A/N: This chapter in Selena's POV. Umm, hopefully you like it. Some of it was super awkward to write and I totally bitched out. Lol. Hopefully it's not terrible. Anyway, there will be one more chapter after this. I think that this story has run its course. I'll make the last chapter a good one. Thank you all so much for reading and please leave a review. I love to read you thoughts. The song in this chapter is called "I Won't Give Up" by Jason Mraz.
I know she was waiting for me to say something. I feel her eyes on me. I could feel the tension radiating from her body. I had no idea what to say. As I sat there trying to process my emotions, I knew that whatever happened from this point on would change the direction of both of our lives forever. I didn't want to say anything, I didn't want to move, not until I was sure. Slowly I could feel the walls that separated us start to crumble. I opened my eyes and looked into hers. I could see everything she was. She was mine. That's what she was, mine, and I was hers. I opened my mouth to speak, but her lips crashing against mine stopped me. I kissed her back. I had never been kissed like this in my entire life. When we pulled apart, I was breathless.
"Demi." I panted. "I'm not leaving you. My life begins and ends with you. You're it for me." I said as I felt the tears streaming down my face. She grabbed my face and placed soft kisses all over.
"Don't cry baby, I've got you." She whispered as she pulled me into her arms. I let her hold me while I cried. I cried about everything. I cried and cried, and much like the tears that flowed, I let all of the heartbreak, sadness, and betrayal spill out. It was all irrelevant at this point. The only thing that mattered was me, and her. As she held me, I could feel her heartbeat against mine. It was strong and steady. I knew that my heart would be safe with her, I knew that she had gone thought hell and returned to me. I knew that I would never lose her again.
"I love you." I said as I pressed our lips together. "I love you." I say again against her lips. I feel her smile as she kisses me again.
"I love you." She says softly as she holds my face in her hands. They way she's looking at me sends shivers down my spine.
I lean forward and press our lips together. The kiss is gentle and soft. I feel her pull me closer as she lightly bites my bottom lip. Our tongues meet as she pushes me back against the couch. Our fingers intertwine as she pins my hands above my head. I hear her growl as Taylor's engagement ring presses into her skin. I make a mental note to remove it. I feel her lips on my neck, and I gasp as my body arched beneath her. I'm suddenly aware that I'm wearing way too many clothes. She stops kissing me long enough to remove her shirt, I do the same. As she continues to place kisses on my bare skin, I can't help but sigh in contentment. My eyes flutter close as she bites and nips in all the right places. I feel her hands as they glide down my ribcage. I bite my bottom lip and gasp. I love her hands. I feel her remove my sweatpants and when I look at her, she's staring at me. Her eyes are dark and full of love. I lean towards her and pull her into me. I want her lips on my mine. I can feel the desire building, she's always had this effect on me. The raw aching need she ignites within me is almost unbearable. I moan softly as I feel her lightly tug on my nipple with her teeth. As she moves lower, placing kisses on my stomach I can't help but push my hips into her. I can feel her smile as she places a kiss on my inner thigh. My body trembles in anticipation.
Very softly I feel her press her lips against my soft folds. My eyes roll into the back of my head as I push my hips up against her mouth. "Please." I gasp. I take in a shaky breath as feel her tongue slide into my core. I cum immediately. She continues to suck and lick my wet center. I can feel each orgasm as it crashes through me. I whimper when I no loner feel her tongue against my clit, as her lips crash against mine I can feel her fingers as they enter me. "Demi." I pant. Slowly she starts to slide in out of me. I can feel the pressure building. "Faster." I breath into her ear. She increases the speed. I feel my entire body shake as I climax, she holds onto me as the waves subside. I feel her collapse onto my chest. I can feel her breathing heavy, as I rub circles on her sweat slicked back.
I wake up and she's still passed out on top of me. She was a lot heavier than I remembered. I smile as I listen to her breathing. As I lay there in her warmth, I can hardly remember why we ever broke up in the first place. She has always been mine. I never should have let her go. I know I'll never say it out loud, but I forgive her for everything. She's perfect the way she is. I know that it hurts to love her sometimes, but that's how I know that what we have is real. It's raw, emotional,dysfunctional at times, and absolutely perfect. She is my beautiful disaster. My life would be empty and colorless without her. I have memorized every part of her. As I reach up to brush her hair out of her face, the glint from the diamond ring on my hand stops me. Slowly I lower my hand so I can reach it with my other hand, and I slip Taylor's ring off of my finger. I close my eyes in an effort to suppress the tears. I had almost forgot about this part, almost. In order to get everything I want, I'm going to have to break her heart. She didn't deserve this.
