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"There are no secrets better kept than the secrets that everybody guesses." George Bernard Shaw
Emily P.O.V.
When we are meeting with detective Lopez I notice detective LaMontagne coming out of a car. "Hey, isn't that…" I start to ask.
"This is detective LaMontagne, he just arrived from New Orleans to ID the cop they pulled from the bay last night" detective Lopez says.
I see JJ smile when he walks towards us "Detective, it's good to see you"
"How are you?" he asks while they shake hands trying to hide their relationship. He turns towards the rest of us and starts "Yeah, Charlie Luvet and I worked together for seven years. We haven't formally identified him yet, but we believe it's him" he tells us, obviously sad.
"Sorry for your loss, man" Morgan says.
"So, you all know each other?" detective Lopez asks.
JJ is quick to add "Professionally"
"Yeah, the BAU helped me out on a case about a year ago. But just for the sake of clarity, I'm not here to investigate. Charlie was supposed to be married this august. So if the guy that floated up last night was him, I guess I have the honour of notifying his fiancée. She's gonna need some answers, some sort of closure and I'm here to get that for her"
"Can you tell us why he was here?" Rossi asks, every piece of information we can get will help and I'll just have to try to ignore the looks that JJ and LaMontagne are sending to each other.
"He was meeting up with some college buddies to compete in a regatta. He is, uh, was a big fan of boats"
"So he wasn't travelling alone?" Hotch asks
"Well, he came alone, he was meeting them here" LaMontagne answers.
His answer leads Rossi to ask the detective if the other two victims were also alone and they were, we now have a start for our victimology.
JJ P.O.V.
"Hey, wait up" I hear Will tell me softly while stopping me from following the others. When we're alone he asks "What was that?"
"What was what?"
"'Professionally'?" I look away knowing that I most likely hurt him with that comment earlier "Hey, you still haven't told them about us?" he asks.
"It's none of their business"
"Where do you tell them you go every weekend?"
"I don't"
"Are you ashamed or something?" he asks me looking like I've just kicked his puppy.
"What? No. No. It's just in this team, everyone knows everything about everyone" Well we all have our deep buried secrets, but still "There's no privacy. My personal life is one less thing they can profile, alright?" I try to explain myself "We should get up there"
"Yeah, wouldn't want your team to think something's up, would we?" he asks with a passive angry voice.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, please don't do this, ok?" I ask him
"You do realize that this is going to happen every now and then when our career paths cross, right?" he asks.
"Doesn't make it any less awkward" I say without thinking.
"Wow, I never realized how much awkward could sound like ashamed" he says before heading up the stairs.
I realize that I really hurt him and I certainly didn't make it any better with my last comment. First I was very happy with Em and she broke it off, from what I heard she had a good reason, but I can't be sure of that yet. Now I'm sort of happy with Will and I screw up. I'm starting to see a pattern.
When we're at the place Charlie Luvet stayed I hurt him once again. As he half-storms out of the room, I say after him "I'm sorry" but understandably he continues to walk away.
A bit later Spence, Morgan and detective Lopez have figured out that Charlie was gay and that he didn't go to Miami for the boats, but to be himself. When we're back at the station we give the preliminary profile, I saw Will walk away when his phone rang and when we're done giving the profile I follow him outside.
I hear him talking to what I guess is the fiancée of Charlie "Just a little time and I'll have some answers for you. The best thing that you can know is that he loved you very much. Alright, goodnight"
When he is finished I walk towards him and start awkwardly "Hey"
He responds equally awkward "Well it's warm in the Bayou, but at least it cools down some at night" we spend a few second in an even more awkward silence "You leaving?" he asks.
"Yeah, I'm beat"
"Without saying goodbye?"
"I didn't know where you were" I answer.
"Did you look? Should I be worried? I mean, it doesn't take a profiler to see that you got one foot out the door in this relationship" he gets a little louder while talking and I'm worried the team might hear us.
"Could you just please keep your voice down?" I ask.
"I don't care if they hear us. Hey, yo, I'm crazy about her" he half-yells "You know, I don't have a problem with people knowing about it"
"I do"
"Why?"
"Just because, all right? It's-it's my business"
"Are you ashamed of this?"
"No"
"Did I offend you?"
"No"
"I say something wrong?"
"No"
"You seeing another guy"
"No"
"You want to see another guy?"
"No" I answer for the fifth time getting a little bit louder every time, these questions are ridiculous.
"You want to break up?"
"Ye-" I stop myself from saying it totally.
He's quiet for a while before asking "You do?"
"Yeah" I say after a few seconds, it's easier to run away than to fix this.
"Okay" he answers a couple seconds later.
"We're supposed to hop on a plane every weekend forever? And neither one of us is willing to relocate, so-" I try to reason my answer.
"When did we have that discussion?" he asks.
"Well, do you?" I ask surprised.
"Maybe" he answers.
"You want to give up your career in New Orleans, so you can live in Quantico, Virginia?"
"Well, I'd at least like to have that option. You know, look, JJ, all I'm looking for is an acknowledgement to your friends that you care about me"
"Why? Why is that so important to you?" I ask.
"Why? Have a good night, JJ" he says and he walks away.
"Will" I call after him, well, this is the second relationship within the past two years that's over.
After the unsub has been caught
Emily P.O.V.
When I walk into the room at the PD where we were set up I hear LaMontagne tell JJ "Take care of yourself, JJ" before he walks away.
I walk up to JJ and tell her while trying very hard to keep the sorrow I feel out of my voice "You should go for him"
"What?" she asks astonished.
"You'd make a cute couple" I tell her not letting any emotion shining through in my voice.
I see her getting confused before she sends me an understandable angry glare and walks over to the elevator where LaMontagne is standing "Hey, Will" he turns around "it's not that I didn't want them to know. Ok, I don't care about that. It's not about the relocating or the travelling or some guy. It's I didn't want to tell anyone, because the minute I do, it becomes real and when it becomes real, people get hurt" she looks at me for a second with an hurt expression while I look back keeping my face blank "I've always run from getting hurt, always and I don't want to run anymore-"
LaMontagne interrupts her to say "Just shut up" before kissing her and they get lost in it.
"Well, finally" Morgan says as he sees them when he walks into the room.
"I thought she was never gonna admit it" I say before walking away when I feel my phone vibrate.
"What's it been, a year?" Reid says.
"Something like that" Morgan adds.
When I look at the caller id I see that it's Sean, I decide to ignore it for now and to call him back when I get back at the hotel.
Back at the hotel
As soon as I'm back in my room I call Sean.
"McAllister"
"Hey Sean"
"Emily, why didn't you take my call earlier?"
"Couldn't get away from the team"
"We have Jones"
"Are you serious?" I ask with some sort of disbelieve, he broke out of prison more than a year ago I had given up the hope that they would catch him.
"Yeah"
"When?"
"This morning"
"Why didn't you call me earlier?" I ask angry, if that asshole had called me as soon as they had Jones, I wouldn't have told JJ to go for LaMontagne and maybe, if I were lucky, I would have been able to start making all of this up to her.
"It's been crazy around here. The first free moment I had today was thirty minutes ago"
"Thanks for letting me know" I say and I hang up before Sean can say another word.
"If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find." John Churton Collins
Poor Emily, what should she do? Talk to JJ before they get on the plane, or in a few days? Let me know what you would like to see.