Ahhh it's been so long, I'm sorry! I have a whole big list of excuses though! I had cheer camp, then I was in Disneyland, and then Fanfiction wouldn't let me log in.. and it was just a big old mess. But I'm BACK! So sorry for the long wait after that awful cliffhanger. Here's the next chapter :)

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Chapter 21

James's POV

Empty. That's all there was to explain this.

Lizzy was bawling; kneeling over the bloody ground where Serenity's body once lay. Logan was trying his best to be strong and comfort Lizzy, but I could see his silent tears.

Meanwhile, I was sitting away from them, unable to cry, unable to feel. I couldn't get myself to believe that she was gone. The paramedics told me that there was still a chance to save her life and that I shouldn't give up hope. But hope was all I was running on and even that was running on empty.

I couldn't stand the nothing I felt. I had never felt so alone.

Knowing the inevitable was what killed me the most. Knowing I would never see her beautiful face again, knowing that if I had only been a few seconds earlier, I could have saved her life, knowing that I'd never feel her sweet kiss on my lips…

She was so guarded, so afraid of love. It was adorable, the way she cautiously held my hand and hesitated before she hugged me- but when she did, she held me like I was all she had to hold onto. But I guess, in a way, I was.

I'd never find a girl like her again. And it killed me inside.

"James," Lizzy said, her voice cracking slightly and the pain obvious in the way she choked out my name.

I looked up at her. Her eyes were red and puffy and her tear-stained cheeks were pink.

"We should go to the hospital," Logan said, saving his girlfriend from having to talk anymore through her pain.

"Why?" I asked dully. 'We already know what's waiting for us there."

Lizzy started crying again.

"Come on, James," Logan hissed. "Kendall and Carlos will want to know what happened."

The car ride was fast. Streetlights and cars passed by in a blur. Before I knew it, we were at the hospital. As fast as my now numb body could take me, I pushed past everyone in my way and ran to the reception desk.

"How may I help you?" the blonde woman asked.

"My girlfriend," I exclaimed breathlessly. "She was brought into the emergency room a few minutes ago. Where is she?"

"Slow down, dear. What's her name and why is she here?"

"Serenity Dawn; stab wound to the chest and multiple gunshot wounds. She's dying! Please, tell me where she is!" I exclaimed frantically.

"She will be brought into room 14B once she is out of the emergency room. You are free to wait for her there."

"Thank you!" I called as I ran towards the hospital room she would be in.

It felt like hours before the doctor finally walked in.

"I'm sorry, kids, but I'm afraid you'll have to wait outside while we set everything up. This will just take a moment," the doctor said.

"'Just a moment.' What was he talking about?" I exclaimed impatiently.

"James, I want to see her as much as you do but come in. It's been one minute," Lizzy said, who has stopped crying when we entered the hospital.

"Sorry," I muttered. Finally the doctor came out, telling us we could see her now.

"She lost a lot of blood and she's in a very heavy coma,"

"We can handle it, Doctor. Just tell us," Logan whispered.

"I think you shouldn't leave anything unspoken. This is never easy." He was silent for a moment. Placing his hand on my shoulder, he sighed and said, "Prepare for the worst."

Lizzy's tears started up again.

"I'll call Kendall," Logan whispered, his eyes glazing over with tears.

I nodded in reply and loked over to where Serenity lay. She looked so ghostly. Her face was abnormally pale and her eyes were dark. Her blood-stained black hair softly encircled her face. She was so innocent. It broke my heart.

"How could anyone do this to you?" I asked, gently cradling her cheek in one hand.

For the longest time, nothing seemed real. Kendall, Carlos, Katie, Mama Knight, Nikki, Scarlet, and Sydney had all flooded in at one time. The hospital room was crowded, and I was getting a bit claustrophobic.

"Wow, big crowd. She's a lucky one, isn't she," a nurse said, entering the room.

"If she lives," Katie said bitterly. Mama Knight scolded her.

"Well, I'm sorry but visiting hours are over. I'm afraid I have to ask you to leave."

Tearful good-byes were sent Serenity's way as we made our way out of the hospital room.

"Please be ok," I silently begged. "Please."

The next day…

"James, we just got a call," Logan said, shaking me awake. After not being able to sleep until 5:30 this morning and it being only 7:00, I was too tired to care.

"Take a message," I mumbled.

"It's from the hospital!"

"I don't want to hear it," I hissed.

"Yes, you do."

"No, I really don't. Go away, Logan."

"James…Serenity's gone."

:O :O :O So sad so sad :( Poor James.. One more chapter! I hope you enjoyed! Review please :)