Arcin; Sigh…

Happy; Whats wrong?

Arcin; Nothing much really… I'm just bored, busy, and have a lack of inspiration at that moment.

Happy; What does that mean for us?

Arcin; Nothing your fine… My friend told me I shouldn't worry about it but I can't help it, not many people leave reviews, favourites, followers, or really any readers too (not like I have any power over those things anyways) and it makes me sadden as an author an question myself and if the stories any good.

Happy; Don't be sad.

Arcin; It's nothing too new for me… but don't worry I'll keep working on the story I don't give up on things like this. I will just probably update less that's all.

Happy; Arcin does not own Fairy Tail or it's character's. She only owns her own characters. Please Review, on to chapter 19.

Fears and Decisions

Chapter 19

(Zara's POV)

I awoke my head foggy. A massive headache, I couldn't remember what I dreamed about it was that bad. I was covered in sweat. 'Damn it! It's close what am I going to do?! I hate how I can't remember the dream!' I growled.

I got up and splashed my face, I looked in the mirror and lifted my lip, my canine were sharper then last night proving it, my eye's gaining the, blood red colour to my normally perfect amber (gold) coloured eye's, my nails significantly longer.

"Great, I'm just going to the guild... After getting changed!" I exclaimed.

I wore a strapless red shirt, a black skirt with the bottom white, black boots that goes to my knees and a robe that did up at the neck the hood hid my face, and head in turn, the robe completely hid myself, it had sleeves. Attached to my side was a small bag that I filled with a few things. On the belt I wore my D-gear was attached to it.

I went to the guild and saw people working on the place Mira noticed me though, I looked at her, then took of my hood. "Oh hi Zara!" Mira gasped.

"I'll just have a soothing tea, I had a bad night." I sighed. "You sore?!" she asked. "No the medicine is still in effect, it's something else." I muttered.

Things got blurry, I almost fainted. I put my head on the counter. An the tea was put down, I jumped then saw it was the tea. I that taking a ship when I got another spell of dizziness. Let go of the cup a bit stopped it but before it hit the ground I stopped it.

"That was close. Sorry!" I sighed. But I decided not to bother them about it. "I'm going out!" I muttered. I was walking away when again I had another spell but this time fell.

(Natsu's POV)

I was at the guild hall (in the guild hall thats being rebuilt) when the person with the cloak came in and I knew it was Zara. (He's for some reason familiar with her sent now), but something was off so he watched.

He noticed that her eyes went fuzzy and after the second time left be feel not far out of the guild hall. Lucy ran over to her Levy and Mira fallowed.

"I'm not sure what's wrong!" Levy whispered. "We can't leave her alone though, or take her too far." Mira exclaimed. "Me, Natsu and Happy can take her home, Leaf and Aria out at the moment, so, they asked us to make sure that Zara in her weaken state didn't really kill herself, we'll watch her I guess!" Lucy exclaimed.

"I guess but take Gray and Erza with you!" Gramps told her, who went over we he heard something happen. "Right! I'll carry her" The ice cube told gramps.

"No! I'll take her!" Erza exclaimed. "No I should! I now the way to her house and are better friends with her then ice princess over there!" I huffed.

(Lucy's POV)

I couldn't believe they got in an argument over who was going to take her to her house. Zara actually moved a made I small wine similar to a injured wolf or a hurt dog or a lost puppy.

I looked at her a tear was running down her cheek. "I lost my siblings, my friends, and there family. My squad members, my allies, my cosines, Xena, Jade... I saw death, I've killed, allies, friends, killed. One of my childhood friend's dead body... And his parents, d-dragged out by the dime-invaders. But where's Kai?! Blaze?! Elise..." A whisper she was still asleep talking in her sleep, than went silent, she was tensed up. I rubbed her head and she calmed down.

"I'll choose who takes her, Natsu you'll take her you know the way and the fast you get her home the better!" Master huffed it seems he heard what she said, so Natsu must have as well.

"Poor Zara! Lushi Why's she on the ground?" Happy asked. "She passed out." I answered. Happy was in my arm and we left.

"So where's her friends?" Gray asked. "They have a job so they had to go. But the problem is that now that their enemies know they're in the area, and weak at the time, they, wanted someone to watch her till their back." I answered.

"A weaker state could that be what's wrong with her?" Erza sighed. "I don't know, they never really told us what would happen." I answered I looked over at Natsu carrying Zara.

"But what I know is she's afraid of trust, letting others in I known that something must have happened to her." I sighed. "Well we'll help its smart to have more help in something like this." Gray told me. "We'll keep her safe together." Erza exclaimed as if it was her mission to do this.

(Natsu's POV)

I could hear what they were saying I'm not to sure about ice prick, and the she-devil I'll admit will be help but I know I could do this with only Lucy and Happy. I was carrying Zara bridal style, as we went to her house, when she grabbed my arm.

"Even the best need help sometimes." She muttered. I looked at her, and realized that her nails started to dig into my arm, she was trembling. 'I wonder what she's dreaming about that makes her so afraid?' I muttered, and she went closer to my chest.

