pick the best eating disorder!" Tammi said spitefully.
"what?!" I said to her "the best eating disorder? Are you for fucking real!" I spat at her.
Tammi just looked at me, she looked a bit scared.
"how dare you imply that anyone has an eating disorder! She looks like that because you were stealing her husband from under her nose. she is my friend! If you want help in deciphering what an eating disorder really is then I will happily give you details you silly bitch! Until then shut your fucking mouth in company of others you know jack shit about" I said then walked out in to the garden just as Carlos walked back in from the toilet. He looked confused.
Kendall followed me out, I sat down on the grass at the far side of the house and looked at the hills and trees that rolled off the view in front of me.
"fran you okay? Don't get upset over that. She didn't mean to offend anyone" he said.
"do you mind if I smoke?" Was all I replied.
Kendall had given up smoking after a series of photos in the press made him out to be glamorising the look to his young fans. I had given up the same time as him but had the odd one every now and again.
"go for it" he smiled.
"what a fucking bitch kends'! she must realise that savannah was a large part of our lives"
"well she is an even larger part now huh" he said sarcastically.
"don't you start! ... Fuck what is Sheriden going to do. Savannah obviously knew she wasnt going to do New York looking like that, how did she put so much weight on so quickly! .. I can't do it Kendall... I can't" I said
"then don't fran, Sheriden can find someone else." Kendall said simply.
"you don't mind?" I said.
"course I don't mind fran... Jesus, you've done so much for her already." He said.
I nodded.
"you best get back to phee... Hopefully she has told Tammi to fuck off" I smiled
Kendalls eyes smiled back at me "you gonna be okay?" He asked.
"yeah I will just finish this and be right over" I replied.
Kendall gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked off, I collected my thoughts for a few minutes. I noticed Mackenzie and Logan now sat with Kendall by the bench.
I saw phee coming for me so I put my cigarette out.
"hello phee phee" I said holding my hand out towards her as she greeted me.
"deego mommy" she said.
"Diego is having a sleep in my purse. shall we wake him up?" I smiled at her.
"yes" she giggled then crawled over me to open my purse up.
"oh no! Diego has turned in to the ... TICKLE MONSTER!" I laughed as I tickled her underarms.
She giggled the most adorable laugh.
"love you phee phee" I said as she caught her breath.
"love you mommy" she replied.
I heard shouting coming from behind me. I could see Logan having a go at Kendall.
"cmon phee, lets go and see what's going on now" I said standing up and taking her hand, she tucked her Diego under her arm.
As I reached the scene Kendall was mid speech.
"Logan this isn't about paisley... It's about phee" he said calmly.
"fuck you Schmidt! Pais wouldn't agree with this crap and you know it... you couldn't even keep your dick in your pants for five minutes after she died! I should of expected that you would stoop this low. That woman will never be half the mother paisley was or would have been to phee" Logan screamed then stomped off back in to the house.
I stood in shock. Tears pricked at my eyes at the hurtful words Logan had just said about me.
"I'm sorry... He's not himself, he isn't coping with her death very well" Mackenzie then blurted out and ran off after Logan after handing one of the twins to Carlos.
"what happened?" Sheriden asked as she walked out to the crowd linking her arm in antonios.
Kendall looked up at me, then to Sheriden "erm... Logan didn't like it that phee calls fran mommy now" Kendall said.
"Jesus is that all. Fran, Logan is not right in the head at all, don't take any notice of him" Sheriden said then walked away again looking stressed out.
I noticed Tammi still sat on her own. She looked upset.
"kends I'm going to go home for a bit... to mine I mean. I just need some space, I'll take your car and pick you up later okay?" I said trying my best to hold my tears in.
"hey hang on a minute" Kendall said standing up, he picked phee up and took my hand leading me away in to the house.
We ended up sitting in the play room.
"fran don't get yourself upset over this! Your not phee's real mom but your the next best thing she could possibly have. Your amazing with her Francesca. Don't do this to yourself" he pleaded.
"I try, you know. I know everyone compares me to paisley, I'm not trying to replace her, why does Logan think that!" I sniffed.
"I don't think Logan does think that. he is just really messed up, he saw his house collapse with her inside it. They adored each other you know" he said trying to reassure me.
I nodded "do you mind if I go? I need to get some stuff sorted for Parker tomorrow anyway" I said.
"do what you gotta do... I love you Francesca!" He said with a smile.
"love you too kends" I replied.
"phee come and say bye to mommy, she has to go home quick" Kendall then said to Ophelia who was playing with a rocking horse.
I gave kendall and Ophelia a hug and kiss goodbye, and told him I would be back to pick them up later, they were staying at my house this evening.
I then drove back to my home and cried for a lot of things.