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Lucky
Severus ran into his room, shaking with a mixture of rage and fear, he searched his wardrobe. "Fuck, where is it?" he cursed as he threw his belongings on the floor.
Finally he found what he was looking for and grabbed a few potions bottles and raced back out his rooms towards Hermione's quarters.
He almost tripped on the stairs halfway up and he slowed down slightly, 'I must look a sight' he thought hoping everyone was still at dinner and wouldn't see him.
Reaching his destination Severus took a deep breath and knocked Hermione's door. No answer. He waited a few minutes before knocking again more insistently.
Nothing.
Tears started spilling down his face as he began to wonder if he had lost her after all.
He knocked again "Hermione, please, it's me, it's Severus" he pleaded.
He heard her moving around for a few moments before the door creaked open and he came face to face with her. Her eyes were red and puffy and her hair was a state. They just stood there staring at each other.
HSHSHS
Hermione heard the knocking at her door, but ignored it; she didn't want to talk to anyone right now.
She heard the knocking again followed by Severus's voice. He sounded upset. She tried to clean her face and ran her hands over her hair before she went and opened her door.
He was standing there, his cheeks tear-stained with a heartbreaking expression on his face. Hermione stared at him for a moment. 'whats he so upset about?' she wondered
"is that a pensive?" she asked him, confused.
"Can I come in, please?" he pleaded with her.
"Hermione stood to the side while he came in and put the pensive and some bottles on her table. He turned and looked at her and she walked over to him wrapping her arms around him, trying to offer him comfort for whatever had made him so upset.
"Hermione look at me" Severus said, his voice wavering
She looked up at him, then realised she hadn't met him for dinner, she had been so upset at what that idiot professor had said to her and the way he had approached her that she had totally forgotten about it.
'Dinner, Severus, Severus is upset, did he go to meet her, did he, oh gods, did he hear the conversation?' Hermione tried to fit the pieces together 'the way she had run off he must thing she believed all that Professor Livingstone had said' she looked up at Severus who was trying to breathe normally, but she could feel him shaking as she wrapped her arms around him. 'No,.. no' she thought 'she didn't think those things were true, that wasn't the case at all'
"Severus" Hermione whispered, "Severus look at me"
He looked down at her and fell to his knees "Please Hermione. Please, listen to me, I, I never, I couldn't , I … those things, I have brought a pensive, I will give you any memory, any, just ask, I would never, ever rape or murder anyone, Dumbledore, it was a vow, he made me promise, he was dying, I, death eaters never, they wouldn't, they'd never sully themselves with a muggle" he whispered the last part.
"Maybe Lucius and the others tortured and robbed, but I, I was his spy, he thought I was too important, I never had to partake in any of their …" He rested his head against her stomach, "Please, please believe me, I, I can't lose you"
"Severus, .. Severus stop" Hermione grasped his head and shook him "Severus look at me, I love you."
Severus raised his eyes to meet hers "what?"
"I love you, I believe you. You don't need the pensive." Hermione whispered to him
"But you, you ran, I was coming for you, I was going to, but them you ran, and…" he stuttered
"He scared me, I was frightened, he was very overbearing, I got upset" Hermione said, "It hurts me to think that he thought that of you"
"I spoke to him" Severus said, standing, "He wont go near you again, ever"
"You did?" Hermione asked,
"I did, I'm sorry, I should have come straight to you but he, I was so angry" Severus explained
"It's ok, I'm glad you did." Hermione smiled
"Hermione, I brought it up, I'm willing to show you any memory, although it might not be pleasant, I never did those.."
"Stop, no. I don't need it. I trust you" Hermione looked into his eyes "I love you Severus, I don't need to see it. I trust you"
He pulled her into his arms, lifting her chin up so she could look into his eyes, "Hermione, I love you, more than anything, more than anyone, I never want anyone to hurt you. When I heard you cry I thought my heart was breaking, I needed you to know, if you needed to see"
She silenced him, pulling his head down to hers, pressing her lips firmly against his; her arms came around his back as their tongues explored each other's mouths and their arms crushed each other tighter.
Severus lifted Hermione and walked into her bedroom, placing her on the bed and lying beside her, both of them exhausted from the height of their emotional turmoil. He turned to face her as she entwined her legs with his and he wrapped his arms around her, pulling the throw-over from her bed over them.
"I love you" He whispered kissing her
"I love you too" she replied cuddling him tightly and pressing her face into his robed chest as they both succumbed to sleep.