"I can't let any more friends die!" She mumbled. I was surprised what she said. 'She's lost people. That's why she doesn't trust anyone, but the fact that people die around her… she doesn't want to see any more. The poor girl I wonder what she's had to go through?' I sighed which was really out of character for me… I just hope the others don't find out about this.

"Are we going the right way flame brian the towns that way!" Ice prick huffed. "Yes! Just shut up!" I growled, as I slide down the cliff. "It's the beach are you sure?" Erza asked. I went over to the cave.

"Yeah we're here." Lucy told them and I went into the cave. "This is her house?!" Erza gasped at where it was. "Yeah know come on there's a couch, we can wait we'll Natsu puts Zara in her room." Happy exclaimed.

I went over and put Zara to her bedroom. She had a look of sadness and fear on her. "I can't sleep in clothes Kai! Help me out pleaze." She whined obviously half asleep.

'I have to undress her!' I gasped a blush couldn't help but creep up, I had to undress a girl… this is not right. "Kai! Come on where childhood friends... No need to be embarrassed! It's happen before, I think…" She hiccuped.

I helped her get her shirt off and thank Mavis that she took the pants off herself not making anything more weird. 'Please don't anyone walk in or hear this!' I pleaded since this was getting really bad for me.

I couldn't help but notice all the scars she had all over her as I pulled the covers over top of her.

"Kai… I know him… some how… and we were friends… what else about him do I remember?!" She muttered. As I was leaving I heard something. "Don't leave me again I don't want to be alone..." She coughs before putting her head down, on the pillow.

I went back over to where the others where. "See he's back!" Luce huffed. "What are we going to do now?" Gray asked. "We can't leave her she it totally out of it right now!" I told them. They looked at me confused at the comment I just made.

"W-were just going to stay here that's the point. N-not about what happened." I stuttered thinking about it. "If we're staying where do we sleep?" Luce sighed.

"There's one more bed and I'd think Zara would have some kind of sleeping arrangements." Erza exclaimed. "We can go ask!" Gray exclaimed.

We went to Zara who was sleeping, the others had me wake her up. 'You guys are jerks.' I growled then shook Zara awake she almost killed me for doing that.

"What?" she asked. "We wanted to know if you had anything so we could stay here and keep a eye on you." ice princess told her and she let go of my shirt then sighed. "Alright the belt I wore pass me the item thats clipped onto it." she sighed, Happy got it and gave it to her.

(No One's POV)

She was one the d-gear for a minute then pressed a button and sheets, pillows, and things that looked like sleeping bags appeared she got up. "Do you want any help?" Erza asked, she shook her head. The blanket that was covering her fell and showed her in her under ware and bra.

"Zara." Lucy exclaimed pointed at the sheets, she realized what she meant picked up the sheets and wrapped them around her. She walked the living room and pulled off the couch cushions.

"What are you doing?" Happy asked her. "Getting out a third bed." she sighed and a bed appeared. she lifted the hand and some of the covers that she appeared and the bed was made.

"There's sleeping bags, extra sheets, and pillow I do not care where you sleep." she huffed walking towards her room. "There's a kitchen, another room with the food is in the kitchen... Don't eat all my food!" She huffed, she then went to her room got into bed and fell asleep.

The placing was odd and random. Natsu, Lucy and Happy in with Zara to keep a close watch on her and Lucy was there to watch Happy and Natsu. Gray was in the living room on the pull out couch, Erza Leaf's room. The door closed when it was night, Natsu beside Zara in the bed Lucy on the other side Happy at there heads.

Zara was close to Natsu since the night was cold tonight and as a fire dragon slayer He gave off heat. The girl was slowly changing into her demon form but they haven't noticed yet since nothing major has changed. But why is this happening you ask? You'll find out soon enough!

Time skip~the next morning

(Zara's POV)

I woke up early in a start. 'Ugh again?!' I grain hold in my hand on my face covering my left eye my fore fingers (pointer and middle) on my forehead, then my ring and pinky opened letting me see through them.

My hair was all over the place. 'I hate this! It's tomorrow night then... I hate this time! What was I dreaming about any ways?!' I huffed. Every time I can't remember my dreams when it gets close, it's always a blur.

'I remember bits of yesterday, I was weak for the day before, I burnt out, but I do remember mumbling something... Of people! Yeah... But who? I must have known them before this, what where their names and who are they to me? For me to mutter their names even though I don't remember them.' I sighed looking at the ceiling above me.

I looked around I saw Happy and Lucy on my left side, I smiled it was kinda cute the way they were. I then looked on my other side and saw Natsu. I jumped out of bed with out disturbing anything. 'God that sacred me! They took me home I think Gray and Erza was with them as well. I should get dressed.' I sighed, I got some clothes out then went to the washroom and got changed.

I put in new under ware and bra on. I pulled out a long black dress the had only one strap that hid my scar on my shoulder I then put on a pair of short shorts on underneath (what it's my style… and when your a fighter you want shorts on… when it's not a formal reason). I had sox on not putting my shoes on till later.