Slowly but surely, I could feel Demi start to wake up. "Hey sleepyhead." I said softly.
"Hey." She yawned as she slowly lifted her body off mine. "What time is it?" She asked as she pushed her hair out of her face.
"I have no idea." I answered.
I sat there and watched for a few moments. She seemed troubled. She picked up her shirt and pulled it over her head. Once she had it on, she looked directly into my eyes. "We need to talk." She said.
"Ok, I..."
"No. I'll go first." She interrupted. "I'm a little bit nervous right now, so please just bear with me." She explained. "I didn't expect last night to happen. It complicates things a bit. I was prepared to let you go. As of this moment right now, that's not even a possibility. I want all of you Selena. All of it. I don't want to be just friends, I don't want you to be my ex. I want you. You are the mother of my child. You are the other piece of my heart." She stated, as she stood up and walked toward her jacket. She reached into the pocket and pulled out a small box. My heart immediately began to race. I knew what she was about to do. I watched as she dropped down onto one knee and took my left hand into hers. "Selena Marie Russo, I love you. Plain and simple. I love you madly. I know that I'm not perfect, I know that I can be stubborn and difficult, but if you let me, I will spend the rest of my life loving you." She opened the box and took out the biggest ring I have ever seen in my entire life. It was ridiculous. "Will you marry me...again?" She asked with a smile.
As I sat there staring into her eyes, I felt the tears fall. I couldn't speak. I shook my head yes as she slipped the beautiful diamond onto my finger. I suddenly felt whole again. I wrapped my arms around her neck and crushed her into me. I couldn't help it, I was sobbing. She just held me without saying a word. Once I let go, she kissed me softly. "I love you." She told me.
"I love you too." I answered.
"I'm starving." She said grinning at me.
"Ah, and I suppose you want me to cook?" I asked her. She nodded in response. "Get me some clothes and I'll make something." I tell her.
She disappears for a few moments and returns tossing me a thin tank top and a pair of cotton booty shorts. I roll my eyes at her. "This is not subtle at all, Torres." I tease. She just winks and grabs her guitar.
"I will sing for you while you cook and I stare at your ass." She states wiggling her eyebrows. I laugh. She always makes me laugh. As I look back on our relationship, I realize that despite everything, she has made me laugh more than she's made me cry. I listen as she starts to pluck the guitar strings. Before long I hear her soprano voice fill my ears.
When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
Just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
I heard my phone ringing in the den so ran down the hall to answer it. My heart dropped when I saw the caller id. It was Taylor. I took a deep breath and answered it.
"Hey Tay." I said, trying to sound as normal as possible.
"Hey" She answered. "I need to talk to you." She added. "I'd prefer to do it person if that's all right."
"Of course. Is everything ok?" I asked her.
I heard her sigh. "Yeah. At least it will be. Eventually." She answered.
"Is this about us?" I ask her softly.
"Yeah. Sel, I don't think there really is an us anymore." She stated. She sounded exhausted. "I talked to Demi a few days ago. I told her I was going to leave you."
"What?" I questioned shocked.
"She didn't say anything about that..." I trailed off when I realized I'd just given myself away. "Shit." I muttered.
"Selena. It's ok. I'm not stupid. Don't be mad at Demi either, I think our conversation was a little too weird and confusing for her anyway. You made this much easier. You left me first." She stated.
"Taylor..."
"It's ok. I'm not mad. It sucks, but I'll live. There's someone out there for me and someday I will find them. I would like for us to be friends. That might be a weird request, but I'd like to think we can manage it." She said.
"Me too." I said feeling slightly dazed.
"I've gotta get going. I'm headed out to Nashville for a bit. I'll see you around. Take care Selena." She said to me before hanging up the phone.
I heard Demi lean up against the door frame as I stood there trying to process what just happened.
"You ok?" She asked me, concern across her features.
"Yeah. That was Taylor." I told here.
"I'm sorry baby." She said, guilt replacing her concern.
"It's ok. It's not your fault. We just needed to get our closure and I think we did. Taylor is happy for me, and you." I reassured her.
She opened her arms to me and I stepped into her embrace. I was home.
