EPOV
Its Christmas today, and I couldn't care less about the damn holiday.
You were supposed to be here.
You were supposed to be watching Olivia open her gifts from Santa…you were supposed to beher gift from Santa.
But now I'm here completely alone in this house.
Olivia isn't even here with me…she's at my parents' house with the rest of the family.
Both of our parents came over this morning to open gifts…I'm glad they did.
Olivia was so sure she'd find you waiting for her under the Christmas tree.
When she saw that Santa didn't bring her what she asked for…she lost it.
She started crying and yelling…she begged us to talk to Santa and tell him that he could take all the other presents back if he would just bring her mommy home.
Seeing her break down like that…it pushed me over the edge.
My parents took Olivia and your mom to their house and your dad stayed with me.
I damn near destroyed the house as I let out everything I've kept bottled up inside me.
After helping me clean everything up, your dad went to meet up with everyone else after getting me to promise that I'd be there later.
All I can think about is our first Christmas together.
How we were so happy and laughed while we had a snowball fight in your parents backyard.
How we promised to always be together for Christmas.
We always managed to keep that promise too…even if it was via phone call or skype while you were away.
But this year…that promise has been broken, and it's torn our family apart.