I looked in the mirror, I saw my ears I was between human and demon. My ears pointed ears a mix between blood red and Amber (gold), claws longer, fangs too. I was fine with this

I fixed my hair then left the room. I had my guitar and went to the living room. I saw Gray in there so I moved him to the hallway of my room. I got my guitar on my lap and started to play. I was humming a little tune.

I played a rift that few can play with easy. That the last played here and most like first was at a concert by Dagrun AKA me.

I put the guitar down an went in the kitchen to make breakfast for everyone. I made omelet, bacon, and taking the spreads out with me.

I got the table the in living room appeared, then the plates that I was levitating went on to the table forks, knives and spoons, then the food that was floating on the plate down and got Happy's meal, I then pulled out chairs.

I started to play again, but made sure that the food would stay hidden and the right heat like it was just made. "Morning." Lucy greeted me. "Morning I you too!" I exclaimed, and continued to play. "So you can play" she exclaimed.

"Yep! It's fun it's a feeling of freedom that I never feel. Even though I can go anywhere any time it's for my job, so freedom I kind like a illusion some times. So my music is my escape from my cage of life it's a great feeling." I exclaimed.

"Do you know how to get them up?" I asked. "Well I'm up." Erza sighed. "I here foo so I got up." Natsu and Happy exclaimed. "I was stepped on." Gray groaned glaring at Natsu, I giggled knowing what that meant.

"Anyways lets get on to breakfast!" I laughed. "What?!" everyone but Lucy exclaimed, I grind. I snapped my finger and the table with the food appeared. "I made it earlier this morning before you got up. You stayed over at house to help me, to say thanks for your help I made breakfast for us!" I exclaimed.

"Really?! Thanks Zara." They told me. "Just eat!" I exclaimed I sat down and started to eat. The other sat beside me. I finished first and went to my bedroom. I couldn't help but look in the mirror.

"Why does it have to come tomorrow night?! Stupid thing! What am I going to do?!" I growled. But I heard someone and stopped talking about it. "Hey Zara are you coming back out soon?" I heard. "Yeah!" I exclaimed then went back out.

"When your done, tell me I'll clean up!" I told them, and sat on the floor. 'I see your here, is there a problem!' Someone asked, I opened my eyes (without actually opening my eyes). It was a dark area I was in.

"You how?! Ugh... I only see you when I see the vision and once and awhile there! Why am I seeing you now?!" I growled. "I know the closing moon is coming soon, you know you'll be stuck for 2 weeks this time." She huffed. "I know of the closing moon Iris, why do you even bother me I don't even know you!" I howled. "That's not true and you know it!" She growled face to face with me.

"Hey we're done now." Lucy told me. I fully opened my eyes to real world. "Alright I'll quickly clean up." I sighed getting up and used super speed to get it done fast.

"Alright done let go to the guild alright!" I exclaimed. I left throwing a hood over myself. "Hey Zara yesterday you muttered about losing people do you remember anything?" Natsu asked.

"No nothing hearing that and trying to remember it's just haze." I sighed as I walked. I conutined to think as we walked but I went to talk to Lucy. "Hey Lucy how are you?" I asked.

"I'm fine." She answered. "Do you not like the way it is between me and Natsu?" I whispered. "No! He's my friend why would I!" She exclaimed.

"Just asking I was wondering how you would react. Me and Natsu are friend, and can be nothing more... It's too dangerous for a normal person, and saddening for them as well as my kind, and I mean as a dimensional. You don't get to see each other, much my grandparents have a hard time he has to keep his distance for her though an she knows it and why…" I whispered thinking of it makes my give a small smile.

"The people of Haven are different then the ones of other dimensions, in Haven the curse has no effect like in Aria's dimension, the underworld is the same way." I sighed walking but I stopped talking, after I said that.

After that I got back to helping but heard Mira say that the board is now open again. I saw Loki, and went over to him.

"Zara! Why are you here?" He asked his voice a little weak. "Loki your getting weaker, I could at least help to make sure you don't die yet, I can help but I don't have much time so please are you going to let yourself disappears." I sighed.

"I already told you Zara. My answers no! I've lasted this long I just want to disappear." He muttered, leaving me. "That idiot! I could've help him." I mumbled at the fact he wouldn't take my help.

I went over to Mira at the bar. "What do you need Zara?" She asked. I've been think about this for awhile and I finally decided my answer after so long, I have finally come to this conclusion...

Lucy; What's her final decision?

Happy; What is it?

Zara; Yeah what is it?

Arcin; Stupid you should know this!

Zara; Oh! Right!

Arcin; You guys will find out in the next chapter.

Natsu; Why did you add so many weird scenes?

Arcin; Because I can.

Natsu; Haven't you noticed that Arcin's been very sad, and quite?

Lucy; Yeah but I don't know what to do. Or why.

Zara; With her it could be a few things.

Arcin; I'm fine…

Yeah I'm calling it a day hope you like chapter 19. Please review… See you in chapter 20.